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this whole damn world can fall apart by PrincessAmericaChavez
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
16 May 2026
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“I’m here. I’m here,” comes through, finally. “Sorry, just- I’m here. What do you need?”
“Just talk,” Ilya begs, not even caring how pathetic he sounds. “Please.”
“Okay, okay,” Hollander breathes. “You know. I keep thinking. This isn’t right. There’s something fucking wrong.”
“Of course there’s something wrong, Hollander! Your building is on fire!”
“I fucking know, Rozanov!”
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Pre-tunamelt, in peak situationship era, Hollanov’s building catches fire… with Ilya still inside.
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05 Jul 2026
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Shane lets out a deep sigh. “I want to fuck you,” Ilya laughs but before he can say anything, Shane continues. “I wanna fuck you. For my birthday. I want to try to make you feel good the same way I do. I dont want to always fuck you or anything, i love your cock inside me too much but, i wanna try.”
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“I want you to beg. Beg for my fingers.” Shane says.
Ilya is shocked by this display of dominance from Shane as he slowly shakes his head. “No, Shane, just- just give me more!” He wont beg, Shane is crazy if he thinks he will.
He does.
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04 Jul 2026
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Down for the Count by PillowForte
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
17 Jun 2026
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Ilya’s so high on painkillers it’s a wonder he can focus on anything at all, but his bruised eyes are alert and fixed on Shane. He’s still mumbling in Russian, voice slurred and so quiet that Shane can only catch snippets.
“Dreamed of you,” Ilya murmurs, and all the breath in Shane’s lungs stutters out of him. “So beautiful, you’re... such a perfect mouth, and those freckles… fuck, I want…”
“What’s he saying?” Mom asks.
“Nothing,” Shane lies, too fast to be very convincing.
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- Part 2 of Knockout
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04 Jul 2026
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sometimes it seems like you won't survive this by overripeapple
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
17 May 2026
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“It’s getting bad again,” Ilya croaks out.
It had been getting bad for weeks, but it’s hard to admit when it's so subtle. It morphs from a shitty mood to a bad day to an unlucky spell. Then all at once you’re underwater, unable to pry yourself from your bed, salt dried on your cheeks, head, and heart, somehow a thousand pounds.
Or, Shane helps Ilya through the beginning of a depressive episode.
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02 Jul 2026
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The Third Option by sevdim
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
08 Jul 2026
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A teenage Ilya arrives at development camp already planning to kill himself. Shane keeps accidentally interrupting his suicide attempts because he’s obsessed with rules, routine, and following proper protocol.
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02 Jul 2026
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do the tall kids wanna play? by penchant4prose
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
23 Mar 2026
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The seven year old took a shaky breath, sniffling as he kept his focus on Shane’s hand. He traced up his middle finger before he spoke.
“Am I weird?”
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shane and ilya's seven year old has a tough day.
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27 Jun 2026
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Our House by hollanov_1410
Fandom Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
10 May 2026
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A glimpse into Shane and Ilya’s life as dads to three kids: Nikolai (Niko), Maxim (Max), and Mila. This will be a series of oneshots exploring different moments in their parenting journey. All fics can be read as a standalone!
p.s. title is in reference to the song Our House by Crosby, Stills, Nash & Young 🩵
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27 Jun 2026
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cause under all that fire, there knots that i can help undo by penchant4prose
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
18 Apr 2026
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Nadia, Dimitri, Luka, and Shane were the lights of his life. They were proof that Ilya Rozanov was exactly the man Irina Rozanova raised him to be.
So when he had these episodes, where he was reduced to an emotionless body, shame found ways to make itself known through the fog. He found small comfort in the fact that the absence of everything was also the absence of anger.
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things are hard when you’re a father and have clinical depression. things are even harder when your well meaning husband jumps to conclusions.
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26 Jun 2026
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I had the time of my life with you <3 by hollidayparty
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
18 Jun 2026
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“The twins are having some big feelings about being disappointed,” Jackie explained. “We tried to get tickets for Taylor Swift in Toronto next year. But Ticketmaster was… Ticketmaster.”
“Ah,” Shane said, wincing in immediate sympathy. “Bummer. Aren’t there resale ones, though?”
Hayden dropped onto the opposite end of the sectional with a beer in hand and snorted.
“Yeah, for like, the price of a small car. I am not paying that much for a concert.”“Why not?” Ilya drawled, turning his head toward Hayden. “You do not have money for resale?”
Hayden didn’t even look at him. “I have money. I just also have sense.”
“Ah.” Ilya nodded thoughtfully. “So Montreal paid you so little you must budget carefully. Makes sense. Fifteenth best player on team, yes?”
“Hey,” Shane said. “Maybe don’t start a fist fight in our living room.”
Ilya looked up at him, entirely unrepentant.
“I am helping,” he said. “He says he cannot afford tickets. I am investigating.”
Hayden scoffed. “You wanna help? You buy them, then.”
“Okay.” Ilya reached for his phone. “Done."
