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Hiatus fic set after the S11 finale. Dean's alive, Sam's alive, they're going to get Cas from wherever he got zapped to, and everything's finally gonna be all right. Dean's on top of the world.
A little voice in the back of his head is whispering "It's never that easy," but Dean ignores it.
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15 Jan 2021
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A piece of rebar to the heart wasn't really the way Dean had planned to go out, but these things happen. It's over now; everything's over, and now he's in Heaven. It's a beautiful Heavenly day, on a beautiful Heavenly road, and there's even a Heavenly cassette tape playing a perfect Heavenly song. The last war is over; they won it all, victorious at last, and now all Dean wants to do is drive.
The song plays, and Dean drives.
At last he's at peace.
Or is he?
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- English
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- 74,387
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- 13/?
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15 Jan 2021
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Canon-divergent from 12.08
After Sam and Dean are arrested, Castiel is left alone and scrambling to find them. He knows they’re locked away in a government facility, and he’s still able to hear their prayers, but no matter how he tries Castiel can’t seem to track them. He chases leads and even attempts to hunt on his own, but Mary is AWOL, Crowley refuses to help, and Castiel’s options are running out.
Weeks pass, Castiel’s hope dwindles, and through it all Dean prays, keeping them connected. His voice is comforting, frustrating, and occasionally annoying, but in his solitude Castiel comes to cherish it. But then one day, without warning, Dean stops praying, and Castiel is forced to confront some uncomfortable truths about his feelings.
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- English
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- 7/7
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- 2
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06 Mar 2018
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Dean drains his bottle of beer, sets it on the table and gets up, heading for the kitchen. Maybe to fetch another, maybe to leave. But Castiel doesn’t want him to go, doesn’t want to leave this conversation unfinished; he remembers his regret of just a few hours ago, that Dean had never known how he loved him.
“Wait,” he says and gets to his feet as Dean passes by. They’re standing close – close enough that Castiel can feel the heat of Dean’s body, the vibrancy of his soul brushing against his grace. “Dean, I have to tell you something...”
Set after the S11 finale.
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- English
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- 57,268
- Chapters:
- 14/14
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- 5
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- 1,090
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03 Mar 2018
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Hunt/Capture/Celebrate/Repeat. Dean Winchester’s world in four words: simple with no fuss. He’s not had a single, life-altering moment in the 13 years since he joined his dad as a professional bounty hunter. Why fix what’s not broken?
That is, until everything around Dean comes to a screeching halt, leaving him alone in new surroundings. Suddenly, Dean’s forced to live in his own version of the Cuckoo’s Nest with the biter, the licker, and the joker. Where angels abound, and his roommate’s haunting blue eyes make him wonder about all his past choices. He’s got this no problem, right? WRONG!
Who knew laughter and love could be found within the dull, institutional walls of a psychiatric hospital, teaching Dean that no one is ever truly broken, but sometimes you simply find yourself lost and stumbling through a life where you are living…broken adjacent.
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- English
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- 135,024
- Chapters:
- 41/41
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- 1
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16 Oct 2017
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Four years ago Castiel Lord married local mechanic, Dean Winchester, and for two years their relationship flourished, until a decision made by Castiel sent Dean out the front door, and divorce papers were served. Now Castiel is two days from the alter with a new finace on his arm, and he's over Dean, he really is, their relationship dissolved for completely valid reasons. Of course, that's a lot easier to believe when Dean isn't standing in his mother's back yard, offering an olive branch in the form of a favor for the Lord household. Suddenly memories of their past are everywhere and Castiel is faced with a choice he never thought he'd get again.
Loosely based on the film, The Philadelphia Story
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- English
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- 43,858
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- 1/1
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03 Oct 2017
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Dean and Cas are waiting for Sam. Dean is bored and Cas is watching porn, apparently.
Or,
The one where Cas decides to learn by doing and where Dean reaps the benefits.
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- Part 1 of Porntastic 'verse
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22 Sep 2017
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With the help of a witch, a young girl casts a spell, sending Dean and Cas into a different universe. Once there, they soon realize the monsters they have to kill have more meaning behind their existence then what they’re prepared to deal with. Will they find what they need to escape beneath the monsters ashes, or will they be stuck in this new universe forever?
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- English
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- 16,031
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- 1/1
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- 1
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- 6
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- 53
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22 Sep 2017
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“You’re one microscopic cog in his catastrophic plan,
Designed and directed by his red right hand.”
It all starts with the mysterious note left on Dean’s chair.
It all ends with Dean coming to terms not only with what he’s capable of, but how much that knowledge doesn’t bother him.Series
- Part 1 of Murder Ballads
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- English
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- 85,232
- Chapters:
- 20/20
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- 6
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- 1,399
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14 Sep 2017
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“I wish I could stand,” Cas says.
“Yeah,” Dean says.
Cas holds up his hand, flexes it, stares and then drops it.
“This weakness is unsettling. I can’t—I can’t even hold a pitcher of water, Dean.”
Dean makes a small sound in his throat, a non-committal hum.
