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  1. Public Bookmark 5

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    While exploring a temple in the stone mountains of Anhui province, in the stories of the murals they read about myths of times long gone, artifacts that could destroy or rebuild one’s heart and mind. Retrieve memories. No matter how much Xiaoge knew that —most of— those ancient artifacts did not do what stories told, it had not failed in sparking some hope he wasn’t aware he could have. Although he had not explained anything beyond the bare minimum to his friends, Pangzi and Wu Xie had seen all of that too, and that was why they were in the place they were at that moment.

    “It’s beautiful,” then, after a long pause, Wu Xie added, “But it must be so lonely. To be the only one that remembers.”
    Xiaoge wished he could remember Wu Xie forever, however conscious he was that this was, at least for now, beyond his reach.

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    11 May 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 6

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    Lin Jing and Zhu Hong had been sent to a mountain resort to investigate an artifact smuggling case, never expecting to cross paths with the one that Lin Jing couldn't stop thinking about for the almost half a year since his life had been saved.
    Gui Mian had wandered many places after his loss for a place to belong, then two SID members showed up in the place he finally felt safe and happy. Will he have to fight to protect what he's made there?
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    They were suddenly closer. Too close to him. Too close to his home. And he panicked, acting like a cornered animal when neither of them showed signs of noticing him… until it was too late. He saw Gui Mian.

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    11 Oct 2025

  3. Public Bookmark 4

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    It’s humiliating, really. To need. Zhao Yunlan is their clan’s first disciple, shifu’s only son, he absolutely should not be in the middle of the wilderness with her on a wild goose chase. But he is himself, and she is in more pain than she has ever been, and finding the immortal Guo is her only chance, and so Zhao Yunlan is here. There is nothing for it, now, but to journey upward until they find him or they do not.

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    11 Oct 2025

  4. Public Bookmark 5

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    "Are you sure you don't know why Zhao-chu put you and me on this mission?" Lin Jing asked again.
    "I have no idea," Gui Mian lied. "I also have no idea whose brilliant mind was behind the proposal that I'm more useful in the Guardian Order than living my life away from you all. I've already received enough punishments for things that shouldn't even be punished…"

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    11 Oct 2025

  5. Public Bookmark 8

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    The peaceful years that had already passed with the shade of that tree sheltering his naps were beginning to be hard to count to Shen San. Six or nine or more, but it still felt like he hadn’t spent enough time with Wei.
    "Well, it's not like one lifetime, until old age, is enough anyway," he chuckled to himself as he sat down on the wooden platform that stretched across the front of the hut.

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    11 Oct 2025

  6. Public Bookmark 9

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    Zhao Yunlan is used to work undercover. This time, the place is the Ghost Tribe, a bar in the grimy part of Dragon's City which serves as safe haven for criminals. Investigating the possible involvement of the bar owner with his customers' criminal's affairs, he sees himself being dragged by his feelings for Shen Wei, the ruler of Ghost Tribe. Instead of cleaning the place, he's falling in love, helplessly.
    Or: Zhao Yunlan, you had ONE job.

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    04 Sep 2025

  7. Public Bookmark 6

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    Although Mianmian existed under different conditions now, it didn’t mean he would let go of (most of) his obsessions and settle with a Buddhist cultivator, of all people. Still, there he was, quietly breathing the scent of incense lit under a Buddha statue, barefoot and dressed in one of Lin Jing's loose white t-shirts and simple cotton pants, observing the starry sky through the open balcony door slowly turning into a cloudy sky, while his (maybe) partner was (supposedly) meditating, sitting on the living room rug.
    He could handle 'that' - his own mind. Not like before, when he couldn’t even see how much he had lost himself in the blurry line between the truth of all that unfairness and the tricks of his flawed heart.

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    01 Aug 2025

  8. Public Bookmark 6

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    The god who had brought them into existence didn't seem to remember that there were two of them and one of them had been left behind.
    He could feel that piece of his heart that he tried to keep alive even when he himself was not a living being, slowly dying inside his chest, even when it was beating so hard like he had never felt before.

