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the killing kind by saintlynomenclature (verahoney) for kittentoes
Fandoms: Red White & Royal Blue - Casey McQuiston
24 Mar 2024
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But Henry is the one who had called, not Alex. Henry is the one who broke their stalemate and reached out, despite being the one who’d ran away in the first place. It’s foolish and asinine and criminally cruel, and Henry doesn’t know who he’s talking about anymore.
Perhaps he and Alex are destined to do this forever; a maddening, all-consuming push and pull of two orbiting bodies that can only collide with devastating consequences. Henry has only ever found some semblance of religion in the caress of Alex’s touch, used to chase absolution down the dip of his spine and beg for salvation against the hollow of his throat. He’d never found what he’d been looking for.
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Or, ACD is the world's favorite rockstar; Henry is Alex's favorite "what if"
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- Part 1 of i love you, it's ruining my life
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26 Mar 2024
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"You," he says. “Don't just get to come in here and rip my heart open, and speak about food in a way that I've been missing for a decade, and turn out to be the chef whose creations I've been sneaking into Gallant to eat for months even though I fucking hate Roman, and now you’re the most extraordinarily beautiful human being I've ever laid eyes on. You don't get to do that." He plants his hands on his hips "This is very inconvenient.”
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- Part 1 of Inconvenient
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23 Mar 2024
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He’s feeling lightheaded when he finally pulls up and parks beside the bunker, but there’s no one to come outside and open the driver’s side door and help Dean step out, there’s no one to take Dean’s bags out of the trunk and carry them to the bunker. There’s no one to ask for help and anyway he’s fine, always has been, so he just leans his forehead against the steering wheel and lets his head hang between his legs for a while until the feeling passes. Then he hauls himself out of the car and drags his his bags inside even though even the fingers on his good hand are trembling and his legs are shaking.
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- Part 5 of song of songs
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19 Mar 2024
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Dean doesn't give him a chance to explain. Dean breaks his nose.
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04 Mar 2024
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“But I fail, Cas, over and over, I fail them. I failed Sam, I failed my father, I failed you-”
“You’re missing it, Dean,” Cas breathes out his name, gentle, and his arm remains pliant in his hold. “You’re missing it.”
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OR, Cas is confused about self-harm, and Dean attempts to explain. Hearts are aching, wounds begin to heal.
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01 Mar 2024
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When they got to the motel in Pennsylvania, Dean went to the front desk to book the room while Cas waited with their bags. The walls were painted a faded light blue, with one wall declaring the motel name in curly script: the Blue Moon Motel.
The lobby was deserted save for the desk clerk, an older woman with short black hair and dangly earrings that swung when she moved her head. She smiled at him as he approached.
“One room, please.”
“Single bed?”
“No,” Dean said with too much force. “Two. Two beds.”
The clerk’s eyebrows rose a fraction of an inch. “Okay, sorry.” She clacked at the keyboard in front of her, eyes fixed on the screen. After a moment she turned back and informed him, “Unfortunately, we only have singles left.”
Dean tried not to groan.OR: Dean and Cas head out on a lead for a demon cure. The only problem is, the lead is halfway across the country and only weeks earlier, a brainwashed Cas nearly killed Dean. Not to mention, Dean doesn’t know he’s in love with Cas.
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21 Feb 2024
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Happiness, for Cas, is overwhelming when it happens. Like it always comes as a surprise. Like he doesn't expect the sudden swell of liquid warmth, the choke in his throat and the gummy, aching feeling consuming every inch of him. A knee-jerk, hold-his-breath-moment before he remembers that he's allowed to let the feeling burst in sparks down to his fingertips and toes, across the ridges of his ribs and down the knobs of his spine, popping warm and wet in his stomach like an over-filled water balloon.
He forgets, sometimes, that he's allowed to feel... content. At rest.
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Dean and Cas share a morning in bed <3 (they are in love)
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16 Feb 2024
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every saturday from 8 am to 12 pm, the lebanon farmer’s market is open for business.
cas is not an early morning riser, but he does it for his bees and dean winchester, the one person with whom he might have a one-sided hate to love relationship. at least, cas would despise him a lot less if his voice didn’t sound like that.
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14 Feb 2024
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quad shot americano by saintlynomenclature (verahoney) for lycanthropuns
Fandoms: Red White & Royal Blue - Casey McQuiston, Red White & Royal Blue (2023)
23 Jan 2024
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Like always, Henry’s made it perfectly—the espresso is rich, decidedly not burnt, and the cinnamon tastes like it’s been infused rather than sprinkled in. “How the fuck do you do this?” Alex demands, taking another sip as Henry laughs at him.
“If I tell you, you won’t come back.” Henry smiles, leaning back in his seat and crossing his arms over his chest. Alex lets his eyes follow the line of Henry’s shoulders, falling down to the veins in his forearms after the ends of his bunched-up sleeves. The ring on Henry’s left pinky doesn’t reflect in the lowlight of the back corner—without the sun glinting off of it, Alex can finally see that the surface of it is engraved.
