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The Shadow Of Gold by Aradia_Scarlet
Fandoms: Thunderbolts (Movie 2025), Marvel Cinematic Universe
08 Oct 2025
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After the New York incident —classified as a Level A Dark-Class Anomaly— in which multiple civilians were absorbed by an entity of unknown origin (later identified as "The Void") during an operation led by the Thunderbolts team, the Sentinel Protocol was activated.
The most unstable asset, Robert Reynolds (alias: Sentry), remains under constant surveillance. He has been permitted to continue operating within the team under strict restrictions and designated supervision.
The threat he poses is not physical.
What is truly alarming is psychological:— The subject shows signs of mental fragmentation.
— Dissociative episodes that precede manifestations of the Void.
— Possessive behaviors, attachment dependency, and a growing fixation on his assigned security partner: John Walker (alias: U.S. Agent).Agent Walker presents high levels of post-mission stress and a history of unresolved emotional instability. His assignment was a strategic decision—but not without risk.
Both subjects are critical assets.
Both are broken.And perhaps, that's the only reason they’re still holding on to each other.
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(At) attention, please by Demise_seems_dead
Fandoms: Thunderbolts, Marvel, Marvel Cinematic Universe
08 Oct 2025
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Ava likes to prank walker.
This is fine until his ptsd starts to act up. Despite it, she remains a good friend.
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Dont fuck with a Ptsd and ocd riddled soldier. Bad move.Whumptober day 7: disassociation
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- Part 8 of Whumptober (the walker way)
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Rescue instinct by Demise_seems_dead
Fandoms: Thunderbolts (Movie 2025), Marvel Cinematic Universe, Marvel
07 Oct 2025
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This whole scene seems mighty familiar.
John.
An elevator shaft.
Self hatred.
Well, self hatred is always there, but the rest is only happening for the second time. But this time, they talk about it.Series
- Part 7 of Whumptober (the walker way)
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Echoes in my Mind by pandaxlover
Fandoms: Thunderbolts (Movie 2025), Marvel Cinematic Universe
06 Oct 2025
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You know little of your past, the small memories that seem to come and go from your mind feel too perfect, almost like somebody intentionally planted them there. Wanting help to control your powers, you reluctantly agree to join The New Avengers, persuaded by Valentina. But as you spend more time with the team, Valentina's actions suggest that she might know more about you and your powers than she initially let on.
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How To Assemble A Team In 60 Weeks by noodlerdoodler
Fandoms: Thunderbolts (Movie 2025), Marvel Cinematic Universe
06 Oct 2025
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“What?” John protested, his volume rising a notch, “You know as well as I do, this is a delicate situation for all of—“
“Oh my god, Walker, please shut up.” Yelena said.
At the same time, Ava muttered a similar sentiment under her breath but with a more colourful use of language. Until now, Bucky had kept his head firmly down and remained deep in his thoughts. From the second they stepped out onto that stage, in front of the press, it seemed like he was in a state of shock. But he finally raised his eyes to shoot Walker a stormy look. Whichever one of their reactions was effective, it didn’t matter, because something successfully shut John up.
They rode for a few more minutes in silence. Then, Alexei cleared his throat.
“Walker is right.” He said.
Without lifting his head, Bucky murmured to nobody in particular: “That’s a first.”
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A week off at a quiet resthouse turns into compromise with teeth: John wants space; Bucky keeps ending up ten steps too close. Storms, bed-sharing, and a cast-iron kind of care force them to decide whether boundaries can hold against need.
Sometimes an apology is forced just to keep a relationship moving forward. It’s not normal—definitely not okay—but Bucky and John aren’t normal, and they live very not-normal lives.
This is Part 2 of Pie Day, Truth Day . I didn’t post it as Chapter 2 because I want that one to stand alone, and this piece works as one of the possible paths the story could take.
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- Part 2 of Pie Day, Truth day
- Part 20 of Walker
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Ghosts don't chase ghosts by Demise_seems_dead
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Marvel, Thunderbolts (Movie 2025)
04 Oct 2025
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Walker looses the super soldier serums effects temporarily in the middle of a rescue mission.
Temporarily does not stop a self hatred spiral.