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- Part 6 of hollanov one-shots & shorties
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26 Jun 2026
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A quiet night at the Hollander-Rozanov residence gets unexpectedly complex when Ilya finds out his daughter has a boyfriend... and that said boyfriend is in fact the child of a certain geriatric hockey player.
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- Part 1 of Both Alike in Dignity
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25 Jun 2026
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The Fake Plant by pescatrice
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
01 Jul 2026
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The plant is fake, the throw pillows are strategic, and her newest client is a 6'3" NHL captain who points an accusing finger at her and says, "You're supposed to fix me."
Galina Molchalina didn't move across an ocean to be yelled at in her own language. But here we are.
The Long Game, from the other side of the couch.
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24 Jun 2026
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Duty of Care by boopboop
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
09 Feb 2026
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Ilya Rozanov, get loved.
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- Part 3 of Duty of Care
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23 Jun 2026
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Still getting rosy by fiend-for-culture (caspian) for shushu_yaoi_lj
Fandoms: Carry On | Simon Snow Series - Rainbow Rowell
21 Jun 2026
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"It's not my birthday."
"But it could be."Simon Snow doesn't know when his birthday is, so they never celebrate it. Baz makes up for lost time.
A series of vignettes in which Baz does nice things for Simon post-canon, all under the guise of them being "for his birthday."
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22 Jun 2026
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And yeah, Shane knew that Ilya hadn’t been okay last time he was in Russia, but Ilya had had the very real excuse of a funeral to blame things on. Ilya had downplayed it as much as he could, and Shane hadn’t been there, he’d heard the fatigue and he’d seen Ilya’s tired smile, but he hadn’t felt the way Ilya’s hands were cold the entire time he was there, hadn’t seen through the screen the way Ilya dropped eight pounds in three weeks, hadn’t kept time when there were twenty hours in Ilya’s day instead of something closer to sixteen. Or, on the flip side, for the week or two after, when there had been approximately ten conscious hours in a day.
It was one thing to see something. It was another to feel it in your hands.
Ilya and Shane are so, so happy for their first year married. They’re playing in Ottawa together, they’re fucking winning, they’re together and out.
So now, after a year, Ilya should be fine. He should be great. He should not be flinching at small noises or nearly punching people off the clock or feeling like he’s drowning whenever he’s not on the ice.
Or: Ilya Rozanov, meet your PTSD.
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22 Jun 2026
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18 Jun 2026
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Shane reached out without thinking, his fingers brushing against the rough fabric of Ilya’s jacket sleeve.
Ilya flinched away. “Dun’ touch me!”
Shane blinked, thrown. “What the - ”
“I already have boyfriend!” Ilya declared, pulling his jacket around himself like a shield. “Are practically engaged!”
Shane just stared. “Ilya. It’s me.”
“Only my boyfriend may unwrap me.” Ilya announced. “Is respect.”
Ilya gets drunk and refuses to be touched by anyone except his boyfriend. Unfortunately for Shane, Ilya does not realize his boyfriend is the one taking him home.
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14 Jun 2026
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It was common to resent a parent who had committed suicide; his therapist had told him this, books told him this, and even other survivors told him this. Ilya had never understood. He understood his mother. They were alike; he always understood her. He thought he would always feel this way, that he never had to forgive his mother, because there was nothing to forgive. She had done nothing wrong; he would miss her, but he would not blame her, or so he thought.
Ilya holds his child and realizes he doesn't understand how his mother could leave him
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- Part 2 of Heated Rivalry anonymous fics
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11 Jun 2026
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Shane knows something is wrong the moment their foreheads touch. What follows is a week of fevers, terrible idioms, embarrassing playlists, failed tea attempts, and Shane trying very hard to take care of a sick Russian who keeps stealing all the blankets and insisting he feels "like a sick puppy."
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- Part 11 of heated rivalry sickfics
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09 Jun 2026
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Two-Four-Eight-One-Oh-Eight (Ilya Hollander. Shane Rozanov.) by persimmonysnicket
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
06 Feb 2026
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“Maybe—maybe Lily is sleeping,” she says. Bargaining, she realizes numbly. She’s bargaining for more time. And for whatever is unfolding here to stop unfolding and in fact fold itself back up. Her thumb shifts away from the call button. “And you should be sleeping too, mister.”
“He’s not sleeping.” Shane flares his nostrils—another gesture Yuna hasn’t seen in so many years. “He’s waiting for me to call a third time. Mom. Please. He’s—he’ll be so worried.”
Yuna shifts her thumb and lets it drop. Is Yuna a bad mother if she hopes "Lily" doesn’t pick up?
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or: Shane needs to call someone the night he's laid out by Marlow, and Yuna reflects on her quietly, obsessively devoted son.
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- Part 1 of sailing, sailing
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08 Jun 2026
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Fine, Have It Your Way by callmytinyson
Fandoms: Carry On - Rainbow Rowell, Simon Snow series - Gemma T. Leslie
18 Nov 2015
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That one time Simon got sick and refused to drink his medicine, so Baz did something about it.
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08 Jun 2026