He’s done soaping up Cas’ hair. He grabs the sponge at his side and starts to scrub at Cas’ skin, up along his arms, his neck, down his chest. When he runs it up his legs, to his thighs, Cas shudders and then there’s a hand cupping Dean’s cheek, cold and dripping water and soap, and Dean falters, looks at him for the first time.
“Will you sleep with me?” Cas says. “Tonight?”
Dean swallows.
He says yes.
After Lucifer's possession, Castiel stops talking.
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- English
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- Chapters:
- 1/1
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- 2
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02 Sep 2017
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For Dean, things never quite feel complete unless Cas is with them in the bunker. He'd tried telling the angel how he felt when they were battling Amara, but nothing had changed. When telling hadn't worked, he'd tried showing Cas how he felt. Hell, he’d even made a mix tape. Sadly, Cas had missed the point completely. And now, Lucifer has killed him.
With Cas having been given a hunters wake, the boys are back in the bunker and searching for a way to get Mary back. They've also got to figure out what to do about Jack who is literally the spawn of Satan. As Dean grieves the loss of his angel, he decides that if he's ever lucky enough to have Castiel gifted back to him again, he will forget all about trying to tell, or even show Cas how he feels. Instead, he'll do something he's never done before... he'll give his angel reasons to stay.
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- English
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- 81,297
- Chapters:
- 11/11
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18 Aug 2017
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When Castiel’s plans for the summer get cancelled and he’s left with nowhere else to go, Dean invites him to go home with him. It seems an easy solution to cure Castiel’s summer blues, but when they arrive at the Winchester household, Dean realizes due to a slight miscommunication with his mom he and Castiel will have to spend the summer sharing a bed and holding hands because the entire Winchester family thinks they’re dating.
And really it shouldn’t be that big of a deal because Dean Winchester isn’t actually in love with his best friend; except for that he is.
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- English
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- 25,272
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- 12/12
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- 2
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- 391
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08 Aug 2017
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30 Jul 2017
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Castiel, high school History teacher, has recently moved back to Kansas from England with his boyfriend, Balthazar. However, he instantly clashes with Dean Winchester, who also teaches at Lawrence High and is still mourning the loss of his brother. Their mutual aggresssion towards one another is lost when dramatic events occur, and they're left to deal with the aftermath.
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- Part 1 of I couldn't resist
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- English
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- 19/19
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30 Jul 2017
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Castiel, high school History teacher, has recently moved back to Kansas from England with his boyfriend, Balthazar. However, he instantly clashes with Dean Winchester, who also teaches at Lawrence High and is still mourning the loss of his brother. Their mutual aggresssion towards one another is lost when dramatic events occur, and they're left to deal with the aftermath.
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- Part 1 of I couldn't resist
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- English
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- 41,006
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- 19/19
- Comments:
- 194
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30 Jul 2017
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Don’t imagine Cas being kidnapped by a Djinn.
Don’t imagine Sam being the one who goes inside his head to save him and finding that Cas’s dream world is living a normal life with Dean.
Don’t imagine them all hanging out and when Dean finally leaves them alone for five minutes Sam trying to explain to Cas that this isn’t real and Cas saying “I know.”
Don’t imagine Cas clinging to the Djinn Dean, begging Sam not to take him back.
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- English
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- 77,259
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- 19/19
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30 Jul 2017
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''I'm sorry,' he said. The words came out in a gulp. He stumbled backwards, knocking over a pile of books and for once not caring, stopping only when he hit his desk. 'I shouldn't – I shouldn't have done that.'
'The hell you shouldn't,' Dean panted, touching two fingers against his mouth. It wasn't until he stared at their tips, his expression almost wondering, that Cas realised he was looking for blood – that he must have actually bitten him. Lust, and embarrassment, burned in him like fire. He gripped the edge of the desk and levered himself behind it, falling into his chair before his legs could give out. Had he ever kissed anyone like that? Had anyone ever kissed him like that? And why, of all people, did Dean Winchester have to be the one to make him wonder?'
Fools Rush In is a Destiel AU, complete with loan shark Crowley, cults, FBI politicking, and All The Angst Forever. Plus and also: smut.
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- English
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- 132,709
- Chapters:
- 35/35
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30 Jul 2017
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When Dean kicks Castiel out of the bunker, they have no contact for months. Once the Gadreel/Ezekiel situation is finally resolved, Dean tries to reach out, but cannot get in touch with Cas. To his horror, he soon discovers his friend has been in trouble for a long time. Dark Fic.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 206,269
- Chapters:
- 36/?
- Collections:
- 2
- Comments:
- 2,085
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30 Jul 2017
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Cas accidentally learns what turns him on, about fantasies, self pleasure and human needs.
But oh dear... The side effects may get him into trouble...Bookmarked by damagedwriter
13 Jul 2017
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"Usually when something hurts Dean he can just punch it in the face, but these demons are all in his head. I think we might just have to give him time.”
**In the aftermath of an violent attack, Dean struggles with his own history, his stubborn-headed need to be "fine", and the affect of the assault on him and his relationship with Cas. Sam and Castiel do what they can to help him, but ultimately he must save himself. **
TRIGGER WARNING: References to rape and sexual violence (though not explicitly depicted)
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22 Sep 2016