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After Shane broke his ankle the advice for rehabilitation was the same. Breathe through the pressure. It’s just pain. Your body is above it. Hockey taught Shane that most important lesson, but really anything else could have done the same trick.
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The world did not work like this, with him under Rozanov, with Rozanov fucking him for the first time in his life and then again and again and again. It did not work like hiding his whole life, the important parts of it, from his parents. But also, it did. And fuck if Shane was going to give it all up because he was scared.
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Ilya smoked in the dream.
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Everything Shane has ever done has resulted in something else. People would call that karma, or physics, but Shane knows better. There are moments he’s sure he has the ability to control everything with a right or wrong thought. And there are moments of clarity where he knows this isn’t true.
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The day Ilya marries Shane Hollander, Svetlana books a trip to Italy.
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hard times by laundry (lovesjar)
Fandom Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
22 Apr 2026
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anthems for a 17 year old by wermbrain
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
25 Apr 2026
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"He opens his mouth, trying to find the right words. When he does, he nearly chokes on them. They come up quiet, weak, shameful. But they come anyway.
'It’s not fair.'"
or; Luca is young and queer and out, and Shane is jealous. He and Ilya work through those feelings.
Bookmarked by lovesjar
25 Apr 2026
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you are the one mouth i would be a tongue to. by hcneymooners (romqntics)
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
18 Jan 2026
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Ilya's hand continues its path up and down Shane's back, and Shane thinks again about how love is sometimes just this: a palm on the spine, moving in circles, waiting for you to come back to yourself. There is no promise of saving you—Ilya cannot save him, they both know this and are alright with it in their own ways—but there is a vow of staying, lingering in order to witness. Touching the bruise so that its pain triggers the memory that you are allowed to be touched.
Outside, the snow continues its work of erasure. Inside, Shane's breathing begins to even out, every limb recalling how to be a man at rest rather than an animal fawning and freezing. The trembling subsides, wave by wave, as if Ilya's hand is smoothing it out of him.
"Sleep, зайчик," Ilya says softly, his free hand coming to rest in Shane's hair. "I have you."
This is not true, Shane thinks, and it is also the only true thing.
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recovery, shane learns, is not a straight line. to begin to understand something, you must first name it.
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Bookmarked by lovesjar
19 Jan 2026
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Shane’s therapist later tells him that she is unsure of how far he could’ve gotten with it, but Shane likes to believe in himself at the wrong times, so he tells her,
“Pretty far.”
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canada's community boyfriend by lipstickliterature
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
21 Apr 2026
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After Shane films an obscenely slutty advertisement for a sports drink company, the whole goddamn world decides he’s their new favorite sex symbol. Ilya reacts perfectly normally to this latest development.
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Or, 5 times Ilya is consumed with jealousy over his own fucking boyfriend + 1 time Shane shows him who he really belongs to.
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24 Apr 2026
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wake up call by icelyvelvet
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
27 Mar 2026
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The game ends.
The night doesn’t.
Shane collapses into sleep, exhausted, unaware of anything that comes after.
Ilya changes that.
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24 Apr 2026
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maintenance by anincompletelist (soldouthaz)
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28 Jan 2026
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Lily: You suck at sexting.
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