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    Ilya knows that, between him and Shane, he's the more affectionate of the two. He's not sure if it's because he's from Europe, where everyone greets each other with a hug and a kiss on the cheek, or if it's because he grew up so starved for love and affection that he can't do anything except show Shane how much he loves him at any chance that he has.

    So, yes, he knows that he's the one most likely to kiss Shane on the cheek when he skates by him at practice or come up behind Shane when he's cooking dinner just to wrap his arms around him or fall on top of Shane while he's reading on the couch, desperate to have his skin touching Shane's.

    But, Shane… Shane loves Ilya differently. It's quieter. More intentional.

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    Or, five times that Shane loved Ilya in his quiet way, and one time that he loved Ilya loudly.

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    08 Jan 2026

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    It… it was a joke, right? A weird prank? Hollander and Rozanov… It didn’t make any sense. They hated each other! They had nothing in common! It couldn’t be real. And even if it was, it couldn’t be love, right?

    Or: five times the world got a glimpse of how much Shane and Ilya love each other and one time they kept it to themselves

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    06 Jan 2026

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    Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov play on the same team in college. However, for some inexplicable reason, Rozanov seems to hate Hollander's guts. Little does Hollander know that the one whose been leaving him love notes in his stall has been Rozanov all along.

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    06 Jan 2026

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    Shane is the one naked and dripping wet, and he still feels like Ilya is the one who exudes sex. Just standing there, brushing his teeth. When Shane turns off the water, Ilya hands him a towel and then turns around to rinse his mouth with the hotel mouth wash. He leaves the bathroom before Shane is done, and this is the moment where a tiny inkling Shane has ignored all day becomes a full blown suspicion.

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    Shane and Ilya are having trouble balancing their very private relationship and their very public lives.

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    05 Jan 2026

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    “When are you going to invite me to stay?”

    Shane coughed. “I don’t know. I’ve been pretty busy with, uh… the charity, and the camp, and all the planning. It hasn’t been very relaxing.” It wasn’t a total lie. He had been working on the charity with Ilya and with his mom, and he was keeping pretty busy. It just wasn’t all work that he was busy with. A lot of it was he and Ilya making up for lost time, putting the shower pressure to good use, losing their clothes in every room and making a game out of finding them when it was time to do laundry. They had a score sheet. Shane was winning.

    Rose seemed to accept that excuse, and she talked for a little bit longer until Shane maneuvered his way off the call. Then, and only then, did he turn to look at Ilya. “Sorry about that,” he said, but Ilya only shrugged.

    “Is fine.” He put down his glass of water. “You should do it.”

    Shane was distracted by the way Ilya reached around his waist to pull food out of the pan and put it, still hot, into his mouth. After a beat too long, he asked, “Do what?”

    “Invite Rose Landry to the cottage,” Ilya said, like it was no big deal.

    (what it says on the tin)

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    05 Jan 2026

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    Ilya, a vampire, and Shane, a vampire hunter, are doomed to be mortal enemies due to their nature. And yet, as their paths keep crossing, they find out that they might get to write their own story.

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    03 Jan 2026

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    Shane gets added to the Ottawa Centaurs WAG group chat and gets the support network he didn't know he needed.

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    03 Jan 2026

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    Ilya died, yes, but then the doctors saved him. Cardiopulmonary resuscitation in the ambulance, three electric shocks, two emergency surgeries, twenty-six units of blood. Ilya died, but then he came back.

    If only Shane could get his subconscious to understand that.

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    01 Jan 2026

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    Every time your soulmate lies, their words are written on you.

    Shane doesn’t lie often. His soulmate does though.

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    01 Jan 2026

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    Shane Hollander takes care of an injured wolf in the Sochi forest during the Winter Olympics.

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    In unrelated news, newcomer Ilya Rozanov joins the Montreal Metros two weeks after the Winter Olympics.

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    01 Jan 2026

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    “You’re going to Boston.”

    Long after Farah hangs up, the words keep echoing in Shane’s head. If he had thought his thoughts had been chaotic this morning, when his biggest problem had been his rival potentially fucking him when he came to Montreal in two weeks, that’s nothing compared to the code-red panic that started the instant he found out he was being traded to Rozanov’s team.

    Rozanov, who was supposed to be his great career rival. Rozanov, who he’s hooked up with twice now. Rozanov, who had been planning on coming to Shane’s apartment in Montreal to fuck him the next time they saw each other. God, how on Earth is Shane going to walk into his locker room in Boston in a few days time?

    The impending awkwardness of dealing with Rozanov is almost enough to eclipse the hurt he’s trying to ignore. The knowledge that Montreal values him so little that they’re willing to dispose of him only six months into his rookie season. Almost, but not quite.

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    Or, Shane gets traded to Boston AU.

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    31 Dec 2025

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    “He works nights as an exotic dancer.”

    Something in Ilya goes still. His jaw tightens, brows raised.

    “Exotic dancer,” he repeats, voice flat.

    He imagines Shane’s body. Controlled, precise, graceful even in a dirty nightclub. The idea of this soft and beautiful boy dancing for strangers, his body being touched by their greedy eyes, makes something dark curl in Ilya’s chest.

    a Mafia Ilya x Stripper Shane AU

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    30 Dec 2025

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    Lily: U might want to get tested

    Jane: Hilarious. Fuck you.

