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    Ilya wasn’t trying to kill himself that night. Suicide is something that belongs to his mother- he’s just lazy, and he wishes Shane would stop making excuses for him.

    Shane has everything under control. His body is a tool, the one that’s given him both his career and his relationship, and he wishes Ilya would stop prying into the way he maintains it.

    or: Ilya learns a whole lot more about his mother, Shane remembers a whole lot more about his childhood, and they both get diagnosed.

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    20 May 2026

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    Ilya let out a quiet laugh, shaking his head. “I want to be perfect for you, Shane. To make up for all the time we lost.”

    “I don’t want perfect,” Shane said quietly, stroking Ilya’s cheek. “I want something real. Something that we fight to make work, because we want it so much. Because being together is so much fucking better than being without each other.”

    ***

    Ten years ago, Shane and Ilya loved each other in secret and let each other go anyway.

    Now Shane, captain of the Ottawa Centaurs, is a single dad to four-year-old Ollie, and good at pretending he doesn’t think about the man he lost when they were younger and terrified of the fallout of being caught. Then one chance meeting turns into drinks, lingering looks, old feelings, and suddenly Ilya Rozanov is everywhere again.

    Some things, it turns out, never really leave you.

    As Shane and Ilya fall back into each other’s lives - and into something softer, steadier, and openly theirs this time — they realise maybe they’re finally ready for the life they used to dream about.

    Or: two hockey players who were each other’s first love reconnect ten years later and slowly build the family they always wanted.

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    18 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander never got that concussion, and Ilya Rozanov breaks up with him. Shortly after, Shane suffers a career ending injury. They don’t speak again.

    Of course, stories don’t end like that. At least not theirs. When Shane adopts a little girl with familiar curls and deep blue eyes, Shane writes letters to Ilya, imagining he was with him, raising the girl together.

    Movers get things mixed up. Letters get sent. And after 4 years of no contact, Ilya moves to Ottawa to see Shane again. The only question is—will Shane let him in? Or is he still just as scared as he was in 2017?

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    30 Apr 2026

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    “Why the fuck do you care what happens to Rozanov?”

    Shane doesn’t answer.

    He’s already running for the Raiders’ locker room.

    ⎯⎯⎯

    Or, Ilya has a panic attack in the Raiders' locker room after getting a phone call from his brother telling him about his father’s death.

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    26 Apr 2026

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    2014: Ilya Rozanov shocks the world and breaks Shane Hollander’s heart by disappearing without explanation, and without a goodbye kiss.

    2024: A devastating injury forces Shane to retire early, so he moves to a small town to coach girls hockey and figure out what the hell to do with the rest of his life.

    When recently divorced Ilya Rozanov walks into the rink with his twin girls, Shane has to decide if he’s brave enough to risk a second chance on a broken heart, and a rekindled romance with the first and only boy he ever loved.

    ***

    “So.” Ilya cleared his throat. “Should we tell the girls their Papa and their coach used to date?”

    “We didn’t date. We hooked up a few times, then you disappeared.” Shane looked away to hide his heartbreak as he lied, “It doesn’t even matter. It’s not like I loved you or anything.”

    “No, of course not.” Ilya tried to smile through a lie of his own, “I didn’t love you either.”

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    18/?
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    16 Apr 2026

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    When a visit to his father turns violent, there's only one place Ilya wants to go.

    set post-rose breakup and pre-all stars game.

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    11 Apr 2026

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    Shane joins Ilya on a quick trip to Moscow, which soon transforms into a nightmare. Ilya is arrested and targeted so harshly that he's not sure Russia will let him go this time.
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    Shane witnesses Ilya's family.
    Alexei and Ilya's relationship is explored.
    Yuna flies to Russia.
    Lots of Svetlana.
    Healing journey fluff afterwards.

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    Chapters:
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    28 Mar 2026

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    hollyadmirals24: Male seeking help improving at oral sex. Clean, ready to learn and willing to host. M only. Strictly platonic. Message for details.
     

    or: shane and ilya are hockey players for the mcgill marauders. after a disastrous night with rose, shane puts a drunken ad on craigslist asking for help with oral sex. his teammate, ilya, replies.

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    28 Mar 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov is broke beyond all means and he has control issues, so of course he naturally finds solace in controlling a rich man. Shane Hollander is rich beyond all means and he has control issues, so of course he naturally finds solace in being the controlled rich man.

    OR

    The sugar baby and sugar daddy AU, but flipped.

    Bonus scenes now in production and can be accessed when posted by clicking through the work series.

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    Chapters:
    18/18
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    05 Mar 2026

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    Shane Hollander is hockey’s closeted golden boy with everything to hide. Ilya Rozanov is a professional Dom with everything to lose and an expired visa.

    Through their arrangement at a discreet Montreal kink bar, where NDAs protect secrets and sessions are charged per hour, they discover the most dangerous thing isn’t being caught—it’s wanting more than those hours allow.

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    Chapters:
    14/?
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    21 Feb 2026

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    “Alexei, I fucking told you to never call me again, you fucking piece of—”

    “Am I speaking with Ilya Grigorievich Rozanov?”

    Ilya went silent immediately. That was not his brother’s voice. Nor was it Katia’s, his sister-in-law. It was an aristocratic, cold voice. He went completely still.

    “Yes.”

