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    15 Oct 2026

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    Rozanov cocked his head. “You speak Russian? Or just the curse words?”

    “Yes, I speak Russian,” he snapped, defensive and angry. He knew that it had been a mistake to even try to be friendly with Rozanov. “Why? Do I not look Russian to you?” He scoffed.

    “No, not really,” Rozanov said. Some of his teammates laughed, although they mostly looked surprised that Shane was speaking to them at all. Rozanov didn’t laugh, though. “Are you Russian?”

    “Go fuck yourself.”

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    Despite an inauspicious start, when Russia’s Ilya Rozanov learns that Canada’s Shane Hollander is fluent in Russian at their first World Junior Championships tournament, it changes everything and sets them on a different course. Instead of being branded as rivals from the very beginning, Ilya and Shane start off as friends.

    And, after all, a little friendly rivalry never hurt anyone, did it?

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    09 Oct 2026

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    He gnaws at the guilt of his own actions the way Anya does her chew toys for days after, Shane clearly picking up on something going on with him but also giving him space to work it over in his head until he’s ready to share.

    Right up until they’re out at team dinner and the two other smokers at the table excuse themselves for a smoke outside and Shane looks to him expectantly-

    -only to frown when Ilya stays where he is.

    (how and why ilya finally gives up smoking)

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    04 Oct 2026

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    “Oh shit.”

    Shane looked up, turned his head to where J.J. was sat across the aisle. The blue glow of his phone lit up the too-wide whites of his eyes staring down intently at whatever was on his screen. Shane’s stomach lurched again, anticipating a sudden stop his body hadn’t quite caught up to yet.

    “The Centaurs’ plane crashed in Tampa.”

    There was a moment where everything was still moving, where Shane and the world were still spinning at the same speed they both always had, and then it all came crashing down. Shane wasn’t sure whether it was him that had stopped, or the world around him, but either way, in a matter of seconds the distance between himself and the bus he had only a moment ago been sitting in became staggeringly, dizzyingly vast.

     

    The Centaur's emergency landing plays out a little bit worse, and Shane is left with the harsh reality of the cost of loving Ilya in secret.

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    03 Oct 2026

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    Shane
    Last chance. Take your tank top back.

    Lily
    no, it's a fucking gift
    keep it

    Shane
    Fine.
    I'll show you what I do with gifts from alphas like you.

    Lily
    what the hell is that supposed to mean???
    hollander
    fuck

    Shane doesn't get injured after Tampa, and Ilya breaks up with him to save both their hearts. (Un?)Fortunately for Ilya, Shane isn't letting him go without a fight.

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    03 Oct 2026

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    “My flight is early tomorrow,” Rozanov says. He bites his lip. Shane’s eyes stick there too. “You look in hallway, yes?”

    Shane sticks his head out. The hallway is empty.

    Would it hurt? To go another round? Rozanov has to fly out early anyway, it’s hardly like they’ll be spending time befriending each other. What is one night, when they’ve already crossed the line with eyes wide open?

    “Shit,” he says. “There’s a couple at the end of the hallway, arguing, you know? You better wait until they leave.”

    OR

    Shane lies, that first night, to keep Rozanov to himself a little longer. The changes spiral out from there.

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    29 Sep 2026

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    Heat spread across Ilya's face. His mouth fell open slightly. He let out a short, stuttered laugh of disbelief. This couldn't- he was straight, he wasn't-

    “Finally got you at your own game.” Shane's smirk widened to a smile, his hand clapping down on Ilya's shoulder to squeeze it slightly. For once in his life, Ilya was unable to find his voice.

    “Damn.” Shane laughed, jostling him a bit. “If I had known this was all it took to get you to shut the fuck up, I would have started flirting back years ago.”

    ----

    When old college friends Ilya and Shane show up to their mutual best friend's wedding, they are ready to fulfill their duties as bridesmen. Even after years of not seeing each other, they fall right back into their usual banter.

    Ilya loves to flirt with Shane. Shane loves to tell him to fuck off. It's a running bit. Nothing more than a joke between two friends; because Shane is gay and Ilya is straight and it doesn't actually mean anything…until Shane finally decides to flirt back, and Ilya's world suddenly tilts on its axis.

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    29 Sep 2026

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    The ritual is simple: morning skate, home for a protein shake, then Shane strips to his briefs, lies in bed, and starts scrolling.

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    28 Sep 2026

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    Harris is unhappy with Shane's Instagram, and a quick perusal through Ilya's phone for photographs leaves Shane reeling. Is Ilya's mental health worse than Shane had known?

    Aka Super Anxious/Regular Gay Shane Hollander snoops, then catastrophizes.

    Come for the heartbreak, stay for the spice. Includes hot smut and happy ending. Also includes references to and spoilers for Play Hard, but could also be read alone. Spoilers for TLG.

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    27 Sep 2026

  10. Public Bookmark 24

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    Ilya simply shakes his head, dropping it back against the headboard.
    “Is easy to ignore,” he murmurs. “When everything is…”
    “Heavy?” Troy offers gently. “Overwhelming? Too much?”
    “Yes,” Ilya snorts. “Yes, all of that.”
    “Thank you for asking for help,” Troy says. He knows how hard it is to do that, even when you know the other person won’t judge you and even when you know the other person won’t hesitate to drop what they’re doing to help. He knows that sometimes it’s harder when you know the other person will drop everything to help because then there’s the guilt that you’re disrupting their day.

    or

    The one where Ilya and Troy come up with a system to check in with and look out for each other. Maybe they should have worked out all of the details first.

