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So Much Of You Is Left Behind by ChaoticRussian2481
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
21 Feb 2026
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Maybe he was naive, but Ilya always thought he had time. Time with Shane. Time to tell him what he truly meant to him.
That, somehow, one way or another, Shane would always be there.
But a text message late one night threatens to destroy the future that Ilya has spent the time carefully constructing in his mind.
Maybe Shane wasn't always going to be there. That Shane would be cruelly snatched away from him before he had a chance to be honest.
That he would be left behind. Alone.
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19 Feb 2026
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In another life, John and Simon meet when Simon is working in a butcher’s shop and John is two years into his bachelor’s degree.
In another life, Simon still joins the military, but John never follows, instead choosing to further pursue his education.
In another life, John is little more than a civilian mourning his partner when he’s informed Simon was killed in action during a mission in Mexico.
And in another life, after a year of being dead, Simon shows up unexpectedly at John’s door.
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08 Feb 2026
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Simon sits on Johnny's face and gets his ghussy eaten until he loses all coherence. That's it, that's the fic.
Per @spacecryptids_ on twitter:
i need simon to just ride soap's face til he's overstimulated actually. like I just need him to grind his pussy against his face until his shakingBookmarked by awkmonkey
01 Feb 2026
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It Took a Long Time (To Get Back Here) by sammyandspice
Fandoms: Call of Duty (Video Games)
08 Apr 2024
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Soap is frustrated with Ghost's ability to stay cool and collected during sex. Ghost ought to be lost in his sauce by now and he's not even slightly turned around; it's like he's got a map or a GPS or a fucking compass. Johnny has tried everything he can think of to throw Ghost off course and make him scream with no luck.
Until he discovers Ghost's latent praise kink, followed by the knowledge that Ghost has never bottomed before, despite his apparent interest in it.
Well, Soap can certainly do something about all of that. And he fully intends to.
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31 Jan 2026
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Johnny sings. Simon mourns.
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30 Jan 2026
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"Is that what they're callin' you now? Warboy?"
"I suppose so, sir."
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The 1960s were a turbulent time. Vietnam raged overseas, and America simmered with unrest. But for Cassius Grant, life was supposed to be simpler: take over his late father's cattle ranch, keep his head down, and honor the legacy left behind.
He never expected war to come knocking on his front door. And he certainly didn't expect Wyatt Fortner.
As the draft looms and the world grows more dangerous, Cassius finds himself torn between duty, desire, and survival. In a time when love between two men is not just forbidden but dangerous, Cassius must navigate the unforgiving land he calls home, and the even harsher terrain of the battlefield.
All he wants is to make it out alive-alive enough to love and be loved in return.
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30 Jan 2026
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Next Best Thing by peiceabread
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
21 Dec 2025
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When a devastating call from Moscow interrupts a routine practice, Ilya Rozanov’s world tilts on its axis. His brother is dead, and his ten-year-old niece, Sofia, is left alone with nobody by her side
Ilya knows he is the only one who can save her from the state system, but the Russian Federation doesn't recognize his marriage—in fact, it disqualifies him.
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Please note I didn't have a beta reader and my English is not the best
I PROMISE THEY DONT BREAK UP THEY JUST GET DIVORCED BC FUCK RUSSIA
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25 Jan 2026
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Love’s a game, wanna play? by tunam3lts
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
08 Jan 2026
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“Dare,” he says with a smirk.
Cliff strokes his chin and thinks very deeply. “I dare you…” he starts, “to make the freshman fall in love with you within a month.”
Some people around them laugh.
Ilya’s smirk grows even wider. “And what do I get when I manage to do so? It is not that easily said and done. Takes time, you know?”
“Mm, you’re right. I’ll give you…”
“Fifty bucks,” Ilya says before Cliff is done thinking. “And a bottle of that nice vodka your dad always has.”
“Deal!” Cliff says and holds out his hand.
Ilya shakes it.
OR: Ilya is drunk and accepts a bet.
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15 Jan 2026
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On a routine op, Ghost disappears. They come after him, of course, but he’s nowhere to be found, with not a shred of evidence to say where he is— only a six year old who looks suspiciously like him, who insists he’s Simon Riley.
taken off anon 16/01/25
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14 Jan 2026
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Shane Hollander knows he’s not a small guy. Years of hockey and workouts have built up his muscles, and lucky genetics from his father’s side places him just shy of six feet. He’s checked hockey players half a foot and several pounds more than him, knocked Scott Hunter into the ice in the one fight he’s ever actually thrown hands in. But as much as Shane loves the game, the fast movements, passes, and team camaraderie, there were times where he could only feel regret at following the path of athletic fame. He puts on the media smile he practices in the mirror as he brushes his hair each day, uses the bright lights of press conferences to erase his view of the audience, and keeps his answers simple and focused on hockey.
The number of people outside the arena still makes him feel crushed in on all sides, small. Eyes trained on his face, cameras flashing, pens and cell phones being passed into his hands. The itch of it all settles under his skin.
@OttawaPoliceDispatch: Police have been dispatched to a house alarm in Galetta, On. Possible break in, destruction of property.
