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The table has been silent for 31 painstaking seconds—Nath has counted each one. During it, details that escaped him, for he is fixed on his plate of Hamburger Helper, his little sister Hannah soaks in like a sponge cleaning a mess: their mom, mouth opening to say something, then shutting so fast Hannah thinks she hears the thunk of teeth, then opening again; their dad, staring at Nath like a stranger who’s wandered in through the back door and sat down at the table; and Nath himself, fingers curling tighter and tighter around his fork until Hannah fears it might snap in two.
At the thirty-third second, Nath finally says something. “I just—” his voice strains out of him in a thin line “—thought you should know.”
Everything Nath Lee never told his parents about his relationship with the boy across the street.
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09 Feb 2026
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hands down the best fic for this book augh this is so important to me
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'I fucking want him,' Patrick snaps at Tashi. 'That's it, okay? I always have. You two ruined me for anyone else and then you let him put a ring on your finger.'
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19 Jan 2026
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this is amazing btw uafghhh im so fucking gay
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"His wife though, Betty – lovely woman, a real ally."
"Ally?"
"Made, uh, one too many cheeky comments about us getting back to nature and being true to ourselves, how only the stars will be watching – " Gordon doesn't know why he's relaying any of this, but he's nervous, and as usual he can't shut the bloody hell up when he's nervous.
Warren laughs. "What?"
What if Warren didn't hear that tape and they actually made it to the bothy?
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13 Aug 2025
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PEAK PEAK PEAK PEAK PEAK PEAK PEAK PEAK PEAK??
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Beinn Bagg Mountain by james_spooky
Fandoms: Red Valley (Podcast), Brokeback Mountain (2005)
03 May 2025
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Warren Del Mar and Gordon Twist meet herding sheep in the mountains that surround Red Valley. As their relationship advances, so does their curiosity and they discover much more than they bargained for.
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A Red Valley Brokeback Mountain AU, putting together the best of both worlds.
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27 Apr 2025
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hell yes
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"Hey," Gordon says gently, grabbing onto Warren's hand, sweaty and trembling as it is. Gordon sounds warm and soft, like something Warren could sink into. "Hey, it's okay, I don't want you to go either. Just, you need to sleep before you start like, hallucinating or – "
"I'm not sure I'm not hallucinating," Warren says, voice watery, feeling far away, staring at his hand in Gordon's. "I'm not sure you'll still be here when I wake up."
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08 Mar 2025
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best fic i've ever read btw
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“Are you going to kill me now?” his Arthur asks, shocking them both into another moment of tense, breathless apprehension. The question lingers in the air, Arthur’s hand remains inside that bag, and John’s eyes remain fixed on the other’s face. The other Arthur meets them with just about the same indifference he always has. Until at last, his eyes shift over to their bag as well.
“Are you?” he asks, and John can feel the way his friend’s fingers tighten around the cool metal of that gun, itching for that trigger, contemplating the question. It really would be so easy for him, wouldn’t it? To pull it out of that bag and aim it at his chest, knowing that John would not dare try to stop him, even if he wants to.
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An alternate version of "The Fire" where John and Arthur meet Darkthur instead of Malam. Testing John's loyalty and devotion while asking Arthur the question of all questions. Does he deserve to die?
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- Part 3 of So Eden Sank To Grief
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25 Feb 2025
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best non romance fic i've ever read btw if you even care
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Arthur asks for forgiveness. Oscar gives it.
John watches, an inseparable part of them both.
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All that is mine to me, all that is yours to you by Stringgoblin
Fandoms: Malevolent (Podcast)
05 Nov 2023
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"We'll find you a nice cadaver, or something."
After everything, Arthur and John finally have time to figure out how to get John his own body. It isn't a pleasant process. It turns out that having a fragment of a god excised from your mind has some side-effects, and being a fragment of a god suddenly resident in a human ex-corpse isn't particularly straightforward either.
They'll help each other through it. They always do.
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ratatouille but it's malevolent so it's not by james_spooky
Fandoms: Malevolent (Podcast), Ratatouille (2007)
10 Sep 2025
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John yearns for something more in his life, but knows his father would never approve of his culinary aspirations. Arthur is at a roadblock, grappling with his past and trying to move on. When the two are bound together by an unsuspecting cookbook, John realises he could achieve his dreams - however, his father lurks not far behind, searching for him so they can leave this world. When John grows attached to the humans way of life, how could he ever part with it?
Ratatouille (2007), but rewritten featuring John Doe and Arthur Lester from Malevolent. (And other side characters).
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My Immortal by becky2876, Henrydefencesquad (becky2876)
Fandoms: Secret History - Donna Tartt, My Immortal
14 Jul 2020
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Hi my name is Richard Papen and I have short brown hair that crinkles like paper (that’s how I got my name) with golden streaks and blonde tips that reaches my ears and icy blue eyes like limpid tears and a lot of people tell me I look like Timothee Chalamet (AN: if u don’t know who he is get da hell out of here!). I’m not related to Morrisey but I wish I was because he’s a major fucking hottie. I’m a heterosexual white male but my teeth are straight and white. I have pale white skin. I’m also a classics student, and I go to a liberal arts college called Hampden in Vermont where I’m in my first year (I’m twenty). I’m a softboi (in case you couldn’t tell) and I wear mostly tweed. I love the thrift store and I buy all my clothes from there. For example today I was wearing a fancy shirt with matching monogrammed cuffs and tweed jacket, khaki trousers and black dress shoes. I got the jacket from Judy Poovey. I was walking outside Hampden. It was autumn and cloudy so there was no sun, which I was very happy about. A lot of proles stared at me. I put up my middle finger at them.
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If Richard noticed their attentions, he disregarded it as no more than his own mind conjuring his desires up for him, a self-absorbed visitor to the museum imagining that the painted eyes of a favored portrait were directed at him.
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I COMPLETELY FORGOT ABOUT THIS THIS IS A GEMM
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And Snow, brilliant supernova Snow, just leans to me as he smiles. “See,” he whispers even quieter. He prods his finger into my cheek and sends me spiraling. I’m smiling. Smiling. “This Baz doesn’t kill me for sayin’ jack shit.”
“’M not gonna kill you, Snow,” I mumble, my hands finding themselves on his knees. Thighs. They slid down to his thighs, and now he’s pinker in the cheeks than before, but laughing. He’s laughing so much. I want to implode.
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The bathtub of their shared bathroom is quite large; it’s deep enough to comfortably fit two people, and if you shift just right around the spout, you can sit face to face with relative comfort. The boys find something special in there, making it seemingly the only place where they can stand each other.
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08 Dec 2024
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still sooooo good after these years