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  1. Public Bookmark 58

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    “This is good,” said Rozanov, who had somehow appeared behind Hayden in the moments he’d stood still, spiraling.

    “How could this possibly be good, Rozanov.” Hayden shoved his phone back into his pocket with a groan.

    “Shane will not have to murder us. Canadian wildlife will do it for him.”

    This is Hayden Pike’s worst nightmare. Trapped in a car for two hours with the biggest asshole in the league, his longest career rival, and now, apparently, his best friend’s boyfriend. Who hates Hayden’s fucking guts. There is no way this could get any worse than it already is. Except, Hayden discovers, when your front tire explodes, and neither of you know jackshit about cars.

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    28 Feb 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 78

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    Bringing a kid to a post-game interview is a guaranteed hit.
    But kids are not the best at keeping secrets - especially not when their favourite uncle is involved

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    28 Feb 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 25

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    “Well, don’t you look... pretty.”

    “Fuck,” he whispers, embarrassed at his choice of outfit. “This was such a bad idea.”

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    Or, what happens if Shane doesn’t change his suit for that first fateful rendezvous in room 1410?

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    28 Feb 2026

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    Entering an actual relationship near the very beginning of when they first meet, Shane is still paranoid about pictures of them getting shared so Ilya buys him a Polaroid camera instead to document their relationship all the way back from 2012. The only problem is that he never intended for Yuna to find the album.
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    “I know we can’t have pictures of each other, but I still want them,” he confessed, still fiddling with Shane’s hair for his own comfort. “And I thought maybe...if they were just ours, you might be okay with it.”  

    Shane stayed silent, eyes glancing between his tense expression and the bag as he pulled out a Polaroid camera. His thumb was gripping it so hard he thought it might crack, his anxiety manifesting physically.  

    “Ilya...” He paused, finally sitting up a bit more. Enough that Ilya had no choice but to let his hand fall away from his hair or else, it would seem too clingy.  

    “Is fine, if you don’t like idea,” he clarified, even though the thought of being rejected terrified him more than he could possibly express. “Was just a thought—” 

    “I like it,” Shane interjected before he could spin himself into a tizzy he would deny ever feeling in the first place.  

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    28 Feb 2026

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    Ilya doesn’t say anything. He keeps watching Shane from the doorway. When he speaks, his voice is quiet and he’s looking down at his bare feet. “You said you would stay,” he says. “That is what I remember.”

    In which Shane freaks out but doesn't leave in episode four.

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    27 Feb 2026

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    Ilya has pierced ears.

    Shane learns this on their third hookup. He then spends the next ten fucking years losing his mind about it.

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    27 Feb 2026

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    “We figure a lot of it is going to be old junk,” Shane admitted. “But, apparently, this is the last of Ilya’s dad’s things from the old house. So, at least there won’t be more coming after this.”

    Yuna pressed an open palm to her chest sweetly. “Aww. That must be very emotional for you, Ilya.”

    Her Russian son’s face flattened, and he sucked his teeth. “Not really. Just one more chore my brother is pawning off on me, really.”

    “Oh come on,” she tisked. “There could be all kinds of old memories and family keepsakes in there you might want!”

    “Doubt it.”

    - OR -

    Some old home videos from Russia arrive, and the Hollanders get to see firsthand why Ilya doesn't like to talk about his childhood.

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    27 Feb 2026

  8. Public Bookmark 15

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    It's 2016. Shane Hollander is dating famous actress Rose Landry, and appears to be very happy about it. Not that Ilya would care. Ilya is very satisfied with the trajectory of his life. At least he's not Scott Hunter, who is holding clandestine homosexual hook-ups in his team's hotel room in Boston.

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    27 Feb 2026

  9. Public Bookmark 94

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    "I’m sorry, I am just—” He drops his fork to wave his hand around, the way he does when he's searching for the proper word. He knows enough English words to describe what it is he’s feeling, but they don’t feel like adequate descriptors. My father, the man I loathe, is dying, and there is nothing I can do to save him. Everyone in my life expects so little of me, and I feel as though I may disappear. I feel like, if I did disappear, perhaps the world would be all the better for it. You are the only man in my life who has made me feel happy to take up space. Shane, tell me, what is the English word for this?

    Ilya Rozanov's okay, not good, probably bad day.

    Set during a liminal space of my design between the All-Star game and Ilya's father's death.

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    27 Feb 2026

  10. Public Bookmark 75

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    “You are not… hole. You are” Ilya gestures emphatically to encompass Shane and his entire body “You are… whole!” He frowns. “English is stupid.”

    They’ve tried virtually everything together at this point, or at least everything they care to try, and it’s all been good, great, bordering on perfect, so why does this feel different?

     

    Or, musings on the social significance of sexual roles, internalized homophobia/misogyny, and Ilya’s perfect butt.

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    27 Feb 2026

  11. Public Bookmark 3

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    “I'm looking for a dog.” Hollander doesn't waver.

    “A dog? What do you think I am, Hollander, a breeder?” Hollander doesn't laugh, his face is carefully neutral, not giving anything away. “Sorry to disappoint.”

    “I know what you are, I know who you are. I know what I'm asking. Ilya Rozanov, I want you to be my dog.”
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    Gang Leader Shane x Guard Dog Ilya - the origin story.

