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Jamie gets up from where he’d slipped and fallen in the rain wet synthetic grass and tries again.
And again. Again. Again. And again.
Until the pain ebbs away and just numbness remains and he gets this weird disconnection from his suffering, like he’s really a star – hanging in the sky watching a hopeless boy running and he doesn’t quite know if he’s real anymore – maybe he’s never been.
But he has to be better. Has to shine and be good at the only thing he’s ever been decent at.
Because his mummy said it like a fact: Jamie Tartt, you’re a star. And he doesn’t have the heart to tell her he’s only the summation of his parts.
Jamie is his father's son.
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or - Jamie Tartt character study - loosely following the series plot and focusing on Jamies struggle with depression and self harm.
WARNING: READ THE TAGS - Dead dove: do not eat
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I talked to God, But he did not look like you (so he must be a fraud) by panic_in_our_bones
Fandoms: Goncharov (1973) dir. Martin Scorsese - beelzeebub
24 Jun 2025
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Sometimes when the night grew extraordinarily dark and the loneliness between all the bodies surrounding him, gnawed at him like a hungry dog Andrey liked to imagine what could have been.
He envisioned how the quick glances and hurried touches from back in the cold of Moscow and now in the sweet summer days in Neaple would grow. Grow into a beautiful flower, deadly with only a sniff.
Those thoughts were rotten apples from Eden. One tiny bite would doom them both, condemn them to hell, but oh if hell were shared with that man, heaven would not hold anything desirable for Andrey.
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Or Andrey and Goncharov are bad at feelings but adore each other very much and get together in the end, even if it means their death.
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Bloody Echo of the Past by panic_in_our_bones
Fandoms: Star Wars: The Clone Wars (2008) - All Media Types, Star Wars - All Media Types, Star Wars
13 Apr 2025
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The hands of the commander of the coruscant guard shook.
His fingers hadn’t trembled as he pulled the trigger. The plasma bolt hit his target dead centre. As always. CC-1010 had always been an exceptional clone.
Things were different now.
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This is a darker fic!Fives is dead and Fox is his murderer. Thorn is -. Fox is alone.
Late at night at a bar Fox is approached by a stranger who searches revenge for a dead brother.Series
- Part 3 of Commander Fox is (not) okay
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Burning to ashes as he waits for the sun to love him by panic_in_our_bones
Fandoms: Star Wars: Clone Wars (2003) - All Media Types, Star Wars: The Clone Wars (2008) - All Media Types
05 Oct 2024
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Sometimes, as the war dragged on and the bodies piled on and on, and Fox stood hight ontop of their unmoving corpses did he cling to the memory buried in his heart like a drowning man to a lifeline. Like the memory of the sound was the only thing keeping him afloat. The clear sound of the sun laughing kept him sane, kept him from getting pulled under the crashing waves.
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Fox gets dropped into the hell that is Coruscant and the only thing keeping him right is Thorn. Good that Thorn will never leave him. They had promised to wait for each other after all. Right. Right?Series
- Part 1 of Commander Fox is (not) okay
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Blood Red, Corrie red by panic_in_our_bones
Fandoms: Star Wars: The Clone Wars (2008) - All Media Types, Star Wars: Clone Wars (2003) - All Media Types
03 Apr 2024
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Fox gets beaten up pretty bad, gets shot and he feels crappy, but he never forgets to take care of his brothers.
or Fox is falling apart trying to keep the guard together, whump and ultimatly fluff ensures
or I love to make Fox suffer (I love him very much, thank you)
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- Part 2 of Commander Fox is (not) okay
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Commander Fox is (not) okay by panic_in_our_bones
Fandom Star Wars, Star Wars - All Media Types, Star Wars: Clone Wars (2003) - All Media Types, Star Wars: The Clone Wars (2008) - All Media Types
13 Apr 2025
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After the events of Finger Patrol, Larry is not doing okay. Thank goodness he's not alone.
I wrote this after watching Space Patrol so nothing that happens after that influenced this story.
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14 Jan 2026
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Lithium is the lightest metal found on Earth. It is so light, it can float on water. In its natural state, it is soft and silvery-white. Illya takes it in tablet format, dyed pink and pressed into little rounds that contain three hundred milligrams each.
Illya learns how to let himself feel.
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02 Jan 2026
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What does it mean to be a hero?
That’s the question Herm’s pondered since he was a kid. For the longest time he’s always wanted to be a hero. Do something good in the world. But words not said and a traumatic event send him into a spiral downward pondering a different question.
Am I cut out to be a hero?
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25 Dec 2025
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The Z-Team notices Waterboy's been a little off since the start of winter. Nobody ever said they were the smartest bunch.
Both constantly drenched and overflowing with water, Herman had always been sensitive to temperature changes. The temperature is dropping and Waterboy just can't keep warm.
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25 Dec 2025
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What We Owe Each Other (Patient Number 10) by Hennski
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
11 Jan 2026
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Ten years after graduation, Aaron works as an emergency doctor in Charleston while his twin Andrew has gone pro, living with his partner Neil in Columbia. Beyond occasional texts, they haven't managed to get any closer than they were in college.
A routine 24-hour Saturday shift becomes anything but when a John Doe with severe head trauma arrives. As Aaron fights to save him, too many details align, reminding him of a certain number 10 striker he once knew.OR
"Aaron." Andrew's sharp voice forced him to focus. "What are you doing here?"
Aaron turned to face his brother. Tried to find words.
Andrew's eyes narrowed at the lack of response. "Where's Neil?"The question hit like a physical blow. "What?"
"Neil." Andrew's hands clenched into fists. "He's in Charleston for some media thing with his team. You work in Charleston. You're still wearing your badge." His breathing started to shallow. "It's 6:30 in the morning. We don't do surprise visits, hell we don't even do any visits. Yet you felt the need to drive two hours to see me at dawn, right after your shift. So I'll ask one more time. Where is Neil?"
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14 Dec 2025