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According to the team, Andrew is currently losing a custody battle for Neil against a sport invented by the mafia.
It’s a running joke in the locker room: Neil cares about Exy, and then, distant second, he cares about breathing. Andrew is somewhere on the list, probably below the new backliner spread Kevin found.
Andrew doesn't bother correcting them. He knows the difference between a distraction and a destination. He knows Neil runs until his lungs burn to keep the ghosts quiet, but he also knows exactly whose bed Neil crawls into when the adrenaline fades.
(Or: 5 times the team thought Neil loved the sport more than the goalkeeper, and one time Neil made the hierarchy terrifyingly clear.)
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Bookmarked by bohmec
06 Jan 2026
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Neil Josten was dead.
Andrew hadn’t had the chance—and hadn’t cared enough—to see his body. All he knew was that one moment, that creature had been beside him, saying thank you, and the next, he had vanished forever, the way good things always tended to do sooner or later.
The Foxes hadn’t handled it well. The media nearly exploded for days, weeks. The game against the Ravens? A disaster. Without Neil—the key that held together all those people with little in common—nothing made sense.
Andrew should have been used to that feeling by now: the emptiness, the apathy, the silence.
And yet, life seemed louder than ever, his mind collapsing under thoughts that had never been there before.A lifetime passes: long, dragging, leading nowhere.
And when Andrew finally closes his eyes—he goes back.2006/04
Neil Josten was right in front of him: face twisted, pale, lips parted in search of breath, hands clutching his stomach so tightly it looked like he might squeeze himself apart. Alive. And exactly as he had been the day they met.
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Neil Josten dies in Baltimore, and Andrew gets a second chance to save them. Minyard isn’t willing to lose him again.
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"Dass es einmal so weit kommt wegen 99 Luftballons" -Nena
Albrecht Stein wollte nicht mehr Leben.
Er hätte sich lieber im eiskalten See ertränkt, als nur daran zu denken an die Front zu gehen und dort unaussprechlich grauenvolle Dinge zu tun, für die er sein Leben lang büßen würde.
Aber er hat sich nicht umgebracht.
Er entschied sich nicht für sich selbst, nicht für seinen Vater oder seine Mutter, nicht für Lob und sicherlich nicht um irgendjemanden stolz zu machen dazu, zu leben.
Nur für eine einzige Person entschloss sich Albrecht weiter zu schwimmen und aufzutauchen.
Ein ganz besonderer, blonde Kamerad, der ihm in der kurzen Zeit in Allenstein doch mehr ans Herz gewachsen ist, als Albrecht es zugeben möchte.Für Friedrich Weimer geht Albrecht im Dezember 1942 an die Ost-Front mit der Hoffnung heimzukehren und seinen Friedrich nach dem Krieg wieder zu sehen.
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- Part 2 of NaPolA by Lari
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In meinem Kopf ist Friedrich nach Albrechts Tod wieder nach Hause -Wedding- zurückgekehrt. Er hat angefangen, in der Fabrik zu arbeiten und nebenbei allerdings damit begonnen, Tagebucheinträge zu verfassen. Diese handeln jedoch nicht von seinem Alltag oder Sorgen, die damit verbunden sind, sondern sind lediglich geschriebene Briefe an Albrecht.
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21 Dec 2025
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[pergament, memoriam, facetten der trauer]
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Somewhere on the road, Mary Hatford gets pregnant with her second child. When she passes, she leaves behind not only Neil, but his toddler brother. Survival is difficult without also raising a kid. Worn out and desperate, Neil still somehow ends up at Palmetto, only this time, he brings his four-year-old brother with him.
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- Part 1 of The Sun Still Rises
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22 Nov 2025
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He remembers the silence before the fall.
He carries absence like a second skin -
memory, silence, fracture, departure.
From a world that never quite thawed.Bookmarked by bohmec
09 Nov 2025
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[iron-bite of snow, tang of nostalgia, canyons of grief, fathom of loss]
“All it said was that you had once been here. That you could read the sky. That you could hear the silence inside the snow. And that even though I never fully understood you, I remembered you - the way snow remembers footprints.”
“An unfinished draft. A nameless poem. The lines ended abruptly - like a hand pulling the brake too hard.”
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Neil continues, deadpan. He tilts the brush side to side, balancing it on the tip of his index finger, weighing it. “Good weight distribution. Aerodynamic.” He taps the handle against the mic. Thock. “Durable.”
Kevin’s mouth twitches. He clamps it down, hard.
Neil leans in, conspiratorial, voice dropping even lower. “Truly… the most balanced brush I’ve ever encountered.”
That does it. Kevin cracks - an honest, startled laugh that he tries to smother behind his fist. It’s short, sharp, but real.
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More famous shit. They’re doing an ASMR interview.Firm believer Kevin only gets silly when he’s with Neil.
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- Part 6 of Everybody’s watching you
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04 Sep 2025
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A young guard - silent, disciplined, with eyes that never lie.
A privileged son of a powerful family - reckless, just enough, trapped in a world where everything is decided for him. But his eyes know too much.
What begins as quiet surveillance turns into something far more dangerous.
In a regime built on silence and control, trust becomes the deadliest weapon.
And… the only way out.
