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    When Shane takes a hard hit on the ice, he wakes up three days later to find his reality has been shattered. But the truth is, it wasn’t reality at all. Just an elaborate set of false memories conjured by a brain injury. 'False memory syndrome' they call it. Shane calls it a nightmare he couldn't have imagined.

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    Shane doesn’t have amnesia. Instead, he wakes up wanting his boyfriend only to realize his brain concocted a bunch of fake memories of a nine year situationship and Shane has no idea how to live in his actual reality that Ilya hasn’t been a part of. Luckily, Ilya is…curious.

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    26 Apr 2026

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    They pulled in a man, bound by his wrists and throat, the lower half of his face hidden beneath a metal muzzle. He walked with a limp, weighed down by the chains on his body and stumbled as the guards pulled at the chains viciously, just barely able to keep himself upright.

    It took a moment for the scent to fill the room. 

    Or: Rebel Leader Ilya gets captured and presented to the Crown Prince of the Empire, Shane. By logic, they should hate each other. Something's in the air that makes it hard to.

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    26 Apr 2026

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    After months of being ghosted by Ilya, Shane gets horrible news about his health. At the age of 23 he gets diagnosed with Stage 4 Hodgkin's Lymphoma. He is supported by his friends and family and yet he cannot stop thinking of his rival. But he and Ilya have never been more disconnected, so he resigns himself to fighting this without Ilya in his life.

    Ilya knows he was an asshole last Spring. Shane has been ignoring him all summer. But he figures that once he's back in North America and the season starts, he'll be able to get back in Shane's good graces. And then Montreal announces that they have placed Shane Hollander on Long Term Injured Reserve and he panics.

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    Canon Divergence after Episode 2.

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    02 Apr 2026

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    Shane Hollander knows he’s not the easiest person to love.

    As Ottawa’s captain, he’s busy. He’s particular. But he manages it. He’s always managed it. Shane makes sure his anxiety never becomes anyone else’s problem.

    And he’s lucky—his boyfriend Clayton is willing to put up with him just fine.

    Clayton isn’t always perfect, but he’s a great guy. Shane knows how lucky he is to have someone like him.

    Even if it hurts sometimes.

    Ilya Rozanov has just been drafted, and he’s ready to prove to the league that it’s his year. He’s played against Shane Hollander for years. He knows exactly how good Ottawa’s captain is on the ice.

    But the more Ilya sees of Shane off the ice, the more something starts to feel wrong.

    Because Shane Hollander might be the perfect captain.

    But his life doesn’t look anything like Ilya imagined.

    And seriously—who the fuck is Clayton?
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    Or, Shane thinks he's hard to love. Ilya violently disagrees.

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    25 Mar 2026

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    Shane Hollander is 18 years old and a beta when he first competes at World Juniors in Saskatchewan. Shane's only expectation is to bring home gold. Instead, Shane unexpectedly presents as an omega during the gold medal game against Russia. Luckily, his rival Ilya Rozanov is there to help Shane, which is a good thing because Shane knows nothing about being an omega. Rozanov kindly offers to extend his stay to help Shane through his first heat.

    Only months later, Shane discovers that he came home with a whole lot more than a silver medal and an unwanted new designation. Somehow he's carrying the baby of a man who lives on the other side of the world. A man who never offered his phone number and doesn't have any social media to speak of.

    Somehow Shane is going to have to find a way to explain why he's suddenly pulling out of the 2009 draft, come to terms with giving up hockey and caring for a baby completely alone. All while desperately wishing he could share the joys of first smiles and the stress of sleepless nights with the alpha he's never quite been able to forget.

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    Shane gets pregnant the first time they meet, but doesn't find out until Ilya is back in Russia with no way to contact him.

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    24 Mar 2026

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    23 Mar 2026

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    Ilya is plummeting to his death when he closes his eyes, heart full of regret.

