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Neil has his eyes clenched tightly shut, his entire face screwed up, every muscle in his body tense and taught with a herculean effort to stop shaking. He was shaking when he woke up, he was shaking when he stumbled his way out of bed into the bathroom, but he swears he almost shook all the way apart when he caught his own reflection in the mirror.
Dead eyes stared back at him.
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Neil has a nightmare and, despite his best efforts to handle it on his own, Andrew is there.
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no matter how hard it gets, i'll take the graveyard shift by himbobuckley (beelia)
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
19 Mar 2023
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After waking up from the coma, Buck continues to have nightmares about the darkest parts of himself breaking to the surface.
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“Do you remember what I told you about the dream I had? When- when I was-”
“I remember,” Eddie interrupts, his voice tight. The coma is a sore subject for them both.
Buck takes another deep breath, steadier this time. “I- I told you about the- the other me, right?”
“The evil doctor? The one who- who didn’t want to let you come back?”
He lets out a slow exhale, nodding. “I keep- I keep having these dreams, ever since I came back. He-” a shudder runs through Buck- “he’s killed everyone I love, Eddie."
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i need somebody to pull me out of this grave by himbobuckley (beelia)
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
08 Mar 2023
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Five times Eddie yells for Buck and one time he whispers
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Eddie flashes back to the events of the night before while sitting in the hospital chapel. Bobby finds him there after awhile and the two have an important discussion about handling their new circumstance and what it means for them individually
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“His heart is beating now.”
“But he may never open his eyes again. He might never wake up.”
“You got to him in time, Eddie. That line saved him, gave him the chance he has now.”
“It should have been me.”
“That’s what Buck said. When you were shot. And before that, with the well. He begged me to let him go down after you when you cut your line.”
The breath is punched from Eddie’s lungs, escaping him in a sharp breath. “He-?”
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lying to ourselves, acting like we're something else by himbobuckley (beelia)
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
10 Dec 2022
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After a one-night stand that Buck can't get out of his head, things turn awkward when the guy- Eddie Diaz- turns out to be the new probationary firefighter at Buck's station. For Eddie, the first guy he ever hooked up with is suddenly in every aspect of his life and he doesn't know what exactly to do with it. Cue the pining, not-so-clandestine hookups, and lots and lots of confusion and insecurity.
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“Buck,” Eddie says, sharply, and it sounds… off. Buck frowns, pulling back. Did he go too far? The guy literally tracked down Buck’s work, what was he expecting, exactly?
“Buckley!” Bobby’s voice comes from directly behind Buck and he feels his face heating up as he turns, praying his captain didn’t just see that.
“Hey Cap!”
“For the love of God, Buckley, let the man put on his uniform before you start harassing him,” Bobby chuckles, walking straight past Buck to clap a hand on Eddie’s shoulder. “Glad to see you two’ve met. Firefighter Buckley, this is our new probationary firefighter, Eddie Diaz.”
Buck’s first coherent thought is: Diaz. Eddie Diaz.
His second coherent thought, just as eloquent, is: Oh, fuck.
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all the pain i should have saved by himbobuckley (beelia) for Malecfan09
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
17 Oct 2022
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A sequel to crashing, i'm crashing right into you, told from Eddie's perspective. Follows Eddie getting the call from Maddie, finding Buck, the painful wait in the hospital, and the two comatose weeks while the follow. Including (but not only): the scene of the crash and the aftermath, a never heard before talk from Eddie to Buck, the infamous 911 call (the way it really happened), and just how close Eddie was to falling apart entirely.
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Eddie’s world slams back into focus. He starts to run forward, but a body moves in front of him, arms out to catch him.
“Sir, I need you to stay back and let my people do their job,” a voice says. Eddie barely registers it, shoving at the firefighter and moving forwards again. Another person comes over, each of them in his way. The world is spinning, a blur aside from Buck.
“That’s my partner!” he shouts, his voice cracking. His voice sounds distant to himself. Everything is numb, all he can feel is a clawing panic tearing at his heart. “That’s- he’s- get out of my fucking way!”
“Sir, we cannot let you through, this is a-”
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“Is someone chasing you?” Ilya drawls.
He turns, and yeah, this guy doesn’t look like much of a smoker. Ilya’s learned through time and experience that stoners come in all shapes and sizes, but it’s clear that he isn’t one: hair cut neat and short, straight-laced, brows furrowed into a scowl, shoulders all tight—too squared away. He’s probably not much of a drinker, either, if Ilya had to guess.
And he’s wearing a fucking suit, for Christ’s sake.
So boring, Ilya thinks, strangely delighted. He wants to take him by the collar and scruff up his hair, if only to see what he might do in response.
Or, Shane's struggling with anxiety. Hayden thinks his grumpy weed dealer might be able to help.
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Bookmarked by bumblebeebe (beelia)
18 Jul 2026
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absolutely impeccable no notes 10/10 this is one of my favorite fics i've ever read actually
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"You," Buck sucks in a shaky breath and reminds himself that he knows what real love is now, that he never again needs to settle for some cheap imitation, "You never loved me. You don't hit the people you love. You don't send them to the hospital with broken bones and blood loss and concussions."
Buck recognizes the twitch in Kyle's jaw, knows he's pushing, knows that now is the time that he's supposed to make himself small and apologize and promise to do better.
But he's not that man anymore.
(For the bingo square: Fireworks)
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10 Jun 2023
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He needed to breathe.
He’d been in enough pain in his life to know that.
So, Buck, taking all the experience of growing up alone and seeking the attention even if came at the price of a broken arm or a skinned knee did what he knew would help.
He exhaled slowly and melted into the table.
“Good boy,” Eddie said and all of Buck’s thoughts went silent as the buzzing that had been under his skin stopped.
Everything stopped.
Everything went still.
And Buck felt real for the first time in such a long time.
Tattoo Artist!Eddie Diaz AU inspired by the tumblr thread about praise kink discovery when getting a tattoo.
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Bookmarked by himbobuckley (beelia)
28 Dec 2022
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“What? Scared of a little water?”
It’s taunting, it’s teasing, it’s too much, and Hangman has hit the nail on the head. That’s the most terrifying part of it all, the fact Rooster bears his emotion on the outside of his skin, tries to mould himself into liminal spaces where he’s just a blur.
He clenches his jaw, turns his head, decides he’d rather gaze down at the water, rather than stare anyone in the face. Especially—well, especially that face.
Bookmarked by himbobuckley (beelia)
26 Oct 2022