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  1. Public Bookmark 24

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    An is so loved. And she knows that. But sometimes it feels like being kept in a tiny jewellery box, like a little china ballerina that spins and spins on command and aches for the applause that comes after, but is always put back on the shelf when things spill out of her container. When they think it'll be too much for her to hold.

    “When did you know,” she says abruptly, clumsily, forgetting it's meant to be a question. Mid-sentence, Haruka trails off, and their circle falls back to that tense, brittle quiet. Mizuki shifts, looking away.

    “Know what? That I was a lesbian?” says Haruka.

    “I guess so,” An replies, even if she’s not sure that’s what she was asking. “Yeah.”

    “Well, what about you?” Ena prompts, attempting a smile. “At some point you just figure it out, right?”

    “Do you?” says An, far too needily.

    She flicks back through a mental rolodex of all the times she's thought well, maybe and finds a big fat nothing; no moment of certainty.

    During an ad-hoc sleepover, An comes to a couple of realisations.

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    28 Jun 2025

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    ough (positive). really good. asexual an save me.

  2. Public Bookmark 9

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    The world calls the mask you wear beautiful only because they can't see the face below it. That's something both Soyo and Uika know well.

    A follow-up/spinoff to A Light Year In Centimeters

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    07 Jun 2025

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    hatsune misumi dog moments feat. soyo nagasaki

  3. Public Bookmark 2

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    It's painful, staring at her. The shadows cast behind me are enough to swallow me whole. Yet in the face of that light...

    Two dogs will have their day.

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    26 Feb 2025

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    explosion explosion explosion explosion. yet another banger from ao3 user divinenoodles. abcd are so much (slash positive). god bless.

  4. Public Bookmark 13

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    She wonders if Alonso can actual see the echoes of his Family in them, but she doesn't want to ask him that either. There's no point when the mirror already reflects it plainly for them all.

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    15 Nov 2024

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    dulcinea!rodya in the brain... this one makes me want to eat a rock (this is positive)

  5. Public Bookmark 2

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    There was a tension in her shoulders no amount of stretching could get rid of. It was making her words more sparse, terse when they came out. No conversation was taking off, any exchange slowly petered out. She was conscious of it. She was all too aware of it. All too aware of the other person in the room with her.

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    14 Nov 2024

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    eimi azai when i catch you... the character voices and story tone are so fitting for abcd i love love love love!!!