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    Set in the liminal situationship timeline between episodes 3 and 4.

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    30 Dec 2025

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    Maybe if the video ended there, Shane thought, it would be okay. Okayish. Still incriminating. Still a fucking disaster. Still embarrassing, to have his breakup with this beautiful actress filmed and disseminated on Reddit of all fucking places, but not a nail in his coffin, burying him alive. But the video didn’t end there.

    “Can I ask if you’ve ever been with another guy?” she had to ask.

    And he, tears visible in his eyes, had to nod.

    Just once. Just a single nod.

    Why did he have to nod?

    “Have you ever told anyone that before?” He shook his head. “Was it different? With a guy?”

    “Of course.”

    Of course.

    “Was it better?”

    “Yes.”

    +++

    Shane’s conversation with Rose is secretly recorded. Months later, after the All-Star game and Ilya’s confession in Russian, the video gets leaked online. Shane is outed to the world while Ilya is in Russia, and must now finish the 2016-2017 season with the entire world in on his secret.

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    27 Dec 2025

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    "Ilya had loved him through his worst moments. Ilya had helped him find a therapist when he’d collapsed on the floor of their hotel bathroom after losing a particularly brutal game, scratching at his chest. Ilya had held him, even when Shane yelled at him because there was panic crawling under his skin and he felt as though it might claw its way out. Ilya had told him it was okay; that it didn’t make him a bad player to resent the spotlight sometimes, that it didn’t make him a bad teammate to hate the team when they were too loud and too drunk and too physical, that it didn’t make him a bad person to need space to breathe. Ilya saved him.

    And look what you give him in return. You’re a shitty husband, Shane Hollander.

    You don’t deserve his last name."

     

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    content warnings: discussion of mental health, depiction of a panic attack, depiction of invasive medical procedure, depiction of violence (generally non-graphic), use of hate speech, depiction of a hate crime

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    27 Dec 2025

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    Troy Barrett comes to Ottawa wanting stability. He tells himself he wants the team, the routine, the structure, the safety of fitting in without needing too much from anyone. This is his clean start, and he needs to do whatever it takes to keep it.

    What he finds instead is Shane Hollander, amazing perfect Shane Hollander, and the uncomfortable realisation that the thing he’s been trying hardest not to want might be the only thing that actually feels like what he needs.

    As lines blur and tempers rise, Troy learns the hard way that wanting to belong can turn into wanting to keep, and that some things aren’t up for negotiation, especially when there’s a Russian captain who’s already decided what’s not on offer.

    or

    “Hey, Ilya?” Troy asks, already regretting it. “I was actually going to ask you about someone.”

    The moment he says Shane Hollander’s name, the locker room goes quiet, and Troy knows he’s crossed a line he didn’t fully understand.

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    Troy’s POV of the events best called ‘Ilya’s worst nightmare’

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    26 Dec 2025

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    “Am I speaking with Ilya Grigorievich Rozanov?”

    Ilya went silent immediately. That was not his brother’s voice. Nor was it Katia’s, his sister-in-law’s. It was an aristocratic, cold voice. He went completely still.

    “Yes.”

    “I’m calling from the Child Services Department, Ilya Grigorievich,” the woman continued, and Ilya frowned deeply. “Your brother Alexei Rozanov and his wife died yesterday in a car accident.”

    Twice in his life, Ilya had felt like this. The ice around his heart melted just enough for the numbness to vanish and give way to a sharp, stinging pain. It lasted only two seconds before he managed to compose himself. He didn’t want to feel anything for Alexei, so even if Katia’s death carried a trace of sadness—she was a mess, but she always tried to smile at him and cook warm meals for him when he visited Russia—, he dismissed the feeling entirely.

    “So what?”

    “You are the only living family member of their daughter. Your brother named you as her legal guardian, Ilya Grigorievich.”

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    26 Dec 2025

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    Something isn’t right. Something isn't right and Svetlana knows it, and she's lost far too many good things by not trusting her instincts. Ilya leaving with a woman in public? That's expected. Ilya leaving with a man in public? Sure, it's happened before, even if the public wasn't actually aware of what they were looking at. 

    But leaving for a threesome, in public? In a bar where anyone could be taking photos? Don't make her laugh - Ilya would never. 

    And then it hits her:  
    Ilya's slight stumble;
    The way he only had three drinks over the past two hours, barely enough to get him tipsy;
    The way he's not even holding the girl or the guy's hand.
    The way he's not even trying to kiss either of them. 
    The way he keeps pulling slightly against the girl's grip like he can't understand what's happening. 
    Shit.

    Ilya's been fucking roofied.

    Or, Ilya gets roofied at a club and Svetlana needs to him someone who can care take of him. Luckily, they're in Montreal, where Ilya's illusive Jane lives.
    Surely she'll be able to help!
    ...Right?

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    25 Dec 2025

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    "You have to come to the locker room. Now."

    Shane frowns. Holds up his notebook. "I'm busy."

    "Forget that, man. It's all over the news. Ilya Rozanov just defected."

    Red Army superstar Ilya Rozanov defects from the Soviet Union. A Cold War-era hockey au

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    25 Dec 2025

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    In the quiet of night, twenty minutes after Darya turned twelve, her mother hands her a present with a blank name slip.

    “These are from your uncles, they love you so much. Uncle Ilya misses you.”

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    23 Dec 2025

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