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    Based on a tumblr post from @notahungrywish, ending with:

    Just Shane casually assuming he'll always have to share and never be enough for Ilya and Ilya horrified to realize just how resigned Shane is to assuming Ilya will never be satisfied with him the way Shane is with Ilya.

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    05 May 2026

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    "I will pay."

    Heat prickled across Shane's face at the deep, volcanic tone of Rozanov's voice. The meaning of the offer was vague, but something in the way the words drew from Rozanov's firm, stiff-lipped mouth struck Shane as unmistakable.

    "To be with you tonight."

    Shane blustered out an indignant laugh, the flames of rapid flush licking higher on her cheeks. "Are you fucking with me right now? Rozanov, I'm not—," Shane pitched her voice lower, which meant she had to press her mouth nearly against Rozanov's ear to be heard. "I'm not a call girl!"

    Jerking back on a gruff laugh, Ilya postured her. "I know that. But everyone has their price."

    Ilya Rozanov, internationally-renowned singles tennis star, propositions Shane Hollander, sports medicine consultant for the Montreal Voyageurs and local nobody, in a nightclub surrounded by people. What's the worst that could happen? It's not as if Shane is going to say yes... is she?

    EDIT: Complete!

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    04 Apr 2026

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    Ilya laughs. He finds that once he starts, he can't stop. He laughs at the fact that he's in France with Shane Hollander. He laughs at the fact he's Shane Hollander's boyfriend. He laughs at the fact that he gave up Moscow for a better life, only to end up in fucking Ottawa. 

    Ilya's dick stops working one month before he's supposed to leave for the South of France. 

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    24 Mar 2026

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    “Am I a bad friend?”

    Hayden has always been the guy Shane joked with, the guy he trusted to feed him without mocking him, the guy he roomed with on the road, and Shane is the only man who has ever seen Hayden cry, and Hayden loves Shane. He fucking loves him. They are like brothers, and they have been for almost ten fucking years. He’s always been Shane’s guy, Shane’s best friend.

    Except all along, maybe that wasn’t true. Ilya Rozanov, apparently, had been the guy. Before Hayden had ever met Shane, Ilya Rozanov had been there. And Hayden had never even noticed.

    Shane is all over every inch of Hayden’s life. Hayden thought that was reciprocal.
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    “You know I think about you all the time,
    And my deep misunderstanding of your life,
    And how bad it must have been for you back then,
    And how hard it was to keep it all inside.”

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    19 Mar 2026

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    “For what it’s worth…” Trinity says. “I didn’t kiss you to mess with you.”

    Victoria should probably be embarrassed of how fast she turns around. “Really?”

    It starts on the night of Victoria's twenty-first.

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    17 Mar 2026

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    "Sveta," he says, before she can greet him. "I think I'm about to do something very stupid."

    "You're always doing something stupid," she laughs, her voice tinny over the speakerphone. "What is it this time?"

    "I am in a staring contest with a bottle of pills," Ilya says. "And I think the pills might win."

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    Or: An alternate take on Ilya's mental health after moving to Ottawa, featuring the reality of long distance relationships, Ilya learning to captain a new team, and a series of game tapes made by Ilya's dead father.

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    13 Mar 2026

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    In the early hours of Saturday, the Hockey world was ablaze with the news that Ilya Rozanov was dead. Killed in a tragic car accident leaving behind a slew of devastated fans and a grieving husband still reeling in shock.

    The news also came as an incredible shock to Ilya when he awoke that same day, hungover and bleary, but very much alive. 

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    19 Feb 2026

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    Shane cups her cheek in his hand, running his thumb over the plush of her bottom lip. She looks at him through her fawnish lashes. He roves his eyes over her body. Her shoulders and biceps, her abs… She's so strong, so…

    Incredible.

    "I've never done that before," he admits, "Not with... with a woman, at least."

    "Right, well," she rolls her eyes, "Would probably be better with a real man, yes?"

    He shakes his head, "No. It wouldn't have been the same at all."

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    or, Shane comes to terms with his sexuality only to get thrown right back into confusion by Rozanov.

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    18 Feb 2026

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    Shane Hollander is trying his best to keep everyone compliant with Health, Safety and Wellbeing standards at Centaurs by Design. Ilya Rozanov does his best to make Shane's job as difficult as possible.

