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"The asset was for something. He had a purpose. He had missions and orders." Bucky released a laugh, bitter and hollow. "At least then I knew what I was supposed to be doing. Now I just—I wake up and I don't know why. What's the point of any of this if I'm just going to be empty forever?"
"You won't be."
"You don't know that."
"I do know that," Steve said firmly. "You've already made progress, Buck. You've already taken pieces of yourself back and started building something. You have been since before I found you. Think of the words and the notebook—those are yours, you did that."
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Bucky learns to rebuild himself by journaling carefully chosen words he resonates with. He documents his journey from emptiness and guilt to finding love and peace, all while being supported endlessly by Steve.
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19 Jan 2026
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A Very Bucky Christmas by DCAngst
Fandoms: Thunderbolts (Movie 2025), Marvel Cinematic Universe
24 Dec 2025
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Bucky hasn't had a real Christmas in a long time, so he decides to indulge himself with his New Avengers teammates on their first Christmas together.
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- 3,925
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25 Dec 2025
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Longing (Zhelaniye) by DCAngst
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Captain America (Chris Evans Movies)
19 Dec 2025
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An ocean apart, Steve and Bucky experience their first Christmas after Project Insight.
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- 1/1
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23 Dec 2025
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Stay awake and remember (my name) by lisbei
Fandoms: The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
07 Oct 2019
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Bucky isn't doing too well right now. His best friend (or, the man he loved - but Bucky ain't one for dramatics, so he'll just keep sayin' friend) decided to live an entire life without him, the US government wants to imprison or kill him, HYDRA might still be around, and he's displaced in time. Again.
Good news is, he's not completely alone, at least for the moment. And when he has to go on the run again, he'll find out that help comes from the most unexpected places.
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17 Oct 2025
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tezeta (nostalgia) by vowelinthug
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Captain America (Movies), Captain America - All Media Types
04 Jun 2018
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Steve Rogers is a terrible tourist, and a lousy house guest.
Bucky Barnes waters his plants and tries his best.
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set in that sweet spot between Black Panther and Infinity War, in a little valley in Wakanda
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10 Sep 2025
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A Different Universe, A Friendship Just the Same by DCAngst
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Captain America (Movies)
26 Oct 2025
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In another part of the multiverse, things go differently after the events of Captain America: The Winter Soldier. They find Bucky, and Nick Fury calls in a favor from an OLD friend to help Bucky regain his memories.
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- 11/11
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30 Aug 2025
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If They Haven't Learned Your Name by silentwalrus
Fandoms: Captain America - All Media Types, Marvel Cinematic Universe
16 Apr 2018
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Steve gets out of the hospital in two days, but just barely. “I’m fine,” he tells Sam, Nurse Eunjung and the phalanx of doctors assigned to make sure Captain America didn’t bleed out and die and get bad PR all over their nice clean hospital. “I have an advanced healing factor. It’s fine. See? I’m standing.”
“That is not standing,” Sam tells him.
“You’re bending the IV stand,” Nurse Eunjung adds pointedly. “Let go and sit down, they don’t grow on trees.”
aka Steve and Bucky's Global Honeymoon Revenge World Tour.Podfic of this story available by the incredible quietnight!
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19 Aug 2025
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Half of the History (We Shall Never Know) by Speranza
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Captain America (Movies)
02 Mar 2015
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This is a war story.
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18 Aug 2025
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[Podfic] they're gonna send us to prison for jerks by quietnight
Fandoms: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
08 Sep 2019
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“Hey Steve, this is Jack Murphy, our other neighbor. Jack, this is Steve.” Steve looked at Sam a little wildly, expecting to see—he didn’t even know, but some reaction other than Sam’s usual easy friendliness. And there was something there, but it was just the twitch of Sam’s mouth that said he found something hilarious and he was trying not to show it. Was this Sam’s idea of a joke, or a prank? Because this guy—behind the glasses and mustache, Steve could have sworn—well, he looked like Bucky.
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03 Aug 2025
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[Podfic] If They Haven't Learned Your Name by quietnight
Fandoms: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
11 May 2018
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Steve gets out of the hospital in two days, but just barely. “I’m fine,” he tells Sam, Nurse Eunjung and the phalanx of doctors assigned to make sure Captain America didn’t bleed out and die and get bad PR all over their nice clean hospital. “I have an advanced healing factor. It’s fine. See? I’m standing.”
“That is not standing,” Sam tells him.
“You’re bending the IV stand,” Nurse Eunjung adds pointedly. “Let go and sit down, they don’t grow on trees.”
aka Steve and Bucky's Global Honeymoon Revenge World Tour.
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22 Jul 2025
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[Podfic] come as you are by quietnight
Fandoms: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
05 Aug 2019
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Steve comes back to the States. He pursues truth, justice and the American way.
Bucky comes back too. He pursues inebriation and intercourse.Series
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22 Jul 2025
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'Tis the season.
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22 Jul 2025
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come as you are by silentwalrus
Fandoms: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
23 Mar 2025
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Steve comes back to the States. He pursues truth, justice and the American way.
