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    The All-Stars weekend in Tampa Bay ends in a tragedy for Shane when the plane taking his parents back to Canada from their trip to Mexico explodes.
    The relationship between Shane and Ilya takes an unexpected turn. Fear has been their biggest enemy for years. The tragedy in Shane’s life makes him realize that life is too short not to live proudly and be brave about his feelings for Ilya.
    As the secret slowly comes to light, there’s a thing no one can touch: their commitment to each other.

    Inspired by the t.a.t.u song with the same title.
    If they hurt you // They hurt me too // So we'll rise up // Won't stop // And it's all about us
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    I never wished that pain upon my worst enemy. It’s killing me that you will now know exactly how much it hurts. You loved both your parents. And they loved you. I’ve seen how close you were. I am so sorry. I wish things were different.
    All I can promise is that I will be always by your side. I will always protect you. I love you more than life, Shane.

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    02 Aug 2026

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    TBR

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    After coming out to Rose, Shane decides he doesn't want to lie anymore, even if he isn't sure coming out will mean he gets happily ever after with Ilya. When coming out to the Voyageurs leaves him wondering what his future in Montreal might look like, he lets himself be a little selfish, he lets himself wonder if there might be somewhere else he might be happy. If Montreal wants to get rid of a generational player, he's not about to stop them, especially if it means he can get a little closer to joy.

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    Or: Shane Hollander leaves Montreal in search of something better.

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    02 Aug 2026

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    TBR eventually

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    Ilya Rozanov has been drafted by Boston, the number one pick overall, but his father doesn't want him moving to America and so takes steps to block his visa. He's going to have to go back to Russia and stay there forever and that, thinks Shane Hollander, is wrong.

    It's so wrong that Shane can't stop himself from doing something about it. Even though that something is the most reckless, the only reckless thing he's ever done in his life. He marries Rozanov in secret, to keep him out of Russia and put him on a path to Canadian citizenship.

    Shane's got a five-year plan to get him there and when you have a plan nothing can go wrong. Right? Right. When you have a solid plan and a marriage that's on paper only there's no risk of feelings getting involved. Not on Rozanov's part and certainly not on Shane's.

    Right???

    (or, the story of how Shane Hollander fell in love with his own husband)

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    02 Aug 2026

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    TBR

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    Ilya Rozanov, get loved.

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    14 Jul 2026

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    TBR

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    A year after retiring at thirty-nine, Shane Hollander throws himself into house flipping and accidentally becomes comforting reality television.

    Ilya Rozanov makes fun of it.

    Shane retaliates by mentioning, on camera, that his husband is a raging Drag Race Fanboy.

    The internet notices.

    Things progress from there.

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    12 Jul 2026

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    TBR

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    The first thing that happens is that Shane Hollander doesn't go and visit Boston Lily while they're in town for their game against Boston.

    The second thing that happens is that Shane Hollander goes to meet up with Boston Lily after they play against New York.

    The third thing that happens is that Ilya Rozanov goes missing.

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    Chapters:
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    11 Jul 2026

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    TBR

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    Shane is in a post-game interview when his world stops.

    He’s just answered a question about Montreal’s offensive strategy going into the game. Clean passes, avoid penalties, draw defenders wide. It had worked and the Voyagers had beat Colorado soundly, 4-1. Shane had scored two of the goals and assisted on a third.

    Usually, Shane would be eager to boast about the win to Ilya. But ever since their fight- since Ilya told Shane to leave- winning feels hollow. Losing feels better, somehow. As if Shane deserves to lose after being so selfish. Ilya gave up everything for him- his home, his team, and to some extent- his happiness. Hockey. Ilya gave up hockey- good hockey- for Shane.

    A ripple goes through the room of reporters. Shane swears he hears the word ‘Ottawa’ and ‘crash’. But no one is paying attention to him anymore.

    “What’s going on?” he asks into the microphone, feeling strange at the role reversal. Usually, he’s the one being asked questions.

    No one answers. And this time he knows that he hears the word ‘Ottawa’ and ‘Centaurs’.

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    Shane rushes to Ilya after the almost plane crash. Their secret is no longer a secret.

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    11 Jul 2026

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    TBR

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    Newly traded to the Ottawa Centaurs, Ilya Rozanov is so close to having everything he’d never thought he was allowed to want. He can see the man he loves more than four times a year, he’s surrounded by a team who supports him through his injury, and Shane’s parents have unhesitatingly accepted him as part of the family.

    Except his lingering concussion symptoms have kept him sidelined from hockey, his boyfriend is still two hours away, their schedules are a disaster, and Shane’s team is, well…it’s full of assholes. There must be a way to make this all work out.

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    A sequel to a whump fanfiction with more whump…that is also, secretly, a fix-it.

