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"I don't mean to come here and freak you out," Scott said, though he knew there was no avoiding it. He'd been where they were before. It had felt like he was dying, back then. "I just don't want you to think you're the only ones, okay? There's lots of us."
Their eyes snapped to him in unison, startled and intense. Hollander croaked, "What?"
"There's over sixteen hundred guys in the MLH and AHL," he reminded them, because it had felt improbable to him when he first heard until he remembered the sheer size of the hockey world. "There's — well, we don't know how many of us there are, but there's at least seventeen of us that know each other. Plus you two. We watch out for each other."
His eyes enormous, Hollander asked, "There's, what? A secret underground gay hockey network?"
Scott shrugged. "Yeah, basically."
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Ilya and Shane find their way into The Tennis Club, a network of closeted hockey players that hook up - so long as everyone keeps it casual. Which is no problem! They can do casual, right?
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06 Aug 2026
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no one's ever had me (not like you) by wenttoafortuneteller for timeshareindestin
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
31 Dec 2024
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Bobby clears his throat, flustered. “Nothing you say will convince me to let you engage in PDA in this firehouse.”
“But outside of the firehouse is okay?” Buck pitches. “Like, for instance, in the engine?”
“Absolutely not,” Bobby says sternly. Buck deflates. “Just… find it within yourselves to be professional for the rest of the shift. Please.”
“It’s okay, Cap,” Eddie says, with a smile equal parts charming and reassuring. “We’ll behave. Right, Buck?”
“Yeah,” Buck agrees— not because he wants to, but because he’s pretty sure he would do anything Eddie ever told him to. “What’s another 46 hours?”
Or: Buck, Eddie, and their first shift as a couple.
(Written for 9-1-1 Gotcha for Gaza.)
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25 Jul 2026
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good on my own accord by impetuous
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
14 May 2026
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No serious hockey fan or sports commentator worth their salt would have considered record-breaking Boston superstar Ilya Rozanov to be Shane Hollander’s rival exactly, but sleeping with a man who had a specific offense-related vendetta against him and a wrist shot like a jet engine to back it up was probably ill-advised just the same.
Or, Shane is a goalie. Ilya can’t score.
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- Part 1 of #42 Shane Hollander
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22 Jul 2026
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He stopped in front of her, like he didn't know what to say. Fiona just stared at him. Lip stirred beside her.
"You got a baby," he said.
"Two," she replied, chin jerking toward Lip.
He blinked. Then, slowly, he dropped his bag and unzipped it. He pulled out a sandwich, squished, half-eaten, wrapped in a crumpled napkin, and held it out to her.
"You can have the rest," he said. "It's peanut butter. No jelly."
Fiona hesitated. Her stomach twisted with hunger, but she'd been taught not to trust strangers, even if they were small and sad-looking like her. Still... a sandwich was a sandwich.
She reached out and took it.
"Thanks."
He sat down next to her on the curb without asking. Just dropped his backpack by his feet and let out a sigh like someone twice his age.
"I'm Evan," he said, picking at the edge of his sneaker sole.
"Fiona."
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14 Jul 2026
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“My dick is gone,” Eddie says, hushed but frantic.
Buck splutters, wide unblinking eyes still glued to Eddie’s crotch, eyebrows knit together harshly and dragging high on his forehead. Eddie would laugh at his ridiculous face if he didn’t feel like he was going to throw up. “It’s not gone, you have a—”
“Don’t say it,” Eddie warns weakly.
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Eddie wakes up with the wrong equipment. Buck is actually pretty normal about it, until he isn't.Series
- Part 1 of slip 'n slide
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03 Jul 2026
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Buck scoffs. “You really think you could go longer than I could without--”
Eddie shakes his head in amusement. “Making a ‘deposit’?” he teases sarcastically, finishing Buck’s sentence when he awkwardly clams up. “Yes, with one hundred percent certainty.”
Buck’s eyebrows raise, his bright grin showing off a row of perfectly white teeth. “Oh, you wanna bet? Since you’re so confident.”
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Buck and Eddie challenge each other to see who can go the longest without an orgasm. Eddie’s pretty confident he can win.
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02 Jul 2026
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Eddie was hoping to avoid this conversation, and he can’t even really begin to fathom how or when he would bring it up. Hey, nice save back there, he imagines, the resounding clap of his hand landing on Buck’s shoulder, echoing off the tall ceiling of the station. By the way, I can hear you touching yourself at night. I can hear you making yourself come a foot away from me.
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Buck and Eddie share a bed during quarantine. It blurs a few lines.Bookmarked by SheSmiledAnyway
02 Jul 2026
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Running to the frontlines from a childhood he never had. Taking a bat to the wall with his son in the next room. Having an affair with the spitting image of his dead wife.
Eddie knows he’s never been good at grieving, knows he’s never been good at losing what little he allows for himself in the first place. This is why he also knows his coping mechanisms can’t possibly get any worse.
Buck, as he so often does, makes him reevaluate his assumptions.
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Evan Buckley dies behind a wall of glass. It’s a shame that when he’s revived not three minutes later, no one is informed.- Language:
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30 Jun 2026
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The voice had always been around, Eddie remembers it, like a stream of consciousness that babbled incoherently to the point where Eddie just tuned it out.
But then the voice started speaking directly to him. Conversing like he was a whole person standing right in front of him. Like he could see what was happening around Eddie.
Eddie shook his head. No one was talking to him, and Eddie most certainly was not talking back.
He wouldn’t talk to the boy in his head ever again. There was no boy in his head.
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22 Jun 2026
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Late at night, early in the morning; it doesn’t matter. Regardless of the time, Shane is thinking: what would it be like? To always be of use.
To strip his captain jersey and the control that comes with it, but not the responsibility.