Bucky comes back too. He pursues inebriation and intercourse.Series
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- 5/5
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22 Jul 2025
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reasons why you don't want to talk (about reasons why you don't want to talk) by napricot
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Captain America (Movies), The Falcon and the Winter Soldier (TV)
31 Aug 2024
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“What is all this?”
“Keys to Steve’s place in Brooklyn, and his motorcycle. Some records about his, ah, accounts and things. He—well, he hasn’t been declared officially dead, we can’t, you know, say anything about the time travel, but—”
“He’s not coming back,” says Bucky, before Banner has to try to couch it softly, or spare Bucky’s assumed feelings. It’s a courtesy Bucky doesn’t need. His feelings have seemed very far away since Steve left. “I know.”
"Yeah, so, uh, I just figured you should have all this."
Bucky is doing fine after the Blip. He has his amends, he has his exit strategies, he goes to therapy. Steve's gone, but that's fine, Bucky can deal with that, even if he can't deal with feeling like a ghost in the apartment that Steve left behind. But when Steve returns, they'll both have to deal with how to rebuild a friendship and a home that are haunted by the ghosts of who they used to be. Their methods of doing so are perhaps less than ideal, what with how they involve more sex and stealthy surprise interior decoration than any actual communication. Maybe that's all they need to make a new home together.
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19 Jul 2025
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when I figure out where I'm going by napricot for Maia_saura
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Captain America (Movies)
18 Feb 2021
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“Steve, it’s an emergency,” said Bucky the moment Steve picked up.
“What? Is HYDRA there? Are you in danger? How many hostiles are there? I’ll be there in four minutes, just hang tight—”
“Not that kind of emergency! Tim broke half of his limbs, so I’m out a chaperone for the Stark Expo trip, and none of the other parents or Liesel can come either. If I can’t find someone, the whole trip is gonna get canceled!”
Steve sighed explosively and a dull clunking sound came over the phone line, the telltale sound of the shield dropping to the floor. “Oh my god, you can’t just say it’s an emergency like that—“
When Bucky's mathletes win a spot at the Stark Industries Mathematics and Technology Challenge for Youths, it's up to Bucky to get them to the Stark Expo. That means fundraising, a road trip with six teenagers, coaching them through the competition, and also saving them from Doombots without blowing his and Steve's covers.
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- Part 3 of we miss being ruffians
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07 Jul 2025
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they're gonna send us to prison for jerks by napricot
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Captain America (Movies)
14 Mar 2017
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“Hey Steve, this is Jack Murphy, our other neighbor. Jack, this is Steve.” Steve looked at Sam a little wildly, expecting to see—he didn’t even know, but some reaction other than Sam’s usual easy friendliness. And there was something there, but it was just the twitch of Sam’s mouth that said he found something hilarious and he was trying not to show it. Was this Sam’s idea of a joke, or a prank? Because this guy—behind the glasses and mustache, Steve could have sworn—well, he looked like Bucky.
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- Part 1 of we miss being ruffians
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- 1/1
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07 Jul 2025
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[Podfic] we miss being ruffians by quietnight
Fandoms: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
25 Sep 2019
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Assorted snippets post-they're gonna send us to prison for jerks, aka an excuse to write whatever self-indulgent nonsense I feel like about undercover as a (formerly mustached) math teacher Bucky Barnes.
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07 Jul 2025
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we miss being ruffians by napricot
Fandoms: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
05 Jan 2023
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Assorted mostly self-contained snippets post-they're gonna send us to prison for jerks, aka an excuse to write whatever self-indulgent nonsense I feel like about undercover as a (formerly mustached) math teacher Bucky Barnes.
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- Part 2 of we miss being ruffians
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- English
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- 20/20
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07 Jul 2025
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Rösselsprung by ace_oreos
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Captain America - All Media Types, Captain America (Chris Evans Movies)
15 Oct 2025
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December 1991: The Soviet Union is on the verge of collapse. In a bid that's as desperate as it is calculated, Vasily Karpov orders the activation of the Winter Soldier, whose mission will have consequences beyond anything anyone could imagine. Failure is unthinkable - but then, the Soldier never fails. He is, after all, the perfect weapon. The Fist of HYDRA.
October 1943: When the 107th Division is captured and taken to Kreischberg, none of them expect to make it out alive. They've heard all about Doctor Zola and his little experiments. The odds are stacked against them... except they do survive to fight another day. And for some of the men, this time they're fighting alongside Captain America himself. And whether they realize it or not, the men of the Howling Commandos will eventually reshape history - in more ways than one.
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08 May 2025
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[Podfic] Twentieth Century Limited by quietnight
Fandoms: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
14 Mar 2016
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"Where am I? Where is this?" and he was in Brooklyn, he was on a beach, the train was shaking around him. He was in the plane, ice splintering up onto the windshield. He was in a tank, tubes trailing from his face, from his groin. Christ, he was cold. There was still ice on his fingers. He was in the Grand Canyon. He was in Times Square. This couldn't be Times Square. Where the hell was this? "Tell me! Where am I, who are you, where's—" —Bucky?
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09 Apr 2025