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    Do you love me now? Do I let you down? by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    27 Sep 2026

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    After the Boxing Day fight, Ilya's place doesn't almost crash and Shane doesn't propose. Instead, he turns to self harm to cope with the self hatred feels as a result of the Metro's hostility, Ilya's inability to communicate, and his belief that he's the reason for everything wrong in their relationship and the team dynamic.

    What starts as a self proclaimed unhealthy coping mechanism comes to a head when Ilya finds out and realizes just how much he underestimated the degree to Shane was struggling and the impact hiding had on him.

    Will they find their way back to each other or will Shane let his depression eat him alive, leaving everything he ever loved, including hockey, to the past.

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    I really want to explore a story where Shane struggles deeply with his mental health. I find it hard to imagine that everything didn't take more of a toll on him. It's dark but there is light at the end of the tunnel. This is pretty heavy so if self harm or eating disorders are triggering for you pls don't read!

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    28 Sep 2026

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    In The Cold Light of Day by

    Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types  

    28 Sep 2026

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    Maybe Ilya was right. He really is too afraid.

    Shane feels a tear streak down his face, and he lifts his numb fingers, pressing his cold fingers to his equally cold cheek, and then smiles to himself. He can’t stop the laugh from leaving his mouth, even though it makes his lungs hurt, even though it makes his chest feel like it’s about to cave in.

    His entire life has been spent on the ice. His entire life has been cold, and so maybe it’s fitting that he dies in the cold, too. To let his body be reclaimed by the elements, and then the world is left wondering just where Shane Hollander disappeared to.

    At least the sun is somewhat warm as it basks on his face, and Shane manages one little smile, thinking about the sunlight that would stream into the cottage, and illuminate his boyfriend’s face.

    It’s the last thing he thinks about before he succumbs to unconsciousness.

    Or: The Boxing Day fight goes horribly wrong, leaving Shane and Ilya to reevaluate their lives, relationship, and careers. A story of loss, bargaining, and reconciliation.

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    28 Sep 2026

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    Getting There by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    24 Sep 2026

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    Ilya: shane
    Ilya: [image attached - button up silk shirt laid out on a bed]
    Ilya: ???!!!!

    Jane: Why did you send me a picture of your shirt?

    Ilya: [image attached - Ilya’s torso with the shirt on, which is very obviously too small. The buttons will not close and the sleeves are squeezing Ilya’s arms]
    Ilya: why is it fucking ant sized?!?!

    Jane: Oh my god
    Jane: I’m sorry that is hilarious. What happened to your shirt?

    Ilya: you tell me!!!!

    Jane: I mean, it was in your laundry pile, so I probably washed it with the rest of the clothes.

    Ilya: …
    Ilya: shane
    Ilya: please tell me you did not put all my laundry through the machine at home

    OR: Shane and Ilya finally live together after over a decade apart. Turns out living with the love of your life is a lot harder than the movies make it seem.

    (OR: 5 times Shane and Ilya bicker over household things that you never know can piss you off until you are living with someone who does them.)

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    27 Sep 2026

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    A Healthy Dose of Fear by

    Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types  

    05 Apr 2026

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    Ilya chuckles. “You don’t know why the team might be scared of you? You cannot think of any reason?”

    “Scared? Of me?” Shane says.

    “Yes. They adore you. But they are terrified.”

    “But – but why? What did I do?”

    Ilya pretends to think. “Hmm. What did you do? Maybe it was the first Stanley Cup. Or the second. Or the third. Or your MVP wins. Or every single fucking game you have ever played in your life. You are Shane fucking Hollander. Did you forget?”

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    Or, five times Shane scares the Centaurs, and one time he (accidentally) terrifies them.

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    19 Sep 2026

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    Black Ice by ,

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    15 Sep 2026

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    Shane Hollander loves his future husband. Sure, his future husband is oblivious sometimes, but he means well, and he always listens.

    Ilya Rozanov thinks his future husband doesn’t understand the dark side of hockey. He’s about to learn differently.

    The result: two decisions nobody who even slightly follows the NHL expected their two former rival stars to make.

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    04 Sep 2026