gowthertoons
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“are you afraid of me?”
“sometimes.”
“why?”
“i think i am afraid of becoming you.”
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or: vessel faces his greatest fear... himself?
or: gowther needed an excuse to write gore as a metaphor and with religious trauma to go with itSeries
- Part 5 of gowther is fucking crazy
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it's quite literally just me dumping my thoughts somewhere where most of my irls won't see lmao. I get quite existential pretty often as a warning
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(wilting) sunflower by gowthertoons
Fandoms: Spider-Man: Spider-Verse (Sony Animated Movies)
06 Oct 2023
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being a teenager with overbearing parents, a new, difficult school environment and other normal shit to worry about was already enough to stress someone out. but then, the responsibilities of being the new spider-man, living up to the past one’s image, the expectations of the role and the pressure of having to save everyone… well, that doesn’t exactly help.
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- Part 4 of gowther is fucking crazy
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bad habit , steve lacy
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being the eccedentsiast that he is, he suffers through his pain alone. he doesn't want anyone to worry about him. he won't let anything tip them off, won't let even a hint of his pain slip through his facade.
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- Part 2 of gowther is fucking crazy
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sex with a ghost, teddy hyde
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sometimes, he’s stricken by how sick this is.
(the only time i ever see her)he’s just creating them with his mind.
(is when she's behind me in the mirror)
but even as he realizes this, he wants them.
(even from a distance, i can hear her)Series
- Part 3 of gowther is fucking crazy
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gowther is fucking crazy by gowthertoons
Fandom No Fandom, Original Work, Sleep Token (Band), Spider-Man: Spider-Verse (Sony Animated Movies), Stray Kids (Band)
04 Mar 2024
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“I told Hyunjinnie this morning,” Changbin says. “And Seungminnie and Yongbokkie at breakfast. Minho-hyung and Hannie and Ayen-ie after that. I have different relationships with each of you. A communal…”
“Break up,” Chan says. “A communal breakup was too much for you?”
“It’s seven relationships. Not one. I’m trying to respect each of you,” Changbin says. His knuckles feel tight. Chan’s face is still covered.
“You are,” Chan breathes. “I know you are. That’s the worst part.”
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17 Apr 2026
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Chan loved giving and receiving cuddles. He loved having Felix jump up his back for fun, Jisung falling asleep in his arms or Seungmin boldly claiming Chan’s thigh as his chair when he got lucky enough. He did like skinship a lot, especially from the boys who weren't too fond of it. But there had been something that he hadn't been able to work out for himself for the most part. He'd dreaded it even before finally agreeing to date all of them. His biggest worry to this day that always made him feel like he wasn't quite doing enough. He always tried to compensate, to make up for what he couldn't give them. But it never felt enough.
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Chan would rather shoot himself in the head than admit what he really needs from his boyfriends. But eventually, he crumbles. And he makes some discoveries along the way.Series
- Part 5 of A-spec Straykids fics
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04 Apr 2026
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“I think we should keep seeing eachother.”
“I thought we established that-“
“That we’re both too busy to date. Exactly.”
“Yet you want us to, continue?” You ask him, confused.
“I figured if we keep seeing eachother, then Seungmin will get off your back and Minho will get off mine. We could act like we’re dating and they would leave us alone.”
Three minutes until your taxi arrives.
“Look, I’ll be frank-“
“I thought your name was Chan?”
He laughs brightly. “I think this could work. We’re both workaholics and we both don’t want to date, so if we say we’re going to continue seeing eachother, exchange numbers and then it’ll be a win win.”
“They’d catch on. Seungmin would force us on an actual double date-“
“So we just keep up the act? For a while anyway, then we can just say we broke it off.”
Two minutes until your taxi arrives.
“It could work.”
And it really could. Couldn’t it?
Bookmarked by gowthertoons
31 Mar 2026
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And I know (Oh, all I know are lies) by Annaleah for QueenOfALotOfDifferentWorlds
Fandoms: Stray Kids (Band)
03 Jan 2025
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To not be what people expect you to be can make your life pretty much hell.
Seungmin knew that damn well. Everyone had expected him to be an Alpha, since he liked to be in control of situations, or at least a Beta, a peacemaker and calming figure, but generally confident.
No one. And I repeat, no one, had expected him to be an Omega.
Still, his father tried his best to make profit from it.
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- Part 7 of Lost and Found
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- 21,256
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- 8/8
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Bookmarked by gowthertoons
28 Mar 2026
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In a world where everyone has a soulmate and the markings vary based on each pair, you were stuck with one of the most annoying markings: the unknown. When you find out that your identifying mark is body switching, and your soulmate happens to be the idol Bang Chan, your life gets a little bit more difficult.
Ever the independent (stubborn) person you are, you want to keep your array of problems to yourself. Chan seems determined to change that.
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- Part 1 of skz soulmate au
Bookmarked by gowthertoons
27 Mar 2026