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Shane sends him a text that says 'thinking about your cock' with a picture of his rippling abs, and even though Ilya really appreciates the abs, all he can think about is the faint bruise blooming on Shane's ribs, and whether it hurts him very badly, and whether there's anything Ilya could do to make it hurt less, if he were there. He wants to be there, he realizes. He wants to be there for the rest of his life.
He has to duck out of the team weight room so he can cough up a fistful of petals.
So.
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Or: Ilya gets Hanahaki disease.
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19 Jan 2026
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He’s already in the room, shutting the door behind himself as quietly as he can before he realises that not only is there someone other than Shane in the room, but there are three someones other than Shane.
And, as if he hasn’t already fucked up spectacularly, the someones happen to be the Hollanders and Hayden fucking Pike.
// or; Ilya visits Shane in the hospital and meets his parents. He's traumatized and grieving, everything hurts, and Shane takes after his mother.
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17 Jan 2026
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“Lily,” Hayden says automatically. “You know about Lily?”
Something flickers across Rozanov’s face. His jaw twitches. “Yes, I know about Lily.” He raises his eyebrows.
Hayden feels like a complete asshole, all of a sudden. There’s just been too much going on to even think about Shane’s mystery girlfriend. “Shit, I should probably, like, call her, or something? I don’t know this girl at all, but Shane’s been obsessed with her for years. If she was watching the game, she would have seen him get hurt.”
“You don’t need to call her,” Rozanov says, and when Hayden glances at him, he still looks fucking miserable but now he’s rolling his eyes, a much more familiar expression of disdain on his face. “She’s sitting right here.”
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Hayden Pike and Ilya Rozanov are waiting for Shane to wake up after he took a bad hit on the ice. They get to talking.Chapter 2: Ilya and Shane talk about what it means, now that someone knows their secret.
Chapter 3: Shane and Hayden hash out the big reveal.
Chapter 4: Ilya tells Svetlana the big secret.- Language:
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15 Jan 2026
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Ilya sat straight up after falling, and he looked to his immediate left, seeing the motionless body sprawled out on the ice. It didn’t register to him right away, though it should have. Then, he noticed the blood, a small pool starting to form under Shane’s head. No. no no no nonononono. He glanced down at his skates, noticing a small trace of blood on the tip of his right blade. He felt like he was going to puke.
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12 Jan 2026
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Until You Breathe Again by underthewolfstars
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
24 Dec 2025
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Shane Hollander has a heart attack and "dies" on the ice after the hit from Marlow in the Montreal vs Boston Game.
Ilya handles his emotions poorly and has a very public meltdown.
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11 Jan 2026
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“…Big hit from Buffalo defenseman Nate Ryland, and Rozanov is down.”
His head spins around when he hears the commentary, his heart clenching immediately when his eyes land on the horrifying sight of his boyfriend down on the ice with obvious pain on his face.
“Not looking good for Ilya Rozanov, who seems to be in a fair bit of pain at the moment. This injury could put an end to Boston’s winning streak and their hopes of another cup this season…”
Or, the first time Ilya gets injured after they make their relationship official.
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07 Jan 2026
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Basically: Ilya gets concussed and the hospital calls Shane (who didn’t know that Ilya had put him down as his emergency contact) and who immediately races to Boston.
(This is set during the hockey season after the last episode. They have come out to Shane’s parents and are ‘officially’ boyfriends, but Shane still plays for the Metros and Ilya still plays for Boston.)
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07 Jan 2026
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Ilya likes getting Shane riled up, it’s one of his favourite things to do. Sending him sly little winks from his bench when he scores, pushing him against the wall and kissing him dirty, just before they have to leave.
He loves the look on Shane’s face, the hunger, the fire in his eyes.
So nobody can blame him when he sees that fire, and decides to poke it just a little more.
Well, maybe Shane can, but that just adds to the fun.
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05 Jan 2026
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All witches and warlocks are omegas, and Merlin is no exception. He's hidden his presentation since the second he set foot in Camelot, for being a warlock's mate would grant incredible power- power that people would go great lengths to possess. When King Cenred of Essetir visits Camelot, Merlin finds himself the target of a man determined to bend magic to his will.
Merlin would rather die than give his magic over to anyone but Arthur. It just might come to that.
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05 Jan 2026
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"Ilya had loved him through his worst moments. Ilya had helped him find a therapist when he’d collapsed on the floor of their hotel bathroom after losing a particularly brutal game, scratching at his chest. Ilya had held him, even when Shane yelled at him because there was panic crawling under his skin and he felt as though it might claw its way out. Ilya had told him it was okay; that it didn’t make him a bad player to resent the spotlight sometimes, that it didn’t make him a bad teammate to hate the team when they were too loud and too drunk and too physical, that it didn’t make him a bad person to need space to breathe. Ilya saved him.
And look what you give him in return. You’re a shitty husband, Shane Hollander.
You don’t deserve his last name."
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content warnings: discussion of mental health, depiction of a panic attack, depiction of invasive medical procedure, depiction of violence (generally non-graphic), use of hate speech, depiction of a hate crime
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02 Jan 2026
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a college AU where Ilya and Shane, co-captains of their D1 hockey team, miss their final shot at playoffs. With their senior year slipping away from under them, their friends decide it's the perfect opportunity to finally go on an unforgettable spring break together. Ilya could have never imagined this single decision would change his life.
