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  1. Public Bookmark 57

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    His sister grabs him firmly by the shoulders. “Shane Hollander. My brother, my wombmate, my least favourite twin. I literally do. not. care. if you introduce yourself to this boy or not, but you have been yammering about him nonstop for fucking days and you very clearly want to talk to him, so as your older sister–”

    “–I was literally born first–”

    “You were removed first, we both know God wanted me to–”

    “You were breech and tried to take your fucking placenta with you, I don’t think ‘God’–”

    “A girl causes an almost-fatal hemorrhage one time and no one ever lets her fucking forget it! Whatever! The point is that you clearly want to talk to this guy and we just saw him walk over there alone so now is your perfect fucking chance! Just go say hi! Stop overthinking it!”

    “Wow, stop overthinking, what revolutionary advice. Thank you so much for that game-changing fuc–”

    She punches him in the shoulder hard enough to actually hurt. “Okay how about this, fuckface: either you go introduce yourself to him or I will.”

     

    OR: My brain said what if Shane Hollander had a sister, and then all this happened. Bon appetite.

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    18 Jul 2026

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    “Luch-Shane,” Ilya says, catching himself only at the last moment before he breaks their no pet names in the workplace rule. “Why don’t you get some air, yes? We can-”

    Shane’s anxiety takes a quick backseat to annoyance once more, at being handled like a child instead of a grown man, like he hasn’t been doing this just as long as Ilya, like he needs someone to tell him when to take a break.

    Like he deserved to have everything taken away from him because he couldn’t handle it to start with.

    “I’m fine,” he says, voice icy.

    The step he takes away is too big, farther than he meant to get from Ilya’s side, and the air between them feels both charged and icy.

    He isn’t quite bold enough to try and fix it.

    (shane is married and on the same team as his husband) (and all it cost him was his whole career and the life he spent years building beforehand) (but it's fine, really) (it's all so very, very fucking fine)

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    19 Jun 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 18

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    Shane was finally ready to tell Ilya about his feelings and really thought they would be reciprocated, till Ilya leaves him. Wanting to get answers Shane makes a plan to talk to him during all stars just to find out that he brought his...girlfriend???

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    18 Jun 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 91

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    Will Hollander's favorite person in the whole world is his big brother Shane. Determined not to spend his eleventh birthday without him, Will lies to his parents and bikes twelve miles to Shane's cottage....only to discover that Shane's "silent retreat" is considerably less silent than advertised. Along the way, he becomes the accidental catalyst for Shane and Ilya's relationship being revealed.
    Some birthdays are more memorable than others.

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    12 Jun 2026

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    Ilya and Shane marry after Rookie season

    Due to Shane being a little more aware of himself thanks to Yuna, over-prepared mamma bear, explaining all types of sex/attraction to him from a young age (“He needs to be prepared for anything! I am not pigeonholing my son!”), Shane knows he’s crushing on, if not falling for, Ilya.

    The butterfly effect occurs; this has only one outcome really. It’s a small thing. Tiny. When Ilya is not there for Shane’s Rookie of the Year award after-party, Shane is worried, needing to track down the other man, instead of slightly annoyed/upset that he would be without Yuna’s lessons.

    This in turn leads him to not doing shots with Scott Hunter.

    Which means only one thing: other than the whole ‘definitely being aware of falling for your rival’ tiny thing. It shouldn’t change much.

    He is not drunk on that balcony with Ilya.
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    Ilya Rozanov is married, everyone knows this. His wife, Jane, is strict, perfect, stunning, pretty, boring, and Canadian. She’s always too busy to meet the team.

    Shane Hollander is married; some people know this. He doesn’t speak about his wife Lily much, but he’s absolutely smitten with her.

    FULL BLURB AT NOTES TOO LONG

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    30 May 2026

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    because it’s never once been casual—and shane’s the first to slip

    or how, with rozanov’s jacket clutched in his arms and the concrete stairs cold beneath him, shane realises; yeah, i’m super fucking gay

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    29 May 2026

  7. Public Bookmark 462

    Mystery Work

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    This is part of an ongoing challenge and will be revealed soon!

    28 May 2026

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    The more desperate you are, the easier it is to slip up, and then you lose more control, and you become even more desperate. It's a vicious cycle. The issue is, Hollander seems kind. And here’s the problem with kind people: when backed into a corner, they tend to hurt themselves instead of others.

    illegal gambling / underground fight club AU

    Shane has a background in boxing and needs to make a lot of money fast and Ilya isn't a gang leader, but he sure as hell seems like one sometimes.

    (angst and smut included)

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    26 May 2026

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    Shane watched the first draft pick stand next to him, for the photograph.
    Number 81 gleamed in gold on the back of his Boston jersey.

    Was that deliberate?

    Had Rozonov chosen it himself?

    Or was it just a coincidence that the number stitched across Rozonov’s back was the same one that had once belonged to Hollander. Two years ago. In Russian red.

    OR

    They met at fifteen in Moscow.

    Neither of them ever really recovered.

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    15 May 2026

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    “You…wanted to see me?” He asks, barely resisting a wince at how awkwardly it comes out. “After yesterday-” He stops, swallows.

