14 Bookmarks by Rodney_McDowell

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    Shane would have never imagined himself to ever love the evening more than any morning. But like most things relating to Ilya, time had a way of flipping Shane’s idealities on their head. And, unsurprising to no one, he fell a little more in love with his husband with each passing night.

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    or: five times shane and ilya spend quality time together before bed, and one time where their routine includes someone else.

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    14 Jul 2026

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    “Game is over,” he says. “You won. I lost. I was annoying. Normal.”

    “That’s not—” Shane starts, then stops, because he actually doesn't know how to finish that thought without sounding like an idiot. His jaw works, teeth grinding together.

    That's not what I meant. That's not the point. You said I was boring and you were right and I need you to say it again so I know where I stand, so I know what you think of me, so I can stop waiting for the other shoe to drop.

    He settles for: “You were kind of an asshole.”

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    05 Jul 2026

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    ‘Was he? What you needed?’

    ‘No. I mean, sort of. But…’

    ‘Did he hurt you?’

    Shane didn’t answer. Instead, his gaze dipped to the floor.

    The blood drained from Ilya’s face. ‘Shane?’

    ‘Um.’

    Ilya’s fingers dug into the desk he was leaning on. He watched Shane’s face. That beautiful fucking face. The one he had to force himself not to stare at on the ice in case he got distracted. The face he had known since he was eighteen years old. Whether Shane believed it or not, there were few people who could read his face like Ilya Rozanov could.

    And he was reading the truth on it now.

    ‘Fuck. He hurt you?’

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    In which Ilya finds out that Shane's other sexual experiences have not been as safe or pleasurable as he deserves and decides to make things right.

    (Please check the tags, this might not be for you!)

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    04 Jul 2026

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    Svetlana knows about Jane. It's frankly insulting for Ilyusha to think otherwise.

    She just never expected to have to call him for help. During the Olympics. In Russia. In the dead of night.

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    Or, it's Sochi 2014 and Russia has lost to Latvia. Grigori Rozanov, not yet compromised by illness, punishes his son for shaming the family. When Svetlana finds an injured and emotionally fragile Ilya, she knows she needs somewhere safe for him to recover. And there's only one person in Russia who Sveta trusts with her Ilyusha: Canada's Golden Boy, Shane Hollander.

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    24 Jun 2026

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    “I’m sorry,” Shane chokes, closing his eyes. Rozanov draws his hand, pulling Shane’s with it, to his face and wipes his cheeks.

    “There is nothing to be sorry for, любовь моя, it is okay,” Rozanov murmurs, tugging at Shane’s hair again. Shane exhales, letting him clean his cheeks. “You got overwhelmed, yes? It happens.”

    “I can’t be fucking normal,” Shane says quietly, whining, head falling back, pressing into Rozanov’s hand.

    “No, if you were fucking normal, you would not be my Shane.”

    // shane is a liar, and he's tired of it all. his life falls apart, and he finds that he doesn't actually mind.

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    24 Jun 2026

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    Lately, playing hockey wasn't even as much fun as it used to be. Games were always the highlight, but even that, it didn’t feel as good since his team had been falling apart.

    And all that because he came out as gay.

    He didn’t really fault them for taking some time to accept it, so Shane let them talk. If that helped them digest the news, so be it.
    He let them distance themselves from him, let them gossip around to other teams, let them make him the butt of jokes he didn’t understand.

    Shane didn’t mind, all things considered.

    Everything was fine.

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    23 Jun 2026

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    “Shane…”

    “Who the fuck do you think you’re calling Shane?”

    “Sweetheart,” Ilya corrects, tilting his head down against Shane’s grip on his hair to try to catch his lips. “Please.”

    “I can do everything she can,” Shane says. “But you’ve been a bit too naughty today. I’m tying you up first.”

    “Oh, no,” Ilya says, voice going high and breathy. “That’s terrible.”

    Or - The jealous Shane/pathetic top Ilya fic where Shane makes Ilya beg for it

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    23 Jun 2026

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    Everyone in the NHL wants Shane Hollander. Maybe that should make Ilya feel proud, accomplished, even. Because he's the only one who has ever really had him. The only one who will.
    But really, it only seems to piss him off. Make him possessive.
    Shane kind of likes that.

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    16 Jun 2026

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    Ilya houses three new rookies for the Boston Bears. Three idiots from Briar University...Larry, Moe, and Curly...or whatever their names are. What could possibly go wrong?

    Or the Heated Rivalry/Off Campus cross over no one asked for

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    14 Jun 2026

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    When Shane was displeased with Ilya, there was a certain intensity in his speech that called to Ilya like a siren song, dragging him to an early grave with its vehemence. His voice would pitch higher, bossy and prissy and so stridently righteous it should be intolerable.

    But Ilya was, for all intents and purposes, a whore. And nothing made him harder than his husband putting him in his place.

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    or, 5 times ilya ragebaits shane because being yelled at by his husband turns him on, +1 time shane realizes he’s doing it on purpose.

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    13 Jun 2026

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    Shane is starting to get the impression that when he asked him to stay, he meant the whole night.

    But Shane doesn’t have a toothbrush.

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    An alternate look at the tuna melt scene and beyond.

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    13 Jun 2026

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    Ilya stared at Shane in bemusement. “Sounds… complicated for just sex. What, you going to spank me, tie me down?”

    Shane was silent at that. His eyes were steady on Ilya, his face determined.

    Ilya’s heart thumped in his chest. “Are you?”

    “I’m not going to hurt you,” Shane said. “I mean. I might bite and scratch at you a little, but no more than I normally do.”

    That did not answer the tying down part of the question.

    But if Shane wanted to try something new, Ilya could indulge him. This was Shane after all, Ilya’s sweet, desperate bottom. What harm could it do? It wasn’t like they didn’t both know how this would end, with Shane face down on the bed, begging for Ilya’s cock.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    Ilya wasn’t a planner. He was a river running downhill: fast, loose, ready to bounce and bend at any rock or gully. Or sometimes he enjoyed pouring himself into the containment of other structures set up for him: hockey star, playboy, Russian menace, goon. In all cases he was liquid, malleable, and chaotic.  

    Weak and disorganized, his father had said. Adaptable and resilient, his mother had countered. She never defended such insults for herself.

    But he was about to have twelve hours alone with Shane, and he didn’t want to waste a minute of it. So, he had planned a little.

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    Two weeks after the Boston jail incident they're finally going to see each other in person at All-Stars and spend the night together. They're hoping and pining and planning things, which they'll both definitely be very normal about and communicate effectively.

    Best read after 'Phone Call from a Boston Jail' and 'The Fruit Basket' (canon-divergent AU)

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    05 Jun 2026

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    “I’m right here. And you are okay, and you are safe, and healthy, and you are at home, yes? It is quiet, and nobody is there, nobody is bothering you. And the world is full of stupid idiots, but you are not one of them. And I am here. When you need me, I am here.”

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    or: The whole world thinks Shane is gay because of some stupid internet rumors, and he doesn't even have to confirm it. He's losing control of his entire life and he needs somewhere to put what little he does have.

    Ilya has open hands.

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    01 Jun 2026

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