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    After winning his third cup, Shane deeply regrets not having Ilya come down on the ice with him. Instead, he has Ilya come out with the team afterward for a very public hard launch.

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    "If this is it," Shane whispered, so quietly only Ilya could hear, "you won't face a single second of it alone."

    Ilya closed his eyes. His fingers tightened around Shane's hand with everything he had left.

    He saw the fear in Ilya’s eyes.

    Then he saw nothing.

    *******

    It was supposed to be an ordinary flight. Instead, it becomes the worst day of their lives.

    They were never meant to be on the same plane. Then the unthinkable happens. It goes down.

    As terrified passengers flee the wreckage, Shane refuses to abandon the man he loves, even as rescuers and survivors alike order him to get out. Trapped beneath twisted metal, Ilya is running out of time. And while they wait for help, the secret they've spent years protecting slips into the hands of strangers with phones.

    In an instant, the whole world is watching. Hockey can burn. The headlines can wait.

    Shane Hollander has exactly one job: keep Ilya alive.

    Because if they survive this, he'll have to protect more than Ilya's life. He'll have to protect everything they've built together against impossible odds.

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    Shane Hollander disappears from the NHL at twenty with a career-ending “injury.”

    Four years later, he’s the new assistant coach for the Ottawa Centaurs when Ilya Rozanov signs with the team. His former rival. His secret hookup. The father of his daughter.
    Ilya doesn’t know Lily exists and Shane plans to keep it that way.

    But three-year-olds don’t keep secrets, and neither do pale blue eyes.

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    Then his phone started blowing up.

    His mom was on him immediately about the summer schedule—photoshoots in Toronto, sponsor appearances, youth camps, PR events for the Voyagers. The team was calling about post-season press. Everyone wanted a piece of Shane Hollander, the perfect golden boy, the disciplined athlete who always said the right thing and smiled for the cameras.

    Standing in his apartment, watching his screen light up over and over, Shane snapped. He didn't understand why he was hyperventilating or why he felt like he was losing his mind, but he knew with certainty that if he let his mom or the team control him for one more second, he was going to shatter into pieces.

    He didn't explain himself, nor did he answer a single text.

    Shane tapped into his settings, pulled up his contacts, and went down the line blocking everyone. His mom. His agent. The Voyagers' PR manager. Ilya. He booked a flight to Kansai, packed three shirts and his passport into a bag, and left his phone face down on the kitchen counter. He was getting on a plane to Kyoto for one reason: to figure out what the fuck was wrong with him.

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  5. Public Bookmark 28

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    I do not think you’re happy here. Not in a way that matters. But I have a good feeling about New York. Don’t you?

    J.J. had never wanted to leave the Voyageurs. It was the team he'd been drafted to, and it was supposed to be the team he retired from. They're his hometown team—his second family. But when an unwanted trade sends him to the New York Admirals, he's forced to face some uncomfortable truths about the toxic environment he'd left behind.
    Thrown into a group of friends who love and support each other unconditionally, J.J. finds some important things he didn't even realize he'd been missing all along—a community, a home, a piece of himself. And maybe, if he can be brave enough, a person to love who sees him in a way no one else ever has.

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    After they reunite at the 2017 All Stars Game, Shane asked Ilya to spend his heat with him. It was almost certainly a bad idea, but that never stopped them before and it certainly won't start now.

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    Finally, something dawns on him, a way to handle two goals simultaneously. He’d seen Hollander’s mother flipping through papers rapidly when they first got here, seeming calm and in control and more than a little frightening in a way that made Ilya mildly glad he wasn’t one of the people responsible for a clipboard. If anyone can tell him if the long list of “Prohibited Items” he’d been sent in his email a few days ago is just standard practice for big shoots, it would be Yuna Hollander.

    Or, hopefully, her son.

    “Crazy we cannot even have peanut butter, eh?” He asks. “You also got giant list?”

    Hollander stiffens, almost imperceptibly, and Ilya tilts his head, just slightly, confused, wondering if he’s stumbled somewhere unexpected.

    (how ilya learns about shane's allergies) (and shane's sexual awakening tragically hits a speedbump in the process 😔)

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    "You sure about this?” Pike asked as Ilya made it to the door.