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    27 Sep 2026

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    “So you hate your birthday,” Luca muses, smiling at Troy over the rim of his beer.
    “I don’t hate it, I just don’t care about it,” Troy clarifies with a shrug. “I just really don’t like being the centre of attention, you know? It’s just easier to fade into the background and not stick out.”
    “You don’t really do that,” Luca points out and he’s not wrong. In Toronto he’d stuck out by doing everything he could to fit in, even when it meant being a fucking piece of shit human being. Ottawa has been so distinctly different from any team Troy has ever played on and he’s never felt more like himself than he does here. He laughs with the team, actually enjoys going out with the team, and feels safe knowing that there are people who love him enough to call him on his bullshit without dragging him over the coals.

    or

    The one where Troy doesn't want anyone to know it's his birthday because he doesn't really give a shit about his birthday. Luca helps him enjoy it anyway.

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    22 Sep 2026

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    Soap paused, picking up the pen. He looked over his list. Three columns, “yes”, “no”, and “maybe”. He pulled the paper close. Hesitating, he underlined a single item, then crossed out the rest of them one by one. When he finished, he looked back at Ghost, as if daring him to say something about it. When Ghost didn’t, Soap pushed the paper over, crossing his arms over his chest.

    Underlined was “kneeling” under “yes”, the only thing left on the page. It didn’t matter what the other “yes” items had been, they were very clearly in the “no” column now.

    Ghost forced himself not to feel frustrated, had to admit to himself that Soap might be the most challenging sub he had ever had assigned into one of his units.

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    20 Sep 2026

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    After an accident leaves Sergeant John “Soap” MacTavish medically discharged and alone in a world he never truly learned to live in, he falls into the first open arms he can find. Only, not all men are good, and after his crumbling relationship takes a nosedive, he finds that maybe he’s worth a little more than he thought.

    The 141 is a safe haven for Simon “Ghost” Riley. Honourably discharged after the Roba debacle but left without a purpose in life, Simon rebuilds his world after escaping the shadows dragging him down. This wasn’t how he imagined joining up, but the club would quickly become a place he could learn to trust again and perhaps find someone to care for along the way.

    For COD Big Bang 2025!

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    20 Sep 2026

  14. Public Bookmark 17

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    “He pushed you because he trusts you,” Kip interjected from the other end of the couch, not looking up from where he was carding his fingers through Shane’s sweat-dampened hair, “if he didn’t trust you, he wouldn’t have used that as his last resort. Somehow, he must have known that you would have caught the only signal he was able to give.”

    “I suppose,” Scott whispered, but the guilt was still a heavy knot in his chest, “but it can't be the only signal. We need something non-verbal, something that doesn’t require him to say a word.”

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    15 Sep 2026

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    When he releases his grip on Shane’s chin, drags his knuckles along Shane’s jaw, Shane follows the touch, chasing Ilya’s fingers with his mouth.

    Fuck. He is so fucking transparent. So clearly fucking vulnerable. A careless move could break him, and Ilya is not the sort of person who can be trusted with fragile things. People don’t trust him with much at all.

    [Or: five times Shane doesn't use a safeword, and one time Ilya does.]

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    15 Sep 2026

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    Ilya comes quickly to consciousness when something smacks him in the face.

    "блять," he huffs. He peels his eyes open. "What is happening?"

    He’s nose-to-nose with a toddler. The kid has dark hair, almond-shaped doe eyes, and a spattering of freckles across his rosy cheeks. He’s grabbing at Ilya’s face with a little hand.

    Ilya blinks.

    "Shane?"

    -

    or, the mysterious russian candy is back, and it’s shane’s turn.

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    09 Sep 2026

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    "He said it was just a stronger edible," Wyatt says. "Apparently it was supposed to be super natural, and relaxing and rejuvenating, not the weak Canadian shit, and—"

    "You say a bad word, Hazy," Ilya interrupts, pointing a tiny finger at him.

    "Right." Wyatt winces. "Sorry, kid."

    Rejuvenating. Shane turns the word over in his mind a few times, while readjusting Ilya’s little body in his arms.

    Jesus fucking Christ.

    -

    or, with the help of some mysterious russian candy and a very loving husband, ilya rozanov heals his inner child.

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    09 Sep 2026

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    A knee injury ends Shane Hollander's nineteen-year NHL career.

    Ilya Rozanov keeps checking in.

    Shane pencils in "big gay midlife crisis" between physiotherapy sessions.

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    07 Sep 2026

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    “This might have been a bad idea.”
    “You think so?”
    “Hollander’s pissed.” Marlow said, stating the obvious.
    “No he’s not.” Ilya answered easily. “He’s just nervous.”
    “About what?”

    “About asking if he can watch you fuck me.”

     

    -OR-

    Ilya and Marlow have been hooking up for years - though it was never personal (until it was too late).

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    05 Sep 2026

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    Cliff Marlow isn’t gay.
    It’s a fact that he’s calm, confident and unbothered by.

    He’s been hooking up with Ilya Rozanov on and off for a while now, but that doesn’t count.

    Rozanov just plays better after he’s been laid.
    And the team always plays better when Roz is playing well.

    It was really as simple as that.

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    03 Sep 2026

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