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    Ilya Rozanov has been saying I love you into the void his whole life.

    To his mother’s cold hands at twelve, making promises she can’t hear. To his teammates through fist bumps in tunnel rituals that cost nothing because they ask for nothing. To a sleeping man, in Russian, because his native language is the only container safe enough for what he actually feels. To a country he is slowly losing the ability to love back.

    He keeps saying it. No one says it back.

    Until they do.

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    selbindery (on ao3 and instagram!) has fic bound this entire series and it is so, so wonderful, please go check out their beautiful work of art here:

    https://www.instagram.com/p/DWhgjfuFsVr/?igsh=MTlmbDBvbDBmMG55bQ==

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    28 Mar 2026

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    “I want our family,” Ilya said. “I want children. Permanence, I think is the word... A life with you. More than anything.”

    Shane felt his throat tighten. “I want that too.”

    Ilya nodded, eyes swelling. “I know. That is why I need to say everything now. Before I lose the nerve.”

    He took Shane’s hands, grounding himself. “I am trying to be strong for you. But I need you to be strong for me too.”

    “I am,” Shane said immediately, almost offended.

    “I know,” Ilya said. “But I need you to listen.”

    Shane nodded. “I am listening.”

    “I do not want to play hockey much longer,” Ilya said quietly. “Maybe couple more seasons. And then I am done.”

    Shane stared at him. “Done?”

    “Yes.”

    “With hockey. You’re serious?”

    “Very,” Ilya said.

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    Set one year after The Long Game, this story follows the fallout of a commissioner who refuses to loosen his grip, and the players who finally refuse to bend.

    Shane and Ilya are done playing by the rules of others. They're ready for a life, a family, each other and determining what their legacy really is. They're ready to play for keeps.

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    A place to stir the Hollanov brain soup

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