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    “We’ve never met, but I’ve seen you before. Not in pictures, but in his face. In his smile. In his laugh,” Shane continues in Russian, slow and careful with each word as he looks out over the water. “On his good days. On the bad ones, too.”

    Oh, Ilya realizes distantly. His grip slackens on the mug in his hands. This is not for him.
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    [or, shane asks irina for her blessing.]

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    05 Jul 2026

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    Life after Heated Rivalry from Yuna's POV, with lots of texting.

    Technically a sequel to "Shane's Lily", but you don't need to read that in order to understand this.

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    03 Jul 2026

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    It's been two years since Ilya Rozanov told Cliff Marlow he was leaving Boston to be closer to a mysterious person named "Jane." He's done a great job of keeping that information to himself, but when Rozanov calls him and invites him to Montreal to help coach at the hockey camp he's starting with Hollander, Marlow can't help but think the two things are connected. Is he finally going to get to meet the woman who got Ilya Rozanov to join the worst team in the league?

     

    Marlow has proven he can keep a secret. He's earned the right to meet "Jane" and finally know why so much of Ilya's life as been secretive. But what's going on might be a little bit too much for Marlow to process, so Ilya has a plan: leave a trail of breadcrumbs that leads right to the answer and let Marlow figure it out on his own. After all, he was able to piece together that Ilya was leaving Boston without any help, so how hard could it be to get him to put together Jane's real identity?

    This is a sequel to F*ck You, Cliff Marlow.

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    28 Jun 2026

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    My greatest accomplishment is the life I’ve built with you

    I would trade every trophy, every award for just one more minute with you

    I need you to know that

    Or What if Shane had been the one on the plane? What if Ilya was the one to receive the fateful Instagram messages? What would happen in the aftermath?

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    28 Jun 2026

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    Shane was hurt and Ilya couldn’t be there with him. No one knew that he cared, that his boyfriend was in the hospital, not even Shane’s parents.

    OR: Yuna Hollander just wanted to grab some of Shane’s things from his apartment during his hospital stay. She didn't suspect she'd stumble across a home invasion, and that the perpetrator would be Ilya Rozanov.

    (Shane’s okay!)

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    19 Jun 2026

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    Shane and Ilya are finally on the same team! The Centaurs’ communications and PR department hasn’t known peace since.

    Featuring: the unhinged internet, chaotic group chats, Ilya being a menace, Shane being very tired, Harris trying (and failing) to contain the chaos, Luca accidentally starring in his own little rom-com, wholesome group dynamics and love all around.

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    08 May 2026

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    "Rozy," Brian, the team doctor says, "talk to me, buddy. That puck clipped you pretty good, how’s the pain?"

    Ilya blinks. He clenches his jaw against a wave of nausea. He rests his cheek on the ice, and the cold helps a little.

    "Bad. Very bad." He swallows. "Is Shane here?"

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    or, in the final MTL/BOS game of the year, ilya takes a puck to the head.

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    23 Feb 2026

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    Shane knows the plan to wait to come out until they retire isn't ideal, but he doesn't have a better one. He thinks that he and Ilya can make it work, until his mom points out how long they will have to live their lives in the shadows.

    But once he realizes that, he immediately knows that he can't come out. It would ruin his legacy.

    He's pretty sure that's why he doesn't want to come out. No other reason. Right?

    He is sure that's all it is until Ilya asks him if he would be safe if he came out. And he can't answer.

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    or Yuna does the math on the retirement plan and when she points this out it opens Shane's eyes.

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    also known as this author had (1) idea for a scene and had to reverse engineer a multi-chapter fic to make it happen.

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    20 Feb 2026

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    After coming out to Rose, Shane decides he doesn't want to lie anymore, even if he isn't sure coming out will mean he gets happily ever after with Ilya. When coming out to the Voyageurs leaves him wondering what his future in Montreal might look like, he lets himself be a little selfish, he lets himself wonder if there might be somewhere else he might be happy. If Montreal wants to get rid of a generational player, he's not about to stop them, especially if it means he can get a little closer to joy.

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    Or: Shane Hollander leaves Montreal in search of something better.

