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    When the unsentimental financial imperative of the NHL sees Shane traded to the Boston Raiders, he and Ilya are thrown into closer extended proximity than ever before. As they adjust to life as teammates, they are forced to contend with the nature of their relationship -and must answer for themselves: is it even a relationship at all?
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    Sliding down the wall, Shane hunched over his untied sneakers, shoved on hastily when Coach had called him in for a meeting after morning skate.

    “Boston wanted you specifically. I’ve already spoken to their GM. You’re flying this evening or tomorrow morning: I’ll confirm once the paperwork clears.”

    “Mom,” Shane managed.

    “Oh sweetie. I know, okay. Those fuckers, how dare they do this! Two fucking cups! Now all of a sudden they decide they want a reset and you’re going to fund it.”

    Shane put his head between his knees and tried to breathe. God, Boston. They hated him there; it was so far away; he was fucking their captain.

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    09 Mar 2026

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    might read later

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    Shane Hollander has built himself around routine, his life blood is hockey. Struggling to understand his team off the ice and the people around him, he carves out a few silent hours to himself. It's just him and his skates. But the hard fought peace is fragile, like cracks in too thin ice. It only takes a slight impact to shatter. Shane is fighting to hold his team and himself together as everything comes crashing down around him.

    Someone hacks into Rose Landry's phone in a club, they then release the images of Shane's texts online and all hell breaks loose. Shane is left to pick up the pieces. Ilya makes some choices in the aftermath that change everything where as Shane decides to stop hiding and Ilya is a possessive asshole who makes it everyone else's problem. With far less reason to hide himself anymore, Shane begins to show more of who he really is behind the polite, media worthy façade. Maybe he can have both Hockey and Ilya. The world will just have to deal with it.

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    Chapters:
    44/?
    Comments:
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    09 Mar 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    might read this later

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    “What did you actually think?”

    He can’t help it. He looks at Ilya. Ilya only stares at him. “I say that now, in hindsight. Back then, I wasn’t thinking. Not really. It would come to me in waves, the anxiety, the fear. Most of the time,” he says. “I was just…”

    “Waiting for me to speak?” Ilya offers.

    Shane shakes his head, “I was trying to make it to tomorrow with you alive.”

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    Ilya and Shane work to find themselves, and each other, again after Ilya's suicide attempt.

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    1/1
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    09 Mar 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    this one changed my brain chemistry

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    Odd-Man Rush: The situation that occurs when a team enters the attacking zone and outnumbers the opposing players in the zone.

    Or,

    Shane doesn’t know why he still feels so off-kilter. He should be the happiest he’s ever been—he won the Cup, he feels like he’s maybe starting to have a few friends on his team, and he’s finally starting to believe his parents when they tell him he won’t get traded again. He should be on top of the world, but sometimes he still feels like the lone defender on an odd-man rush, skating as fast as he can to prevent what feels like an inevitable outcome.

    The problem is that he’s not quite sure which outcome it is that he’s trying to stop.

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    Words:
    13,616
    Chapters:
    2/?
    Comments:
    797
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    3,864
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    47,487

    09 Mar 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    waiting on update

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    “How can Montreal be snowed in?” Ilya asks. “They are not ready for winter?”

    “It’s Montreal, man,” Marleau snickers, like that's an explanation.

    Ilya’s phone buzzes.

    Jane- 9:44 a.m.- Look on the bright side. If you’re stuck another day, you can come back here.

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    After Ilya leaves Shane’s apartment for the first time, he knows he’s on thin ice and at risk of falling into more serious feelings. He’s ready to put distance back between them.

    A Montreal blizzard has other ideas.

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    20/?
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    07 Mar 2026

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    Waiting for update

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    “Am I speaking with Ilya Grigorievich Rozanov?”

    Ilya went silent immediately. That was not his brother’s voice. Nor was it Katia’s, his sister-in-law’s. It was an aristocratic, cold voice. He went completely still.

    “Yes.”

    “I’m calling from the Child Services Department, Ilya Grigorievich,” the woman continued, and Ilya frowned deeply. “Your brother Alexei Rozanov and his wife died yesterday in a car accident.”

    Twice in his life, Ilya had felt like this. The ice around his heart melted just enough for the numbness to vanish and give way to a sharp, stinging pain. It lasted only two seconds before he managed to compose himself. He didn’t want to feel anything for Alexei, so even if Katia’s death carried a trace of sadness—she was a mess, but she always tried to smile at him and cook warm meals for him when he visited Russia—, he dismissed the feeling entirely.

    “So what?”

    “You are the only living family member of their daughter. Your brother named you as her legal guardian, Ilya Grigorievich.”

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    01 Mar 2026

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    Waiting for an update

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    Shane Hollander is hockey’s closeted golden boy with everything to hide. Ilya Rozanov is a professional Dom with everything to lose and an expired visa.

    Through their arrangement at a discreet Montreal kink bar, where NDAs protect secrets and sessions are charged per hour, they discover the most dangerous thing isn’t being caught—it’s wanting more than those hours allow.

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    Chapters:
    12/?
    Collections:
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    Comments:
    9,620
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    28 Feb 2026

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    Waiting on updates

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    Life after Heated Rivalry from Yuna's POV, with lots of texting.

