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    Before Shane and Ilya are out Montreal plays Ottawa and Shane has a bad panic attack before the game. Hayden's solution is to take Shane to Ilya in Ottawa's locker room for Ilya to help Shane calm down.

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    18 Jun 2026

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    “And I know why you said it too,” he added quickly.

    The feeling of impending danger in Hayden’s stomach deepened.

    “And why was that?”

    “Because you found out Shane is gay and you’re trying to use it against him to win games!”

    A pause.

    Rozanov blinked and then had the decency to at least look a little bewildered before laughing out loud.

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    Hayden gets the wrong idea about some of Ilya's on-ice dirty talk and accidentally turns the Montreal Voyageurs into anti-homophobia crusaders.

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    14 Jun 2026

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    Ilya is the last to know. Which, he thinks, is not surprising given the circumstances. But as he makes his way to the Boston airport, with nothing but a few random clothes in a duffel bag, a pack of cigs, and his passport gripped in his sweaty, shaking hands, this will be the last time he’s not the first to know.

    Or, Shane tries to come out to Hayden on his own terms about being gay (which he takes fine) and Ilya (which he does not), and Shane gets hit by a car.

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    14 Jun 2026

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    “Hayden, what do you think was happening back there?”

    “Rozanov was having dinner with Yuna.”

    “No, I mean, why do you think Rozanov was in my parents’ house?”

    Hayden’s look of pity(?) only increased. “Oh buddy. Of course you wouldn’t see what’s going on. Why would you? You always think the best of your family.”

    “Just answer the question.” Shane was too drained to figure out what Hayden was getting at.

    “I’m so sorry, Shane, but Ilya Rozanov was seducing your mother.”

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    Or: Shane and Hayden go to see Shane's parents, when Rozanov is there, Hayden jumps to a very wrong conclusion.

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    13 Jun 2026

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    Shane is stooped over to strap on his shin guards when his phone buzzes once in Hayden’s hand.

    He doesn’t mean to tap the notification.

    And oh god, does he wish he could un-tap the fucking notification.

    Because why the fuck has Lily, Shane’s mysterious Boston hook-up of several years (no matter how fervently he denies it), sent him a picture of a fucking sonogram.

    Black and white, blurry, and undeniably baby-shaped.

    Ilya makes a joke, Hayden breaks Shane’s phone, and a comedy of errors ensues.

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    13 Jun 2026

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    “Hi, Shane,” she says, pressing a kiss to his cheek. If it weren’t for the angry scratch marks on her shoulder, it would look like she hadn't been in a fight at all.

    “Hey Sveta,” Shane replies with a fond, if exasperated, smile. “It’s good to see you.”

    The pieces fall into place. Boston girl. Russian speaker. Familiar and affectionate with Shane, who is not a very touchy-feely guy, but doesn’t seem to mind when it comes from her.

    Hayden’s connecting the dots.

    (After witnessing an interaction in a club in Boston, Hayden's sure he's figured out Boston Lily's true identity: Svetlana Vetrova).

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    13 Jun 2026

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    Shane and Ilya have done everything right, with years of waiting, planning, and hoping. After too many almosts and not-quites, they go to one more adoption event with no expectations.

    But one quiet conversation—and one perfect baby—turn “maybe” into something a lot more dangerous: hope.

    And hope, it turns out, has a way of asking for more than they expected.

    (AKA: hurt/comfort, so much yearning, accidental family, angst with a payoff, and yes—a hard-won happy ending)

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    11 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander's Land Rover has never failed him... until it does. On the side of the highway. In a blizzard. With Ilya Rozanov sitting shotgun, like this is all perfectly normal.

    Now he's freezing, spiraling, and seconds away from being rescued by the one person who absolutely cannot find out he's secretly dating Ilya.

    Or, Shane discovers that British engineering is no longer practical, especially when Hayden Pike is involved

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    08 Jun 2026

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    Hayden Pike will do anything for Shane Hollander, no questions asked. So when Shane calls him panicking in the middle of the night saying he needs help dealing with a body, Hayden throws on his coat and grabs a shovel like the good friend he is.

    Or: A drunk Ilya passes out right outside Shane’s sex building, and Shane can't move his body.

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    08 Jun 2026

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    Yuna Hollander steps into an elevator alongside Ilya Rozanov, intending to stop by her son, Shane Hollander’s, hotel room. She politely introduces herself to the Russian hockey player. The elevator comes to a sudden unexpected halt, and they are stuck inside together.

    ONE SHOT

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    06 Jun 2026

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    "Ilya : Your idiot of a best friend is trying to invite Lily to your birthday dinner

    Jane ♡ : Well, good afternoon to you too
    Also, what the hell?"

    Or, Hayden Pike is trying to invite his best friend's girlfriend to his birthday party, except the girlfriend is actually a boyfriend and no one thought to tell him beforehand. Chaos ensues.

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    06 Jun 2026

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    Prequel to ‘Underneath His Rolex’ – drunk Shane gets Ilya’s jersey number tattooed on his wrist.

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    05 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander doesn't fight. That's what everyone always says. But that doesn't mean that he can't, when someone fucks with what matters.

    During Shane’s first season as a Centaur, he learns to ignore it when the Metros start throwing chirps his way. But when one of them goes after his husband in the one way that could actually hurt him, Shane handles it the logical way: he drops his gloves. (And later, he drops to his knees.)