    When he opens them in what feels like just a second later, he is standing outside a rink in Regina, Saskatchewan. There’s a banner on the building across the street:

    World Junior Hockey Championship 2009.

    What?

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    11 Mar 2026

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    “He’ll never forget anything about their first night. Or any night he shared with Ilya. Every detail has been etched into him. Without them, he wouldn’t recognize himself. Without them he was blank.

    Stop thinking about Rozanov. Fuck.

    He seeks new memories. New… etches.

    So when future archeologists dig up his bones they won’t read them like a love letter to Ilya Rozanov.

    Shane knows it’s risky.

    But he doesn’t know that tonight he won’t be etched, he’ll be broken.”

    When Shane hooks up with a stranger after a game, he thinks the worst that could happen is getting outed. He is wrong. What was meant to be a night to forget all about Ilya Rozanov, becomes a night when he needs him most.

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    28 Feb 2026

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    He drives to the airport with an unshakeable urge to pull over and turn around. He smokes four cigarettes in a row before he boards the plane, then chews an entire pack of gum on the flight to try and cover the worst of the smell.

    He exits the airport half-hoping that Shane has chickened out of the whole thing. Then he spots him, tapping his fingers against the steering wheel in the most boring suburban dad car Ilya has ever had the misfortune of laying his eyes on, and he’s so happy to see him that his legs feel unsteady beneath his weight.

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    Or, the cottage, Ilya's version: an extended ep 6 featuring my take on what happened in the gaps we didn't see.

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    23 Feb 2026

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    Ilya is cold, ruthless criminal who rules the Ottawa's underworld ever since he moved there. Life of luxury and respect from others is all he is used to. Shane Hollander, however, is not, and when Shane catches Ilya's attention, Ilya's calculated obsession begins, drawing Shane into the world of danger, power, and psychological tension that he can't escape.

    "There are only two ways out of this. With me. Or in a body bag. Your choice."

     

    **** please read the tags carefully!!!! i am not joking about them if any of these are not your cup of tea, please skip!!*******

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    22 Feb 2026

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    If you’d already decided love was more than enough, that being together was bigger than fear; if you’d already picked each other over everything else, already picked a season to make it known; if you’d exchanged rings and vows and you knew this was forever and—most significantly—no one’s idiot best friend accidentally outed you early with his stupid side-hustle video scheme: would you stick to the plan?

    Or, would you play a slightly longer game to make your point; would you wait a couple extra months if it meant seizing the opportunity to go big, go bold, shove loving this much in the faces of the naysayers and the assholes and the bigots on an oh-so-convenient, quadrennially-available global stage?

    ~

    Or: No FanMail. No outing. No forced free agency. Just their terms. Just their choice. Just their love.

    So hell yes: Shane and Ilya use the 2022 Winter Olympics as their hard launch. How’s that even a question?

    Scott Hunter’s gonna be so pissed at being upstaged that bad.

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    22 Feb 2026

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    Exhausted by the media frenzy following his father's death, Ilya decides to take a month-long break to escape the circus surrounding him.
    What he didn't expect was that, while trying to dodge paparazzi on the streets of Ottawa, he would end up seeking refuge in a small flower shop. There, in the comforting silence, he finds a gentle omega who doesn't immediately recognize him, neither by name or by fame.

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    19 Feb 2026

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    Shane Hollander—omega, prince, and future ruler of Canada—is about to face the most terrifying day of his life: meeting the alpha his family has chosen for him. Traditions his family doesn't follow demand obedience, silence, and perfection—but it doesn’t account for the Russian general with piercing blue eyes, golden curls, and a way of touching Shane as if he already belongs to him.

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    “I’m Shane by the way.”

    “Shane.”

    “My friends call me Rozy.”

    “What kind of a name is Rozy?”

    “One you won’t forget.”

    “Oh.”

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    18 Feb 2026

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    Ilya crouched down until he was at eye level with Shane.

    He reached out and brushed his hand along Shane’s jaw gently. Shane’s eyes fluttered closed as he leaned into Ilya’s touch.

