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And for a while, it helps. The ragged and rough edges of welts and blisters hid the traces of his inhumanity well behind blood and sores. Beyond just being a way to cover his scars, the friction from his sleeves rubbing against the wound during the day sent an agonizing pain down his arm that was excruciating and terrible and completely and utterly grounding in a way Chuuya has never felt before. He reveled in the pain, let it tie him to his body and help him feel the rise and fall of his chest, hear his heartbeat, and mend his imperfections with pain only a human could be capable of feeling. For once, his body felt like his.
Or : Chuuya gives himself chemical burns to hide the scars left behind from corruption. Dazai offers him a better, less harmful solution.
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Chuuya always finds himself getting the short end of the stick where Dazai is involved, always finds himself cleaning up his messes.
Dazai sows seeds of doubt in the Sheep, Chuuya gets stabbed.
Dazai gets hurt in a mission, Chuuya has to write the report.
Dazai leaves the Mafia, and somehow it's got jack shit to do with him?!
But Chuuya quickly realizes that Dazai's leaving is no coincidence, and neither is Chuuya's capture. Can he live a life without the luxury of a partner? More importantly, can he continue to work for an organization that sees him as little more than a weapon?
"I'm always the fucking threat."
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We Shall Be Monsters by Hum My Name (My_Kind_of_Crazy)
Fandoms: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs
25 Aug 2022
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Dazai's used to people looking at him with fear. He's the Demon Prodigy of the Port Mafia, unfeeling and inhuman. It would be strange if people didn't find him frightening.
But, recently, he's not the one they're all flinching away from. He's not the one they whisper about. He's not the one they call a monster.
Bit by bit, he pieces the clues together-- and he realizes that there are people in the mafia who don't like Chuuya.
Obviously, he has to do something about this.
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He pauses, waiting for…what exactly, he isn’t sure—an accusation, some sort of pushback, anything to validate the notion that the world would be better off without him. But Chuuya only looks at him expectantly.
Verlaine sighs. “But I’m not planning to go anywhere. If you want me to stay…”
“Stay.” The command, quiet as it is, rings with fervent insistence. “Just be there. Stay. That’s enough for now.”
Chuuya, Verlaine, and a promise.
(Three years after Verlaine shuts himself away, an incident brings him back into Chuuya’s orbit.)
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Open gates (let me face your wretched open heart) by Asphxdelus
Fandoms: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs
15 May 2023
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Nakahara Chuuya does not dream, or at least, he doesn't remember it. It's something he has accepted without complaining. If it means not being haunted by the colored pictures of his past, dreams are not something he longs for.
Nakahara Chuuya does not dream. So, when one night he wakes up with vivid pictures painted red on his eyelids and screams etched in his ears, he doesn't know who he is anymore.
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- Part 1 of Counting down the days
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Chuuya is fine. He has always been fine. He can handle all the unfortunate things that have happened to him. He's not depressed. He's not suicidal. He's not Dazai.
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Chuuya Nakahara finally breaks-
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It's not within Chuuya's life plans to get commited to a mental institution at age twenty two.
But after a particularly violent outburst ends in physical assault charges that threaten to land him in jail, Chuuya begrudgingly accepts the compromise of indefinite in-patient stay at Tenkai Sanatorium. He doesn't expect his time there to include the most infuriatingly intriguing person he's ever met. Or that he'll be forced to confront the demons he would much rather have left in the past.
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Captured by an enemy organization, Dazai witnesses Chuuya get hurt in one of the most horrible possible ways, unable to stop it.
Dazai takes care of his partner and picks up the pieces in the aftermath.
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"Tell me, Dazai-kun. Do you care for him? Would you do anything to protect him?"
"If you've ever heard anything about us, you'd know it's quite the opposite, Hideyuki."
"Let's test this," Hideyuki says, "I want whatever important information you can provide regarding all of the Port Mafia's weakspots. If you don't... well, you're intelligent. Do you see where this is going?"
The silence is deadly.
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Extra snippets from the Gold Lines series.
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Dazai doesn’t realize how much Chuuya tries to keep hidden—from himself and from others—until the first time they try to have sex goes terribly wrong. It’s a good thing Chuuya’s never been a quitter, and a good thing Dazai, for once, is not keen on letting go.