    Hollander makes a face–one of Ilya’s favorite faces, in fact–that says he’s a little embarrassed about what he’s about to say. Ilya feels his chest go a little tighter, wondering if Hollander has had time to reconsider, if he’d even planned to reach out after the game, apologize for spooking and running, ask to come ba-

    “Did something…happen yesterday?” Hollander asks.

    Ilya stares at him.

    (the accident that takes shane out for the season happens the day after the tuna meltdown) (...it also takes his memory of the tuna meltdown with it)

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    15 May 2026

  11. Public Bookmark 70

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    The Centaurs locker room had never been quiet, but this was… different. A different version of energy ever since the news had dropped.

    Like the air before a storm, except instead of lightning it was a bunch of grown men pretending very badly not to lose their minds.

    “Don’t be weird about it,” their assistance captain, Bood said for the third time, tying and retying the same skate lace, throwing glances at his phone where the media post was pulled up as if he was making usre it didn’t disappear in the three seconds he stopped looking at it for. “We all knew this was a possibility since Rozy and Hollander were outed. We all knew Hollander might come to the Centaurs.”

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    15 May 2026

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    Ilya broke up with Shane 8 months after the cottage
    David didn't walk in on them
    Shane is not doing well at all
    Lots of sad, depressed Shane, who badly needs a hug but doesn't want anyone to touch him
    Will have a happy ending eventually.

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    11 May 2026

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    His brain struggled to catch up with what he was seeing.

    Scott Hunter had his hands on someone’s face, someone not in uniform. Someone in street clothes. A man. He kissed him. Not quick. Not subtle. Full on the mouth.

    Holy shit.
    Holy. Shit

    Shane stared, his thoughts stalling completely.

    His phone rang. Breaking the shocked silent trance he was in.

    The sound tore through the room. He grabbed it instantly.

    “Mom! finally, where have you-”

    “Hello… may I speak with Shane Hollander, please?”

    His voice caught.

    “…Yeah. This is him. Who is this?”

    “My name is Jade. I’m calling from emergency services. I’m calling about David and Yuna Hollander. Is now a good time to talk?”

    Everything inside him went still.

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    11 May 2026

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    In another timeline, Shane and Ilya hook up in room 1410, nothing goes wrong, and everything plays out exactly as we know it.

    In this one, Yuna Hollander walks in before Ilya can leave—and the seven-year situationship never gets the chance to start. Instead, through the power of miscommunication, Shane and Ilya start dating in 2010. With better support, they make better decisions. Their rivalry fizzles out before it ever has the chance to fully ignite, replaced instead by a beloved “bromance". In 2015, they come out to the NHL and the world.

    No one believes them.

     

    Or: Somehow, despite Shane and Ilya being out for two years, Scott Hunter is still considered the first openly gay player in the NHL, much to Ilya’s horror.

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    10 May 2026

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    Sabrina Hollander is 13 years old when she puts her brother’s dream in front of her own and promises herself that she’ll never tell a soul about what she’s done.

    Or: How Shane having a little sister he can count on would have changed his story for the rest of his life.

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    09 May 2026

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    Ilya is plummeting to his death when he closes his eyes, heart full of regret.

    When he opens them in what feels like just a second later, he is standing outside a rink in Regina, Saskatchewan. There’s a banner on the building across the street:

    World Junior Hockey Championship 2009.

    What?

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    05 May 2026

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    “Marley.” Ilya says evenly, suddenly knowing he can actually breathe. He had a plan and he knew what he needed to do. And he couldn’t do it from the locker room bench. “If he is very injured, if he cannot play again, if he is very bad, I will kill you. I will kill you painfully.”
    Cliff gapes at him.

    In which the hit that Cliff Marleau had on Shane Hollander goes a little different. For one, they’re in Boston. For another, Ilya realizes he might be panicking? Which is probably not something to do in the middle of a game. And, oh yeah, he just outed both himself and his not-boyfriend to an entire locker room of hockey players.

    But that’s okay, because while Boston may be vicious, they do take care of their own. And they quickly realize that their captain’s happiness and willingness to stay with the Bears is tied to Shane Hollander. The solution is easy, they’ll just have to make Shane Hollander a Bear.

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    04 May 2026

  18. Public Bookmark 35

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    Welcome to my AU kicking off in the 80s, inspired by photos of Connor with longer hair that sent me on a trip down memory lane featuring some of my girlhood crushes. I could just so easily see a long-hair Ilya grinning at a scruffy Shane in a battered Foreigner shirt, and here we are. We first meet them in 1983, when they have been playing hockey together at the University of Minnesota for a bit. We will follow them until 2003.

    This story will now update weekly on Thursdays

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    04 May 2026

  19. Public Bookmark 31

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    watched Laufey's music video for 'Madwoman' at least a thousand times and now I need to see Shane with 4 older sisters putting him into situations.

    (or the times when shane's older sisters tried to protect their little brother from interacting with Ilya Rozanov, and the times when the sisters and yuna and david saw how Ilya really feels about Shane - how he loves him- and welcomed him into the Hollander family)

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    26 Apr 2026

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    25 Apr 2026

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