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“Well.” Ten lifts his chin, haughty, defiant. “I’m here now, aren’t I?”
He’s here now in a rural area of China bordering Tibet with no work, no cats, no distractions. He’s here now, trying to figure out why it still feels like Kun is lying to him. He’s here now with Kun. For Kun.
I missed you, Kun had said, even when they were an arm’s length apart. That part, Ten thinks, is true. And suddenly, and even though he’d been thinking about its impossibility, about its ridiculousness, all Ten can think is I missed you, too.
Maybe Kun senses it. Maybe he doesn’t. Either way, Kun looks at him for as long as he dares to keep his eyes off the road, and Ten sees an expression he doesn't recognise cross his face before Kun turns away, eyes fixed firmly ahead.
“Yeah,” Kun says. “Yeah, you are.”
(or: Kun and Ten make it to Sichuan after all.)
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25 Mar 2025
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"Jaemin met God the first time when he was thirteen. He came in the form of a blessing; of a young boy."
Or, hidden in the looming walls of the catholic school, while the moonlight is beaming through the stained glass and where all that Jaemin could see were Chenle's sharp features in the soft, purplish hue, two young boys find each other. And with that, they find a home, a warm and welcoming place: something that no one could ever take away.
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27 Feb 2025
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Donghyuck has always wanted what he can never seem to have: money, an easier job, his boss’ sugar baby —to name a few.
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24 Jul 2023
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If Renjun wants to be a mature adult, the reason for why he and Chenle grew apart is simply time. If Renjun doesn't want to be a mature adult, however, then the answer is Mark.
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30 May 2023
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To manage the pain of an unrequited crush on a week-long ski trip, Chenle enlists the help of Jaemin for a fake, almost-but-not-quite relationship, since they're the only two in the group with no risk of the feelings becoming real. It's a stupid idea, but Jaemin has always had issues saying no —especially to Chenle.
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18 May 2023
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Heartbreaking: The Worst Person You Know Is Actually More Than Half Decent In Bed. Logistically, it’s a great mix. Donghyuck will begrudgingly admit that Jaemin is easy on the eyes—even if he’s got the personality of barbed wire.
It’s a match made in hell. It’s kind of perfect.
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29 Mar 2023
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When he’s shooting, Donghyuck thinks about nothing else but the subject and his art. It’s like the whole world vanishes, narrowing down to the pinpoint that is just his camera, and Jaemin. Nothing else matters in that fleeting moment of serenity.
But when it’s over, then Donghyuck is forced to confront the truth. When the barrier of his camera is gone and all that is left is the open plane between them, just a couple of steps before he hits Jaemin’s warm body, Donghyuck is left with the unshakeable knowledge that nothing will ever be as beautiful to him as Jaemin.
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24 Mar 2023
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a serial killer, a writer and a cop walk into a bar...
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09 Mar 2023
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The rules are simple: Whatever this is, whatever nebulous thing it is they define in the secret of their own minds, it doesn't happen when they're home. They don't even acknowledge it, not until they land in a different country, not until their feet touch the ground in a brand new place.
And that's it.
That's all.
And this... thing with Johnny - it's just another set of rules. And Mark can handle them.
Until it comes time to leave Japan.
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02 Mar 2023
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Kun looks up and down at him, and says, in a tone that Jeno will never forget, “I think you just need someone to tell you what to do. Have someone else in control for a change.”
And that's how it starts.
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- Part 5 of author’s favourites
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01 Mar 2023
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And Jaemin doesn’t like Donghyuck but… God, if he doesn’t love the way Donghyuck fucks.
It’s irresistible, even to someone who hates him.
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- Part 4 of author’s favourites
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19 Feb 2023
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Doyoung had never mentioned it to Jeno.
That he’d been the one to fuck Donghyuck first.
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18 Feb 2023
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jeno shakes his head. “they’re just friends, though.”
donghyuck cackles. “you’re so fucking oblivious if you think that.”
he wishes he was as oblivious as he pretends to be. he wishes he hadn’t spent the last six years of his life watching renjun be in love with mark.
jeno can draw renjun and mark’s history better than he can his own. he feels sometimes that he’s not a full person because he has spent so much of his life inside of someone else’s.
he will be with the group, with his best friends in the world, and instead of being an active participant in the building of their history, he instead feels like an alien sent to them to report back to his home planet on what love looks like, cursed to never experience it himself.
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13 Feb 2023
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31 Jan 2023
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They communicate best like this: Jaemin with his roaming hands and Donghyuck with his practiced tongue. Their relationship is best summed up by all the things that they don’t say.
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28 Jan 2023
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Mystery Work
Part of archivecomplex
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This is part of an ongoing challenge and will be revealed soon!
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24 Jan 2023
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The last time they are seen in public together, it is on purpose. Papparazzis are told to be on the corner, cameras ready. A stylist picks what they’ll be wearing, makes their hair look unpurposefully disheveled, hands over designer sunglasses to mask their eyes. They’re given props, too, a lukewarm iced coffee and an Erewhon shopping bag. The script is sent to them the night before with notes. Don’t cry. Remember to be loud. Don’t rehearse too much. Try to look and sound as natural as possible.
It’s all planned. The time they walk out of the store, Renjun walking steps ahead.
Mark calling after him, “Let me explain!”
Renjun whipping around to shout, “I don’t give a fuck what you have to say!”
Mark looking around, pretending to realize they're being watched. Reaching for Renjun’s hand, Renjun pulling back.
“We’re done,” Renjun will say, remembering the words on the page in his head. “It’s over.”
SEQUEL TO 'NOW IT'S REALLY CLEAR TO ME, YOU COULD DO A LITTLE DAMAGE'
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- Part 2 of I'M ABOUT TO CRASH
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23 Jan 2023
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sorry for what i said in our social research class by ouchsolo for NominNoodles
Fandoms: NCT (Band)
05 Apr 2022
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All Jeno does is make him feel horrible, rile him up to the point of no return and burrow beneath his skin like a putrid botfly. Nothing about Jeno is welcoming or steady or warm, but Jaemin is so fucking sick in the head that he thinks he likes that about him. Still, telling him no, lying and saying he wants to stop is the right thing to do here, because neither of them deserve to be used.
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11 Jan 2023
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Perhaps seeing someone again after they’ve broken you into a million fragments of yourself, held together only by craft glue and newspaper strips like some sort of crude paper mache, is enough to set anyone on edge. Jeno is no exception.
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23 Nov 2022
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It starts like this:
Jaemin asks Jeno to sing him a lullaby, and instead Jeno howls like a dog in front of everyone.
To the group it’s funny, silly even, but to Jaemin it’s a betrayal, because Jeno’s only supposed to be a good boy for him.
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- Part 1 of keep your boys on a leash
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13 Nov 2022