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    Loving Shane Hollander had taught Ilya Rozanov how to slow down.

    They had a plan now. A life that made sense. Something quiet, stable, and boring, and for once, Ilya believed peace might be something he could actually have, not just something he pretended not to want.

    Then Troy Barrett arrives from Toronto and starts looking at what Ilya has built, like it’s something he might be able to take if he flirts and schemes. Like peace might be something he needs too, after the mess he left behind with his old team.

    Ilya tells himself it’s nothing, "A misunderstanding", so he plays captain. He plays nice.

    But loathing has always come easier than love, and once everything starts to unravel, Ilya learns there are only so many times you can choose 'a misunderstanding' before you are forced to show how far you’ll go to keep Shane Hollander to yourself and let yourself unravel in the meantime.

    Or

    Troy Barrett wants Shane badly enough to burn with the ship. Ilya is determined to get rid of him before everything between him and his freckled love falls apart and what happens after it does?

    Ilya’s POV of jealousy, mental health journeys and the miscommunication final boss rollercoaster

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    31 May 2026

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    My greatest accomplishment is the life I’ve built with you

    I would trade every trophy, every award for just one more minute with you

    I need you to know that

    Or What if Shane had been the one on the plane? What if Ilya was the one to receive the fateful Instagram messages? What would happen in the aftermath?

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    30 May 2026

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    Crying

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    Once upon a time, in the city of angels, Shane Hollander took a brief journey to hell and back.

    Dying and coming back as a vampire at the age of twenty-seven was never part of Shane's longterm plan, but just because he's now staring the desolate perpetuity of immortality in the face doesn't mean that anything about his life has to change. He can still play hockey. He can still win another Cup. He can still keep his secrets. The only difference is that he has to drink a little bit of blood sometimes. No big deal.

    So what happens when Shane's trusted blood delivery service sends a handsome feeder to his doorstep and all of his careful plans suddenly become dust in the wind? What do we do with desire when we're so used to denying ourselves of it?

    OR; Shane is a rich vampire, Ilya is a broke grad student, and they enter into a mutually beneficial arrangement that involves a lot of blood, biting, and gay sex.

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    27 May 2026

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    Oooo nice take on vampires

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    A nineteen-year-old Shane Hollander is a completely normal college student-- well, almost. In between studying and lectures, he kills vampires.

    In a world where vampires crawl the earth, feeding on the innocent, there has to be someone to stop them. Or multiple someones. Shane is one of them, more out of tradition than anything else. He doesn't take pleasure in killing vampires like other hunters do. Despite this, he continues to hunt, to protect the earth from these dangerous, unpredictable, bloodthirsty monsters.

    Ilya Rozanov is also a completely normal nineteen-year-old college student. Other than the tiny little hiccup that he's one of the bloodthirsty monsters Shane's grown-up hunting.

    Despite their differences, this unlikely duo teams up in an attempt to find what vampire has been going around killing hunters.

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    27 May 2026

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    What if Shane, on the night he died with a ring still in his pocket and apologies still on his lips, was given an impossible gift? What if the love of his life's own mother—the woman whose death haunted her son, whose spirit had been bound to earth by grief and unfinished love—offered him a chance to go back?

    Not to the moment of the crash, but further.

    All the way back.

    To the summer before.

    What if Shane could keep every memory of thirty-one years of life, every fight, every kiss, every sacrifice, every moment he was too afraid to say the words that mattered most and do it all over again?

    The universe is full of knots, a ghostly Irina tells him.

    And sometimes, if you're lucky, a thread can be rewoven.

    FYI, the block button and I are besties.

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    24 May 2026

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    A notification lit up the screen on Kip’s phone, and the message caught Scott’s eye.

    Boston: if you come over tonight, i will let you swallow my cock

    Boston: or maybe i will fuck you so good you will scream my name when you come

    Boston: your choice

    What the hell?!

    Scott tossed the phone across the bed as if it had scalded him, his cheeks burning.

    ***
    After a series of explicit texts and odd excuses, Scott Hunter begins to suspect that his boyfriend is cheating on him. Why else would Kip lie to him about visiting a hotel at night?

