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    They’re getting into a rhythm now, though, and Shane can see it. He can see this team winning the Cup this year. He tries not to get ahead of himself, tries to stay focused and go game by game, reminds himself that building up a team takes time and several seasons, but god. He wants this legacy: for himself, for Ottawa, for Ilya. For both of them and everyone else.

    Which is why, goddamnit, now is not the time to crash out over fantasies of Ilya working his whole hand down to the wrist into Shane’s ass and fucking him on his fist. And yet. Shane should know by now that timing and “good ideas” are rarely factors in whether or not he gets obsessed with something.

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    It starts, as a surprising number of things actually do, with a text from Rose.

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    06 Mar 2026

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    Odd-Man Rush: The situation that occurs when a team enters the attacking zone and outnumbers the opposing players in the zone.

    Or,

    Shane doesn’t know why he still feels so off-kilter. He should be the happiest he’s ever been—he won the Cup, he feels like he’s maybe starting to have a few friends on his team, and he’s finally starting to believe his parents when they tell him he won’t get traded again. He should be on top of the world, but sometimes he still feels like the lone defender on an odd-man rush, skating as fast as he can to prevent what feels like an inevitable outcome.

    The problem is that he’s not quite sure which outcome it is that he’s trying to stop.

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    05 Mar 2026

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    Jane_reddituser_1410
    AIO for getting mad at my partner for suggesting I sleep with other people?

    After fighting with Ilya about whether or not he wants to open their relationship, Shane turns to reddit for advice.

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    05 Mar 2026

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    lilybear_1221
    Fuck buddy of seven years left suddenly and won’t respond to my texts. What did I do wrong?

     

    After the great Tuna Meltdown, Ilya takes to Reddit to get advice on what he did wrong using the pseudonyms Lily and Jane.

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    05 Mar 2026

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    “He’s never given me any details about your sex life. But he did tell me once that you’d brought out a side of him that he doesn’t share with anyone else,” Svetlana said. “And that I’d never seen him like that before.” 

    “Oh.” Shane caressed the side of Ilya’s throat. He pressed his fingers against the warmth and remembered last night, how the world had both quieted and stretched around them. It made him feel brave. “Would you like to?”

    OR: Shane breaks his threesome rule. Kind of. [Standalone]

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    04 Mar 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov, get loved.

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    03 Mar 2026

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    The Ballad of Shane Hollander's Tits

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    02 Mar 2026

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    “I’m right here. And you are okay, and you are safe, and healthy, and you are at home, yes? It is quiet, and nobody is there, nobody is bothering you. And the world is full of stupid idiots, but you are not one of them. And I am here. When you need me, I am here.”

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    or: The whole world thinks Shane is gay because of some stupid internet rumors, and he doesn't even have to confirm it. He's losing control of his entire life and he needs somewhere to put what little he does have.

    Ilya has open hands.

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    02 Mar 2026

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    Shane Hollander is hockey’s closeted golden boy with everything to hide. Ilya Rozanov is a professional Dom with everything to lose and an expired visa.

    Through their arrangement at a discreet Montreal kink bar, where NDAs protect secrets and sessions are charged per hour, they discover the most dangerous thing isn’t being caught—it’s wanting more than those hours allow.

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    23 Feb 2026

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    Four times Ilya Rozanov reminded everyone exactly who the fuck they were dealing with (spoiler: still an asshole, still elite, still not going anywhere), and one time he didn’t have to be anything except soft.

    Or being out didn’t make him nicer. Being married didn’t make him softer. Being older didn’t make him weaker. And being a father? Well. That’t when things get complicated.

    (He’s really good at that last part. Don’t tell anyone.)

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    23 Feb 2026

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    The Voyageurs ask Shane to join FanMail in order to foster a better connection with fans. Internet sleuths start to notice some interesting details in the background of Shane’s videos, and then the internet does...what the internet does.

    Or Shane and Ilya are granted an opportunity to come out on their own terms. Sort of. And in they do it in a very Ilya way. (Surprisingly, it is Shane’s idea)

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    23 Feb 2026

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    There was a time when Ilya believed Scott Hunter's coming out would revolutionize hockey forever— but for every step forward came two steps back.

