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He’s drawn to Dean because he loves Dean down to the guts and bones, down to the dreams and marrow. He gave up his life for Dean, and so Dean is who he must return to.
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a Castiel POV coda
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- Part 2 of for thine is
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29 Jun 2025
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between the essence / and the descent by tothewillofthepeople
Fandoms: Supernatural (TV 2005)
24 Oct 2024
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He misplaced his angel. He didn’t hold on hard enough. He got Cas back only to lose him immediately.
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Cas comes back on a Thursday.
And then keeps coming back on Thursdays. He doesn’t seem to have much choice in the matter, actually. For the rest of the week, he’s stuck in the Empty, and Dean is left trying to figure out how to save him, how to talk to him—and how to get him out for good.
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- Part 1 of for thine is
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28 Jun 2025
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Apparently I can't even write a one-shot sex scene without it turning into a 7k slow burn. So... Merry Christmas?
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"You are a good man, Dean," Cas whispers, his mouth pressed to Dean's heartbeat. "You are so beautiful and good and worthy."
Dean can't take it.
"Cas," he says, and it comes out a plea, a prayer, begging. It's just his name, but it's full of the need for affirmation, for validation, for all the things Dean's not allowed to ask for. All the things he never received when he was younger, all the love and attention he doesn't deserve.
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25 May 2025
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Dean hates Alabama, and this hunt is turning into a pain in the ass.
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28 Jul 2024
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Dean can't sleep. Cas offers to tire him out.
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27 May 2024
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"... you wanna what, now?" Dean asks, because he definitely didn't hear that right.
Castiel tilts his head, a leftover tick from his angel days that Dean would be lying if he claimed to find anything but idiotically endearing. He knows this is his own fault, owing to that rather memorable moment a week ago when Cas wandered into this very same kitchen with a (fairly) legitimate question and Dean just didn't know when to shut up.
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16 Apr 2024
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Dean's been on the road as a demon for months when Castiel, weak with his failing grace, finally finds him. Dean will use any means necessary to convince Castiel the man he knew is gone, and Castiel will do anything to bring him back, even if it means bleeding himself dry.
(Set early s10. Expect canon divergence)
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16 Apr 2024
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Steve signed the lease a little over a month ago.
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15 Apr 2024
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Sam and Jack get Cas back from the Empty, but there's a piece of his memory that it demands to keep in exchange. Dean has thought a hundred times about what he would say if they got Cas back, but none of those imagined conversations ever covered this scenario.
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- Part 1 of lost memories
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26 Mar 2024
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In the darkest depths of the ocean, sealed into the ma'lak box with Chuck trapped behind the Mark, Castiel loses the battle against God's rage. When Sam and Dean find Castiel on a dark patch of highway— the Mark missing and his grace weak— he cannot speak.
It rains. It rains and it rains and it rains. It is a Great Flood.
In order to stop God, save the world, and resolve the issues simmering between them for years, Castiel and Dean need to communicate.
Perhaps they should build an ark instead.
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17 Mar 2024
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There's something going on with Cas. Dean is determined to help him through it, in whatever way he can.
He might end up with more than he bargained for.
OR: Dean helps Cas scratch an itch. As it were.
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22 Sep 2023
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“You boys need anything else?” Mandy ask when she reappears beside the table, eyes bright and hopeful. “Coffee? Tea?” Her eyes rake over Cas and she bites her lip, sending every signal in the book. “Some dessert?”
Dean grins as Mandy looks between them, mostly at Cas. Cas gives Dean the ‘is that an innuendo?’ squint and Dean nods. “You know in fact we would like some dessert. My buddy here’s kind of shy about it so we were hoping for…something to take back to our room.”
“Really?” Mandy purrs, finally looking at Dean with some interest.
“Yeah, but we were hoping for something we could split.” Mandy’s eyebrows go high just as Cas’s eyes get even narrower. “Anything like that on the menu?”
Mandy looks between the two of them, licking at her lips. “I think I can get something like that for you.”
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Or: The one where Dean and Cas have a threesome with the cute waitress because Dean can't deal.
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20 Apr 2023
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Castiel is falling, slowly but surely becoming fully human. Every day there is something new to discover, and many of those discoveries are not wholly pleasant ones. And the whole time, Dean can't help but worry about the fact that the further the angel falls, the more he finds he likes the human Cas is becoming.