    Meanwhile, Kip is just trying to help his friend Ilya Rozanov with his relationship with Shane Hollander, and keeping it a secret from the world.

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    24 May 2026

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    Funny

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    A song starts, one Shane has definitely never heard before, and one spotlight illuminates the stage. A singular man with a large frame is revealed, and his body is shrouded in shadow, which piques Shane’s interest. His shoulders are broad and well-muscled, and he’s wearing a fucking toga, which Shane finds kind of hilarious. He lets out a high pitched giggle, and Rose elbows him as she sips her drink. He follows suit, taking a long pull of the vodka, because goddamn this man is downright godly. Shane can see each dip and depression, the shadows from the spotlight throwing him into stark contrast. His body is made of lean lines and bulging muscle, and Shane is already enthralled.

    As the song picks up the man’s chin tilts up, revealing hazel eyes and plush, pink lips. His jaw is stubbled but not bearded, and his light curls gleam in the light. Everything about him is fucking attractive, but Shane assumes if you put your body on display for money, you better look the part. Even with that in mind, Shane is vaguely aware of wanting to put his tongue all over this man’s glorious body.

    Ilya is a stripper living in LA who captures the attention of hockey player Shane Hollander. This is the story of their relationship.

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    23 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Very sweet, some light internalised self-doubt from Ilya but nothing too bad

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    ----
    DADDYLONGDICK81
    ➥okay i'll come but
    ➥i wont be alone
    ➥i will come with someone

    He managed to find himself a decent shirt, even if it was a bit wrinkled, and put it on. He fixed his hair while gathering Raisa's things into their bag. The bag that had multiple Hello Kitty stickers all over it.

    HOCKEYBOY24
    ➥What?
    ➥I thought I was very clear when I said I'm not interested in threesomes or anything like that. I'm looking for something serious.

    DADDYLONGDICK81
    ➥no no it is ABSOLUTELY nothing like that i swear
    ➥i will explain when we get there
    ➥please just give me a chance
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    or: a broke, single girl-dad ilya rozanov goes on a grindr date with one rich shane hollander.

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    17 May 2026

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    So cute

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    ~And from your lips, he drew the Hallelujah

    Ilya Rozanov leaves Boston and signs with Ottawa, trying to fight a slow slide into emptiness and find meaning in his life again. Shane Hollander is a lonely, struggling artist who lost his spark. When they meet by chance, they both have to decide what's worth living for.

    Or…Shane never gets the chance to become a pro hockey player, so they meet later in life. Basically, they’re both sad boys, but the healing will be worth it. More baggage, fewer hangups.

    ~You see I used to live alone before I knew ya.

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    “So maybe we would have played together,” Ilya said.

    “Yeah. Maybe we would have been rivals,” Shane said, and that got a grin out of him. He couldn’t quite imagine it, but he thought that would have been fun, facing off against Ilya Rozanov. In another life.

    Ilya nodded slowly. “And yet here we are, meeting anyway. Maybe we were meant to.”

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    16 May 2026

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    So warm and lovely

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    Rose volunteers for a nonprofit that rescues sex-trafficked omegas, and Shane thinks it's a great cause. He even attends their fundraising galas.

    Then, one night, Rose calls to ask for a favor: She wants Shane to let a recently-rescued male omega live with him. In his apartment.

    His name is Ilya, Rose explains, and the thing is, despite omega hormone levels, he acts and smells just like an alpha. He can't keep staying in an omega group home because he's scaring the other omegas and endangering the staff.

    But he could live with Shane, Rose insists. "You're a big strong alpha hockey player, so he can't intimidate you physically. But also he needs to feel safe, which he can with you, because you're not like other alphas." She pauses. "You know?"

    By which she means Shane has never had a full rut, his scent glands barely work, he can't form a knot, and he has no interest in sticking his dick in anyone. Which, whatever. It's fine.

    But if being a failure as an alpha means he can help this omega, Ilya, who's apparently as much of a biological anomaly as Shane is…

    Shane says yes.

    And maybe it's a stupid decision. But he knows that it's also the right one.

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    14 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Ok this is super interesting as someone who isn't really into omegaverse.