    “I’m calling from the Child Services Department, Ilya Grigorievich,” the woman continued, and Ilya frowned deeply. “Your brother Alexei Rozanov and his wife died yesterday in a car accident.”

    Twice in his life, Ilya had felt like this. The ice around his heart melted just enough for the numbness to vanish and give way to a sharp, stinging pain. It lasted only two seconds before he managed to compose himself. He didn’t want to feel anything for Alexei, so even if Katia’s death carried a trace of sadness—she was a mess, but she always tried to smile at him and cook warm meals for him when he visited Russia—, he dismissed the feeling entirely.

    “So what?”

    “You are the only living family member of their daughter. Your brother named you as her legal guardian, Ilya Grigorievich.”

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    16 Feb 2026

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    When the unsentimental financial imperative of the NHL sees Shane traded to the Boston Raiders, he and Ilya are thrown into closer extended proximity than ever before. As they adjust to life as teammates, they are forced to contend with the nature of their relationship -and must answer for themselves: is it even a relationship at all?
    ____

    Sliding down the wall, Shane hunched over his untied sneakers, shoved on hastily when Coach had called him in for a meeting after morning skate.

    “Boston wanted you specifically. I’ve already spoken to their GM. You’re flying this evening or tomorrow morning: I’ll confirm once the paperwork clears.”

    “Mom,” Shane managed.

    “Oh sweetie. I know, okay. Those fuckers, how dare they do this! Two fucking cups! Now all of a sudden they decide they want a reset and you’re going to fund it.”

    Shane put his head between his knees and tried to breathe. God, Boston. They hated him there; it was so far away; he was fucking their captain.

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    13 Feb 2026

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    Shane Hollander is Hollywood's sweetheart, an up and coming actor with all the fame and fortune that comes with it.

    After six months off, Ilya's just looking for a security gig where he won't get shot at for once.

    They're both in over their heads.

    *The Bodyguard AU*

    Language:
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    11 Feb 2026

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    Maybe if the video ended there, Shane thought, it would be okay. Okayish. Still incriminating. Still a fucking disaster. Still embarrassing, to have his breakup with this beautiful actress filmed and disseminated on Reddit of all fucking places, but not a nail in his coffin, burying him alive. But the video didn’t end there.

    “Can I ask if you’ve ever been with another guy?” she had to ask.

    And he, tears visible in his eyes, had to nod.

    Just once. Just a single nod.

    Why did he have to nod?

    “Have you ever told anyone that before?” He shook his head. “Was it different? With a guy?”

    “Of course.”

    Of course.

    “Was it better?”

    “Yes.”

    +++

    Shane’s conversation with Rose is secretly recorded. Months later, after the All-Star game and Ilya’s confession in Russian, the video gets leaked online. Shane is outed to the world while Ilya is in Russia, and must now finish the 2016-2017 season with the entire world in on his secret.

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    10 Feb 2026

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    Mystery Work

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    This is part of an ongoing challenge and will be revealed soon!

    10 Feb 2026

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    Shane Hollander is young and struggling. With people, with money, with life. He’s just started a new job and he’s working his hardest to be able to afford college and work towards his lifelong dream of becoming a film director. Shane doesn’t do relationships, doesn’t have the time or the mental capacity for sex or love or anything of the sort.

    So what happens when a beautiful older man comes into the restaurant where he works and changes Shane’s entire life?

    -or-

    Ilya is Shane’s fucking sugar daddy.

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    05 Feb 2026

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    Gorgeous. Absolutely gorgeous. Ilya is struck by how lucky he is to be the first to see Hollander this way.

    Maybe he’s not the stereotypical Sub, but any Dom would fall over themselves if they knew just how sweet and yielding this body is.

    And; Shane learns how good Playing can be while Ilya learns how terrible of a thing jealousy is.

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    1/1
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    09 Jan 2026

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    Louis moves into a two bedroom apartment for uni but what happens when roommate Harry starts touching Louis, seemingly infatuated with the innocent boy.

    Hope you like it! Please leave kudos and comment, I love comments and tell me what your suggestions are :)

    Whilst I’m too damn lazy to finish this fic, here’s a terrific alternative ending if you’d like to read it! Enjoy!

    Link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/44065752

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    05 Sep 2025

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    Dean was just a shy, lonely college student until the day he was kidnapped. Castiel and Sam are determined to show him what it's like to be the baby of supportive, loving parents. Dean's equally determined to escape - but what he doesn't realize is that his plan to gain the trust of his "parents" by going along with what they want might just be backfiring on him.

    Everything comes to a head the day the FBI finds and brings Dean in... and he discovers that Sam and Castiel are much more than he thought they were.

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    25/25
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    17 Nov 2022

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    "Tomlinson, you're fifteen minutes late. On your first day!" His new chief raises his voice a bit.

    Louis is taken back by the tone but also by the looks, his last chief was 50 years old. Chief Styles is certainly not 50 years old, and it doesn't hurt to look at him, at all.

    "I-I'm sorry Chief Styles, I had some private problems," He apologizes in a small voice.

    "Don't we all have private problems, detective Tomlinson?" The chief asks with a scoff.

    "Yes, sir. I'm sorry, sir."

     

    Or the one where Louis has to raise his two years old son by himself while working as a detective. When he moves and changes precincts his boss seems to be a total asshole. A very hot asshole.

    (Not MPREG, basically enemies to lovers kind of book, a lot of domestic fluff eventually,..)

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    25,381

    04 Nov 2022

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