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the map that leads to you (all the roads you took came back to me) by yeokalopsia
Fandoms: ENHYPEN (Band)
06 May 2026
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“I’m okay, Jungwon-ah. Go to sleep.” Jay murmurs, gently nudging the younger one’s body back onto the bed so he wouldn’t completely tip over.
But Jungwon grabs his wrist mid-motion.
“What are you–”
“Let me hold your hand, hyung.”
Jay pauses, like he’s trying to decipher if Jungwon’s actually being serious. But there’s a flush on his face that makes Jay realize he’s being dead serious.
“We can pretend I’m still drunk or something.”
(or: 20k words of two idiots who don't know how to be exes)
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26 May 2026
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There’s a moment, a brief, terrifying moment, where Sunghoon is just hovering over Jake, looking down at him with a small smile on his face, and he’s actually a little concerned that he really is going to kiss him. And then the moment passes, and Jake feels – weird. That familiar, aimless fear settles over him again, but despite it, a small part of him kind of wishes Sunghoon had accepted his offer. Now, he’ll always be curious about what would have happened if he did.
But in the end, he just does what he always does, and shoves it down to the depths of his subconscious, where there was too much pressure for anything to breathe, to survive.
He doesn’t actually want to kiss Sunghoon, he knows that. Jake has no problems with Sunghoon being gay, but he isn’t gay. He’s probably just feeling a little weird, a little scared, and it’s probably just because of the slight distance he’s been feeling between them lately. Jake has acted much stranger over much less, after all.
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26 May 2026
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“I just didn’t think it would attract attention.”
Jungwon freezes, turning slowly to look at him, eyes narrowed and burning with rage. “You didn’t think,” he starts, voice dangerously low and full of ire, “That with everything going on right now, you wouldn’t attract attention by fucking Jay Park in an airport bathroom?”
“You don’t know for sure that we had sex,” Sunghoon says coolly, eyes flitting over the magazine and quoting one of the subheadings, “Like you said, we’re ‘madly in love’. It could be a very abstinent love affair.”
or, Sunghoon doesn't break routine for anyone or anything. Enter: two Olympic gold medals, newfound levels of fame, a potentially career-ending injury, and, in the most unexpected twist of all, Jay.
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- Part 1 of fast times, fast nights
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20 May 2026
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Jake's aunt gets sick—the summer after his freshman year at college, he moves in to take care of her. She still lives in the same small town his mother left when she was 18.
Jake is prepared for an uneventful summer, but then he meets Heeseung.
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- 109,655
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19 May 2026
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Jungwon’s been thinking, and reminiscing, and dreaming, and despising every word he said that day, while simultaneously aware that what he did was not enough.
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12 May 2026
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Two planets collide, and equilibrium is all but fucked.
Or, where Jake's careful and monotonous suffering meets a force of nature. Chaos ensues.
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11 May 2026
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This is humiliating. No — this is beyond humiliating. This is actual psychological warfare. He’s going to have lasting trauma from this. Probably.
And the worst part—the absolute worst, most fucked-up part—is that his dick is still leaking precome onto his stomach, can feel it dripping down his side onto Jake’s stupid expensive sheets. Throbbing with every heartbeat, because his traitorous body doesn’t seem to care that he’s been abandoned in the middle of this.
Heeseung groans low in his throat, grinding his hips up in a pathetic attempt to get some friction. All it does is make the leather cuffs dig into his wrists and ankles, and remind him that he is completely—completely—at Jake’s mercy.
And he likes it.
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- English
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- 79,792
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- 12/12
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09 May 2026
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“For what it’s worth,” Jungwon starts, unaware that he’s quelling a ghost in Jay’s head, two voices overlapping. Jungwon's is louder. “For what it’s worth,” he repeats, husky voice quiet and honest, “I am glad to have you here, no matter what capacity it is in.”
Jay doesn't think Jungwon should be glad to have him here. No one should be.
His presence isn't a blessing, it's a curse.
There's something familiar about the way Jungwon's gaze lingers on him after he bids goodbye though, like he's trying to say something without saying it.
Maybe all the roads Jay has travelled have led him right here, and maybe, not everything has to end in tragedy.
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02 May 2026
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Being the secret boyfriend of a famous rockstar isn't easy, but Jungwon wouldn't trade it for anything, even if it meant giving up his 9-5 desk job, which he loves, contrary to his boyfriend's opinion on it. But as a world tour begins, he decides he's done hiding. In front of thousands of fans, he teases a surprise new song, "Anchor," to the person who changed his life, turning their private love story into a very public declaration.
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25 Apr 2026
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Jaeyun tilts his head a bit, looking suddenly almost puppy-like, cute and wide-eyed and innocent, and – this is bad. Very bad. Heeseung should probably retreat and start pushing his truck out of their driveway and continue on until he reaches the next state over, no matter how long it takes or how it will inevitably lead to him collapsing from exhaustion twenty minutes in.
At least he’d be somewhere that Jaeyun is not, and he’d surely be better off for it.