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Five friends head into the woods for one last summer together—one final breath of freedom before adulthood sets in.
But the forest hums with something ancient, and the cicadas won’t stop screaming. As strange symptoms take root, the line between body and nature begins to blur.
Some things don’t stay buried.
And some summers never end.
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- Part 2 of Gore but Make It Art
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16 Aug 2025
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[humid-summer forest-air, the smell of rot, chirp of cicadas, pinpricks of something lingering, paranoia]
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Their final act was meant to defy death.
A fall into the net, a rebound, a triumphant catch in mid-air.
But under the gaslight and sawdust, something gives.
And in the quiet after, only love remains—to cradle the boy who doesn’t scream.Series
- Part 3 of Gore but Make It Art
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16 Aug 2025
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[Smell of iron, sultry and stale air, marrow silence, a chill of goosebumbs]
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you're too busy saving everybody else to save yourself (and you don't want no help) by athousandstoriesleftuntold
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
05 Jul 2024
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Jean is something of a light sleeper. It is for this reason that, thankfully, he manages to get to his phone before its ringing wakes the entire house and becomes an ordeal.
“What happened?” His hands are shaking. In the Nest, it never would have been so easy to throw him off. California is making him weak.
There’s a low gasp on the other end.
“Kevin?” Jean hisses. “What happened?” He presses a hand hard against his chest and feels the quick thrum.
There’s another hitch in Kevin’s breathing. “Jean,” is all he says.
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When Kevin has a nightmare and wakes to an empty dorm, there's only one person he can call. Jean isn't nearly as annoyed about it as he wants to be.
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Jean is quiet for a moment, and Jeremy assumes that’s the end of the conversation until he adds, “I have never” —voice catching, he clears his throat and coughs a few times into the pillow he’d brought over— “never gotten in another man’s bed by choice before.”
The bare admission takes Jeremy’s breath away; he’s known the truth about what happened at the Nest for a while now, but Jean never brings it up and Jeremy sure as heck isn’t going to ask about it again. He lets Jean’s words settle between them, grateful that they’re not facing each other. He weighs his own words, all of the possible responses, and finds them lacking.
“You always have a choice,” he says, “with me. With us—the team, I mean.”
Jean hadn’t had a choice in coming to USC, but Jeremy would make sure that he had a say in everything that happened to him here.
“I know.” Jean coughs again, and there’s another long pause after. “You’re a good man.”
It takes all Jeremy has not to roll over, to look Jean in the eyes as he speaks; instead, he says to the wall, “You are, too.”
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Jean doesn't feel well; Jeremy's bed is warm and safe.
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22 Jul 2025
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Friedrich dives into the lake, and— despite the horrors that the other man has now cruelly condemned him to— Albrecht cannot find it within himself to hate him for it.
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Friedrich saves Albrecht, the Eastern Front is Hell on Earth (but at least Albrecht can still write), and Friedrich doesn't know which direction his life is going at any given moment.
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Von Wasser und Steinen [poetry slam - Napola] by itsjusthanna
Fandoms: NaPolA | Before the Fall (2004)
21 Jun 2025
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Nur ein kleiner poetry slam, um zu verarbeiten, was am See mit Albrecht passiert ist.
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Kale has been trapped in a bathtub for what feels like centuries, surrounded by tally marks and silence. Once a creature of the deep, now a prisoner of tile and time, he waits—for escape, for death, or for the ocean to remember him.
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28 May 2025
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So much to comment, so little words. Great execution; deep-reaching
Nice, exciting wrap-up
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Amidst the brutality of World War II, a forbidden bond grows between a wounded German soldier and a British nurse on the outskirts of a decimated French village. Their connection, forged in pain and quiet moments, defies duty, loyalty, and the madness surrounding them.
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- Part 2 of Chronicles by the Chronically Unkissed
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28 May 2025
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[harsh lukewarm breeze, yellow-tinted movies, herzschmerz]
brilliant so farV1 [sea-side wind, child's laughter, echos of the past]
V2 [nostalgia, ink-smears, cold wind, freezing limbs, hope]
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Eine zufällige Begegnung an einem Bahnsteig
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@NJosten49: if u get this tweet to 50k rts i will brawl andrew on the ice for fun
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@AM57: it was on purpose
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- Part 1 of what's the fuss about?
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07 Apr 2025
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Neil was at a bus station, sprawled on the benches and staring at the ceiling, zoning out to the poorly tuned radio station and ignoring his throbbing body, battered and bruised, when he heard a voice inside him say I don’t like this song.
Neil closed his eyes. “You don’t like anything,” he replied, but Andrew didn’t think Neil was real, so he never stuck around when Neil talked back.
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25 Mar 2025
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It doesn’t surprise Andrew that Neil falls asleep no two minutes after that. He had been up all night, ignoring the medicine because it tasted “too sweet” and not laying down in Andrew’s or his own bed to avoid waking anyone up with his coughing.
Andrew looks down at him, face gone soft with his lips parted slightly and eyes hidden beneath his lids, thinks about how soft the man that called a mobster out on live television looks and feels like someone opened his chest and placed the sun inside of it.
(or, five times neil falls asleep on andrew and one time he doesn't)
Bookmarked by bohmec
23 Mar 2025