1 - 20 of 42 Bookmarks by Ikaros_falling
Navigation
List of Bookmarks
-
Tags
Summary
Five Moments in Neil's Cryptic pregnancy.
Bookmarked by Ikaros_falling
11 Jan 2026
-
a place where apples have faces too by okayantigone
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
04 Aug 2017
Tags
Summary
It was ugly and unfair that Nathan should be allowed to move on from everything, when Neil’s mom still couldn’t make herself take a shower for days sometimes. It shouldn’t be like this. Mary should be the one living it up, seducing young lovers, and having a real life, while Nathan wasted away behind closed doors, too paranoid to show his hateful face outside.
His therapist would say he was upset because he’d never really gotten closure with his father, but the only closing Neil wanted from Nathan Wesninski was a closed casket funeral and eulogy to let everyone in attendance know what a piece of shit the man had been in life. He imagined his mother and Ichirou at the funeral. Ex wife. Mistress. All the potential for these things to be funny, but they were happening to him in reality and his bones were on fire with something ugly and foreign. He wanted to lash out meanly and with violence.
He wanted his father to apologize. To acknowledge that this was bad. He wanted something from Nathan, but he didn’t know what it was, so he couldn’t phrase it.
Also known as the one where Mary and Nathan got divorced earlier on in the books, and Ichirou is Neil's inappropriately young stepfather.
Bookmarked by Ikaros_falling
23 Dec 2025
-
Tags
Summary
“I have baggage.”
“All my foxes have baggage. You won’t be the first.” Wymack said.
Neil doubted any fox in all Wymack’s years has carried the same weight as Neil when it came to baggage.
“That's not what I mean.”
“Go on. Let’s hear it then.”
The coach waited patiently for him to continue. It should have been comforting but Neil was far more scared than ever.
“I have a son. His name’s Milo.”
____
OR what if Neil had a kid when he was on the run?Self-indulgent fic I didn't expect anyone to care about but my sister pushed me to write it
SLOW UPDATES
Series
- Part 1 of Miloverse
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 307,005
- Chapters:
- 52/103
- Comments:
- 996
- Kudos:
- 3,276
- Bookmarks:
- 565
- Hits:
- 125,439
Bookmarked by Ikaros_falling
22 Dec 2025
-
Tags
Summary
Andrew doesn't know when it happens, so absorbed in his work that he doesn't notice when he starts to rumble loudly. He doesn't even care that this is probably only the second time he's let his emotions get the better of him and allowed the sound to escape. All that matters now is the person he loves in front of him and the one Neil is carrying under his heart. Nothing else matters.
Bookmarked by Ikaros_falling
20 Dec 2025
-
Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day by HalfpintPeach for Paradoxolotl
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
16 Sep 2022
Tags
Summary
Neil has one of the worst days and Andrew is able to make it a little bit better.
Welcome to my Professor Neil and Professional Exy Player Andrew world! This is probably going to be a series where I explore more of this little AU that I love dearly!
Series
- Part 2 of Professor Neil
Bookmarked by Ikaros_falling
15 Dec 2025
-
(Accidentally) made with love by Andriel_4evermore
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
28 Oct 2025
Tags
Summary
“Columbia this weekend.”
Neil’s pen stilled, blue eyes flicking up. “Oh. All of us?”
“Just us,” Andrew said, stare heavy with promise.
Neil’s lips curved, a faint, knowing smile, and he nodded. That was all Andrew needed.
____
It’s Neil’s second year in PSU, he’s a vice captain and more busy than ever.
Andrew is pissy and frustrated, after not touching Neil for more than three weeks and being interrupted every time he did. He decided on taking matters into his own hands.
That means Columbia and them for the weekend, nothing can go wrong with that, right?
Except- maybe for the little surprise that’s gonna rock their world in the next few weeks.
Bookmarked by Ikaros_falling
06 Dec 2025
-
Tags
Summary
Neil has never had a pleasant heat experience with a life on the road, running from the mob, the countless identities, and living day to day. Needless to say Neil doesn't expect it to be any better in the dorms. Thankfully, Andrew's a more grounding presence than people give him credit for and he's more than enough of a safe harbor for Neil.
Bookmarked by Ikaros_falling
29 Nov 2025
-
Tags
Summary
After his life calmed down some, Neil Josten finally had the chance to take down some of his walls. Some of these walls were built against others, some were walls he built against himself. These were the ones he tried to keep the most intact.
Neil deals with a lot alone. It goes too far and someone has to help him. But only he can save himself.
Bookmarked by Ikaros_falling
11 Nov 2025
-
Tags
Summary
Andrew notices the small pudge of fat on Neil’s stomach, his thicker thighs, and muscular arms. Neil’s gotten bigger and Andrew thinks it is the best thing in the world because his cheeks are fuller and he is healthy.
Eating what you want and not over doing it during exercise is all fun until there’s a bitch behind your ear telling you you’ve gotten bigger and slower, and you will cost them the season. (Kevin and Aaron are bitches)
Incoming negative body thoughts and bad habits with food.
Bookmarked by Ikaros_falling
01 Nov 2025
-
Tags
Summary
“Shut up.”
