1 - 20 of 39 Bookmarks by vhsbat

Navigation

List of Bookmarks

  1. Rec *

    Tags
    Summary

    Shane is drunk, concussed, and hiding in a phone booth when he calls the only number he knows by heart.

    The man who answers is not Hayden Pike.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    13,060
    Chapters:
    3/3
    Comments:
    114
    Kudos:
    1,684
    Bookmarks:
    231
    Hits:
    12,295

    17 Mar 2026

    Bookmarker's Collections:
  2. Rec *

    Tags
    Summary

    Russians do not blush. Russians do not get sick. Ilya gets concussions. He gets stitches. He skates on cracked ribs and calls it fine. He does not get sick. Which is why, when he wakes up at three in the morning in the middle of June, shaking so hard his teeth knock together, his first instinct is irritation.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    36,380
    Chapters:
    16/16
    Comments:
    1,004
    Kudos:
    3,885
    Bookmarks:
    1,688
    Hits:
    102,539

    17 Mar 2026

    Bookmarker's Collections:
  3. Rec *

    Tags
    Summary

    Shane Hollander was perfect; the perfect son, the perfect boyfriend, the perfect friend. He had spent years refining perfection, making sure he was the picture of it. It was second nature after all these years; a suit that didn’t quite fit, but that he’d gotten used to.
    Enter Ilya Rozanov.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    56,485
    Chapters:
    7/7
    Comments:
    266
    Kudos:
    1,004
    Bookmarks:
    439
    Hits:
    24,061

    15 Mar 2026

    Bookmarker's Tags:
  4. Rec *

    Tags
    Summary

    “Shane,” Rose says gently. “I don’t think Eva is good for you.”

    Shane sighs into his water glass. This again. You get one shoe thrown at you during an argument, and suddenly everyone thinks you’re being abused.

    Or: Shane ends up dating Rose’s co-star rather than her, and soon finds himself in an abusive relationship. Ilya and Shane's friends need to put aside their differences in order to keep him safe.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    82,633
    Chapters:
    35/35
    Comments:
    2,132
    Kudos:
    8,954
    Bookmarks:
    2,298
    Hits:
    279,632

    14 Mar 2026

    Bookmarker's Collections:
  5. Rec *

    Tags
    Summary

    Shane doesn’t realize he’s braced for silent eyes until he feels the absence of it — the weight of teammates immediately finding him and going quiet, waiting for him to fuck up, to say the wrong thing, to exist wrong. He expects the chatter of a room to drop when he enters and its disconcerting to find it doesn't yet in Ottawa.

    He stands at the entrance a beat too long.

    --

    It’s the start of Shane Hollander’s first season in Ottawa and he should be settled. The Centaurs are friendly, the room is easy, and Ilya is finally close enough to touch. But, as Shane is intimately aware of, old habits learned the hard way will linger.

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    17,094
    Chapters:
    3/3
    Comments:
    161
    Kudos:
    2,532
    Bookmarks:
    585
    Hits:
    22,143

    13 Mar 2026

    Bookmarker's Collections:
  6. Rec *

    Tags
    Summary

    What if the hit Shane takes on the ice ends in something far more serious than just broken collarbone and Shane high as a kite? What if his heart stopped and in the heat of the moment, Ilya outed them as "boyfriends" in front of the whole arena? And what if Shane falls into a coma?

    ***

    Ilya wants to scream. To claw his way down the hallway. To grab the nearest doctor by the collar and shake answers out of them. To punch a wall until his knuckles break. To rip out his own heart and shove it into Shane’s chest:

    Here. Use mine. Mine seems determined to keep beating through this, might as well make itself useful.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    23,058
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    109
    Kudos:
    2,686
    Bookmarks:
    686
    Hits:
    24,825

    12 Mar 2026

    Bookmarker's Collections:
  7. Rec *

    Tags
    Summary

    Ilya is recovering after the brain surgery but recovery rerely is a straight line. And Ilya, done with hospitals, is up to mischief. Fortunately, Shane is there to make sure Ilya stays alive.

    ***

    This is set between "Hold On (I Still Want You)" and "Come Back (I Still Need You)" and focuses on Ilya's recovery after the brain surgery he underwent. It can be read as stand-alone but I think it's probably best to read at least first part of my series to get some context!

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    21,867
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    50
    Kudos:
    1,827
    Bookmarks:
    225
    Hits:
    24,709

    11 Mar 2026

    Bookmarker's Collections:
  8. Rec *

    Tags
    Summary

    Shane and Ilya broke up. It was the adult, mature decision they made together and moved on from. Except Shane is still Ilya's emergency contact and Ilya's coach just called.

