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I Hardly Feel Anything At All by BREAD2000yeet
Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (YouTube RPF)
16 Jul 2024
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Dan in a depressive episode spends his night at Phil's apartment to "do laundry" while there he finds what home truly means, some existential stuff, Phil is kinda unaware of depression (so is Dan in this fic, de-nial is a river in egypt) but he still cares
based off of my experience with depression which is semi similar to Dan's
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30 May 2026
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stitches & bruises by LouNin
Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (Video Blogging RPF)
07 Mar 2026
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not as graphic as my other fic, but still trigger warning for self harm.
He still has the emergency room bracelet around his wrist. Now Dan twists it around and around; he can’t keep his hands still, because Phil is mad at him.
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20 May 2026
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Holding On For Just Tonight by definitelynotczargasm
Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (YouTube RPF)
04 Dec 2024
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The night before Dan leaves for the American leg of WAD, he suffers a little crisis of faith. As always, Phil is there to help him through it.
[set a few hours after the filming of "Dan Is Leaving Me"]
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15 May 2026
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the rest is confetti by littlebirdbelle
Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (Video Blogging RPF)
09 Mar 2026
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“Dan sighs, letting his body go limp as he tries desperately to push it all away, focusing on the truths he can handle; it’s a Thursday morning, he’s lying in bed with the love of his life, the world still spins on. The rest is confetti, meaningless scraps and tatters of fact falling around him that will only change the composition of these stolen moments if he allows them to. Which he won’t. Not yet.”
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Dan and Phil carve a morning routine out of their new normal.
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02 May 2026
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During a depressive episode, Dan starts thinking about how strange it is that water is necessary for human survival, but can also be deadly in so many ways (waterborne illnesses, flooding, accidental drownings, etc.). The more he thinks about this, the more his mental and physical health start to deteriorate. Phil doesn't understand Dan's obsession with water at first. By the time he realizes what's going on, damage has already been done.
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25 Apr 2026
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Your Good Little Lamb by scaryfangirl2001
Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (Video Blogging RPF)
23 Apr 2026
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Father Philip fucks Sister Daniel
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- Part 51 of fucks and ducks and honeyshucks
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24 Apr 2026
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Whatever, Forever by bulletofsorrows
Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (Video Blogging RPF)
10 Apr 2026
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Phil Lester is a busy college student with way too much to do. The only thing more important to him then finishing school is being with his favorite person Dan Howell. Phil has a lot of work he knows he should be doing, but as soon as Dan messages him asking to spend the day together he knows he can't say no.
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18 Apr 2026
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Inter-head Conflict by Flamingbluepanda
Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (Video Blogging RPF)
09 Apr 2026
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Dan's headmates get into an arguement, and Phil... well, Phil doesn't do much, but he's there!
(An AU where Dan has DID, and Phil loves him fiercely)
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- Part 1 of piece of my heart
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13 Apr 2026
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DID DAN WHO FUCKING CHEERED
SAVE FOR DINO HE HAS TO READ THIS YO
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dan and the youtube incident from wiqy, but make it cute hurt/comfort
based on dan posting that he was listening to this song
firefly by shygirl
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11 Apr 2026
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i won't break your heart if you can break my spell by red-string-of-phate (milo_greyby)
Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (Video Blogging RPF)
30 Mar 2026
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October, 2009: Dan is meeting Phil for the first time tomorrow. He just has to get through this night.
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“The precious desire burning deep in Dan's gut is intoxicating and he should be so much more scared than he is. He’s still plenty terrified, but maybe just this once he can allow his heart to want this. He’ll pick up the shattered pieces later.”
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formidable: (adj.) causing you to have fear or respect for something or someone because that thing or person is large, powerful, or difficult
(title and inspiration from Formidable by twenty one pilots)
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When You Leave Me (I'm Not Going Anywhere) by ladeedahblue
Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (YouTube RPF)
18 Aug 2020
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Sometimes the thoughts are just too much. Sometimes Dan breaks. Sometimes he finds himself drowning on the kitchen floor, unwilling to ask for help and too insecure to think that anyone would want to help him anyway. Luckily, Phil loves him.
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the bitter truth by Flamingbluepanda
Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (Video Blogging RPF)
31 Dec 2025
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Dan Howell gets his on-deck call from deathcast one morning. The world continues spinning anyway.
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hellfire by Flamingbluepanda
Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (Video Blogging RPF)
06 Jan 2026
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Matthew 25:41 "Then He will also say to those on His left, ‘Depart from Me, accursed ones, into the eternal fire which has been prepared for the devil and his angels"
or, extended metaphors about religion and celestial bodies, by Daniel Howell
or, Dan gets depressed, spikes a fever, and generally has a bad time.
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25 Mar 2026
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I DITN EVEN HAVE WORDS HELLOOOOO BEST FIC EVER BEST THING IVE EVER READ ABSOLUTELU BEAUTIFUL
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“Y’know, smoking's bad for you.” Ray's voice was much clearer here than in Gerard's fuzzy memories of when they'd first properly met.
“I know.” Gerard said, breathing out the smoke, turning to look at the man standing next to him.
Ray had a hood pulled over his head from a windbreaker that he had on, and in the dim light Gerard could see the top of his guitar case that was slung over his back. He could also see his smile pulled a bit too wide, and could barely see his eyes darting around like he didn’t want to look directly at Gerard.
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Ray and Gerard are soulmates. Gerard has a lot of issues that he believes he shouldn't burden anyone with. Ray stays anyways.
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static
stăt′ĭk
n: interference, obstruction
adj: of or relating to bodies at rest or forces that balance each other.(Dan has his first post hard launch depressive episode)
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It's three in the morning, and they're okay.
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gerard laid still for a bit, contemplating which was worse. making themselves face ray or making ray do the dishonor of unwrapping him.
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ray comforts gerard after a relapse
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He forgot about the beer in his hand. He forgot that he needed to go check the frayed leads on his own guitar before he went on. He forgot about the exam on Tuesday he hadn’t studied for and the show flyers he needed to photocopy at work the next day and all of fucking Jersey.
In that moment, though drunk and sloppy and barely intelligible through the awful mix, Frank knew he was watching the birth of an immortal.
Frank agrees to help find Mikey Way's new band its first show.
(Pre-Bullets to post-Summer Sonic '04.)
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I'm Not Gay (I Promise) by Anonymous
Fandoms: My Chemical Romance, Political RPF - US 21st c., Fall Out Boy, Panic! at the Disco, The Lorax (2012), Garfield - All Media Types
27 Apr 2021
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Gerard had spent his whole life wondering who his soulmate was. He never would've guessed it would be Barack Obama, the student council president.
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“I’m so tired, Frankie. I feel like I’m a million years old.”
Without thinking, Frank starts running his fingers through his wet hair. “I know, pal. Me too.”—
They already lost Mikey, so Frank isn’t going to lose Gerard too.
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- Part 1 of tgoyverse