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    Russia is cruel to its Omegas, and his father is nothing if not patriotic. Ilya wonders, sometimes, if that’s why his mother killed herself.

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    Ilya is 14 when he presents. And from the moment he does, he's leading a double life. Enter Shane Hollander, an infuriatingly calm Alpha whose unflappable demeanor screams of everything Ilya wishes he could be. Of everything he wants. And maybe, as the years go on, the only one who could be something more.

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    10 Aug 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 19

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    “Really, man? I wanted to go to a bar.”

    Troy looks down at his wheelchair. “It's just for today, Dal. It’s a bad day.”

    Dallas rolls his eyes. “Your legs work.”

    “They hurt.”

    “So?”

    That one word stays with Troy. So?

    (Or, Troy has a chronic illness and he’s a pro-hockey player).

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    09 Aug 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 32

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    Shane wakes up in the hospital, the last few months missing from his memory. There's a man there, too - an omega - who claims they've been living together in secret. Shane doesn't think he's the kind of person who would ever buy - and, apparently, abuse?! - an omega, but... here they are. He's determined to make up for all the hurt he and others inflicted on Ilya. He's going to give him a wonderful home.

    Ilya is a big bad liar. But it's life or death for him, and besides, Hollander makes it all too easy. Maybe easy enough to fall in love.

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    08 Aug 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 18

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    In another life, Irina Rozanova dies. In this one, she takes twelve year old Ilya and runs.

    They arrive in Calgary, Alberta, with two passports and no luggage. Years later, hockey still carries Ilya toward Shane Hollander, but this time, they don't meet as rivals and instead build something neither of them is ready for.

    But Ilya has learned never to trust warmth in the middle of winter.

    The cold always comes back.

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    08 Aug 2026

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    Seven years ago, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov were teammates. They were lovers. Until one of them left without a word, and the secret they had built between them dissolved into silence.

    Seven years later, Shane Hollander is the star of the Montreal Metros. Two Stanley Cups to his name, a thousand endorsements behind his smile, the Golden Boy of Canada.
    Ilya Rozanov waits tables at Bepa, a Russian restaurant. He lives in a crumbling basement, debt folded in his pockets, some mornings too sick to get out of bed.

    Montreal is a vast city. In seven years, they never once brushed shoulders.
    Montreal is a small city. They wander in circles, only to find each other in the narrowest place.

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    07 Aug 2026

  6. Public Bookmark 17

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    “Rose, I can’t… I can’t go to a…” Shane looked around, voice hushed and cheeks red with thoughts of what his best friend had just insinuated, “a sex party.”

    At a Hollywood star's lavish birthday party, closeted hockey superstar Shane Hollander meets Ilya, a charming prostitute hired to make sure guests have a good time. As Shane starts to meet with Ilya regularly, allowing himself to discover his own sexuality, he begins to grow attached to the other man. What Shane doesn't know is that Ilya is being trafficked, and those meetings with Shane are the only time Ilya feels free. Can Shane help Ilya out of a dangerous situation, or are their shared moments behind closed doors the only reprieve the pair can get from the lives they've been forced to live?

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    06 Aug 2026

  7. Public Bookmark 9

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    The Voyageurs have been on a losing streak almost as long as they haven't had a mascot.

    Now that they have a new star center, and things are starting to turn around, they see a chance for investment in a brand new mer: except this one isn't a beautiful mermaid, something weak and soft, but instead a symbol of power, dominance, strength. They go with a shark-type mer, something that represents their rise back to hockey superiority.

    Shane Hollander doesn't expect this to have anything to do with him, right up until he realizes that the mer can talk and does not in fact want to be the beloved face of this ancient franchise, and pretty soon, his movie-star/activist best friend has him pulling a heist that threatens not only his hockey career, but the entire social structure of North America.

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    06 Aug 2026

  8. Public Bookmark 61

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    Shane and Ilya have their moments after the draft and during the CCM campaign, but then Ilya presents as an omega and his life goes in a completely different direction.

    This starts out as a dark AU where Ilya finds himself working for Boston’s team instead of leading it, trapped in a system built to exploit omegas while insisting it exists to protect them.

    Five years later, Shane finds him again.

    Can Ilya survive the institutionalized abuse, find his way back to the life that should have been his, and somehow get his happily ever after with Shane?

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    05 Aug 2026

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    In 2003, Shane Hollander is assigned a PenPal, and gains a friend. A friend who smokes, calls him boring, and gives him ridiculous nicknames.

    Across the world, Ilya Rozanov practices his English with a curious Canadian boy whose name he can't fucking remember.

    Or, before they were Canada's Shane Hollander and Russia's Ilya Rozanov, they were Cat and Elijah. Shane has no reason to suspect his childhood PenPal is his hockey rival, and Ilya has never even considered that the man he's falling for is also the boy he already fell in love with through letters and postcards.

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    04 Aug 2026

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    A teenage Ilya arrives at an elite six-month development programme already planning to kill himself.

    Shane keeps accidentally interrupting his suicide attempts because he’s obsessed with rules, routine, and following proper protocol.

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    03 Aug 2026

  11. Public Bookmark 18

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    In 2003 the Hollanders hosted a Russian hockey wunderkind for a week. As the years went by, they followed the snatches of his career, until one day, David came face to face with a one Ilya Rozanov.

