13 Bookmarks by phaedras25

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    selbindery (on ao3 and instagram!) has fic bound this series and it is so, so wonderful, please go check out their beautiful work of art here! (fic binding is only ever acceptable for personal use! do not attempt to sell or monetize fanfiction!)

    This series is marked as complete and maybe it is, but I might return for the occasional in-universe one-shot, so feel free to subscribe if you're interested!

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    12 Jul 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 2344

    Mystery Work

    Part of Private Archive
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    This is part of an ongoing challenge and will be revealed soon!

    09 Jul 2026

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    Shane Hollander meets Ilya Rozanov on his twenty-fourth birthday at The Ice Palace, the gay club where Ilya works as a bartender. Shane has never been to a gay club before, and never been with a man before. He's shocked that it's seemingly this easy to pick up a shirtless, Russian bartender, with the most beautiful lips he's ever seen. That was the point of coming to the club, as a test of his homosexuality, but Shane leaves, alone, unsure as to whether he passed or failed.

    Ilya passed. He passed Shane a secret birthday message on a cocktail napkin. Shane doesn't know what it says, but he knows it's special. He doesn't know this meeting, that message, and a birthday gift that was already late will change his life either. He'll never spend another birthday alone though. Ilya will make sure of that.

    Set in the 1980's... and I promise there's a happy ending
    This is an EXPLICIT story for adults only.
    COMPLETE

    Human made 100%

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    Chapters:
    34/34
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    04 Jul 2026

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    A cancer diagnosis forces Shane and Ilya to stop pretending they have time. They don’t slowly fall into each other—they crash into it, trying to make up for seven years of almosts and what-ifs. But illness doesn’t magically fix who they are. The same walls, fears, and habits that kept them apart are still there—only now they have to face them while fighting something much bigger than themselves.

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    Chapters:
    37/37
    Comments:
    1,616
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    3,584
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    23 Jun 2026

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    Ilya’s brows quirked again, and he flicked open the first page of the textbook, ‘and you decided to learn Russian now because...?’

    ‘Because I married a Russian man, and I figured it was about time I learned.’

    ‘You never learned with me.’ Ilya said.

    ‘No.’ Shane replied, tersely, ‘there was a lot I never did with you.’

    Or: After Shane's college relationship ends in heartbreak, he patches up his wounds by marrying a wealthy older man, and he's so sure his life is perfect. That is, until his ex re-enters the picture, and he wonders if maybe he got it all wrong.

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    Chapters:
    13/13
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    1,868
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    3,903
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    137,252

    22 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander can handle twenty thousand screaming fans, high-stakes games, and the kind of pressure that never really lets up.

    He cannot, however, handle preschool drop-off.

    Fortunately, Teacher Ilya can.

    (It involves a stuffed bunny, a city with no mayor, and maybe something more.)

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    Chapters:
    24/24
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    946
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    2,955
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    14 Jun 2026

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    After the Tuna Meltdown, his good friend Rose Landry introduces Shane to Chappell Roan. Shane is then recorded crashing out while singing Casual and Ilya reacts to watching the video.

    The real-world timeline for this makes zero sense, but we are just going to all pretend that Chappell released this song like a decade early, okay? okay.

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    1/1
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    40
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    1,290
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    25 May 2026

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    Vegas, MLH Awards, 2014: Ilya Rozanov wins MVP and decides to make Shane Hollander experience Vegas.

    Boston, November, 2016: Ilya calls Shane his husband while making him a tuna melt. Weeks later he's traded to New York.

    New York, March, 2017: Scott Hunter is forced to realize he is incredibly fond of Ilya Rozanov, and knowing what he does, Shane Hollander is on really fucking thin ice.

    or: the fic where Ilya and Shane get married in 2014 and Ilya is forced to care about Scott when he's traded to New York in 2016. So he noticed things. And he's there, on the ice, when Scott kisses Kip for the whole world to see.

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    36,146
    Chapters:
    16/16
    Comments:
    1,686
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    5,636
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    101,399

    22 Apr 2026

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    Ilya crouched down until he was at eye level with Shane.

    He reached out and brushed his hand along Shane’s jaw gently. Shane’s eyes fluttered closed as he leaned into Ilya’s touch.

    Ilya watched it happen, how it was so instinctive… the same way Shane always softened immediately under his hands or when in his presence.

    “You’re so responsive for me, Shane,” he murmured, lifting Shane’s chin slightly to face him. Shane slowly opened his eyes to look at him.

    Ilya leaned in, bringing their faces close enough that he could feel the hot air from Shane’s breath.

    “So tell me something,” Ilya said quietly. “Does Hayden ever get to see you like this?”

    “Or is he just playing with my property?”

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    OR: Hayden finds Shane after the MLH Awards in Vegas where Ilya left him sub dropped & hurting. Hayden makes Shane feel better and the lines between their friendship get blurred. Ilya gets incredibly jealous and fights to win him back. They all end up hurting until they learn how to communicate.

    There are both Shayden & Hollanov spicy scenes but *no threesomes* - This fic gets VERY messy and toxic but has a happy Hollanov ending!

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    Chapters:
    30/30
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    09 Apr 2026

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    16 Mar 2026

  11. Public Bookmark 16770

    Mystery Work

    Part of OA Private
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    This is part of an ongoing challenge and will be revealed soon!

    08 Mar 2026

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    “We could…be friends, maybe.” Shane’s voice was small, hesitant on almost every sound.

    “Wha–” Ilya’s reply was less of a word and more of a stupid, confused noise like he’d been punched. A punch probably would’ve caught him less off guard than what Shane actually said.

    “Y’know, text about the hockey gossip? You call, I answer? Friends.”

    Something terrifyingly bright exploded into Ilya’s chest. Something dangerous, that felt like maybe it could keep him warm through the summer in Russia, through the chill that permeated his childhood home no matter how warm it was outside.

    “And also we like to suck each other’s dicks,” he quipped, trying to deflect.

    “Fuck off, Rozanov.”

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    Drunk and young and stupid, Shane and Ilya choose to be honest - just a little bit. To lean into each other, instead of apart. What happens if they choose to be a little bit brave on a Vegas rooftop in 2011, and keep choosing it?

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    07 Mar 2026

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    “No one is going to kill me. Except maybe you,” says Ilya, sprawling in the chair across from her. “I didn't need any of the other bodyguards and I don't need this one.”

    “You're going to have to talk to him sooner or later.” Svetlana turns her attention back to Hollander. “Ilya doesn't take the threats against him seriously.”

    “He's not my first client to feel that way,” he says. He has brown eyes and freckles, a spray of them across the bridge of his nose. “Can you tell me more about the threats?”

    “Of course.” She gestures to the chair next to Ilya and pulls out a binder for Hollander. “He came out as bisexual last year and the threats started not long after.”

    “I receive a lot of good mail too,” says Ilya. “DMs, letters, even photos. Very nice ones.”

    “The binder for dick pics you've gotten is ten times as thick,” says Svetlana. Ilya opens his mouth to crack another joke, but she holds up her hand. “Yes, yes, like your dick. Get some new material.”

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    Ilya retired from hockey and became a model. His agent thinks he needs a bodyguard. Enter Shane Hollander.

    Language:
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    32,058
    Chapters:
    7/?
    Comments:
    311
    Kudos:
    1,201
    Bookmarks:
    340
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    22,862

    06 Mar 2026

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