    Technically a sequel to "Shane's Lily", but you don't need to read that in order to understand this.

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    Chapters:
    8/?
    Comments:
    645
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    53,366

    26 Feb 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Waiting for update

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    For Shane Hollander, life has always been about playing a part. On the ice, he plays the best (or second best, depending on who you ask) hockey player in a generation. With his family, he plays the role of golden boy - kind and resilient and responsible. Even with Ilya, Shane has a part to play; reliable, happy, secure.

    But after the big move to Ottawa and a summer full of life changes, Shane can't catch his footing. This is supposed to be the start to the best chapter of his life – so why does he feel like he's drowning?

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    Shane Hollander-Rozanov navigates an Autism diagnosis during his first season as an Ottawa Centaur.

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    Chapters:
    6/12
    Comments:
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    26 Feb 2026

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    Waiting for update

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    His outstretched glove hangs there, frozen, as the noise of the arena mutates into a ringing buzz. Then he’s moving, pushed away by Marlow, and then Boston’s goalie. There’s a flurry of movement, a trainer with a towel, more blood dripping onto the ice, and he just. Stands there. Staring.

    Ilya is helped off the ice. Shane doesn’t even tap his stick.

    Remember when Sidney Crosby caught a puck with his jaw? That doesn't happen to Shane. That happens to Ilya.

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    Chapters:
    8/9
    Comments:
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    22 Feb 2026

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    Waiting on update

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    Six months ago, Shane’s intimate conversation and break-up with Rose Landry was recorded and leaked. In those six months, his life had completely upended and everything had changed, for better or for worse. Except for Ilya. He still has Ilya, and he’s beginning to understand that he always will.

    It’s 2018. Shane Hollander has to figure out his new life, in a new city, on a new team, while being out to the world but not by his own choice. Ilya, along for the ride, also has to learn what it means to be connected to a place, to a person, and to his own inner truth.

    (Sequel to “something you can fix,” set post-Heated Rivalry, pre-The Long Game)

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    Words:
    96,881
    Chapters:
    13/13
    Collections:
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    Comments:
    7,197
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    33,719
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    8,140
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    708,920

    17 Feb 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    finished

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    It only took basically a decade but Shane finally has Ilya in every aspect. He should be celebrating and enjoying it, should be focused on slotting into his new team in Ottawa. Instead he's watching the news cycle with bated breath, waiting for the inevitable moment that his name pops up alongside words like "victim" and "Dallas Kent."

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    50,049
    Chapters:
    9/?
    Comments:
    265
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    2,003
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    42,908

    15 Feb 2026

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    waiting for update

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    Ilya Rozanov, get loved.

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    Words:
    145,224
    Chapters:
    25/25
    Comments:
    4,564
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    16,383
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    5,315
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    425,770

    10 Feb 2026

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    finished

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    “Can you still stay the night?”

    “Yes,” Ilya says quickly, nodding into Shane’s neck. “I will stay the night.”

    I will stay forever, he doesn’t say. Just ask me, and I will do it.

    Series
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    Words:
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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    273
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    10,892
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    1,916
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    104,947

    07 Feb 2026

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    Fave

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    hollyadmirals24: Male seeking help improving at oral sex. Clean, ready to learn and willing to host. M only. Strictly platonic. Message for details.
     

    or: shane and ilya are hockey players for the mcgill marauders. after a disastrous night with rose, shane puts a drunken ad on craigslist asking for help with oral sex. his teammate, ilya, replies.

    Language:
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    Words:
    262,726
    Chapters:
    19/21
    Comments:
    1,814
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    7,826
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    3,069
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    339,908

    01 Feb 2026

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    Ch15

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    Forty-eight people boarded the charter flight from Raleigh. Only one woke up in a Savannah hospital.

    Ilya Rozanov is the unbreakable Captain of the Ottawa Centaurs. Now, he is also the sole survivor of a tragedy that the NHL would rather treat as a PR nightmare than a massacre. With a shattered body and a ghost team, Ilya finds himself at the center of a corporate conspiracy fueled by blood money.

    But he isn't alone. Shane Hollander has always been his greatest rival. Now, he’s his only anchor. Because sometimes, the only way out is through.

    Complete!

    Language:
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    Words:
    115,542
    Chapters:
    40/40
    Comments:
    1,776
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    4,513
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    1,627
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    130,273

    27 Jan 2026

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    ch 33

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    Newly traded to the Ottawa Centaurs, Ilya Rozanov is so close to having everything he’d never thought he was allowed to want. He can see the man he loves more than four times a year, he’s surrounded by a team who supports him through his injury, and Shane’s parents have unhesitatingly accepted him as part of the family.

    Except his lingering concussion symptoms have kept him sidelined from hockey, his boyfriend is still two hours away, their schedules are a disaster, and Shane’s team is, well…it’s full of assholes. There must be a way to make this all work out.

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    A sequel to a whump fanfiction with more whump…that is also, secretly, a fix-it.

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    English
    Words:
    50,450
    Chapters:
    20/20
    Collections:
    3
    Comments:
    6,546
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    15,462
    Bookmarks:
    2,973
    Hits:
    270,865

    15 Jan 2026

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