    Ilya had a seizure. Well, seizures. Multiple. He is in the hospital, in the operation block and suddenly Shane is met with the possibility that last words Ilya Rozanov ever heard from him were "Maybe love isn't enough."

    And then complications occur. And Ilya is not waking up.

    ***

    They’d sat on a perfectly ordinary Wednesday afternoon in their perfectly ordinary kitchen, with coffee that had gone cold on the table between them, and calmly dismantled the life they’d built together. One sentence at a time.

    “Maybe we need space.” “Maybe we’re just hurting each other.” “Maybe love isn’t enough.”

    He wants to go back and shove that version of himself against the wall. Shake him until his teeth rattle.

    Love is the only thing that matters when someone is under general anaesthesia and a stranger is touching their brain, Shane thinks wildly. Love is literally the only currency worth anything in a room like this.

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    20,239
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    359
    Kudos:
    8,653
    Bookmarks:
    2,136
    Hits:
    110,699

    11 Mar 2026

    Bookmarker's Collections:
  9. Rec *

    Tags
    Summary

    Shane Hollander has a heart attack and "dies" on the ice after the hit from Marlow in the Montreal vs Boston Game.

    Ilya handles his emotions poorly and has a very public meltdown.

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    15,865
    Chapters:
    6/6
    Comments:
    798
    Kudos:
    16,068
    Bookmarks:
    3,404
    Hits:
    175,722

    11 Mar 2026

    Bookmarker's Collections:
  10. Rec *

    Tags
    Summary

    Yuna pours him a glass of ice cold homemade lemonade without asking and hands it to him across the kitchen island, then announces, “Just as a heads up, me and David will leave for Japan over the weekend. My cousin invited us to spend the summer there at her lake house, and we could hardly say no to that. I will leave you a pair of keys so that you can still come and go.”

    Wide-eyed, Ilya blinks at her. “Um?”

    “You won’t be all alone,” says Yuna, immediately. “We have a son. Shane?”

    or: Ilya has been asked to fix up the Hollander house over summer. Shane Hollander, the elusive son of the family, returns to town after thirteen years to watch over said house. The next six weeks are going to be incredibly interesting.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    31,817
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    332
    Kudos:
    2,172
    Bookmarks:
    748
    Hits:
    29,853

    11 Mar 2026

    Bookmarker's Collections:
  11. Rec *

    Tags
    Summary

    “Why are you here?” Ilya asked, very quietly.
    It still felt like a slap.
    Shane must have let out a sound of some sort, because Ilya turned to look at him, finally.
    “Did not mean it like that,” Ilya said. “Just… surprised.”
    Shane shifted awkwardly from one foot to the next, as if he was suddenly coming to the realization that he had no right to be here at all. “I got a call from the hospital,” he explained. “They told me I’m your emergency contact.”
    “Sorry,” Ilya said, in such a quiet voice it was almost impossible to hear him. “I forgot to change it.”
    Shane could only frown. That did not make him any less confused. “I guess I just… I don’t understand why you put me down as your emergency contact in the first place. It’s not like we…”
    Ilya took a couple of deep breaths. It looked like they were painful. His eyes slid away from Shane, like he couldn’t bear to look at him. “Did not have anyone else,” he admitted, and now his voice was the smallest Shane had ever heard it, like Ilya was trying to disappear as the words left him. “I’m sorry.”

    --

    Or: Ilya has a car accident. Shane is his emergency contact... even though they're no longer seeing each other.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    19,376
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    111
    Kudos:
    2,730
    Bookmarks:
    768
    Hits:
    25,103

    11 Mar 2026

    Bookmarker's Collections:
  12. Rec *

    Tags
    Summary

    A devastating on-ice collision changes everything for Shane Hollander, Ilya Rozanov, and everyone who loves them.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    16,511
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    897
    Kudos:
    9,542
    Bookmarks:
    2,038
    Hits:
    131,679

    10 Mar 2026

    Bookmarker's Collections:
  13. Rec *

    Tags
    Summary

    Shane is silent for so long that Rozanov leans, slouching against the doorframe, and raises his eyebrows at him expectantly. “Yes? You are selling bibles?”
    “You fucked my girlfriend.” It tears out of him.
    “Ah,” Rozanov drawls, as if the thought is just now occurring to him, “yes. I did.”