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Dazai stood there for a few moments, blinking as he took in the sight of an utterly wrecked Chuuya. What had happened? What had done this to him?
Who had done this to him?
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The telling of how Dazai found out about what happened to Chuuya, and what happened afterward.
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- Part 6 of In the Darkness - In the Silence
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Poor Chuuya had spent hours of his days listening to Dazai blab about space constantly.
Dazai would always talk about how interesting space was and how it made your life seem as if nothing really mattered and it would be okay if you died, and constellations and what certain stars mean, and his “favorite part-“ random facts about space Chuuya couldn’t really give a shit about.
Chuuya wasn't very interested in space, sure it sounded kinda cool and honestly he was happy Dazai had at least one normal interest but he’d never admit that to the boy himself.
Chuuya had many hobbies, maybe a little too many he enjoyed. He played sports, such as soccer, volleyball, badminton, and basketball. He played the piano and the flute, he could also sing. But there was one hobby that held a very special place in his heart, that most people wouldn’t even guess about him or even- to this day know of.
Mostly because he was very embarrassed of this hobby, it wasn’t weird. Most people at his school thought it was a “weirdo hobby” and that made him self- conscious.
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Realizing such a stark difference between Chuuya and himself is jarring. Almost impossibly horrific.
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He knows he’s always been lonely. It was unavoidable given the nature of his character but also the nature of the situation itself: no one ever willingly stuck around for too long unless they wanted something. Chuuya sticks around due to the nature of his job, but nothing requires him to linger on the fringe of Dazai’s life. He adds a strange humanity to the cesspool the Port Mafia provides as living quality. In no mean, shape, or form does he consider Chuuya a friend, but Dazai fears he might have been so preoccupied trying to stop the progression of their relationship that he hadn’t realised he’d been growing attached in ways that didn’t require friendship.
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when you’ll tear and break (I’ll be your home) by starflxwers (orphan_account)
Fandoms: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs
23 Feb 2023
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Save the weak, protect the orphaned.
While in any other circumstances he wouldn’t classify Chuuya as weak, he now looked like it. His usually bright eyes were dull and sunken, his face bruised and thinner than it had ever been. He had lost his fight. There was nothing strong about this Chuuya.
Or; almost a year after his defection, Dazai receives an unexpected guest.
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Verlaine and Rimbaud had gotten the mission to steal the government experiment in Japan. Prototype A2-5-8. In other words; "Chuuya Nakahara."
The two had to make a quick decision which led to a row of unfortunate events all after another, which seemed to were bound to happen the further they continued their journey to learn and stay safe with one another.Things just don't always end well. Even inhuman things could figure that out, right?
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No. 7 THE WAY YOU SHAKE AND SHIVER by 2day4u_2morrow4me
Fandoms: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs
07 Oct 2022
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Chuuya and Dazai go on a mission as the new Double Black. Chuuya has a flash back and has a panic attack
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- Part 7 of Chuuya's Whumptober
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After a relapse of Chuuya's drinking habits, his solution is to call Dazai. He didn't expect an answer, or what came after.
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A sixteen-year old Chuuya finds himself falling for the new twenty-five year old executive at a vulnerable time in his life. The relationship slowly reveals itself to be controlling and bad.
Dazai, seeing it for what it is, tries to
helpsabotage, but things keep getting worse.____
"Chuuya should not date him." Dazai glares up at him stubbornly.
"I don't get it. What the hell's your problem?"
"Chuuya is my dog! He should not go to another person!"
Chuuya's face crumples in rage and he bongs Dazai hard on the head. "I'm not a fucking dog!"
Dazai winces and yelps, rubbing his head. "Chuuya hit me too hard."
Somehow the conversation ends up going back to Chuuya speaking with his eyes far and fond about Takumi. Dazai drops his chin to Chuuya's chest and just watches him yap on and on about him, his smile and bright eyes. He looks beautiful like this; he almost looks as beautiful as he does when Dazai makes him angry, flushed pink and neat brows furrowed tightly, eyes ablaze.
Dazai only does not like what is causing this happiness.
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