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    Ilya Rozanov's life takes an unexpected turn when a deadly plane crash in 2021 takes his life, right after a fight with his long-time partner, Shane Hollander. Though instead of the afterlife, Ilya is sent back to December 2008, just before his NHL career began, on the very day that he first met Shane. He finds himself in a familiar world, with knowledge of both the future and knowledge of the man he loves and the friends he holds dear.

    As Ilya navigates this new reality, he rebuilds his relationship with Shane, who is still finding his path in both hockey and his identity as a gay man. With their rivalry blossoming into a different experience than the one Ilya experienced the first time around, the two face challenges around acceptance, family pressures, and the struggles of being openly gay and lovers in the sports world. Throughout their journey, Ilya contemplates his first life, cherishes the present, and strives to alter the course of their futures (and the futures of their friends) for the better.

    Or, Ilya Rozanov discovers first hand what the butterfly effect is, and how it can drastically alter the future.

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    27 May 2026

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    In 1934, Ilya escapes Russia with his mother and older brother. Ottawa feels terrifying at first, until he meets a boy named Shane, whose mother runs the boarding house Ilya and his family are staying in.

    What begins as friendship slowly becomes something more over the years, until the start of the war changes everything.

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    25 May 2026

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    21 May 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 39

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    Hockey, he can predict, he can prepare for. Nothing could have prepared him for the uncontrolled chaos, the aching fear, the unhinged joy of loving another person. That doesn’t mean Shane can’t try, though.

    He opens an Excel spreadsheet and types: How to Make Ilya Rozanov Obsessed With Me (Sexually and Emotionally).

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    20 May 2026

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    When Shane mentioned that he would like to try weed, he expected Ilya to disregard it. Imagine his surprise when Ilya shows up a few weeks later in a fancy car with some surprises in the glove box.

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    14 May 2026

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    "Why are you not scared?"

    "I am scared," Ilya admits. "I just am tired. Of hiding me. Of hiding you. Of hiding how much I love you. I want to go to the rink— how do you say it? Authenti."

    "Authentically," Shane supplies, automatically.

    "Yes. Authentically. I want to go to the rink authentically, as me," Ilya confirms.

    Ilya looks at Shane, pauses until Shane meets his eyes. "I want to say: I, Ilya Rozanov, love a man, and that man's name is Shane Hollander."

     

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    Or, sometimes it takes a little more time, and some courage, to be with the one you love.

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    13 May 2026

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    In another life — or maybe the next one, or maybe the one before — Ilya Rozanov learns that some roads only lead to one place. No matter how you take them, the wolves are always waiting at the end.

    Maybe that's why, in December 2008, Ilya wakes up with the distinct, inexplicable sense, that he has already lived this life before.

    Some things, it turns out, are inevitable. The question is whether he is.

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    13 May 2026

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    At twelve years old, Ilya met Shane Hollander.

    At fourteen years old, Shane and Ilya became parabatai.

    At seventeen years old, Ilya fell in love with his parabatai.

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    10 May 2026

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    ...oh,” his mom says. “Oh, honey, you were seeing someone? You never said anything.”

    “It’s-it’s complicated.” He catches the present tense too fucking late to do anything about it, and he barely resists the urge to either groan or slip forward to start beating his head against the coffee table.

    Fuck his fucking life.

    “You’re still…seeing this person?” His mom asks, and the amount of control he can hear her exerting is almost painful. “Who is-”

    “Yuna,” his dad cuts in, voice quiet, “maybe give him a second, yeah?”

    Yeah, Shane agrees in his head. Give him a second.

    Maybe give him a decade while they’re at it.

    (when shane's old fake id falls out of his wallet around his parents, he has to explain that it was to book hotel rooms before he was 21)

    (...and then he has to explain why he needed to book those hotel rooms in the first place)

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    07 May 2026

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    “-moya rybka, I am sorry, sweet girl-” Ilya is saying, on his knees in the middle of their living room and patting the rug near him with what looks like devastation on his face as Anya continues to ignore him, curled up on Shane’s lap instead. Fresh off of several stacked events to fit them into a weekend–because Shane’s mom is nothing if not efficient when it comes to the deals she makes–Ilya got home only a few minutes ago, still in the outfit he’d left his Buzzfeed puppy interview in, which Anya had clearly not appreciated, sniffing him suspiciously after her initial excited greeting and then retreating to Shane immediately when he patted his thigh in welcome.

    Shane is trying not to be obviously enjoying Ilya’s turmoil as much as he is, shifting Anya to lay on her back like a baby in one arm and cooing at her.

    “I know, huh? Papa left and played with who knows how many other dogs, and the whole time you were here missing him. I bet he wasn’t even thinking about you, huh?”

    “Hollander!” Ilya says, sounding scandalized. “Do not tell her that! Is not true!”

