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    “What else was I supposed to say, Sam?” Dean asks him. “I’m not...look, Cas is my best friend, and I care about him. That’s it.”

    “And you renovated a house for him,” Sam continues. “And live with him.”

    or: a year in the life, in which it takes some time, but they figure it out

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    30 Apr 2025

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    The silence on the other end sharpens.

    “What the hell is that supposed to mean?” Buck snaps.

    Eddie flinches. “Nothing. I—”

    “No, come on, say it. What does that mean, Eddie?” Buck pushes, voice rising.

    He feels trapped, like the walls are closing in, like he’s been backed into a corner with no way out. His palms feel sweaty, chest rising and falling too fast, too shallow, like there’s not enough air in the room.

    He’s angry.
    He’s hurt.
    He’s confused.
    He’s jealous.

    It’s too much all at once, emotion piling on top of emotion with nowhere to go.

    And it keeps coming.

    And. And. And.

    His body is trembling under the weight of everything he can’t say, everything he didn’t know until now.

    “I’m just saying,” Eddie starts, “it’s only been a couple of weeks and now you’re fucking Tommy Kinard in my bedroom—”

    “It’s not your bedroom anymore,” Buck cuts in, his voice sharp. “You made sure of that, when you left.”

    Or; 8x11 coda

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    02 Apr 2025

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    “It frustrates me,” Cas mutters, “how the same sensation can feel sometimes good, and sometimes not.”

    Dean’s hand is still rubbing slowly down the length of his spine, like he’s petting the valley between the wings he can’t see. “Well, that’s just par for the course,” Dean rumbles. “Sometimes a body wants touch and sometimes it wants to be left the fuck alone.”

    Cas always wants touch. At least from Dean. He doesn’t say so. “It frustrates me how much good and bad I can feel at the same time.”

    “Oh, buddy,” Dean says. “Yeah.”

     

    (After the perfect darkness of the Empty, Cas finds the world a little...overwhelming. Dean tries to help.)

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    03 Dec 2024

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    He misplaced his angel. He didn’t hold on hard enough. He got Cas back only to lose him immediately.

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    Cas comes back on a Thursday.

    And then keeps coming back on Thursdays. He doesn’t seem to have much choice in the matter, actually. For the rest of the week, he’s stuck in the Empty, and Dean is left trying to figure out how to save him, how to talk to him—and how to get him out for good.

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    28 Nov 2024

  5. Rec 24

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    “D’you think you'll ever stop?”
     
    “I—” and Castiel’s speechlessness spoke bounds.

    A look of understanding passed Dean’s face, the kind of reluctant understanding that came with being in the same position, that came from not wanting to be in that position. They were two people running, from one trap to the next, never really escaping because in the end, they ran from themselves.

    And somehow, despite it all, they ran into each other.

     

    Or; the one where love-mongering conmen get caught in their own game.

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    22 Nov 2024