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Every instinct tells him to stand up and run. This isn’t Carter. He can’t bear to look at this lifeless husk that used to shine so brightly. The thought of never seeing those big brown eyes again, never receiving another toothy grin, sends a cold shiver down his spine. He wants to curse and scream and hide.
Then he remembers Carol’s words: Talk to him, it might help both of you.
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Something horrible happens to John Carter. Peter Benton must face his fear to help his student.
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- Part 10 of Bad Things Happen Bingo
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21 Dec 2025
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The pain is all in his head.
When John was in rehab, he heard the words so often they became a mantra, one that echoed in his mind from the moment he woke up to the moment he fell asleep. Slowly but surely, the nonexistence of pain became an internalised truth.
Except now he's sitting on a bench outside of the ER, curled into himself because he hurts, and for once, he can't be convinced that the pain exists only in his head. Something is wrong.
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Shortly after Carter arrives back to work from rehab, he starts to feel unwell. He knows he hasn't been using, but does everyone else?
Part 1.
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- Part 1 of Guilty until proven innocent
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20 Dec 2025
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It is Reese who gives them away.
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20 Dec 2025
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Upon realizing that her mentor is not the grizzly he seems to be, but rather a young man in distress, Lucy Knight finds herself reluctant to leave him alone.
My take of what may have happened after the curtain fell on maisiec33's "Never Poke a Sleeping Bear."
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20 Dec 2025
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Dr. Carter is not Lucy's friend, he's her boss. He's not a patient or someone to be coddled, he's a wolf with sharp teeth and raised hackles.
He is not something to be afraid for.
Yet here he lay before Lucy, pale and broken.
And she can't help but to fear.
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20 Dec 2025
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Everybody in the ER thinks Peter is smitten with Carter. They'd been dating for a few months now, and the staff was bound to find out eventually. They'd slipped up, or, well, Peter had slipped up. He really can't help himself around Carter, and after one too many lingering touches and eyes, a rumor eventually grew.
Or, Peter Benton is really in love with John Carter, it just takes him a bit to realize just how far gone he is.
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20 Dec 2025
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Carter hides the source of his nerve damage until a second event makes that impossible, and he's forced to call for help.
part two to when you break but both stories can stand alone
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- Part 2 of footholds
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20 Dec 2025
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Carter needs them not to be understaffed on a day overflowing with minor cases, ones he's perfectly qualified to manage. He needs half the population of Chicago to go home and deal with it. He needs to suck it up and cope. He needs—
He just needs a second to sit.
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- Part 1 of footholds
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20 Dec 2025
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All throughout the procedure, Peter half expects Carter to burst in, panting, sweating, full of apologies and claiming some excuse: the El was delayed, he'd overslept, his apartment had burned down again. Peter would brush him off and kick him out of the operating room, then send him to do his scut work and really think about his commitment to this program.
But Carter never shows.
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After Gant's death, Peter shuts Carter out. When Carter goes missing, Peter fears the worst and vows to stop at nothing to find him.
An alternate continuation of season 3, episode 12: Post Mortem
For Bad Things Happen Bingo Prompt: Broken Rib(s)
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20 Dec 2025
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did i ever tell you that i'm not doing well? (stomach's all in knots) by this_is_my_over_the_moon_face
Fandoms: ER (TV 1994)
09 Sep 2025
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Carter has had chronic back pain for years, and self-medicates with ibuprofen. Unfortunately, long-term ibuprofen use increases the risks of gastric bleeding, something Carter discovers firsthand.
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Day 8 Prompt: Aches and Pains. Title from "lacy" by Olivia Rodrigo.
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- Part 4 of Sicktember 2025
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20 Dec 2025
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John was a few feet away from the admit desk, the voice getting louder with every step he took, when he saw him. Jerry was nodding his head lazily at a man who was talking, talking, talking. His voice, the one John recognized, grew more agitated with every second until he was bordering on yelling. But all John could focus on was his face. He knew that face.
A suffocating feeling of dread bloomed in his stomach and spread up to his throat until he felt like he couldn't breathe. A wave of nausea threatened to drown him as he took a step back in an attempt to get away from that face. That voice. But, to the surprise of no one, he backed right into Deb and knocked the tray she was holding out of her hands. Metal hit the ground with a loud clanging that caught the attention of everyone within twenty feet, including that voice.
