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    In the comedown, Eddie lets himself drift. He waits for it—the shame, the guilt, the panic over thinking about his best friend while he got himself off.

    It comes, but not for the reasons he expects. Eddie melts into his mattress in the aftermath of his orgasm, and doesn’t stop thinking about it. He’s gay. He finds Buck hot. Buck is his best friend, his co-parent, his partner in just about everything. Buck likes men too. It’s a possibility, a real one. Eddie can see a future with Buck, and that’s when the panic hits him.

    Eddie wasn’t a good husband. What he has with Buck right now isn’t worth losing. Eddie is in love with his best friend, but he thought that about Shannon too—and look where that ended up.

    or: Eddie fucks an ex-priest, has a crisis of faith, and figures it out.

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    22 Oct 2025

  2. Public Bookmark 38

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    The first thing to get into is the onions. This is the start.

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    22 Oct 2025

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    There's a beat of silence. A smile blossoms on Buck's face. It starts with a twitch at the corner of his mouth, then spreads inwards. He purses his lips, almost like he's trying to contain it, then gives up and lets it bloom into a brilliant smirk, crooked and devastating on his warm lips. He cracks open one eye, the left one. The smirk creases his birthmark. It's the same shade of pink as his lips, the same color as the lightning scar.

    "Oh yeah?"

    Eddie clears his throat and frees his own sandwich from its plastic prison. "Eat so you don't collapse. Save us both the trouble."

    He can still feel Buck's eyes on him. "I don't break that easily."

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    Chris is 800 miles away, and Eddie's house feels emptier than ever. As always, Buck is right there, ready to have his back, to catch him without hesitation if he falls. This is familiar, this is normal, this is the way they've always been.
    This is fine, until it isn't.
    Until Eddie finds himself drawn to Buck in ways he never expected—ways that might not be so new at all.

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    21 Oct 2025

  4. Public Bookmark 89

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    Buck turns to face Eddie. She looks her up and down before saying, "You've never squirted," in a voice that's curled up at the edges, tinged with disbelief. "Nobody's ever made you squirt."

    Made floods Eddie's brain with dangerous images: Buck shoving her thighs apart, Buck holding her hips down, Buck using her fingers and tongue to make her writhe and shake. Buck, her beautiful face buried in Eddie's cunt, refusing to stop until Eddie comes all over her.

    Shivering, Eddie says, "No." She absolutely does not squeeze her legs together. "I'm guessing you…"

    "Oh, yeah. Definitely." A smug grin lights up Buck's face. "Where do you think 'Firehose' came from?"

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    (Or, Buck "Firehose' Buckley teaches her bestie how to squirt)

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    16 Oct 2025

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    “You don’t have to,” Buck says quickly. “You could just leave it. Don’t look.”

    Eddie glances up at him, and they both know without saying it that he isn’t going to let this go.

    There’s no way he can look away now, not after seeing the way Buck reacted.

    “Or maybe just not now,” Buck says softly, stepping closer, his hand settling gently over the screen like he can shield Eddie from what’s on it. “Maybe leave it for now. You’re not… Eddie, you’re not doing well right now. I’ve been so worried about you and this—” his voice catches, “—you… Eddie, please don’t. Just leave it.”

    It stings to hear the worry out loud, even if he knew it was there.

    He wants to do what Buck says, he wants to trust his friend and give him what he’s asking.

    Buck never asks for anything.

    Eddie moves Buck’s hand aside gently, giving it a brief squeeze. “Can’t do that, Buck.”

    Or; After Christopher leaves for El Paso, Buck decides that he and Eddie should trace their family trees to keep Eddie’s mind occupied elsewhere. The results lead Eddie to face a family secret.

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    25 Sep 2025