    When Shane and Ilya meet again late in life, can they make their second chance work?

    OR: Old Man Hollanov Yaoi.

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    21 Feb 2026

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    “Cliff,” Rozanov said.

    Interesting. He only ever used his first name when he wanted something.

    “I need a favour.”

    Called it.

    “What can I do for you, Roz?”

    “I need you to punch me.”

    Cliff stared. He stared some more.

    "Why?"

    “Shane hasn’t let me fuck him since the bar, it’s been too long and he always rides me when I have to see the medics.”

    A beat.

    Another beat.

    Then Cliff absolutely lost it.
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    5 times people clocked Shane and Ilya being absolutely unhinged about each other and the 1 time it was encouraged.

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    Cliff Pov: Ilya pays Cliff to break his nose.

    Yuna Pov: Ilya calms down shane from a panic attack (with biting :) )

    Scott and Kip Pov: What do you mean i remind you of your brother? What do you mean you don't know your a bottom?

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    18 Feb 2026

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    "Fucking moron." Cliff mutters. "Who doesn't like eating pussy? Well. I mean." He darts a glance out of the corner of his eye.
    Rozanov chuckles into the mouth of his beer. "Marley, you know how much pussy I've eaten?"
    "I just meant--I wasn't trying to be insensitive. I know Hollander's gay."
    "Mm. True, Shane would cry." He tilts his beer into his mouth then, so Cliff almost doesn't hear him say, "Different for him with cock, though."
    Cliff laughs. "You're a fuckin' dog, Rozy."
    "Whaaat? I'm just saying, my husband? Fucking lo-o-ves to suck cock. Loves it."

    Cliff is just trying to be a good friend. He's not realizing anything about himself at all.

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    18 Feb 2026

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    Yuna Hollander knows her son is different, but she winds up being slightly off the mark about how, and comes to regret that very much.

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    Yuna tries to help set Shane up with friends of friends’ daughters. He brushes her off. Or if she pushes, then he’ll go on exactly three dates before it peters out. I’m too busy, he says. You can make time, she encourages, and she means it. He can prioritize his happiness at this point, surely? She has all the compromises he could make with training and promo on the tip of her tongue if he only gives her the go-ahead.

    Instead he shrugs and points out that he’s got to keep focus or he might lose to Rozanov in the scoring race (fucking Rozanov!), and that’s the end of it

    It’s one more difference. One more thing she can’t help but worry about. David makes her so happy. Who will do that for Shane?

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    18 Feb 2026

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    There had been a tragedy. The Ottawa Centaurs' plane had crashed in northern Georgia, during the course of their flight from Carolina to Tampa. They didn't know much else yet. All NHL activities were suspended for the next seven days.

    Wait, what?

    At seventeen, Shane Hollander met the love of his life. At twenty-nine, gravity took him away.

    Shane wishes he’d died, too.

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    17 Feb 2026

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    Five times Ilya lied (but not really) to his teammates about Shane, and one time he didn’t have to.

    Inspired by two Cliff Marlow lines: In the airport, when their game with Montreal gets cancelled and he tells Ilya, “Whoever she is, she’s gonna get over it,” and the scene in the locker room when he says, “Wow, this Montreal girl works you up, brother—you’re straight up blushing, Roz.”

    Or, the Boston Bears’ perspective of Ilya and Shane’s “secret” relationship over the years

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    17 Feb 2026

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    When Shane wins his first Cup championship, Rozanov promises more than just a league win if he earns MVP as well. Rozanov delivers.

    For Russian translations, click on Cyrillic words

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    17 Feb 2026

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    When Shane was born an ocean away from her homeland, Yuna Hollander, who did not pray, whispered into the world: Let every door open for him, my son.

    OR: Yuna Hollander learns to appreciate Ilya Rozanov, one step at a time.

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    16 Feb 2026

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    “Do you want to know how it feels?”

    Shane let his hand fall back to the couch. He pushed himself up onto his elbows and lifted a brow at Rozanov. “What – holding the Cup? You’ve already made that joke once.”

    “No.” Rozanov’s fingers encircled Shane’s wrist and then he was pulling Shane’s hand between his legs.

     

    Or: Shane tops.

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    15 Feb 2026

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