    Ilya watched it happen, how it was so instinctive… the same way Shane always softened immediately under his hands or when in his presence.

    “You’re so responsive for me, Shane,” he murmured, lifting Shane’s chin slightly to face him. Shane slowly opened his eyes to look at him.

    Ilya leaned in, bringing their faces close enough that he could feel the hot air from Shane’s breath.

    “So tell me something,” Ilya said quietly. “Does Hayden ever get to see you like this?”

    “Or is he just playing with my property?”

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    OR: Hayden finds Shane after the MLH Awards in Vegas where Ilya left him sub dropped & hurting. Hayden makes Shane feel better and the lines between their friendship get blurred. Ilya gets incredibly jealous and fights to win him back. They all end up hurting until they learn how to communicate.

    There are both Shayden & Hollanov spicy scenes but *no threesomes* - This fic gets VERY messy and toxic but has a happy Hollanov ending!

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    18 Feb 2026

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    Shane Hollander has built himself around routine, his life blood is hockey. Struggling to understand his team off the ice and the people around him, he carves out a few silent hours to himself. It's just him and his skates. But the hard fought peace is fragile, like cracks in too thin ice. It only takes a slight impact to shatter. Shane is fighting to hold his team and himself together as everything comes crashing down around him.

    Someone hacks into Rose Landry's phone in a club, they then release the images of Shane's texts online and all hell breaks loose. Shane is left to pick up the pieces. Ilya makes some choices in the aftermath that change everything. Shane decides to stop hiding and Ilya is a possessive asshole who makes it everyone else's problem. With far less reason to hide himself anymore, Shane begins to show more of who he really is behind the polite, media worthy façade. They instead find a team who are ready to fight the world for each other and a found family that has far reaching threads.

    Maybe Shane can have both Hockey and Ilya. The world will just have to deal with it.

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    17 Feb 2026

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    17 Feb 2026

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    "It just works better like that. Taking his mind off of the logistics and the meaning of it all and the implications lets him put that focus to better work on the actual thing he cares about: hockey. It really isn’t that different from outsourcing his branding to Mom, or any less embarrassing than his dietician meal prepping for him or his trainer mapping out his workout plan. They’re experts in their field, nutrition and marketing and fucking. Shane is an expert in his: taking all that into his body and using it to be fucking awesome at hockey. It’s win, win, win.

    Meals get delivered at his door. Room numbers and plans get texted to him. And appointments with photographers get emailed with subject lines reminding him to remember to use the good shampoo in his hair before them.

    He’s still in control in the sense he’s letting it all happen for him, except that sometimes, especially at these stupid fucking photoshoots, it feels a little bit like it’s happening to him, instead."

    Shane gets into a bad situation with a photographer who has pictures Shane would rather not get out. Ilya and Rose find out about it, eventually.

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    16 Feb 2026

  18. Public Bookmark 97

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    Shane drops after the Las Vegas incident, and Ilya must race to find him before the cold takes him away.

    Some of it is sub drop but honestly I just made Shane crash out.

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    16 Feb 2026

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    It'd been easier for Shane to pretend the emotional meltdown that he'd had after their 2014 encounter in Vegas hadn't happened than to bring it up to Ilya. It'd only ever happened that one time. There's no reason to dwell on it or rehash old stuff when both of them are great at aftercare now and have been since they officially got together.

    --or, Shane definitely should've told Ilya sooner

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    16 Feb 2026

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    “Ilya had wanted him to stay so badly. He’d planned it all. He bought ginger ale. He knew after an orgasm Shane would be all soft and blissed out. He’d ask him to stay, act like it was just so they could fuck again. He’d put on a hockey game and he'd make Shane food. Make him comfortable and happy…

    More like lure him into a trap, like a predator.”

    Or:

    It’s the tuna melt scene, but make it kinky and Ilya drops after. Hard.

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    16 Feb 2026

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