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18 Apr 2023
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Dean knows exactly why he’d pulled Cas out of the Empty. It’s not charity. It’s selfishness. He’d made Cas lose his paradise, the version of life the Empty had created for him with his mirage of Dean, just because Dean was too scared to be alone. Dean had promised Cas that he’d pretend for him. He’d said he’d do whatever Cas needed to be as happy here as he’d been in the Empty’s reality. But Dean doesn’t even know how to be the person Cas thinks he is.
Either Cas is lying, or his standards are impossibly low. Cas apparently thought it’d be enough for him just to be near Dean. But that’s not what love should be. It should want something back. Dean’s own feelings are irrelevant. He wants Cas, wants to be someone who deserves him. He can’t have him. He can’t construct a monologue about his reasons for loving Cas like Cas had done for him. He’s pretty sure that holding Cas’s hand would make him combust, after so long subsisting on scraps of shoulder-pats and Cas only touching him to heal him.
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30 Mar 2023
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Cas lingers by the window, the lines of his body limned in the glow of the motel neons outside, casting his features into sharp relief, and for a moment it looks like grace, wild and galvanic—this powerful, eldritch warrior of old. Castiel.
Then a car enters the lot, blankets the light, and it’s just Cas. Cas, without his bells and whistles.
Cas, without the ‘of God’.
Cas, who still manages to be this electric, exciting thing to Dean, whether he’s human, angel or in between.
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A quiet moment between old friends and new lovers.
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30 Mar 2023
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Written for bottom!cas Wednesday on Tumblr.
Basically: Dean takes his time opening up Cas with his tongue and fingers before he finally slips inside and gives Cas what he wants.
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26 Mar 2023
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A ghost hunt goes wrong, and Dean ends up fighting for his life in an icy river. A certain angel somehow knows he's in trouble and shows up to help, but doesn't have enough power left to warm up Dean. It's just a simple cold night in the woods, but things can go wrong fast at night in the woods, and soon Cas and Dean must each decide what they'll risk to save the other. And they just might end up so exhausted that they accidentally start talking.
Canon compliant; focuses on the Dean/Cas breakup of S15E03, but takes place 2 months later. It's a couple weeks after "Golden Time", S15E06; Eileen has just been brought back; Cas/Dean breakup was 2 mos ago; short FBI phone convo was a couple wks ago. Sam/Eileen implied gently in the background. Warning: NO SMUT and not a totally happy ending yet, but it ends hopefully.
(This fic will probably be rendered irrelevant by canon immediately, but I wanted to put a pin in the map right now, before the show ends, & think through my own take on the possible reasons for all the Dean/Castiel tension of the last two years. And see if I could make it all make sense.)
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25 Mar 2023
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Two Deans, one Cas - it's not as sexy as it sounds
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An ethics lesson from Hell
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The one where Dean from the past meets Dean in the present. They're not sure they like each other very much.
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21 Mar 2023
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A week ago, Dean was pulled out of Hell. Now, he’s apparently woken up in 2018, and the angel that a mere twenty-four hours beforehand had threatened to chuck him back into the pit is sleepily pouring himself coffee and wearing Dean’s second-favourite Zeppelin shirt. It all seems like a perfect happy ending, but with Hell’s scars still so fresh, Dean can’t imagine how he could have possibly gotten there.
At the same time, the Dean who went to sleep in the bunker, right next to Cas, wakes up on Bobby’s couch in 2008. He’s instantly bombarded with questions by a Lilith-obsessed brother and a man who’s been dead for years, and must decide between keeping his finally-perfect life intact, and the lives he could save by re-writing history.
Regardless of these choices, both Deans are trapped in the wrong decade, and their only way back lies with a Castiel still very much under Heaven’s thumb – one who might find the future Dean describes difficult to believe.
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19 Mar 2023
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“Y’all are sweet,” she says, and nods to indicate him and Cas. “Is he your—are you all together?”
Dean’s still contemplating how to answer this without saying something offensive—he never has figured out a polite way to say “no homo”—when Cas answers for him. Cas doesn’t even look up from his plate, his mouth full of baklava and some stray flakes of phyllo dough sticking to his lips when he says, “Yes.”
Dean feels more than sees Sam go very still across the table, forkful of salad and grilled chicken poised in midair.
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In which Cas is human and doesn't understand basic concepts like: clothing, Mythbusters, moisturizer, and Greek food. Dean is...Dean and doesn't understand basic concepts like: boyfriends, language, how to tell your friend that he's a walking miracle, and when not to quip.
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- Part 1 of Stories Are Made of Mistakes
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10 Mar 2023