Without the serum, walker feels the true exhaustion and pain his body was forcing out. The last time he felt truely weak was.,,When he almost died in that fire.
Repetition isn't such a bad thing, is it?
Whumptober day 4 1/2: lose of powers
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- Part 4 of Whumptober (the walker way)
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After the Thunderbolts, John Walker is trying—therapy, fatherhood, co-parenting, and holding together the life he almost lost. He’s oblivious to the fact that half his new team has adopted him as family… and that Bucky Barnes is very much in love with him.
Between Alexei sneaking casseroles, Yelena heckling like a little sister, Ava’s rare but pointed check-ins, Bob drifting in like a storm front and quieting the room just to stand in John’s orbit (because John’s steady hands and warm hugs anchor the Void better than any drug), and Sam trying to play wingman, John slowly learns he’s allowed to want things for himself.
Bucky just hopes he notices before the whole world figures it out first.
It turns out love isn’t a mission, and family isn’t a unit—it’s a branch that grows, if you let it.
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- Part 2 of Walker
- Part 3 of Nana's 2025 Project (Procrastination)
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castles crumbling by Ch3shireSmil3
Fandoms: Thunderbolts (Movie 2025), Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel Movies)
03 Oct 2025
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When Bob time travels, he gets conveniently placed in a room full of heroes, fully intact and aware and in the same body from his time.
When he accidentally drags along his teammates, they don't end up so lucky.
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Cuddle Up - John Walker x reader by Distracted_Milkshake
Fandoms: Thunderbolts (Movie 2025), Marvel Cinematic Universe
03 Oct 2025
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John turns what was supposed to be a dicking into talk therapy so you turn it into a cuddling session.
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I look in people’s windows, transfixed by rose golden glows. by Mischevious_Oddity
Fandoms: Thunderbolts (Movie 2025)
03 Oct 2025
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No. 3: “I look in people’s windows, transfixed by rose golden glows.”
Isolation | Candlelight | Found Family
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- Part 3 of Whumptober'25
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Sandy sorrows by Demise_seems_dead
Fandoms: Thunderbolts (Movie 2025), Marvel Cinematic Universe, Marvel
03 Oct 2025
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Bob comes on a safe mission. Somehow, the most sturdy of them is having a rough time with it. You can lead a horse to water but you cant make him drink.
((Feat. John walker calling alexei dad and demise (author here) calling alexei alexi the entire fic. Fuck my life ig))
Whumptober day 3 1/2: found familySeries
- Part 3 of Whumptober (the walker way)
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Aster by SourDoughNoodles629
Fandoms: Thunderbolts (Movie 2025), Marvel Cinematic Universe, Marvel (Comics)
01 Oct 2025
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Sometimes it sucks, but it’s starting to suck a bit less.
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John Walker struggles to feel any belonging with his new team, but once a couple strange encounters with some random scourge out to kill him plagues his thoughts, he can't help but look back at his life and feel more lost.
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- Part 1 of Thunderbolts* Floral Saga
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faces come out of the rain by echoric
Fandoms: Thunderbolts (Movie 2025), Marvel Cinematic Universe
01 Oct 2025
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“Walker!” the female voice was back, in his ear but muffled strangely. He reached up and grabbed her forearms where they were looped over his chest, supporting his weight even as he struggled to get away from her. His fingers wrapped around her arms in a tight grip, squeezing firmly. “Come on, Walker. Open your eyes.”
His eyes were open already. She didn’t know what she was talking about. He opened his eyes and the world changed around him as he blinked away the residual burn, tears running down his face in more force than when he had gone through a gas chamber. He looked down where his hands were squeezing body armor – familiar body armor, black and covered in nicks and scratches and dust. He coughed and lurched forward as his stomach revolted against his body.
“I’m sorry,” he gasped when he managed to catch his breath enough in between retches. “I killed–I killed him. I’m sorry.”
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aka the one where john breathes in something he probably shouldnt haveSeries
- Part 1 of Thunderbolts
- Part 2 of Whumptober 2025
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Thermal Exchange by EiriTheBear
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Thunderbolts (Movie 2025), Captain America (Anthony Mackie Movies), The Falcon and the Winter Soldier (TV)
01 Oct 2025
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John isn't quite sure of his role in the new and fragile team he's ended up with after getting used to being assigned one all these years as a soldier and a shadow operative.