     

    based on a tweet

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    11,710
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    271
    Kudos:
    8,214
    Bookmarks:
    2,171
    Hits:
    94,265

    10 Mar 2026

    Bookmarker's Collections:
  14. Rec *

    Tags
    Summary

    Ilya doesn’t even realize when Arthur slips from his thoughts. There’s no sharp turn, no clear moment where the article stops being about a little boy who loves reptiles and starts being about the man lying beside him in bed. It just… happens. The way his mind always seems to find Shane eventually, like water finding its lowest point.

    a character study on shane’s undiagnosed autism

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    8,630
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    589
    Kudos:
    15,722
    Bookmarks:
    3,851
    Hits:
    107,544

    10 Mar 2026

    Bookmarker's Collections:
  15. Rec *

    Tags
    Summary

    Some can't stand homophobia.

    Some can't stand the Voyageurs.

    And some can't stand the dynasty that the Voyageurs inadvertently created when they ran Shane Hollander out of town for being gay.

    So when news of why Shane Hollander signed in Ottawa alongside his husband comes out, 31 teams take it upon themselves to get back at the Voyageurs for all that they’ve done.

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    21,006
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Collections:
    6
    Comments:
    1,101
    Kudos:
    10,620
    Bookmarks:
    2,234
    Hits:
    99,399

    10 Mar 2026

    Bookmarker's Collections:
  16. Rec *

    Tags
    Summary

    The term, he’s told, is temporary retrograde amnesia. Ilya doesn’t need the direct translation to understand: he forgot things. Ten years of things.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    13,179
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    578
    Kudos:
    19,637
    Bookmarks:
    4,307
    Hits:
    169,854

    10 Mar 2026

    Bookmarker's Collections:
  17. Rec *

    Tags
    Summary

    "Sveta," he says, before she can greet him. "I think I'm about to do something very stupid."

    "You're always doing something stupid," she laughs, her voice tinny over the speakerphone. "What is it this time?"

    "I am in a staring contest with a bottle of pills," Ilya says. "And I think the pills might win."

    -

    Or: An alternate take on Ilya's mental health after moving to Ottawa, featuring the reality of long distance relationships, Ilya learning to captain a new team, and a series of game tapes made by Ilya's dead father.

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    14,171
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Collections:
    1
    Comments:
    216
    Kudos:
    3,983
    Bookmarks:
    1,079
    Hits:
    26,593

    09 Mar 2026

    Bookmarker's Collections:
  18. Rec *

    Tags
    Summary

    “Be careful,” Shane frets, one hand hovering over Ilya’s shoulder. “It’s icy, and I don’t want to be a widower.”

    “Oh, we’d have to be much higher than this for the fall to kill me,” Ilya says, gaze still fixed on the cool black skyline. “At least seven stories.”

    It’s not until much later, as the waitress is clearing the dishes from dinner, that Yuna finds herself wondering why Ilya knows exactly how high a fall needs to be in order to kill him. 

    Or: Yuna learns about Ilya's past bit by bit over the years.

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    2,932
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Collections:
    1
    Comments:
    171
    Kudos:
    6,407
    Bookmarks:
    1,138
    Hits:
    29,656

    09 Mar 2026

    Bookmarker's Collections:
  19. Rec *

    Tags
    Summary

    Ilya died, yes, but then the doctors saved him. Cardiopulmonary resuscitation in the ambulance, three electric shocks, two emergency surgeries, twenty-six units of blood. Ilya died, but then he came back.

    If only Shane could get his subconscious to understand that.

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    13,090
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Collections:
    1
    Comments:
    409
    Kudos:
    8,451
    Bookmarks:
    2,583
    Hits:
    75,554

    09 Mar 2026

    Bookmarker's Collections:
  20. Rec *

    Tags
    Summary

    When Paramedic Shane Hollander and EMT Hayden Pike start working nights, they expect to spend their shifts getting fucked over by Response Paramedic—and notorious asshole—Ilya Rozanov.

    Shane does end up getting fucked, just not in the way he was expecting.

    (shane just wants to do his job and ride the ambulance. ilya thinks shane should be riding him, instead.)

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    34,467
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    495
    Kudos:
    7,133
    Bookmarks:
    2,403
    Hits:
    99,059

    07 Mar 2026

    Bookmarker's Collections:

Filters

Filter results:
Submit

Include

?
Include Ratings
Include Warnings
Include Categories
Include Fandoms
Include Characters
Include Relationships
Include Additional Tags
Include Bookmarker's Tags

Exclude

?
Exclude Ratings
Exclude Warnings
Exclude Categories
Exclude Fandoms
Exclude Characters
Exclude Relationships
Exclude Additional Tags
Exclude Bookmarker's Tags

More Options

Word count
Bookmark types
Submit

Clear Filters

Navigation