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    Ilya doesn’t die when his plane goes down. But he forgets.

    When Ilya is marked as missing from the Centaurs’ plane crash, nobody knows why Shane’s game goes to shit. Benched by his coach, Shane goes to the place Ilya was last seen: the Blue Ridge Mountains. A story about finding yourself when you don’t know who you are, and about falling in love with the same person twice.

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    14 May 2026

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    So lovely

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    It's the festive season, and university student Ilya needs a job.

    Lush is hiring.

    Also Known As: Ilya: Worlds Worst Lush Employee

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    12 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander, a well booked, in demand model is back for the summer for a well deserved break. It was all going so well until his car decides to break down. Unsure of what to do, he calls the first garage he can find, not expecting to meet the most infurtiating, aggravating and beautiful man he had ever seen.

    Or,

    Shane's a brat who is used to getting what he wants, Ilya Rozanov doesn't give into a pretty face that easy.

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    12 May 2026

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    The daddy/baby dynamic works so well

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    It wasn’t that Ilya was jealous. It was just that…he sort of was.

    It's finally the off-season, and Ilya cannot wait for a perfectly boring summer at the cottage with his perfectly boring husband.

    Shane, however, has other ideas.

    (AKA Ilya gets jealous of a plant.)

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    09 May 2026

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    Read it twice and you'll cry

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    “Seeing you smile like that, it makes me want to give you all of this,” he called out, making a sweeping gesture across the ice.

    Shane turned back to look at him, eyes bright, and laughed. “Canadian Tire Centre? I know you’re rich, Rozanov, but an entire arena is a pretty big real estate investment.”

    Ilya pushed off, skating to a stop in front of him, knowing his expression had morphed into something serious. “Hockey, Hollander. It should have been yours.”

    Or, everything that happens when your dreams don’t come true.

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    07 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Loved this like Shane is such a slut (in a good way)

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    In another life — or maybe the next one, or maybe the one before — Ilya Rozanov learns that some roads only lead to one place. No matter how you take them, the wolves are always waiting at the end.

    Maybe that's why, in December 2008, Ilya wakes up with the distinct, inexplicable sense, that he has already lived this life before.

    Some things, it turns out, are inevitable. The question is whether he is.

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    05 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Very interesting take on time travel trope

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    Newly traded to the Ottawa Centaurs, Ilya Rozanov is so close to having everything he’d never thought he was allowed to want. He can see the man he loves more than four times a year, he’s surrounded by a team who supports him through his injury, and Shane’s parents have unhesitatingly accepted him as part of the family.

    Except his lingering concussion symptoms have kept him sidelined from hockey, his boyfriend is still two hours away, their schedules are a disaster, and Shane’s team is, well…it’s full of assholes. There must be a way to make this all work out.

    or

    A sequel to a whump fanfiction with more whump…that is also, secretly, a fix-it.

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    02 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Love this version of Shane

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    He doesn’t mean for it to happen that way. He sees the asphalt before he reaches it.

    He thinks, Ilya.

    He doesn’t remember much after that.

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    SHANE HOLLANDER, CAPTAIN OF MONTREAL METROS, FOUND UNRESPONSIVE AFTER FALLING FROM APARTMENT BALCONY
    The incident occurred mere hours after rumors of the hockey star’s sexuality started circulating, stemming from an online video of a private conversation between the young captain and actress Rose Landry. There is no update on his current status after being moved to…

    Or, Shane gets outed and accidentally hurts himself, the world thinks he's tried to end his life, and Ilya struggles to come to terms with mortality in more than one sense of the word.

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    02 May 2026

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    Breathtaking

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    Comic book nerd and longtime fan of The Away Team (TAT), Shane Hollander, finally gets the chance to see his favorite rising punk band in person! But when a small mishap leads to him coming face to face with his favorite band member, their bassist and song writer, Ilya Rozanov, everything changes for him.

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    02 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    So fun to read this with the graphics

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    Ilya is not the kind of person who gets attached to people he pays.

    Unfortunately, Shane exists.

    Or: debt-ridden escort Shane keeps taking worse clients. Ilya is one of them, and he develops a deeply inconvenient crush about it.

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    02 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Haunting

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