@OttawaOfficialPoliceDepartment: Recent Missing Persons Report filed for Shane William Hollander at 9:25 pm
Epilogue: 3/1
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14 Jan 2026
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On the 21st November 2023, Sergeant John "Soap" MacTavish was killed in action in the Eurotunnel, 7km off the coast of Folkestone.
Except the heavily redacted report is all a lie and the emotional scattering of his ashes is all an act.
This is the story of how he survives, how the 141 fake his death, and how he recovers - with Ghost right by his side.
A realistic fic about Soap recovering from a traumatic brain injury and discovering which parts of himself are left, and which parts Makarov stole from him. Full of hurt and comfort, angst and humour, this is a slow burn Ghost/Soap getting together fic with a happy ending.
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07 Jan 2026
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Ghost has hundreds of kills under his belt and he's slayed just as many monsters on jobs just like this one for Price. It's the last job of the year. It's supposed to be easy. Ghost is supposed to be halfway back south before the snow starts falling. There wasn't supposed to be a sex-starved demon involved. And Ghost certainly wasn't supposed to be bringing it back with him...
... with Ghost's half-demon bastard growing in its belly, if it was to be believed.
Ghost was going to make Price pay him double.
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06 Jan 2026
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On a quiet, isolated island where the sea kisses the cliffs below a weathered manor, Simon leads a solitary life — summers spent in stillness, reading, walking, and retreating from the world. One morning, he sees Soap, the selkie upon the rocks. What begins as curiosity grows into quiet companionship. Day by day, Simon brings Soap books and stories, and Soap, in turn, offers his own — strange tales of the deep, of memory and instinct and salt.
Soap, who has always known the ocean as his only home, begins to stay longer, lingering in Simon's world. When he admits he's been thinking about seeing more of the island, Simon excitedly leads him up to the house and shares its warmth — the markets, the port, the life he thinks Soap could love.
In the stillness, they speak plainly — about leaving, staying, and what it means to find something that feels like home. Simon, who has always run before roots could take hold, begins to realize that staying might be the bravest and most honest thing he’s ever done.
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05 Jan 2026
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Kinktober Day 2 - Kidnapping + Coming Untouched (plus a whole lot more)
Whoever took him didn't gag him, so they're not worried about someone hearing him scream for help or in pain.
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05 Jan 2026
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Shane Hollander disappears from the NHL at twenty with a career-ending “injury.”
Four years later, he’s the new assistant coach for the Ottawa Centaurs when Ilya Rozanov signs with the team. His former rival. His secret hookup. The father of his daughter.
Ilya doesn’t know Lily exists and Shane plans to keep it that way.But three-year-olds don’t keep secrets, and neither do pale blue eyes.
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05 Jan 2026
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“Your nephew, Joseph, is alive.”
Simon Riley once believed he buried himself alongside his family after he failed to protect them. As it turns out, fate has other plans for him.
After learning that his nephew, believed to have been killed six years prior, is alive, the trajectory of Simon’s life is once again forever altered. In the midst of putting the pieces of himself back together and learning how to love the best man he’s ever known, Simon must reconcile past mistakes with hope for the future. As Simon quickly learns, life emerges in the most unlikely places, even for dead men walking.
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24 Dec 2025
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It was mandatory for alphas to take an eight-week course with “practice omegas” to make sure they knew how to be in a proper relationship with their mates.
One was only allowed to mate after completing the course, yet even someone as uninterested in mating as Ghost had to take it, since mating was mandatory. If unmated at 30 years old, the government would assign you a mate.
After postponing it for four years under the excuse of his duties in the army, Ghost had no more excuses. Enter “Soap,” his assigned practice omega.
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14 Dec 2025
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"You should get what little rest you still can before daylight," Mr. Riley breathed, causing John to repress a shiver at the warmth of breath against his skin.
"Will you be okay?"
"You've done enough..." a pause. "Goodnight, Johnny."
Johnny. No one ever called him that and yet it felt right hearing it said in the low grumble of the other man's voice.
"Alright," John reached up, bumping his fist against Mr. Riley's shoulder and stepping back. Already missing the subtle heat of closeness the second it was gone.
"Sleep well... Simon."
And that too felt right.OR —— a GhostSoap Jane Eyre retelling.
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13 Dec 2025
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There was only so much you could do to a dead man, you see, before he became more of a liability than an advantage. In theory, the idea of not killing Ghost— of keeping him alive, taking him back to the base and torturing all the information they could get out of him was a good one. However, in practice, the issue became more complicated.
Or— Ghost is sent home to recover after being victim to cartel torture, and then Soap shows up.
REWRITE OF TENDER IS THE NIGHT
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09 Dec 2025
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Tomorrow, Soap would force himself to be awake at six. He’d be ready, sitting on the stoop, a cup of coffee in one hand and his rifle in the other.
And when he shot Ghost dead, he’d plant thistle in the viscera he left behind.
Ten years after surviving a gunshot wound to the head, Soap is struggling with the reality of retirement and the abrupt, seemingly unprompted reappearance of his ex-lover and former lieutenant. But healing isn't linear, and sometimes things need to shatter and break before they can be built back up anew.
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07 Dec 2025