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    10 Jun 2025

  9. Public Bookmark 4

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    Shen Wei and Gui Mian both go into the Guardian Lantern when they do in canon. The wick is still lit, but Shen Wei doesn’t come back out immediately. He and Gui Mian instead get reincarnated because they have to have their souls appropriately connected to them. Gui Mian reincarnates first.

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    10 Jun 2025

  10. Public Bookmark 7

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    Many times he had tried not to go back, telling himself that he had already satisfied all his sexual curiosities, that he did not depend on it. That he would not become a slave to it as once - he now realized - he had been a slave to the hunger. And 'staying' implied permanence. He had no intention of staying there, in the human world, with that person, or even alone. He also had not, before, possessed any intention of anything other than 'knowing what sex felt like', just once, just enough to try to understand types of emotions that he seemed incapable of, but that his brother possessed. Just enough to disturb a little of the spiritual peace of that man, who perhaps had failed to be a monk - or perhaps never had tried.

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    05 May 2025

  11. Public Bookmark 3

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    It was rare, seeing Ye Zun in a moment of vulnerability; even asleep, the man had the uncanny ability to appear completely aware of his surroundings, as if expecting to wake up to a knife pressed against his throat, or something worse.

    And yet, when he drifted off on Zhao Yunlan’s couch to the sound of running water and corny commercials, he looked almost peaceful. Unguarded.

    It did things to Zhao Yunlan’s heart. Easily ignorable things, or at least Zhao Yunlan liked to pretend so.

    Until the catastrophe, of course.

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    05 May 2025

  12. Public Bookmark 4

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    "Gege, they're saying you're a Christmas angel. Is that true?" A little boy who should be the leader of the bunch of despicable little creatures dared to address him.
    He wasn't so cruel as to want to rip out the child's tongue just because he had spoken to him, though. And by all accounts, he didn't know what a Christmas angel was.
    "I'm afraid I must be a Christmas Ghost, little sir," he replied with a wave of his hand, shooing the children away. When they scattered and regrouped towards the plump old man in red, he sighed in relief. "Perhaps this is my signal to leave this place for good..."
    Many people blended together in Zhao Yunlan's sight, all bundled up in coats and bustling around, but one man stood out. He stood nearby, enjoying a warm cup of cider from one of the stalls, watching the silver haired man that had caught his eye not too long ago.
    “Why a ghost and not an angel?” he asked in a way of greeting as he stopped to stand beside the silver haired man.
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    Gui Mian just wanted to know what the city was like before he tore it all down, but he had unfortunately chosen a bad time. A Christmas market definetely wasn't in his plans.

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    28 Dec 2024

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    Gui Mian/Zhao Yunlan In Character

  13. Public Bookmark 4

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    One day, the younger twin had been afraid that his brother had left for good, but it had only been a brief departure - from that day onwards they could probably count on the tips of their fingers how many times they had actually been apart for anything.
    Shen Wei sighed at the lack of space, but he didn’t push the other away. He continued to focus on his cooking, leaving his brother to his goal of coffee. It was actually quite easy for him to move naturally around the other. Countless lifetimes spent together in so many ways made it second nature. Their dinner wasn’t in any danger just because Mianmian was being a menace. Sometimes the other misbehaved just to annoy Shen Wei, other times he knew it was deeper than that. Not a test but seeking reassurance. That Shen Wei was there. That he wasn’t going anywhere. Because deep down, Mianmian was still that little ghost king tugging on his brother’s robes with bloody hands.

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    09 Dec 2024

  14. Public Bookmark 17

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    For days, Zhao Yunlan would return to where that specific landscape was and spend some time observing it. Shen Wei wondered what was wrong with that painting, but did not voice his questions. Eventually, his husband would say something about it. It wasn't as if Zhao Yunlan knew how to remain silent for long.
    But as he paused once more in front of the painting, there was a certain nostalgia tinged with resignation in his gaze. "The last time we passed this waterfall, I already knew that I would not see my little beauty become a great beauty..."