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20 Dec 2025
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It was strange, but part of John felt like he was experiencing the most gut wrenching breakup. Every time he came into proximity of Peter, he’d disregard him or barely even look at him long enough for them to hold a conversation. Sure, Peter’s always been terse especially with him but their relationship had started to develop into something more.
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20 Dec 2025
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“I know it’s hard. It’s so hard, I know, I’m sorry,” Jack tells him, soaping the inside bend of his knee, making sure not to miss a single bit of him. “I’m so sorry. But I’ve got you.”
Robby’s eyes flutter back open, tears clumping his lashes together. Jack sets the sponge aside for a moment, rinsing his hands so he can take Robby’s face between his palms, sweeping his thumbs beneath his eyes. He clears away his tears, leans in, presses a kiss so softly to his downturned mouth, his wet-sparkling beard.
“I love you,” Jack promises him, their lips brushing as he speaks. “I love you, I love you. You’re going to be okay.”
or: robby has a bad day and reaches his breaking point. jack steps in and takes care of him when he gets home.
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20 Dec 2025
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The Pittlings make a game out of who can get Jack and Robby under some mistletoe first.
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20 Dec 2025
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Robby shifts his head on Jack's shoulder, snuggling closer. He lets his hand rest over the dog tags, on Jack's chest, over Jack's heart.
(If Robby had asked him to stay, Jack would have stayed. Even with the financial struggles. Even if he couldn't afford med school without the army paying for it. He would have said okay, kissed Robby, and figured out something else.
But Robby didn't ask.)
or jack gets into an accident and the Pitt discovers he has a DNR. robby didn't know either.
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20 Dec 2025
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Peter Benton has been avoiding Carter for over a week. Refuses to speak to him. Refuses to even look at him. All because of the Vicodin. The Vicodin that Carter threw up. It wasn't even a real relapse.
Benton doesn't seem to care.
A chance meeting during Carter's paramedic ride-along gives John the opportunity to finally confront Peter.
But before the two can work out their differences, they are ambushed by a trio of violent drug-seekers, looking to score from the ambulance's stash.
It all goes wrong.
And Peter Benton may never have another chance to make things right with his former student.
Bad Things Happen Bingo prompt: Ambush
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- Part 8 of Bad Things Happen Bingo
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19 Dec 2025
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John Carter is twenty-three hours into a twenty-four hour shift, and sixty minutes has never been longer. The internal clock in his body is begging him to press fast forward, speed through the remaining time, even possibly the time it would take him to shuffle across towards the medical school, so he can collapse onto the twin-size mattress he calls a bed and call it a day.
Unfortunately, John’s body does not have the same capabilities as a VCR.
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Aka: Johns' gallbladder hates him.
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Set loosely during Season 4, when John's refusing his families money and is cut off. Some details may be more aligned with Season 5, such as living at the Medical School, but this is just a sandbox I'm playing in.
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19 Dec 2025
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who'd have thought there'd be so much left to lose? by planesandgoggles
Fandoms: ER (TV 1994)
11 Nov 2025
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Peter gets the call on a Thursday in late July, mid-shift. He’s on the next flight out of Chicago.
“Is this Doctor Peter Benton?”
“Speaking.”
“Hello, Doctor Benton. I’m calling from the Frederickson Rehabilitation Center in Atlanta. I have you listed as the emergency contact for John Carter?”
“What’s happened.”
“I’m afraid that a few hours ago, Doctor Carter was admitted to the hospital with some very serious injuries.”
“What kind of injuries, exactly?”
“Doctor Benton, he was bleeding significantly from his left arm and wrist. It appears… Well, it appears he made an attempt on his own life.”
Everything after that is a blur.
Bad Things Happen Bingo prompt: Self-Harm
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- Part 10 of Bad Things Happen Bingo
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19 Dec 2025
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Dr. Luka Kovac’s Rules for Being in a Secret Relationship by Anonymous
Fandoms: ER (TV 1994)
23 Mar 2025
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When you’re in any relationship, there are certain rules you have to follow. Those rules are a bit different, however, when no one can know about your relationship.
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19 Dec 2025
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"Did you...? I uh... You know there was this one person, that I liked, that I still like... Nothing ever happened, I didn't even ever tell them I liked them that way, and I was pretty definitely sure they wouldn't like me that way...
"And it's been like, a while since I've even... I wasn't even sure if he'd- they'd remember me, or care, and I... I'm sorry I'm rambling... But...
"You know... You have to know... Oh god I might be more embarrassed if you didn't notice."
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19 Dec 2025