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    After launching the Irina Foundation in the fall of 2018, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov seek to affirm their newly-announced friendship and get people used to the idea that there’s more to their shared history than is commonly known. They decide that they’ll reveal new details about noteworthy moments in their shared past on the 10th anniversaries of those events.

    Chapter 1: First Meeting (Dec 2018)
    Chapter 2: Draft Day (Jun 2019)
    Chapter 3: CCM Shoot (Jul 2020)
    Chapter 4: First NHL Face Off (Oct 2020)
    Interlude: The ESPN Documentary (Nov 2020)
    Interlude: The ESPN Documentary 2.0 (Nov 2020)
    Chapter 5: First All Star Weekend (Jan 2021)

    (Or: 5 times Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov tweet about a 10th anniversary before the public knows about their relationship, and 1 time they tweet about a 10th anniversary after being involuntarily outted).

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    21 Jun 2026

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    In another timeline, Shane and Ilya hook up in room 1410, nothing goes wrong, and everything plays out exactly as we know it.

    In this one, Yuna Hollander walks in before Ilya can leave—and the seven-year situationship never gets the chance to start. Instead, through the power of miscommunication, Shane and Ilya start dating in 2010. With better support, they make better decisions. Their rivalry fizzles out before it ever has the chance to fully ignite, replaced instead by a beloved “bromance". In 2015, they come out to the NHL and the world.

    No one believes them.

     

    Or: Somehow, despite Shane and Ilya being out for two years, Scott Hunter is still considered the first openly gay player in the NHL, much to Ilya’s horror.

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    8/?
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    19 Jun 2026

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    @Ottawacentaursofficial
    Images attached:
    1. Photo of Centaurs players Zane Boodram, Evan Dykstra, Nick Chouinard, Josh Boyle, Troy Barrett, Wyatt Hayes, and, most notably in the center, Ilya Rozanov, all with their arms slung around each other and smiling.
    2. The same players keeled over laughing at something Dykstra had just said.
    3. The same players surrounding Ilya, all still laughing and talking

    🎶 The Louvre by Lorde 🎶

    Welcome to the club, Cap! Good to have you 😉 #gocentaursgo #censhockey #ilyarozanov #stanleycupplayoffs
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    The Ottawa Centaurs post a photo of all the engaged or married guys on the team, and, of course, Ilya Rozanov is in their midst.
    The Internet tries to figure out the connection of everyone in the photo.

    Set Post-Fanmailgate, but Pre-Tripgate

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    15 Jun 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 31

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    He'd come to see him the first moment he could. And he didn't look good, from what Shane can remember. He looked tired. He looked scared. You scared me.

    Shane can't risk Ilya being in the dark like that again. Maybe he shouldn't be planning to get his shit rocked again.
    --
    "Whatever. Listen Hayden, there's a reason I called you. I need you to promise to do something for me."

    "Oh so it wasn't just to hear my beautiful voice?"

    "Hayden. This is…this is serious for a minute, and then I do want to catch up."

    "What do you need?"

    "So, I'm gonna give you a phone number. Write it down somewhere. And if, if something ever happens to me again, I need you to let them know that I'm okay.

    --
    or, Shane gives Hayden Boston Lily's phone number in case of emergency, and Hayden thinks there's an emergency

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    14 Jun 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 90

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    “Shane, honey, is there someone there with you? Where’s Hayden?” Shane shook his head even though she couldn’t see him.

    “No, I’m alone,” he said.

    “You shouldn’t be,” Yuna said.

    “I have to be, Mom,” he said harshly. “No one knows.” Sure, there was Hayden, but he was probably on the phone with Jackie, reading their kids a bedtime story like he did almost every night. Other than his best friend, no one knew, and no one ever could. Shane would have to grieve Ilya like this for the rest of his life. Privately. Secretly.

    After the Centaurs’ plane seemingly vanishes into thin air, Shane knows that his life will never be the same. Not only that, but it will pause. He doesn’t have a future without Ilya. Still, time passes. With it comes more changes than Shane was expecting, one being in the form of a positive pregnancy test.

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    13 Jun 2026

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    Shappicly-Shappo OP
    Fair question! I didn’t go looking for them or anything. Doing some side work for a local moving company (just boring documentation thank god. I’m much too frail for manual labor!!!) and according to my boss it was left behind by a client ‘‘forever ago” and was never claimed. Knowing him that probably means they didn’t deliver it a decade ago and the client never called looking for it. They were doing a big storeroom clean out and were just going to toss it, so I thought I’d snag it! 

    imhavingabadtime_0158
    So, you just picked up a bunch of old journals you couldn’t read? Didn’t you say you just started grad school? Girl, are you not busy enough????

    Or Ilya loses his old journals in the move to Ottawa.

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    12 Jun 2026

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    A baby shows up on Shane's doorstep.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander spends the 2010 Prospect Cup Tournament in a small room, being questioned by police. He thinks that telling the truth will save him. Instead, he’s betrayed by his teammates and pushed to the forefront of a scandal that destroys his chances with any NHL team. Only one professional hockey league is willing to look the other way.