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    03 Feb 2026

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    It was one of his favorite things to do. Watching his person play. Ilya was the most alive during it, and Shane just loved seeing him shine. In the arena, all the weight Ilya carried seemed to fall away, allowing him to be light.

    Shane’s eyes never left Ilya, and when it happened, he barely registered at first.

    It happened so fast. Suddenly the puck hit Ilya’s throat. Shane’s stomach dropped.

    Ilya couldn’t breathe.

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    27 Jan 2026

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    They’re only standing like that for about a minute, if even, when Hollander decides to make conversation, “So, uh, are your parents here with you?”

    Ilya just nods. His mom is here with him, of course she is. She wouldn’t want to be anywhere else and Ilya doesn’t think he appreciates her enough for that, but he tries. As best as he can, at least.

    “That’s nice, mine are too,” Hollander says quietly with a smile and they fall back into that earlier silence, listening just to those same sounds.

    Skates on ice.

    Sticks hitting pucks.

    Each other’s breathing.

    After a few minutes, Hollander awkwardly clears his throat and takes a step back, “Anyway, uh, I should probably go. My parents, they’re waiting on me, but um…” He trails off and Ilya notices the hesitation in his voice before he takes his hand out of his pocket and holds it out to Ilya again, smiling, “good luck in the tournament.”

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    OR, Grigori is the one to die when Ilya is 12, Irina lives, and this fic is how that's changed the plot.

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    18 Jan 2026

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    Ilya rounded the desk, and his heart didn’t stutter but simply stopped. For an endless second everything stilled around him. Shane had found them, his letters and his journals. And the world turned sideways slowly slipping away from Ilya’s grasp. Like someone had taken away the solid ground underneath his feet, leaving him falling indefinitely. His entire focus narrowed on the pages Shane was clasping in his hands and the shoe carton next to him.

    He had always promised himself that one day he would show Shane, he would tell him about all of it. But he had never wanted it to happen like this. For Shane to just stumble across the pages that carried his darkest thoughts and simple truths of his life. Never wanted him to read those alone or ever. Because Ilya wasn’t sure he was strong enough to revisit all the open wounds he had spilled on those pages.

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    Or Shane and Ilya spend some time at the cottage between Christmas and New Year’s and unravel their past once and for all.

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    15 Jan 2026

  13. Public Bookmark 95

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    Ilya wakes up in 2024 with only his memories from 2016. He's married to Shane with no knowledge of it. Playing for Ottawa with no knowledge of it. Shane is left to pick up the pieces of their life together and to try to remind Ilya of everything they have.

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    15 Jan 2026

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    What if Ilya had gone to the hospital the night of Shane's injury. And in the process run into not just Hayden, who might not realize something is up. But also Shane's parents, who were smart enough to begin putting things together.
    (aka another take on the hospital scenes)

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    14 Jan 2026

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    Mystery Work

    Part of Private Works
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    This is part of an ongoing challenge and will be revealed soon!

    12 Jan 2026

  16. Public Bookmark 75

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    Yesterday while scrolling Twitter, I found a post from @R0ZAN0V saying: “one time when ilya pisses shane off, he gives an interview while wearing the glasses, knowing that ilya is watching him on the tv from home.” I saw that tweet, got to work, and started writing this fic.

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    ilya thousands of miles away from home, pisses Shane off over something silly. Shane retaliates by wearing those special glasses for his interview that night, knowing Ilya's watching him where he is, going absolutely feral.

    So liya did what any rational, sleep-deprived, jealousy-fueled man would do, seeing his fiancé thirsted over across social media. He made fake accounts.

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    10 Jan 2026

  17. Public Bookmark 25

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    “Is that what you think of your mother? That she was pathetic?”

    “Of course not, why would you even ask me that?”

    “Because–fuck! Ilya I love you, and hearing you think of yourself as scum makes bile claw up my throat.”

     

    Ilya wants to fight his battles alone. Shane won’t let him.

    Or, Shane stages an intervention after Ilya fails to conceal the severity of his depression. A conversation is had, tears are shed, and for Ilya, a future is finally seen.

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    10 Jan 2026

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