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    27 Feb 2026

  12. Public Bookmark 18

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    After Rozanov pushes Shane away during the Olympics, Shane takes his friend from home up on an invitation to meet some of the other Olympic skaters. Joe grew up in Ottawa like Shane and had often been his go to support when, for all that he loved hockey, he needed a break from hockey players. Two Russian non-athletes somehow ended up in the mix of the increasingly racy Olympic Village party until the threat of homophobic violence has one of them calling for a friend.

    Ilya is having a very bad time at Sochi and Svetlana calling him at 1am because Sasha is in the village getting into fights is not improving his mood. He is doubly unimpressed that Hollander is apparently at the party too. Maybe some conversations can’t be avoided.

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    27 Feb 2026

  13. Public Bookmark 46

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    On the day of his father's funeral, Ilya wakes up to his brother's fists and his life turning upside down. While he deals with the consequences of being outed because of a video filmed years ago, Shane and his cottage are a refuge in the storm his life has become.

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    26 Feb 2026

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    Svetlana knows about Jane. It's frankly insulting for Ilyusha to think otherwise.

    She just never expected to have to call him for help. During the Olympics. In Russia. In the dead of night.

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    Or, it's Sochi 2014 and Russia has lost to Latvia. Grigori Rozanov, not yet compromised by illness, punishes his son for shaming the family. When Svetlana finds an injured and emotionally fragile Ilya, she knows she needs somewhere safe for him to recover. And there's only one person in Russia who Sveta trusts with her Ilyusha: Canada's Golden Boy, Shane Hollander.

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    26 Feb 2026

  15. Public Bookmark 27

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    Dr. Galina had helped him make a list of symptoms that had bothered him in the past year. Lethargy, poor appetite, sleeping too much, sleeping too little, irritability, suicidal thoughts, periods where he couldn't think clearly at all, thinking too much. She added a few to the list that he didn't agree with: large purchases, impulsivity, fighting. He fought back with her on them, and she added one more: belligerence.

    Snippets of Ilya Rozanov's bipolar symptoms, and a glimpse of his journey through diagnosis.

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    26 Feb 2026

  16. Public Bookmark 9

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    Ilya grinned brighter on noticing the vodka bottle set square in the middle of their dining table, a blue bow around it. She returned David’s high - five as discreetly as she could as they moved to the kitchen, giving the younger couple a moment to take it all in. Dinner was a quiet, contemplative affair and soon enough, with the day coming to a close at midnight, everyone had settled somewhat.

    She felt Shane’s eyes on her for longer moments all the same. Yuna knew it’d take time to adjust to this new normal after nearly a decade of the alternative. She tried for a smile and he returned it, ease returning ever so gradually. She all but dragged David back over to the sofa, content to linger here for a little while longer as they settled for the night first.

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    26 Feb 2026

  17. Public Bookmark 8

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    It wasn’t that he wanted to die, per say, but the thought of it became more and more appealing as the years dragged on. Oftentimes it wasn’t even because he missed his Mama, though he did, with every fiber of his being. It was just that he didn’t really feel like there was a point anymore. There was nothing to live for. Yeah, he had hockey, but even that was becoming a chore. He did it so Father wouldn’t constantly be on his ass calling him a lazy, useless waste of space. He felt as if any joy or love or any positive emotion had been covered by that thick, dark cloud that spread and spread until he could feel it in his lungs with every breath. Much like the cigarettes he was breathing in by the carton, he welcomed it. Welcomed the dark and found himself becoming intimately familiar with each whisper of its wind.

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    26 Feb 2026

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    Four days before Shane expects Ilya to be back on the ice in a random home game against Tennessee, the news finally leaks.

    Shane feels like he should be hiding under a table, sheltering in place. It’s not even that bad. Just a short, clinical article on ESPN. Sources close to the Boston Raiders have confirmed that Conn Smythe winner Ilya Rozanov’s mysterious SOIR is due to a suicide attempt in August. The Team Captain was in Moscow at the time, but returned to Boston as soon as he was able to recuperate and seek treatment.

    As far as terroristic invasions of privacy go, it’s compassionate.

    But Shane knows what it’s like to constantly be under a microscope, and he wants, more than anything, for Rozanov to not be dissected and examined like a particularly fascinating insect. He can’t do anything about it.

    Or: The summer after he wins the Cup for Boston, Ilya almost dies. Shane tries to cope.

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    25 Feb 2026

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    Maybe she should have first realised that Shane is an adult. Her adult son, who has a life that she does not know everything about.

    In the zipped-up, side compartment of the suitcase, she stumbles upon condoms. Lots and lots of condoms.

    And lube.

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    25 Feb 2026

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    @HarveySmth76: 
    So, Dallas Kent's teammate just tweeted this: 

    Rozanov isn’t any better, though. Like we all know it. Dude's banged like a thousand women. Bet if even just a few of them talked, you'd all be shutting up about Kent pretty quick. 

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    Dallas Kent’s teammate makes a bigoted assumption. A very loud, very incorrect assumption. Twitter eats him alive.

    Because, yes, Rozanov has slept with a lot of women and they have a lot to say. About consent and check-ins and that accent.

    #OkIWillTalk is trending, as is #SexGodOfTwitter. Toronto Survivor's Legal Fund is finally gaining some traction. And Ilya is definitely going to punch Kent. Again.

    Told through twitter snapshots and extracts from the Ottawa Centaurs Group Chat. 

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    25 Feb 2026

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