“I asked if you’re a new volunteer,” Jaeyun repeats, and even his voice is pretty, his accent strong and thick, with a slight lisp that Heeseung manages to find simultaneously endearing and enticing. “For the church?”
Or, when Heeseung’s truck breaks down outside of a pastor’s house in the midst of a cross-country road trip that was supposed to give him a fresh start, he meets Jake, who’s in desperate need of a ride to a fresh start of his own. It’s a match made in – well, not in heaven. But something close to it.
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23 Apr 2026
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Jungwon moves to pull out the axe and Jay's eyes rake over him. The serenity isn't an affectation. There's a slight tremor in his legs but it must be adrenaline more than anything else. His face is cool, relaxed. There's nothing in his face to indicate he's scared or apprehensive. He looks perfectly in his element.
Not for the first time, Jay gets the sense that he and Jungwon are two worlds apart. What is new is the sense of danger.
Or: Somewhere between Seoul and Busan, Jay and Jungwon find each other.
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19 Apr 2026
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As far as favours went, this one was an easy one – help Riki’s friend from his dance club pass his first year biology course. Jake could do it in his sleep. He scans the library, realizing belatedly that Riki’s description of you’ll know him when you see him was entirely untrue, because Jake had no idea which one of these studying students was expecting him here ten minutes ago. His eyes land on a guy, sitting alone at a table without so much as a pencil in front of him, and –
Huh. He doesn't look like a freshman.
He looks a lot like Heeseung Lee, actually.
Or, Jake isn't anything like the girls Heeseung normally goes for, but he's starting to think he might want him anyway.
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07 Apr 2026
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They’d never exchanged words beyond sorry, my son likes to talk and it’s okay, I do too, but then Hot Single Dad had given him a smile – all big teeth and crinkled eyes – and that was enough for him to become a regular cast member in Jake’s fantasies.
It wasn’t purely carnal desire, though. Jake genuinely felt an urge to get to know him – both of them, truthfully. Riki seems like a sweet kid, and his father seems nice, and he’d met so few people since he moved back to the city. Jake often finds himself wondering if he should call his grandmother for her banana bread recipe and knock on their door with a fresh batch in hand and see if they were interested in getting to know him, too.
He’s pretty sure there’s black mold in his walls – that’s what he tells himself to excuse the level of delusion he’s reached. He’s having black mold poisoning induced psychosis, but it’s fine, everything is fine.
Or, where Jake gets a glimpse of the kind of family he'd always wished for, and wonders if maybe, just maybe, they'd been wishing for him, too.
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- Part 1 of kintsugi
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- English
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- 120,018
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- 7/7
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05 Apr 2026
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Jongseong's life falls apart and pulls itself back together with some omurice, bottled ketchup, a poorly-drawn pentagram and the cat-looking demon he accidentally summons when he combines all of these things together.
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31 Mar 2026
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He had nearly removed Jay off his friend-list in a fit of rage after the break-up, but he’s happy he’s kept him now. His cursor makes its way over before he could fit in an actual, reasonable thought about texting your ex—does it really matter, though, if it’s for min-maxing a video game?
He sends him a party invite. Jungwon has the sudden itch to do a lap around his apartment, but Jay accepts instantly. Jungwon clicks into his profile; Jay doesn’t adjust his build. It’s a DPS-oriented solo, clearly meant to sweep the event on its own. And boy, it’s definitely strong enough.
And a bit of an insane combination, Jungwon thinks. What is he thinking, putting Tattered Cloak R8 with Distant Adorer S4?
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28 Mar 2026
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When Jake puts Jay up for sale on the dating market, Jay has to deal with the unwanted popularity that comes with it.
Thankfully, Jungwon proposes a Very Rational solution that definitely won’t lead to complicated feelings.
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28 Mar 2026
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Sunghoon and Sunoo are forced to meet again for a vacation with their friends. It wouldn’t be so bad if they weren’t exes who can barely spend five minutes without fighting.
Or, how to make a vacation unbearable for all your friends while pretending you’re not still in love with your ex.
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24 Feb 2026
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"And he's so..." He loses the words.
"Your type ? Is that why you can't shut the fuck up ?"
He reminisces about Jungwon's face and his calculated self-control. The calm in his words and his bland stare until Jay had him on the floor. His eyes glistened, so big and bright as if he was always holding tears in.
"Let me guess, hmm, black haired cold twink who treats you like trash ? You masochist whore."
Jay grunts before putting his head in his arms on the table. "I'm so fucked."
Or,
Jay thinks Jungwon is a bitch. A bitch he is slowly falling in love with.
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15 Feb 2026
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Jay's allergic to cats but, after getting forced by his best friend to come to a cat cafe, he'd gladly suffer through a million sneeze attacks for a chance to look at a certain pretty-eyed barista who laughs at his bad jokes.
also known as: the jaywon cat cafe au no one asked for
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02 Feb 2026
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Jungwon is finding it very inconvenient that his classroom crush just so happens to be a straight frat boy. He finds it even more inconvenient that his best friend just so happens to be joining said frat. But he has to pass this chemistry class somehow, right?
OR
Jay and Jungwon are chemistry study buddies. They are also in love.
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31 Jan 2026