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“I should have been here a long time ago,” Hotch responds, voice strained and it makes Reid want to cry hearing emotion in his voice. It’s not something that he is used to. “I’ve failed you and now… I need you to open the door so I can change that.”
It always has to get worse before it gets better.
tw: drug use, lots of self-hate on all sides. talks of suicidal thoughts/feelings. read the tags! proceed w caution.
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- Part 5 of spencer and his drug problem
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28 Nov 2024
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"I mourned the loss of six."
It was, perhaps, the most ludicrous thing he had ever heard in his life. And he knew he was supposed to forgive and forget and move on, and he knew their patience was wearing thin, but what could he say? JJ... Hotch... Emily... they betrayed him, and at the end of the day, despite the jokes insisting otherwise, Spencer Reid was only human.
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Bookmarked by Toadkiller_Dog
28 Nov 2024
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Hotch hates being the bad guy, but Reid's behavior in the wake of Emily's miraculous reappearance is getting out of control. He's not just hurting the team, he's hurting himself, and Hotch knows he has to do something. What he doesn't know is that he's got the stressor all wrong.
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28 Nov 2024
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“Reid,” she starts then inhales and exhales, her shoulders rising and falling. “Reid, you were tortured and beaten for two days. And you just wanted it all to be over.”
“I know,” he chokes out. “But it doesn’t change the fact that I feel guilty about it.”
Or, Emily and Reid bond over their brushes with death and make promises to each other.
(Set after 7x7)
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28 Nov 2024
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nothing you confess could make me love you less by whateverislovely
Fandoms: Criminal Minds (US TV)
16 Jun 2023
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Emily's back from the dead just in time to add to the turmoil following Spencer's recent suicide attempt.
This is a sequel to my body's aching and my time is at hand and will make more sense with that context.
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- Part 2 of don't throw your hand
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26 Nov 2024
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Spencer has always felt ashamed of his autism and some local officers just make it worse. Fortunately, Elle is there to convince him otherwise.
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25 Nov 2024
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In the aftermath of Emily's death, Spencer starts calling and texting her number to cope as his life spirals down around him. He has no idea that halfway across the world, Emily is listening.
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25 Nov 2024
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Reid set the star puzzle on the table, a small self-satisfied grin on his face. He looked up at Emily, hoping to see a fond, amazed smile.
Emily's next words, whatever they were, died on her tongue before they could be uttered. She clasped her hands together and slowly closed her mouth, her head tilting to the side. “There's a lot to hate about you, Dr. Reid,” she said instead.
A sharp ache lanced through his chest.
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25 Nov 2024
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Hotch and Spencer have a talk after Chula Vista.
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“Spencer?”
“Hm?”
“I’m proud of you.”
Spencer’s breath hitches. His chest squeezes again.
“You don’t have to lie.”
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25 Nov 2024
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Day 2 Whumptober - Unfortunate Fall
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They had the profile. They had their unsub. They knew what to expect and it was all going so smoothly. But nothing could have prepared them for this.
Once again, Reid suffers the consequences of an unexpected deviation from the profile.
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- Part 2 of AI-less Whumptober 2024
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“What if I started taking Dilaudid again?”
“You didn’t,” JJ said incredulously.
Or so she thought.
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AKA i was watching the series for the third time now and this moment in s07e02: Proof seemed like a good prompt.
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24 Nov 2024
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and it's hard to hold a candle, in the cold november rain by lovefixed
Fandoms: Criminal Minds (US TV)
16 Jul 2024
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"Dear friends and family. First and foremost, I want to apologise. I am sorry for how i've been lately. I am sorry for being annoying, an obstacle, clingly.."
Oh god.
Aaron won't read this. He can't. Not right now, he needs to find Spencer. The young doctor who immediately dazzled him upon meeting, made Hotch want to protect him, no wonder Gideon was so desperate to get him in the BAU... He may be gnne already, and they had no idea. What type of friends were they, in that case?
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spencer really struggled with his addiction.
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23 Nov 2024
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Emily started carrying Narcan when Reid's eyes went glassy. When his hands started shaking. When he couldn't eat without almost throwing up. She hoped she'd never had to use it. That it would expire one day when this was all just a painful memory.
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23 Nov 2024
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nothing ever becomes real (until it is experience). by flustraaa
Fandoms: Criminal Minds (US TV), Criminal Minds RPF
10 Jun 2020
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“i can’t believe i missed it,” Hotch breathes, “he looked right at the camera whenever he said anything that could’ve—“
“it‘s not your fault.”
“no,” he agrees, sighing, “but we could’ve saved him.”
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"Ah, Agent Hotchner?" The young man calls, causing Hotch to pause in his steps right in front of the door. He looks back, and finds that the new agent is shifting his weight from foot to foot, face unsure."I'm Dr. Spencer Reid." The agent says carefully. His eyes are wide open, but the words are deliberate and sure. Hotch scrutinizes him closer, looking for signs of dishonesty.
He finds none.
"You are Dr. Spencer Reid." Hotch repeats, slowly. He almost couldn't wrap his head around it. This man barely looks twenty five and now he's telling Hotch that he is the consultant?
Did the CIA just send them the wrong agent?
Strangers!AU. In which Dr. Spencer Reid is an elite informant from the CIA. He's been asked to consult for a serial killer case for the FBI, and the BAU were not ready to meet him. Gen, team-fic. Set in season 6.
(Or the 5 times the BAU learns something new about Dr. Spencer Reid and 1 time he does.)Bookmarked by Toadkiller_Dog
21 Nov 2024
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waxing it seemed, but would be waning soon by bridiesmindsludge
Fandoms: Criminal Minds (US TV)
26 Jan 2023
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Something slides up his throat, and before he can stop himself, he’s choking into his hands. When he pulls them away, he’s shocked to find them covered in a red, brownish, dark color. Like coffee grounds.
“Elle--” he wheezes, his eyes unable to look away from his hands. “Coffee grounds--”
“Shit,” she replies, holding him steady as he begins to cough again. “You’re okay, you’re okay, Reid. Hotch!”
The room spins. The last thing he sees before it all goes dark is her eyes seeing right through him, dark brown and full of fear and admiration.
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or the one where spencer hides being sick from the team, and then ends up getting hurt on the case.Bookmarked by Toadkiller_Dog
21 Nov 2024
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There's a new threat targeting the BAU; an unsub who uses a very powerful drug to force the team to attack each other.
Can they find their attacker before the BAU is torn apart from within?
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Bookmarked by Toadkiller_Dog
21 Nov 2024
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when i try to open up to you i get completely lost by spencer-reids-adventures (onemechanicalalligator)
Fandoms: Criminal Minds (US TV)
12 Jun 2023
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A game of truth or dare leads to some revelations, some hurt feelings, and the realization that maybe the team aren't all quite the close family they thought they were.
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19 Nov 2024
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Tobias Hankel had their youngest agent.
Briefly, Morgan wondered if they had tried harder, driven faster, thought smarter, would Spencer ever be in this situation?
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- Part 10 of Febuwhump 2020
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Bookmarked by Toadkiller_Dog
16 Nov 2024