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    Chapters:
    20/20
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    10 Jul 2026

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    5⭐️

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    Instead of Shane, it is Ilya who suffers a concussion during the Boston-Montreal game in April 2017. Dazed and agitated, Ilya briefly starts speaking and responding only in Russian and the medics can’t calm him down. Luckily, Shane started studying Russian after Ilya spoke to him in Russian on the phone from Moscow. For no particular reason. Certainly not because he’s fallen in love with Ilya Rozanov.

    In Montreal with lingering concussion symptoms, Ilya is advised not to fly home for a few days, and the hospital won’t release him without assurances that he has someone to stay with him until his symptoms improve. Luckily, Shane conveniently has a condo in Montreal no one knows about and a few days before he has to travel again.

    But Ilya’s symptoms don’t resolve after a few days. Which is okay; Shane can handle it. He can take care of Ilya, study Russian, lead his team into the playoffs, and keep Ilya’s continued presence in Montreal a secret. He can do everything, no problem. He is Shane Hollander after all.

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    A whump fanfiction that is secretly a fix-it.

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    Chapters:
    20/20
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    10 Jul 2026

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    5⭐️

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    The first sound Ilya hears is a thin, discordant symphony of beeps and whirs. Something vibrating. 

    The next thing he hears is…wet. A sort of shaking, gargling sound, that feels like the ugliest crying he’s ever heard. And through it, Shane’s voice. 

    “I’m with him now, mom. He’s— he’s not fine. He’s not. I know—”

    Ilya wants to ask who's not fine, but he can’t feel his own body, his mouth, enough to ask.

    “Yeah,” Shane is saying, only slightly calmer. “I know. He wasn’t breathing—"

    Ilya knows there's a link, between the clinical musicality of medical settings, Shane’s audible, awful distress, and his own physical incapacity. It’s just, it’s so tenuous, and the air around him is so thick, so heavy. It would be easy, to sleep, a little. 

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    Footage of the last game between Ottawa and Montreal is everywhere; it’s breached containment from the sports world, and now it seems like everyone is baying for Montreal’s blood. Except, Ilya is oblivious. Not exactly blissfully so, but as the fight for accountability within the league rages on without him, Ilya just wants someone, anyone, to tell him what happened.

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    Chapters:
    12/12
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    08 Jul 2026

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    4.8 ⭐️

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    Losing in front of his family and country at the Sochi Olympics hurts.

    Realizing he can no longer have Shane Hollander hurts more.

    Ilya Rozanov is going to do what he’s always done - sacrifice what he wants for what the world expects. He lets Shane go and builds a life that looks perfect from the outside.

    Dating actress Rose Landry should make everything simple and easy.

    It would be, if Shane Hollander knew how to lose.

    Unfortunately for Ilya, Shane has never been very good at that.

    Language:
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    Chapters:
    14/14
    Comments:
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    08 Jul 2026

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    TBR

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    Thank you for being parents to me today. Was nice to not feel scared and alone. Love being part of Hollander family. ❤️

    “My god, even I never get a heart emoji from you,” Shane laughed, handing the phone back to Ilya, who quickly sent the message. “It must be love.”

    “It is,” Ilya said as his phone pinged again, a message from Yuna lighting up the screen.

    And we love you, Ilya. We're here for you and Shane, always. Thank you for letting us take care of you. ❤️

    *****

    Life for Ilya Rozanov hasn’t always been easy.

    It's a good thing that Shane, Yuna and David have decided he’s theirs now.

    A series of firsts with Ilya's chosen family.
     

    Or: the found family fic where Ilya finally gets the love he deserves.

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    Chapters:
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    08 Jul 2026

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    TBR

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    Several MLH players have their phones hacked.

    Most people find embarrassing photos.

    Ilya Rozanov accidentally leaks five years' worth of sex reviews.

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    You know that TikTok trend where people rate how good the sex was in front of their partner?

    Yeah. It's that.

     

    UPDATED: (second chapter) July 12, 2026

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    06 Jul 2026

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    5⭐️ ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

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    Ilya Rozanov has spent ten years circling Shane Hollander. Ten years of hotel rooms and secret phone calls. Ten years of pretending he doesn't feel it, doesn't need it, doesn't wake up reaching for someone who's already gone. Ten years convincing himself he's not good enough. That he's not worth it.

    Then a plane needs to make an emergency landing near Montreal, and Yuna Hollander is on it.

    So when Shane calls him from a bathroom floor, unable to breathe, Ilya stops pretending.

    After five hundred miles of frozen highway, three and a half hours of driving like a man possessed, a hospital waiting room full of people who have every reason to hate him, and a boy who looks at him like he's something worth keeping, Ilya may have learned a thing or two about what it means to be loved—and to let himself love freely.