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    03 Jun 2026

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    “You really wouldn’t mind if I had sex with someone else?”

    Ilya does mind. Hearing it said back to him, almost makes him flinch, a sudden and brittle sound right next to his ear that he fails to recoil from in time. But he swallows back the bitter truth and replies, “Of course not. If that is what you want.”

    He waits, sitting on his living room couch, phone pressed painfully against his ear, his other hand gripping his knees till his knuckles blanched. He could feel his own heart rattling behind his ribs, pulse rockingloudly. His mind was an echo of alarm, demanding of him: Why isn't Shane saying anything?

    It was the loudest silence he’s ever lived through, until Shane finally said, “Okay.”

    OR: inspired by the fight in TLG where Ilya tells Shane he can sleep with other men. But this time, Shane actually takes the offer.

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    22 May 2026

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    The permission was all he needed, bursting forth over Ilya’s chest and clenching hard around his cock and Cliff’s fingers.

    He collapsed down onto Ilya’s chest, half sobbing, as Cliff chuckled and pulled his fingers out. By the time he got back from washing his hands, Ilya was sitting up, Shane empty now but still straddling his lap, head cradled in the crux of his neck.

    Ilya looked up as Cliff walked in and smiled, gesturing him forward. Cliff sat down next to them, hand stroking Shane’s back. He nodded at the question in Ilya’s look.

    “Okay, moy muzh,” Ilya said, pulling Shane’s face up to meet his, “Are you ready now to take both of us?”

    or:

    Shane wants to be DP'd, badly. And Cliff Marlow loves making dreams come true.

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    22 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander wants to date Rose. But he is 18 and has never even kissed a girl.
    Rose thinks he should practice first. She practices with her best friend, Daisy.

    Shane wants to be a good boyfriend
    Which means learning to kiss.
    Which means practice.
    Which means asking the person he trusts most.
    Ilya Rozanov has never said no to him before. He doesn’t start now.

    It’s practical.
    It’s actually smart.

    They already spend all their time together.
    They already share a bed.
    It’s just practice.
    Even if it happens every night.
    Even if it keeps.. escalating.

    As Shane and Rose continue their relationship, it makes sense to practice each step.
    With people they trust.
    (Even if those people don’t have the correct body parts for it to make sense.)

    This is normal.
    They are absolutely not gay.
    This is just practice.
    Ilya is exactly where he wants to be.

    Or:

    Shane Hollander practices kissing with his childhood best friend to be a better boyfriend.
    It works so well that they keep practicing.
    Every new step.
    Every base.
    Shane and Rose think this is a normal system.
    Ilya and Daisy do not correct them.

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    19 May 2026

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    "As long as you want. It's your birthday after all."

    "And what if you're, like, doing something?"

    "Well, lyubov, I don't really have plans of doing anything except making it the best day ever," Ilya laughed. "But if I am busy... it doesn't matter. It's your gift – you get to decide when to use it."

    "Oh," is all Shane said again.

    Ilya's gift to Shane this year is himself. He really shouldn't have been so surprised that Shane would go above and beyond to make it his best birthday yet.

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    17 May 2026

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    “Ilya,” Shane gasped out, like it hurt to form the word. With it came a small smattering of blood on his lip. A few extra hands were working alongside Ilya and Pike, but Ilya would not move. He had to stay, and listen, and be with Shane.

     

    “Yes. Shaneya, I am here. What do you need to tell me?” More and more blood burbled up past Shane’s lips, which couldn’t be a good sign. How could more blood be trying to escape him? There were already two exit points, wasn’t that enough? Now he had to drown in it?

     

    “Tell Ilya I’m sorry… I- I love him… So much. I’m sorry I left. Please. Please, I can’t die without him knowing…” Ilya couldn’t breathe behind the sob that tore out of him. He collapsed inward with the force of it. Shane was below him, begging to live so that he could tell Ilya he loved him. If anyone reacted to the two boys, Ilya didn’t notice. This whole thing could still be being live-streamed to ESPN, and Ilya wouldn’t care.

    Or, Shane gets shot on the ice right after the Tuna Melt Gate. Ilya is there to save him.

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    16 May 2026

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    Drapeau rolls his eyes, “So you’re all pissy now because Hollander isn’t here to get your dick wet? What, are you an actual cocksucker now?”
    “So what!?” Hayden snapped suddenly loud and pissed off, “So fucking what if I suck dick!? What does it matter!? It doesn’t!”
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    Hayden accidentally implies he’s bisexual (he swears he’s not), but after getting drinks and making friends with Cliff Marlow… well suddenly he wonders just how much of a spectrum sexuality is. Meanwhile, Cliff thinks that maybe Montreal alternate captain is kind of… sexy. Or maybe that’s the alcohol talking.

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    12 May 2026

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    "Why are you not scared?"

    "I am scared," Ilya admits. "I just am tired. Of hiding me. Of hiding you. Of hiding how much I love you. I want to go to the rink— how do you say it? Authenti."

    "Authentically," Shane supplies, automatically.

    "Yes. Authentically. I want to go to the rink authentically, as me," Ilya confirms.

    Ilya looks at Shane, pauses until Shane meets his eyes. "I want to say: I, Ilya Rozanov, love a man, and that man's name is Shane Hollander."

     

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    Or, sometimes it takes a little more time, and some courage, to be with the one you love.

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    11 May 2026

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