    (collection of standalone fics/ficlets prompted by my own tumblr posts) (will update as inspiration strikes)

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    05 May 2026

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    Shane should be here right now, should be in Ilya’s house. Ilya should be teasing him about being picky while going through delivery options for food on his phone. Shane should be discovering that Ilya has ginger ale in the fridge and the protein bars Shane mentioned liking in an interview in his pantry. He should be making out with Shane on the couch, sneaking a hand into his pants, teasing him about whether they can beat the deliveryman and arrive before he does. Shane was supposed to spend the night tonight, the Montreal team not set to leave until tomorrow afternoon because of potential bad weather in the morning. Shane should be fed and showered and ready to curl up in bed with Ilya tonight.
    But Shane is in a hospital.

    And Ilya is here.

    He pulls up Jane in his phone again. He presses call.

    “Hey, you’ve reached Shane Hollander-”

    Ilya closes his eyes and lets Shane’s voice roll over him.

    (canon divergence in which shane getting injured happens during a game in boston) (...which means shane then gets to go home with ilya to recover)

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    05 May 2026

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    David Hollander never made it to the cottage, leaving Ilya and Shane to enjoy the summer exactly as they’d imagined, but fate has a crude way of ensuring that what is meant to happen will happen, no matter what.

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    02 May 2026

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    “That’s not-” Shane starts, but he stops himself. Ilya tilts his head slightly in question, but Shane bites the inside of his cheek and then shakes his head slightly, cheeks flushing. “I do trust you,” Shane says.

    “But not with your car?” Ilya asks. “You are afraid I will drive all the boring out of it?”

    Shane rolls his eyes.

    “It’s a good car-” He starts in another refrain of one of his favorite summer songs.

    Ilya rolls them and pins his boyfriend under him before he has to hear about four wheel drive and gas mileage again.

    There are far better uses for Shane’s mouth, after all.

    (in which ilya learns that being a passenger in the car knocks shane tf out)

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    02 May 2026

  14. Public Bookmark 73

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    A decade of near-misses. Operations rerouted. Messages left without names.
    A rivalry built on precision, restraint--and recognition neither of them ever acknowledged.

    Shane Hollander follows rules. Keeps his distance. Finishes the job and moves on.
    His rival doesn’t chase. He waits. He makes it personal.

    When the line between adversary and understanding begins to blur, the danger isn’t exposure.
    It’s what happens when someone sees you clearly--and still chooses to stay.

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    OR: Two spies who have spent years learning each other’s patterns finally collide--and realize the most dangerous part was never the mission. It was falling in love.

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    7,387

    24 Apr 2026

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    Shane and Ilya's peace is hard-won and devastatingly fragile. A phone call from Russia threatens to bring the whole house of cards down around them.

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    Chapters:
    20/20
    Comments:
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    22 Apr 2026

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    When Ilya and his mother move to Ottawa after escaping his abusive father, he didn't expect to find his new neighbour Shane Hollander so endearing.

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    Chapters:
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    16 Apr 2026

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    His mind continues down the rabbit hole of Shane Hollander-Rozanov. Shane’s gorgeous freckles, his encapsulating lips, his sunny smile, his—

    “His weak backhand. Fucking shitty, man.”

    Rozanov snaps out of his thoughts like a wolf in the deep woods being woken up by a lingering deer.

    The fuck?

    “Yeah, can’t believe they signed that pussy.”

    What the fuck?

    Or,

    Ilya accidentally eavesdrops on a conversation involving the insolent trash talking of his husband. He does something about it, and Shane has a lot of feelings about it.

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    24,878

    15 Apr 2026

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    A rather large heron waded in the water, its backside mottled in tiger-stripes, tapering at a black head. The bird’s beak struck the water with natural, violent efficiency, its yolk-yellow throat elongated as it gobbled down minnows.

    The ladies whispered amongst themselves, scrambling for their iPhones stuffed inside their pockets. Shane, meanwhile, had gone to stand behind the cover of a leafy green plant, positioned perfectly so as not to spook the bird, with a perfect window for a gorgeous photograph.

    “That’s a good camera,” the guide commented, watching Shane with the admiring eye of a fellow birder.

    Ilya was preening. A preening fucking peacock. He didn’t care if the metaphor was cheesy; he felt like one. He felt like one of those crazy-looking birds from the documentaries Shane liked to watch, birds-of-paradise, with ruffled rumps, faces like parade masks, prostrating themselves in the treetops for love.

    (Or, Ilya takes his birding husband on a birding honeymoon.)

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    2,776

    14 Apr 2026

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    Ilya doesn’t think his birthday matters. Shane spends the entire day proving him wrong. Or: love, in all the quiet ways Ilya never learned to expect.

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    14 Apr 2026

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    Shane Hollander had a plan. It was a good plan, just as every other plan he’d ever made was a good plan. Then he watched a video of a burning plane carrying the love of his life and it became the only plan he’d ever changed.

    or...

    Shane goes to Tampa. The next morning, Troy Barrett receives a text from Ilya:

    “Bringing boyfriend to breakfast. Tell team to be not weird.”

    The Centaurs are, unsurprisingly, weird about it but become the best support system they could ask for as Shane and Ilya navigate the choice to fully begin their lives together and love each other out loud.

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    Chapters:
    20/?
    Comments:
    2,616
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    2,991
    Hits:
    350,668

    09 Apr 2026

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