“If you think coffee's the only thing keeping me around, sweetheart, then I need to try harder.”
The blush coats Henry’s cheeks again. He dips his head bashfully, eyes skating away from Alex’s face. “Whatever will I do with you?” he murmurs under his breath.
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Or, Alex spends an exorbitant amount of money on coffee.
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25 Jan 2024
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Sam has a list in his head. It's a dictionary or a phrasebook, something you can keep in your pocket and pull out whenever necessary: Translation Guide For People Who Spend Every Waking Hour With People Who Never Say What They Mean.
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15 Jan 2024
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Coda set after 14x13.
Cas tends to Dean's wounds.
This coda also fills a square for my SPN One Word Bingo card:
word: TIESeries
- Part 3 of DeanCas Codas | Season 14
- Part 2 of SPN One Word Bingo
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20 Dec 2023
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Sam and Dean try to patch Cas up, but some things can't be washed away.
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- Part 1 of Season 11 fic
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13 Dec 2023
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“Don’t check out on me, man, c’mon. You're all over the place. Why’d I let you choose what?”
“When we were kids, Dean,” he clarifies, “I had bangs. I don’t—I guess I don’t get why you let me keep them.”
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In which Sam gets a haircut and asks a question. (Contrary to popular belief, he's not okay.)
(Post s12e03)
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- Part 4 of Initial Thoughts
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13 Dec 2023
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Castiel likes to watch the Righteous Man.
Maybe it’s wishful thinking—Castiel knows it’s not imagination; angels don’t have that—but sometimes he can hear Dean calling out for him. A song just for Castiel, melancholy and rolling and beautiful, crying out from the depths of his soul.
inspired by this tumblr post
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- Part 6 of this is gospel
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13 Dec 2023
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Reach Your Hand Inside Me and Touch My Very Soul by SewingNatural
Fandoms: Supernatural (TV 2005)
28 Feb 2022
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And Dean looks. He does. He looks and looks and looks, and Castiel does not disappear.
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or: the fic where each time Dean looks away from Cas, it feels like he's losing him all over again. It helps to touch him, to know he's real.
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11 Dec 2023
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I'll Be Home for Christmas by NyxEtoile, OlivesAwl
Fandoms: The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
18 Jan 2023
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"Attention," the flight attendant said over the PA. "I'm very sorry, but we will be deplaning. The weather has worsened and we will not be able to take off tonight. Our flight is officially cancelled. Please see the desk attendant for your options."
James groaned. “Merry fucking Christmas."
Shoving her magazines back in the back, Amanda tamped down her frustration. "Oh, how I did not want to be stuck in this state overnight.”
“I’m half tempted to rent a car and drive.”
She leaned on the seat in front of her as they waited for the door to get opened. "It's not the worst idea in the world."
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09 Dec 2023
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Camp Llwynywermod by bleedingballroomfloor
Fandoms: Red White & Royal Blue - Casey McQuiston
06 Jan 2021
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The first night of camp with Henry is always weird. Weird in the sense that they haven’t seen each other in nearly eleven months, but Alex knows that Henry has been thinking about him in the months leading up to camp. Alex is guilty of it too; often the first thing he thinks of after applying to be a counselor is seeing Henry, Henry and his stupid blond hair and stupid English accent and stupidly gorgeous face, and thinking about just how he could outdo him in pranks this year.
Alternatively, the camp counselor AU that nobody asked for.
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06 Dec 2023
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Castiel's grace is missing, and Dean's frustrated - instead of looking for it, all Castiel wants to do is grow his flowers. Eventually, the two of them have to talk about it.
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04 Dec 2023
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The thing is, Alex knows he can’t replace the bittersweet wave of memories that swarm Henry’s head at the sight of snow flurries and smell of peppermint in the air. He doesn’t want to. He wants Henry to keep those close, even if it is through the sepia tone of melancholy.
But Alex can’t help but wonder if maybe he can find a way to balance poignancy with something a bit easier. Something a little bit lighter. Something Henry can revisit to understand where he belongs, how he fits into the “happy” of it all any time he needs.
He looks over to Henry, finally asleep against his chest. He takes in the gentle slope of Henry’s nose, the fluttered fan of eyelashes against moon-bathed cheeks. He fixates on the subtle canyon, the soft part of Henry’s lips, the phantom wind of a silent snore, and Alex knows: the very least he can do is try.
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or, holidays have always come as a reminder to Henry of what he’s lost. But Alex always manages to remind him of everything he’s gained too.
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04 Dec 2023
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For a long time, Castiel thought that every earthly possession other than the immediately necessary was excess to requirement. But Dean – Dean who named his car, who keeps a photograph of his mother in his wallet, some thirty-plus years after her death, who still has the crumpled ‘Do Not Disturb’ sign with a sleeping pelican emblazoned on it from the Microtel outside of Roanoke where he first kissed Castiel, clumsy and unsure, under the unsteady fluorescence of an exhausted bathroom bulb – is sentimental.
It puzzles Castiel, where Dean draws the line between what is meaningful and what it is worthless.
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24 Nov 2023