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    06 Feb 2026

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    “Oh my god,” the intruder says, voice coming faster and higher-pitched. “Shane, what the fuck? Oh my god.”

    “Eeleeyah, come to my cottage,” Ilya mocks, voice muffled by Shane’s skin. “Don’t go to Russia. Come to my house instead. Is so private. No one will know…we will be completely alone. Together.”

    “Oh my god, is that Ilya Rozanov?” the intruder yelps like he's about to start hyperventilating. “Why is Ilya Rozanov half-naked in our kitchen, Shane?”

    “Okay, I know how this looks,” Shane tells Ilya, “But I mean, technically, we are still alone. Together.”

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    At the cottage, Shane and Ilya meet eighteen year old Shane Hollander. This is really only a surprise for one of them. Everyone handles it as well as can be expected.

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    02 Feb 2026

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    Ilya has been watching hands his whole life. His father's hands taught him that touch meant pain. His mother's hands were the only gentle ones—until they went cold. Now he has his father's hands, and he's terrified of what they might become.

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    30 Jan 2026

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    “What are you doing here?"

    He’s thankful his voice doesn’t shake, but he’s trembling. And he knows Ilya notices. Even all these years later, he’s sure he can still read Shane like a fucking book.

    Ilya’s smile softens and he points to the ice, where the player whose eyes had brought Shane back to Before lines up with the other boys.

    “My son."

    Ilya never goes to the cottage. Nearly two decades later, they meet again.

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    27 Jan 2026

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    Every Boston Raider knows that although their captain has a girl in every port, he’s got a soft spot for the one in Montreal. Dr. Shane Hollander knows it’s better to have a semi-regular source of casual sex than try to make a relationship work during residency. Ilya Rozanov knows that the doctor he’s fucking in Montreal is unaware that he plays hockey, and in fact probably thinks he’s Bratva.

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    13 Jan 2026

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    when shane gets the injury that would come to end his career, in the moment he’s just thankful he didn’t break his jaw.

    or: shane knew, in the abstract, that one day he would play his last professional nhl game. it never occurred to him that hockey would choose that day for him.

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    06 Jan 2026

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    Shane Hollander is worried about everyone and everything.

    Ilya is mostly just sick of air travel.

    Or:
    Shane and Ilya are having trouble balancing their very private relationship and their very public lives.

    A slice of life.

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    05 Jan 2026

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    “Shane…”

    “Who the fuck do you think you’re calling Shane?”

    “Sweetheart,” Ilya corrects, tilting his head down against Shane’s grip on his hair to try to catch his lips. “Please.”

    “I can do everything she can,” Shane says. “But you’ve been a bit too naughty today. I’m tying you up first.”

    “Oh, no,” Ilya says, voice going high and breathy. “That’s terrible.”

    Or - The jealous Shane/pathetic top Ilya fic where Shane makes Ilya beg for it

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    29 Dec 2025

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    Liliya remembers that day, crisp and clear in the private recesses of her brain. The pleasant burn of smoke in her lungs, the familiar quietude of winter.

    A frame of dark hair, sweet bright eyes. The first time she heard Jane’s voice, pitched up in that uncertain tone. Eager to please.

    That’s the moment she should have guessed it would all become so fucking complicated.

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    24 Dec 2025

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    Hollander as an opponent has always been focused and precise and an absolute nightmare for a defenseman, the kind of player you dread facing.

    Hollander as a teammate is…well, he’s still focused and precise, and intense about every drill and lift and film session to the point of being more than a little intimidating.

    Hollander on five-and-a-half beers and just as many chalupas is something else entirely.

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    The Centaurs get to know Shane Hollander.

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    20 Dec 2025

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    "We have to get the rookies together," Ilya announces without preamble.

    "Jesus," Shane mutters. Talk about subtle. "Have you ever left anything alone for once in your life?"

    He grins. "No. Is how I got you!"

    Or: There's a new rookie in town. Luca Haas is handling this just fine.

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    20 Dec 2025

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    Wyatt was not, like, nosy. For sure, he was interested. He was curious. He engaged with people, obviously, because most people were interesting and engaging and had cool thoughts and said neat stuff if you asked.

    So, no. Wyatt wasn’t nosy, but he wasn’t stupid, either.

    Or: A Bromance Blooms In Ottawa
    Or: The Ballad of Wyatt and Ilya

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    18 Dec 2025

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