    Completed: Updated weekly from 27/7

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    31 Jul 2026

  12. Public Bookmark 29

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    Former fosters siblings Shane and Ilya are reunited in the home Shane has been living in for 7 years while Ilya was bounced around through the system only to end up in an abusive home for six years.

    Now Ilya is out of that hand living with the Hollanders in therapy and figuring out how to live with with the boy he used to know when they lived through the worst period of their lives and the (almost) man he's become in the beautiful home he now lives in. Shane wants nothing more than to be friends (ish) despite the fact that he's on his own journey, remembering what happened to them back in that first foster house.

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    1. are my legs gonna last? should probably be read first!
    2. They are in high school. Some conversations, some personality things are more...annoying maybe? I just think they don't have the luxury of being grown or having time in this story and so they're a little more impulsive and reckless with each other just like in the last one.
    3. This covers September (Ilya has been with them since March) to the end of senior year (the following May)

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    29 Jul 2026

  13. Public Bookmark 66

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    At 12 years old, Shane demanded he be allowed to go to a week's International Exchange for Hockey wunderkinder. Whilst Yuna didn't want her baby to go, he'd long outgrown her motherly fretting, eventually she said yes.

    And so, that’s how Yuna found herself in the airport being handed a Russian-English dictionary and one Ilya Rozanov.

    (Complete: Published daily from 12/07 to 19/7)

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    12 Jul 2026

  14. Public Bookmark 57

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    Title from 'Pool' by Samia

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    Shane and Ilya met in their very first foster home when they were 7. They were the only reason either of them survived.

    Now, 9 years later, after they were removed from the home and separated their lives gone down different paths. The need for an emergency placement puts Ilya and the small girl who has become attached to him in Yuna and David Hollander's home one Friday night. By Saturday morning he learns Shane also lives there and has since they were split apart.

    He also learns that while Shane remembers Ilya, he doesn't remember what they endured in that house.

    A story about reconciling with the past. With demons. With someone who saved you once only to unravel you completely later.

    Set over one weekend.

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    I thought of this today so...

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    09 Jul 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov signed his life away at 18, spending the last ten years being owned by multiple Alphas in Russia. Regardless of how softly and sweetly these Canadians talk, being owned by Shane Hollander will be no different.

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    06 Jul 2026

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    ‘Hello, my name is Shane. Can you see this?’

    ‘What is this?’

    ‘I think we are connected. Everything on your skin appears on mine.’

     

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    For as long as Shane can remember, he skin has been littered with marks he is sure he didn't create. Cuts, bruises, and pen stains that he has no memory of. Yuna is the one to investigate the rare phenomenon of soulmates- people linked together with their skin. Everything that happens to one person marks the other.

    Follow Shane and Ilya as they meet in an unconventional way as children and learn and grow together.

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    06 Jul 2026

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    Taking course over fourteen years:

    In 2004, Ilya is sent to live with his aunt and uncle in Ottawa after his father can't handle Ilya's emotions regarding the loss of his mother. It's fine, he thinks. He's good at hockey and still has a chance to make something of himself if he gets everything right.

    Also in 2004, he also meets Shane, who is kind, confusing, and eager to be his friend.

    By 2009, they're both drafted into the NHL.

    By 2013, Ilya no longer has hockey. His once promising career has been swallowed by an all-consuming drug problem and a haunting memory of the love he had for someone who couldn't possibly want him anymore.

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    02 Jul 2026

  18. Public Bookmark 40

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    Ilya had already been serving Shane long before they put a word to it.

    So, naturally, when Shane presented the idea of a fully-written down, rules in place, 24/7 continuation of that dynamic, Ilya swore he felt his body ascending to another plane of being from pure joy. It sounded amazing; being Shane’s, being meant to serve him and him only.

    And maybe Ilya was so overjoyed with that idea that he really wasn’t paying attention during the consequences portion of that conversation.

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    Or: The time inevitably comes for that daunting first punishment within Shane and Ilya’s newly established domestic dynamic. During the course of said punishment, Ilya learns about this thing called love and wellbeing, and how it coincides with discipline.

    Concurrently, Shane learns that hell is very hot for one Grigori Rozanov.

    Written as a Six of The Best prompt fill!

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    3,063

    28 Jun 2026

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    20 Jun 2026

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    Shane is in a post-game interview when his world stops.

    He’s just answered a question about Montreal’s offensive strategy going into the game. Clean passes, avoid penalties, draw defenders wide. It had worked and the Voyagers had beat Colorado soundly, 4-1. Shane had scored two of the goals and assisted on a third.

    Usually, Shane would be eager to boast about the win to Ilya. But ever since their fight- since Ilya told Shane to leave- winning feels hollow. Losing feels better, somehow. As if Shane deserves to lose after being so selfish. Ilya gave up everything for him- his home, his team, and to some extent- his happiness. Hockey. Ilya gave up hockey- good hockey- for Shane.

    A ripple goes through the room of reporters. Shane swears he hears the word ‘Ottawa’ and ‘crash’. But no one is paying attention to him anymore.

    “What’s going on?” he asks into the microphone, feeling strange at the role reversal. Usually, he’s the one being asked questions.

    No one answers. And this time he knows that he hears the word ‘Ottawa’ and ‘Centaurs’.

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    Shane rushes to Ilya after the almost plane crash. Their secret is no longer a secret.

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    283,920

    20 Jun 2026

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