    The scent was so strong here it felt like Ilya was walking through a cloud of aerosolized candy. It felt sticky on his skin, in his hair. Ilya could feel the warm flush on the tops of his ears, across his cheeks. He blinked a few times, letting the beta’s words sink in. “Yes, fine,” he growled back.

    Thankfully, it didn’t seem like Pike was affected at all, thanks to his scent-blind beta nose. “So… there’s no easy way to say this,” the man said nervously. “The guys totally fucked up.” He handed over a plain black wallet.

    Ilya opened it, found the Boston College ID card and pulled it out. A handsome Asian boy looked back at him. He had short black hair, warm golden skin, and dark eyes. There was a shadow stretched across his cheeks, something Ilya couldn’t quite make out in the tiny picture. Shane Hollander, the card read. Sophmore. 

    “How the hell do they make this mistake?” Ilya half-shouted. He snarled again, fought against it, got his face under control. “Fuck.” 

    “Yeah,” Pike agreed. “Fuck.”

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    Sometimes the first step in finding true love is to accidentally kidnap the wrong guy.

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    14 Sep 2026

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    David Hollander carefully re-arranged his index cards. He was shocked when Shane asked him to speak at their rehearsal dinner. Shocked that he was the choice over any number of boisterous hockey players that would gladly volunteer to get a chance to chirp at Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov's love story. But maybe that was why he was picked, maybe that was why Ilya had insisted. They wanted something that spoke to who they really were- who he and Yuna had gotten to see more and more over of the last four years. So he gripped his cards and he let out a breath he held a little too tight- here's to the snippets of their love story that no one else witnessed.

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    01 Sep 2026

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    After the Sochi Olympics, Ilya ghosted Shane for almost six months. He reaches out for the first time on the eve of his Stanley Cup win with one request.

    Lily: Come to Boston.

    Shane isn’t sure he should.

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    “Luch-Shane,” Ilya says, catching himself only at the last moment before he breaks their no pet names in the workplace rule. “Why don’t you get some air, yes? We can-”

    Shane’s anxiety takes a quick backseat to annoyance once more, at being handled like a child instead of a grown man, like he hasn’t been doing this just as long as Ilya, like he needs someone to tell him when to take a break.

    Like he deserved to have everything taken away from him because he couldn’t handle it to start with.

    “I’m fine,” he says, voice icy.

    The step he takes away is too big, farther than he meant to get from Ilya’s side, and the air between them feels both charged and icy.

    He isn’t quite bold enough to try and fix it.

    (shane is married and on the same team as his husband) (and all it cost him was his whole career and the life he spent years building beforehand) (but it's fine, really) (it's all so very, very fucking fine)

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    03 Jul 2026

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    “...oh,” his mom says. “Oh, honey, you were seeing someone? You never said anything.”

    “It’s-it’s complicated.” He catches the present tense too fucking late to do anything about it, and he barely resists the urge to either groan or slip forward to start beating his head against the coffee table.

    Fuck his fucking life.

    “You’re still…seeing this person?” His mom asks, and the amount of control he can hear her exerting is almost painful. “Who is-”

    “Yuna,” his dad cuts in, voice quiet, “maybe give him a second, yeah?”

    Yeah, Shane agrees in his head. Give him a second.

    Maybe give him a decade while they’re at it.

    (when shane's old fake id falls out of his wallet around his parents, he has to explain that it was to book hotel rooms before he was 21)

    (...and then he has to explain why he needed to book those hotel rooms in the first place)

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    “-can’t see each other again,” Ilya says, looking only at Shane’s hand, holding it so, so gently and stroking over Shane’s skin so, so softly. The soothing feeling of it makes it very hard to focus, but Shane tries very hard to do it anyway. “I tried-we tried, but this can’t happen again.” It takes a moment, but Shane finally manages to make sense of the words, and he lets out a soft noise of understanding.

    Ah. He’s apologizing that he won’t be able to see Shane in the hospital again before he leaves.

    “I understand,” he says, and he does. It was probably really hard for Ilya to get here even once, and it can’t be very long before his plane leaves. He’s sad, of course–they didn’t even get to spend time together, really–but it’s not like this will be the last chance they ever have to see each other. He gives Ilya his best attempt at a smile, and if it comes out a little sad, too, all Ilya does is reach out to stroke the backs of his fingers gently over his cheek.

    (ilya goes through with his plan to break up with shane in the hospital) (the problem? shane is too high to understand that he's being broken up with)

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