    Desperate to play, Shane Hollander signs a contract with the KHL, packs his things, and moves to Russia.

     

    (Or: As he grapples with a scandal, Shane gives up on the NHL and ends up playing on Ilya Rozanov’s KHL team in Moscow. Timeline compliant AU – we don’t know what Ilya was doing in 2010 before he was drafted, so it’s possible he spent some time in the KHL)

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    30 May 2026

  9. Public Bookmark 92

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    The night of the draft, when Shane gets so unsettlingly tempted by the sight of Ilya Rozanov winking at him after he’s sure their fingers touched for a moment too long on that water bottle, his mind is spinning so hard he finds himself downloading grindr and talking to some guy that might be an asshole, or might just understand him better than anyone. What follows is eight years of an emotional outlet for both of them to talk about how they really feel, unaware that they’re talking about each other...to each other.

    OR, while they’re falling into bed together in canon, they’re also falling in love through their anonymous messages and emails to one another.

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    Chapters:
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    29 May 2026

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    You all heard about sweet Hollander being outed as a "terrible boyfriend" to Lily, now get ready for menace Rozanov being outed as "whipped and clingy boyfriend" to Jane :)

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    24 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander writes romance novels. Ilya Rozanov finds out.

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    20 May 2026

  12. Public Bookmark 58

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    Six years ago a young Jane Hollander met hockey phenom Ilya Rozanov when he stayed with her parents. Six years ago they had hooked up and Jane ended up pregnant with their daughter, Lily.

    Six years ago Jane transitioned from Jane to Shane.

    After settling back into Ottawa, Ilya is suddenly traded to the Centaurs and some how shows back up into his life. Can Shane hide who he is and who Lily is? What if Ilya finds out?

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    20 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander has a secret life. No, not the one where he's hiding his trysts with his rival.

    He's a pseudonymous hockey romance author under the alias Jane Dutch.

    And the Metros WAGs have just picked up his first release for their book club...

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    Chapters:
    13/15
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    1,894
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    110,539

    17 May 2026

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    So, if this isn't a dream, then it has to be the other thing. Time travel. Which…

    Well, Shane will believe in anything if it means Ilya isn't dead.

    So, yeah, time travel. World Juniors, 2008. Meeting Ilya for the first time ever. Again. For the second time.

    Ugh.

    Well, here he goes. It can't possibly be as awkward as the first time, right?

     

    OR, The Centaurs’ plane crashes and Ilya Rozanov dies. Roughly three months later, Shane Hollander dies on the ice. He then wakes up in 2008, on the day he met Ilya Rozanov for the first time.

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    17 May 2026

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    Shane watched the first draft pick stand next to him, for the photograph.
    Number 81 gleamed in gold on the back of his Boston jersey.

    Was that deliberate?

    Had Rozonov chosen it himself?

    Or was it just a coincidence that the number stitched across Rozonov’s back was the same one that had once belonged to Hollander. Two years ago. In Russian red.

    OR

    They met at fifteen in Moscow.

    Neither of them ever really recovered.

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    19,227

    15 May 2026

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    Shane and Ilya sign with Ottawa on July 1st 2018. It goes startlingly well (apart from all the bits that don't).

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    232,761

    14 May 2026

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    “I’m here. I’m here,” comes through, finally. “Sorry, just- I’m here. What do you need?”

    “Just talk,” Ilya begs, not even caring how pathetic he sounds. “Please.”

    “Okay, okay,” Hollander breathes. “You know. I keep thinking. This isn’t right. There’s something fucking wrong.”

    “Of course there’s something wrong, Hollander! Your building is on fire!”

    “I fucking know, Rozanov!”

    Or:

    Pre-tunamelt, in peak situationship era, Hollanov’s building catches fire… with Ilya still inside.

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    Chapters:
    8/8
    Comments:
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    66,342

    13 May 2026

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    After an emotional slip in the locker room, Montreal does not take the news that Shane Hollander is gay very well. Management think they can force out their own captain by bringing in Ilya Rozanov: his rival and known womanizing asshole to the team. Unaware that Ilya is in fact the lifeline Shane needs.

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    5/?
    Comments:
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    15,612

    11 May 2026

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    When Shane Hollander got the first message he didn't think much of it. But as time goes on and the messages become increasingly dangerous, Shane has to figure out what he's willing to risk for those he loves.

    ***

    “Shane?” Ilya’s concerned voice cuts momentarily through the panic. “What is it? Everything okay?”

    Shane doesn’t look up from this phone as he responds off-handedly, “Yeah, yeah. Everything’s fine.”

    OR
    Shane has a mysterious obsessive stalker who blackmails him

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    Chapters:
    17/?
    Comments:
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    Kudos:
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    185
    Hits:
    22,310

    08 May 2026

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    On June 17th, 2017, Ilya Rozanov is declared dead following the crash of Air Canada Flight 11040.

    On June 24th, he comes back to life.

    Shane spends the intervening week on a silent retreat, more or less.

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    Chapters:
    8/8
    Comments:
    526
    Kudos:
    5,491
    Bookmarks:
    1,390
    Hits:
    59,903

    07 May 2026

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