Sometimes—often, he lets himself imagine it. Whether he lets himself think about the feeling (to be needed like this, to be the only thing that can help Ilya find release and relief) or about something more palpable depends on the night.
or: Shane just wants to be useful, at all times, not just on the ice.
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19 Jun 2026
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It hits Buck in the Costco frozen pizza aisle on a Wednesday morning in the middle of October.
I wanna hold his hand, Buck thinks, followed immediately by What the fuck?, and punctuated with a No, seriously, what the fuck was that?
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or: Buck realizes he's in love with Eddie, promptly crashes out about it, cries about it, and then fucks Eddie nasty and tender about it, in that orderBookmarked by SheSmiledAnyway
31 May 2026
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When Bobby is forced to take emergency leave, the last person anyone expects to step up as interim captain of the 118 is Evan Buckley.
The last person Buck expects is himself.But with a badge, a clipboard, and just enough authority to be dangerous, Buck decides to do what he does best: take care of his people… even if it means bending a few rules, re-writing a few others, and accidentally becoming the most chaotic captain the 118 has ever seen.
Eddie thinks this is a terrible idea.
Eddie is also deeply, helplessly in love with him.
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28 May 2026
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Eddie accidentally overhears Buck jerking off in the firehouse showers. Neither can act even slightly normal about it.
(Set before 8x06)
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19 May 2026
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Their lives are intertwined, inextricably so. It's a truth Eddie knows fundamentally. It's a grounding fact about his and Buck’s relationship. They're best friends on the precipice of something more and he's in no rush to push them into uncharted waters. They’ll find their way there eventually – it's inevitable. So Buck can date other people for now, he can have his fun. Eddie won't spoil that for him. In the end, Buck always comes home to him.
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Buck and Eddie are living together and Buck has started dating again. Eddie realises he's in love with Buck and takes the time to work through his feelings - not at all threatened by his best friend's lovers.
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18 May 2026
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“Come on, Eddie,” Buck groans, “You may hide it well, but I know you don’t like Tommy.”
Eddie wants to open his mouth and start telling Buck he is wrong. Wants to explain that Buck has it all twisted. But, Buck doesn’t have it wrong. He has it exactly spot on.
Eddie envies Tommy. He has Buck. He has him and keeps letting him down.
All Eddie can think about in these moments is how much better Eddie could treat Buck. How Eddie could protect him better, love him better, appreciate him better. And in the dark of his room, blanketed in the cover of night: how much better he could pleasure Buck.
That last one was a recent addition to the list of things Eddie was sure he could do better than Tommy. It was one of the handful of things he kept locked in the deepest, darkest parts of his soul, only to emerge in the heat of the moment before being shoved back down in shame.
At Eddie’s silence, Buck lets out a frustrated sigh that snaps Eddie back into focus and the present situation.
5 times Tommy doesn’t show up for Buck so Eddie does instead, +1 time that Eddie made it clear to Buck that he wanted to be by his side for the rest of their lives.
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15 May 2026
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Four months after the death of Bobby Nash, the 118 tries to figure out what life looks like without him.
Buck lives with Athena, pines for Eddie, and devotes his time to his friends. Eddie repairs his relationship with Christopher and learns a few things about himself in the process.
Life is a series of choices. Buck and Eddie learn to start choosing for themselves.
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14 May 2026
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The men of her own group turned their backs on her, men whose lives were saved by her and who spent months training alongside her...
But one man saw her as an equal, the one who should be her greatest enemy, the one who would have every reason to break her apart, was the one who saw her potential the most and did not underestimate her for being a woman for even a second.
Shang spared her out of a debt... Shan Yu helped her because she was a warrior worthy of his respect.- Language:
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12 May 2026
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When Bobby dies, Buck doesn't quite know how to make sense of it. Eddie doesn't either. They try to survive by clinging to each other.
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[He feels untethered, feverish, Eddie’s fingers a burning point on his skin, third degree burns. He doesn’t pull back, leaning in closer instead. Just a bit, the smallest of the movements, he craves the contact, always has, since he was four and begging his parents to look at him, it’s his oldest memory.
“Stay?” Eddie asks, and Buck feels it on his lips. “Just for tonight.”
“Yeah.” He breathes out in return. “Anything.” ]Bookmarked by SheSmiledAnyway
01 May 2026
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The Android and The Firefighter by Buki_stories21
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV), Detroit: Become Human (Video Game)
03 Jun 2025
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In 2037, a single father moves to Los Angeles in look for better job opportunities. Eddie Diaz, army veteran and newly firefighter, went to the 118 because it was the only station that didn't follow the normal 50% of personnel being androids.
It turns out the only android there ended up meaning to him more than he ever thought he would. BK-400, newest firefighter assistance model, named Buck by his coworkers, seemed to be more than just wires and blue blood.
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30 Apr 2026
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Since they began dating, Eddie has frequently pointed out Buck’s insane oral fixation, which is—fair. If Buck isn’t talking, there’s always something in his mouth, or he’s worrying his lip, tonguing the inside of his cheek, or pressing against his teeth.
But—Eddie has a fixation too, specifically a fixation on Buck’s oral fixation. Or just his mouth in general.
He loves being inside Buck’s mouth. Whether it’s exploring it with his own tongue, gliding his fingers over the wet muscle of Buck’s tongue, or sliding his cock deep into Buck’s welcoming throat.
Buck isn’t exaggerating when he says it’s a fixation. Sometimes Eddie will just be holding Buck’s face and then suddenly, like he can’t help himself, his thumb is brushing over Buck’s bottom lip before it slips inside, tracing sweetly over his tongue.
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Kinktober day one: Cockwarming
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- Part 1 of Kryptonian Fictober 2025
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24 Apr 2026