Everyone else seems to fall into some designation or other—leader, strategist, moral compass, father figure, muscle—all of them pieces falling in a puzzle that John can't seem to fill because the others fit better, and the thought slowly pushes him into a frustrated despair.
John spirals, becoming one with the sofa. He doesn't know that something else is wrong with him. Something darker and more sinister.
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John wakes up in a cold sweat, drawing deep, labored breaths, feeling like his chest is about to cave in.
His bloodshot eyes focus, and with it, the chilling realization.
A sinister shape, pitch black, is straddling him, a figure so utterly devoid of light that it's silhouetted by the already dark background that is his room.
It only takes a second for him to catch on. He's seen this figure before, hovering above New York the day Bob transformed into Sentry.
"You show such willfulness, John Walker, clinging to your own darkness for so long."
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On a Thursday meant for pie, an accidental flare from Sentry and the Void turns the Thunderbolts’ kitchen into a cinema of John’s truth—forcing everyone to watch what makes John Walker, while Bucky learns how to hold with open hands.
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- Part 17 of Walker
- Part 1 of Pie Day, Truth day
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Five times I almost said “I love you,” but even though I didn’t put it into words, maybe I expressed it through actions, glances, and presence.
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The five times John Walker was hopelessly in love with his teammate and couldn’t say it out loud… until he finally did—not only saying it, but showing it.
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Please give me the power to distort your life by Floy_Raumlinet
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Thunderbolts (Movie 2025), The Falcon and the Winter Soldier (TV)
28 Sep 2025
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John Walker needs an absolute peace, from pain, from control, from the man named James Barnes in front of him.
"What about you?" Barnes's voice low, "what do you think you need orders? Need to be used? Need to be degraded? " His thumb gently brushed the blood vessels beating in Walker's temple.
An almost gentle contrast made Walker stiff. Walker's breath was stuck in his throat, and all the elaborate defenses, all the arrogant disguises, fell apart under the weight of those eyes and that question. He felt a sense of exposure that almost made him vomit, but at the same time, a terrible and long-awaited sense of relief welled up from the cracks."Yes, maybe ..." He admitted hoarsely, and his voice was almost inaudible.
"No," Barnes denied softly, but his tone was extremely positive, like stating a fact that had already been discovered, which surprised Walker. He thought that his affirmation was the response Barnes wanted. "What you need is to stop thinking, someone needs to take over your hyperactive brain, and you need to let go of all the responsibilities and expectations that keep you awake at night."
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请给我扭曲你人生的权力 by Floy_Raumlinet
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Thunderbolts (Movie 2025), The Falcon and the Winter Soldier (TV)
28 Sep 2025
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约翰沃克需要一种绝对的宁静，来自于疼痛，来自于控制，来自于面前这个名为詹姆斯巴恩斯的人。
“你呢？”巴恩斯的声音压低，“你觉得你需要命令？需要被使用？需要被贬低？”他的拇指轻轻擦过沃克太阳穴跳动的血管，一个近乎温柔的对比，却让沃克浑身僵硬。
沃克的呼吸卡在喉咙里，所有精心构筑的防御，所有傲慢的伪装，在那双眼睛和那个问题的重量下土崩瓦解。他感到一种几乎使他呕吐的暴露感，但同时，一种可怕的，渴望已久的解脱感从裂缝中涌出。
“是，或许吧……”他嘶哑地承认，声音破碎得几乎听不见。
“不，”巴恩斯轻声否定，语气却异常肯定，像在陈述一个早已被发现的事实，这让沃克有些意外，他以为他的肯定是巴恩斯想要的回应。
“你需要的是停止思考，需要有人接管你过度活跃的大脑，需要放下所有那些让你夜不能寐的责任和期待。” -
Michael and Franklin by nightyn628
Fandoms: Thunderbolts (Movie 2025), Daredevil (TV), Marvel Cinematic Universe
28 Sep 2025
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John Walker never expected to crash into Hell’s Kitchen or into Daredevil, but tonight fate threw them together.