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    05 Jul 2026

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    Such amazing character insights.

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    “You have some time off now, right?" Shane asks. "Before you start filming that superhero movie?”

    “Yes!” Rose sits up from where she’d been slouching on the sofa, letting the comic book fall to the ground. “Do you not have plans for the summer? We should meet up!”

    Shane clears his throat. “I do have plans.” He says slowly. “But I was hoping you could join me?”

    “That sounds fantastic, babe.” Rose responds easily. She had hoped to see Shane this summer, but he had very unsubtly hinted that he’d be spending the offseason with Mystery Partner so she hadn’t pushed. This is a very pleasant surprise. “What are the plans?”

    “I’m getting married?” Shane says it like it’s a question, even though it very much should not be.

    Rose’s jaw drops. “Come again.”

    “I’m getting married.” At least he sounds sure of himself this time. “Next Wednesday. And I want you to be there. If you can.”

    “Wow” is all Rose can think of to say.

     

    Or

    The Best Women's perspectives on the wedding of the century

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    2/6
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    03 Jul 2026

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    Rose and Sveta POV

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    How did he let this happen?

    Shane's not sure.

    One moment, he was on the gym floor not staring at Rozanov's gorgeous sweaty body. Then Shane was standing up, but his legs were weak for some god forsaken reason and Rozanov was there, just an arm around his waist to keep him upright, and now...

    Well.

    Now Shane's on his knees on the floor of Ilya Rozanov's shower.

     

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    Heated Rivalry, but the boys are forced to have an honest conversation around 8 years earlier than they do in canon.

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    Chapters:
    25/25
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    03 Jul 2026

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    5⭐️

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    “I was thinking,” Shane says without looking up from his salmon, “about how you guys said it was okay if I wanted to bring someone over for Christmas?”

    Yuna gasps sharply, but David speaks before she can. “Of course, son.” He says warmly. “Do you have someone you want to invite?”

    Shane nods slowly, eyes still glued to his plate. He takes a deep breath before looking up, not quite meeting David or Yuna’s eyes, but rather staring off at the space between them. “Can we have Christmas at the cottage? I’m… I mean, we are pretty private and I don’t want to have to explain to the neighbors—”

    His son is blushing bright red, but all David can think about is ‘we’. Since when are Shane and this mystery person a ‘we’? Just how serious is this relationship?

    He had noticed that Shane’s on his phone a lot. That on the rare occasion that David manages to stir the conversation away from hockey, Shane would bring up things he’d never shown interest in before: movies about racing cars or international music.

    David had figured that there was someone in his son’s life, but not that they were a ‘we’.

     

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    How Yuna and David come to adopt their second son

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    5/5
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    03 Jul 2026

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    Love!

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    Ilya is plummeting to his death when he closes his eyes, heart full of regret.

    When he opens them in what feels like just a second later, he is standing outside a rink in Regina, Saskatchewan. There’s a banner on the building across the street:

    World Junior Hockey Championship 2009.

    What?

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    02 Jul 2026

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    5⭐️

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    Ilya Rozanov has seen the tape on Hollander, seen his blazing speed and his quick hands, his almost psychic ability to know where the puck will be. Hollander is a magician on the ice, the best prospect in the world except for Ilya himself.

    But up close, Hollander looks young. Soft. Western. He has big eyes and freckles across his nose like a little kid. He is attractive in the way that many young men are attractive, his face not yet hardened by the work of the real world, and he seems nervous to be out here, nervous to be seen with Ilya. Because Ilya has been forced to learn everything about Hollander, Ilya knows that Hollander is older than him, not much, a few weeks. But looking at him, Ilya feels weary and old. He hates that.

    Podfic of Bad Thing by synchronik.

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    1/1
    Comments:
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    02 Jul 2026

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    This shall be where I dump all of my Game Changers one-shots. Each chapter should stand alone. Hope you enjoy...

    Ch 1: Ilya learns a cool fact about the human body, he decides to do a science experiment

    Ch 2: David and Ilya's missing conversation from ep 6

    Ch 3: Shane tops for the first time.

    Ch 4: Shane gets his wisdom teeth removed. High confessions ensue.

    Ch 5: Notes ap (things the boys find endearing/annoying about their partner)

    Ch 6: Ilya teaches sex ed to the rookies

    Ch 7: They host a pool party at the Cottage

    Ch 8: Fabian + Ryan AU - If they kissed on the Ferry

    Ch 9: My Season 2 Fancast

    Ch 10: Orgy...

    Ch 11: Yuna and Ilya get stuck in the elevator the night of the CCM photoshoot

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    Chapters:
    11/11
    Comments:
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    31,162

    02 Jul 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    TBR

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