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or Ilya is pining after his best friend ShaneBookmarked by ApolloLeGod
31 Dec 2025
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i keep closing my eyes but i can't block you out by stardustvx
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
25 Dec 2025
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Shane has a migraine before the game. He thinks he is good enough to play up until the second when he throws up all over Ilya Rozanov’s jersey. Yes, on the ice.
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29 Dec 2025
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He can't explain it. One day, Arthur's swinging a mace at the boy with the big ears and red neckerchief and the next, he's tackling a man twice his size for having the audacity to look at Merlin wrong.
Or, Arthur protects Merlin over and over, falling a little more in love each time.
“You’re the only person in the world that I think really sees me Merlin.” Arthur confesses. "Forgive me then, for wishing harm on the people who would hurt you for just being who you are.”
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Bookmarked by ApolloLeGod
29 Dec 2025
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Boston’s last game before Christmas was in Montreal, so when Ilya Rozanov showed up at the back entrance to Shane’s apartment bundled up in a winter coat, scarf, and beanie with a wrapped package under his arm, Shane was only half surprised.
“I could have been half way to Ottawa by now,” Shane said with a gentle smile as he took a step back, allowing Ilya to enter the stairwell.
“And yet here you are,” Ilya said.
“And yet here I am,” Shane replied softly. “Is that for me?” He nodded his head at the gift.
“Maybe.” Ilya shrugged. “If you are good.”
“Such an asshole.”
“Mmm, maybe, but you are still here.”
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On December 23rd after a heated game against Montreal, Ilya shows up at Shane's house with a Christmas gift that will change the trajectory of their relationship, possibly forever.
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26 Dec 2025
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“So,” Ilya says, dragging the word out. He’s swiping at non-existent crumbs on the counter, avoiding his eyes. “You have dinner at parents on Christmas, yes?”
“Yeah.”
Ilya nods. “I can house-sit while you are away. Make place pretty, if you have decorations. Make it less boring.”
Shane’s eyebrows fly up. “What? You don’t want to come with?”
Finally, Ilya looks up at him. Hesitantly, he asks, “You want me to come with?”
Frowning, Shane says, “I– yeah. Yeah, of course. You think I invited you here just so you could spend Christmas alone?”
Looking away, Ilya shrugs. “I am intruder here, Hollander. You have family. I do not. Makes situation… difficult, maybe. You forget the world thinks we are rivals.”
“Not difficult,” Shane says immediately. “You want to come, you’re coming.”
Or: Ilya's in Montreal alone during the week leading up to the Winter Classic. Shane doesn't let him spend Christmas alone.
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- Part 4 of cjo + hr
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21 Dec 2025
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Being a beta has always meant safety for Shane Hollander. No expectations, no instincts, no distractions from hockey.
Unfortunately, he meets Ilya Rozanov.
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- Part 1 of alpha/beta hollanov
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21 Dec 2025
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everything subdural by Anonymous
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
19 Dec 2025
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Shane gets laid out cold on the ice for the first time in his career. A month later, things go sideways again, and Ilya realizes he doesn't have forever to figure it out anymore.
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20 Dec 2025
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salt in the wound by abbadonfxth
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
08 Dec 2025
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Cliff was only aiming to push the guy off the puck, maybe disrupt his stride long enough to give Rozanov time to catch up, but Hollander wasn’t expecting the hit, and it caught him at an awkward angle, knocking one of his legs out from under him.
Cliff watched as he slid uncontrolled, his momentum carrying him into the boards ahead of them at full speed. His shoulder hit first, but then Cliff heard his helmet hit the boards with a deafening crack.
For a moment, the arena was deathly silent, as though the whole crowd was holding its breath. Cliff dropped to a crouch above Hollander’s body, still splayed out on the ice. There was blood streaming out of his nose. He wasn’t moving.
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Bookmarked by ApolloLeGod
20 Dec 2025
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The plane—Ilya’s plane—is diverting to the closest airport.
Shane's next breath doesn't quite make it to his lungs. Suddenly, he is a few years in the past, hearing J.J's voice: "Woah. The Centaurs' plane had to make an emergency landing."
It's not the same. It's not.
Ilya's way home is full of delays, and Shane doesn't deal with it so well.
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16 Dec 2025
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Ilya thinks about the last night they spent together, thinks about Shane splayed out on a hotel mattress pleading for his touch, thinks about how they hadn’t even kissed, and it starts as a strange little tickle in the back of his throat. Barely-there. He could ignore it if he wanted.
Then the intensity grows, flourishes into full-blow irritation, and suddenly he’s sputtering on his Coke and attracting the attention of the woman in the first-class seat across the aisle from him. He thinks it’s just some odd coughing fit, or that he inhaled his soda on accident, so he’s shocked when he feels something soft and smooth and triangular against his tongue.
It’s not until he spits the object into the napkin he’d received with his drink that he can see what it is: a long, thin, green leaf. A sepal.
As soon as Ilya realizes what he’s looking at, he’s flooded with dread.
Ilya's known these feelings were doomed from the start. He never thought they'd literally kill him.
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Bookmarked by ApolloLeGod
16 Dec 2025