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    This fic has Art

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    23 Jul 2024

  15. Public Bookmark 11

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    There was no point in coming home early, just as there was no point in going home at all. Now, alone there, Zhao Yunlan thought about that and how he had been so angry about the situation for so long that he hadn't even tried to figure out how his spouse's embrace and kiss felt.
    His spouse. Not anymore.
    He was gone away.
    Not because he said he wanted to leave, but because Zhao Yunlan had told him to go. He had told Shen Wei that that damn deal between their families was stupid and that Shen Wei should go away and have his own life, because here, where he hadn't chosen to be, he would never have anything to call happiness. But now Zhao Yunlan wondered if he might not have tried to find some happiness with the spouse who was once his. Perhaps it was his fault more than anyone else's for all the tears he had seen Shen Wei shed.
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    *This fic has Art!
    *All the fics in this series are stand-alone

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    05 Jun 2024

  16. Public Bookmark 8

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    How many times had Shen Wei stopped to listen to music in the streets and alleys of that city? How many times had he chosen to sit for coffee in a place where he could hear the musicians playing? And enhance that nostalgia a little more with poetic melody.
    In the remaining light of the sunset, the face of a man Shen Wei had never seen and who was at the same time the most familiar thing he had encountered in weeks - or perhaps months - was framed by windblown hair and adorned with a welcoming smile that felt like home.

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    28 May 2024

  17. Public Bookmark 8

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    Shen San was just a man. Under the plum tree, his tombstone told a little story that perhaps only a broken-hearted poet and an enlightened-hearted monk could decipher. The characters engraved next to his name were in a shape as beautiful as Shen Wei's calligraphy flowing from brush to paper.
    This was the first time that Shen Wei had come here with a different appearance than Shen San had known.
    "I have little time left but I decided to start another life in the human world, it's been a while since the last time. In your time, you said to me 'you are young but completely adult, so what?' before you were sure that I was much older than you had imagined.”
    About making a different decision this time, the last time, the only person Shen Wei had to ask for advice was Shen San - even though his words could only exist in Shen Wei's heart.

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    *This fic is a prequel to another, but works as a stand-alone.

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    11 Mar 2024

  18. Public Bookmark 5

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    Lin Jing was not always lucky in that Department. He had many thoughts, many suspicions and usually talked too much - but not about that. Never about that. He didn't know if this was his lucky or unlucky day in that matter.
    Whatever the deal between Wu Xie and the Ghost Slayer was, perhaps it would be better if they were a little more discreet.

     

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    This fic is part of a series. It doesn't work as stand-alone.

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    06 Mar 2024

  19. Public Bookmark 25

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    If Shen Wei had any regrets about that little human life he had built for himself in Longcheng as a university professor, he certainly hid it from himself most of the time. On nights like that, where the incessant rain and dense mist made the air even colder and the streets even quieter, it was somehow difficult not to think about what had once been.
    This night was just like many nights before, where Wu Xie wandered the streets, uncaring of the rain that slowly seeped through his clothes. Hoping just maybe it could sink all the way into his soul.
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    When two men that should be strangers reunite on the rainy streets of Longcheng, an uncertain present and an intense past intertwine.

    At the exhibition, Zhao Yunlan gazed intently at the arts before him, the snow-capped mountains, the ethereal landscapes, the birds on branches, the peonies and koi.
    The huge green tree with strong roots. The blossoming plum tree.
    It was as if those images were photographs of things he had seen a long time ago, and that still remained vivid in his memory.
    He needed to see the artist.

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    14 Jan 2024

  20. Public Bookmark 7

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    He could smell the city below, immersed in night, as if all the urban hubbub were a single entity. An entity who slept and woke up unaware of its own inner world, ignorant of the outside world. His senses were sharpening, like a sword forged slowly, immersed in fire and water and polished on stone and then again, until the blade was perfect. Until the day he reunited with Shen Wei, he was a shapeless piece of metal, the remains of what had once been a sword. Currently, he was immersed in the fire again, trying to understand the heat around him.
    Everything of meaning had remained if the Ghost King and the Mountain God were still there. He simply needed to re-learn how to reach it. That which dwelt inseparably from himself.
    ...
    (This work is part of a series, it can't be read as stand-alone.)

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    20 Dec 2023

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