“I didn’t say anything–”
“Sleep, Neil.” Andrew’s tone is demanding, and before Neil can even argue back further, he breaks out in a yawn. He rolls his eyes at Andrew’s slight smug expression, and slips his eyes closed. Neil places his hand back out next to him, and feels a fluttering in his chest when Andrew links their pinkies together. It’s enough.
It has to be.
or;
Neil has a bad nightBookmarked by Ikaros_falling
30 Oct 2025
-
Tags
Summary
Neil Josten was a liar before he was anything else. In the nest, sometimes his choices were between lying and dying. He’d had a decent amount of self preservation that he’d chosen the former. But now, being free, the world felt so heavy. He wished he’d chosen dying.
Bookmarked by Ikaros_falling
30 Oct 2025
-
control doesn't come without a steep price to pay by CHARLIEAF
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
02 Feb 2019
Tags
Summary
Up until this year with the Foxes, running had been Neil’s control. He would never let himself get close to anyone or enjoy something too much even after his mom was out of the picture, it was his own way of reminding him who he was and where he came from. Then, he met Andrew and the rest of his team and came to grow attached to them. He made promises, ones that were important and expected of him to keep. So, he devised a new plan to get his control back.
* * *
Please read!! the!! tags!! ily and i dont want u to get triggered n sad >:(((Bookmarked by Ikaros_falling
30 Oct 2025
-
Tags
Summary
Neil is fine, after it's all over. He doesn't have anything to be upset about anymore.
That's why it's definitely not a problem that he's not eating.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 1,956
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Collections:
- 1
- Comments:
- 20
- Kudos:
- 1,330
- Bookmarks:
- 132
- Hits:
- 16,518
Bookmarked by Ikaros_falling
30 Oct 2025
-
hang me up to dry by orphan_account
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic, the foxhole court
20 Apr 2016
Tags
Summary
There’s a chance he’s been looking at the food with a pondering gaze for far too long. Andrew picks up on it, obviously.
(neil is not okay, this is a drabble)Bookmarked by Ikaros_falling
30 Oct 2025
-
Tags
Summary
He would never force Andrew through something he didn't want, but he needed to admit, at least to himself, that him deciding that he didn't want to accompany Neil through his decision would break him a little bit inside, taking with him a piece of him that could never be filled again.
But he won't let himself be like them, and so, he wants him to choose for himself.
Or, where Neil is pregnant and he needs to tell Andrew.
Bookmarked by Ikaros_falling
25 Oct 2025
-
Tags
Summary
If someone asked Nicholas Hemmick which events in his life were turning points, he would name:
When his parents rejected him after finding out he was an omega.
Moving to Germany.
Taking custody of the twins.
But most likely, he would say it was Neil Josten showing up on his doorstep — with a baby in his arms.
An AU where Andrew and Neil met long before Palmetto, accidentally ended up with a child, and now the monsters are trying to piece their lives together and get used to the new member of the family.
Bookmarked by Ikaros_falling
25 Oct 2025
-
Tags
Summary
Trans Neil finds out the hard way why you shouldn't bind with bandages. (And Andrew calls him a moron for it)
Bookmarked by Ikaros_falling
24 Oct 2025
-
Hope Was A Dangerous, Disquieting Thing by BisexualChaosDemon
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
21 Nov 2024
Tags
Summary
When Neil was fourteen, his father caught up to them in Seattle and he got separated from Mary. Unfortunately, neither of them escaped unscathed, but they did escape despite all the odds. They manage to reunite at one of their emergency rendezvous and take off running.
That's where their luck ran out though because they only made it to California before Mary's injuries finally bested her. In the end, his mother couldn't go on but she made Neil promise to keep running because one of them had to make it. With no other choice, Neil burned her body, buried her ashes on the beach, and did what he had promised.
Then, impossibly, things went from bad to worse — After a month of just sort of drifting in his grief, Neil found out he was pregnant.
Series
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 440,092
- Chapters:
- 52/52
- Collections:
- 1
- Comments:
- 1,250
- Kudos:
- 2,978
- Bookmarks:
- 634
- Hits:
- 127,253
Bookmarked by Ikaros_falling
18 Oct 2025
-
Tags
Summary
After years of brutal abuse, Neil is adjusting to life with his new adoptive family, but healing isn’t easy. Trapped between the weight of his past and the chaos of his present, he struggles to trust, connect, and belong. Then Andrew shows up, forcing Neil to face and heal, to confront what it really means to be safe, and seen.
Bookmarked by Ikaros_falling
29 Sep 2025
-
Tags
Summary
“Did you puke again?” Kevin barks, incredulous from his spot on the couch, when Neil finally leaves the bathroom that morning, “Go to a fucking doctor before it affects your game.”
Neil simply flipped the other man off on his way into the kitchen. Sidling up to Andrew he accepts the offered donut, hoping to clear out the stomach acid taste. The nausea would go away by practice so why should he?
“Oh my God, your rubbing off on him,” Kevin continues, this time directing his complaint at Andrew.
In a similar fashion to Neil, Andrew also flipped off the health nut.
***
This time a Neil mpreg- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 8,325
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Collections:
- 3
- Comments:
- 21
- Kudos:
- 1,331
- Bookmarks:
- 119
- Hits:
- 13,297
Bookmarked by Ikaros_falling
27 Sep 2025