20 Bookmarks by perpetuallynauseated

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    Drowning in the feeling, thinking of you by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    28 Jun 2026

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    Omega Shane Hollander only wants to play hockey, the problem is the rules state that only mated omegas are allowed to play. Shane is offered a solution, if he agrees to marry and mate with Ilya Rozanov who requires a marriage to get his Visa then he will be allowed to play.

    Ilya agrees to the marriage to get his citizenship papers, but he doesn't expect the cute omega with freckles to immediately make a place in his heart.

    The two are separated by distance after they are mated but enjoy what time they manage to get both on and off the ice.

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    28 Jun 2026

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    back and forth from new york by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    25 Apr 2026

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    After coming out to Rose, Shane decides he doesn't want to lie anymore, even if he isn't sure coming out will mean he gets happily ever after with Ilya. When coming out to the Voyageurs leaves him wondering what his future in Montreal might look like, he lets himself be a little selfish, he lets himself wonder if there might be somewhere else he might be happy. If Montreal wants to get rid of a generational player, he's not about to stop them, especially if it means he can get a little closer to joy.

    --

    Or: Shane Hollander leaves Montreal in search of something better.

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    Chapters:
    55/55
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    23 Jun 2026

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    Say You'll Haunt Me by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    03 May 2026

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    The plane carrying the Voyageurs home from Houston crashes just after take-off.

    Shane is on board.

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    18 Jun 2026

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    loving this body by ,

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    15 Dec 2025

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    Ilya picks up on the third ring, breathing heavily into the phone. Shane hears a door slam shut through the device. “Do not yell at me.” 

    Shane stares at the half-empty bottle of vodka on the coffee table. “You suck.”

    “I suck? I scored hat-trick! In your stupid body! I have not eaten in six hours, Hollander. I have not pissed. I have not laid down. I want to go home.” 

    “Rozanov–” 

    “Your mother has called twenty times. Your manager has called thirty times. Your father text me picture of crossword puzzle and ask for help. Clue is about American President from the 1980s. I cannot help!”

    OR: the hollanov bodyswap fic. 

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    08 Jun 2026

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    I Like Jane For You by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types  

    11 Jan 2026

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    After a mix-up leaves Hayden with the wrong phone for three days, he ends up learning more about Ilya Rozanov and his secret girlfriend, Jane.

    Another Hayden-Finds-Out, because we can't have too many.

    *now with the extra continuing Hayden-Rozanov friendship text threads*

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    08 Jun 2026

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    You've got mail by Anonymous

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    01 Jun 2026

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    While trying to write to his friend studying abroad in Moscow, Shane Hollander accidentally reaches Ilya Rozanov.

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    Chapters:
    10/10
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    08 Jun 2026

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    Laceration by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    12 Mar 2026

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    Shane Hollander was perfect; the perfect son, the perfect boyfriend, the perfect friend. He had spent years refining perfection, making sure he was the picture of it. It was second nature after all these years; a suit that didn’t quite fit, but that he’d gotten used to.
    Enter Ilya Rozanov.

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    07 Jun 2026

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    Leak by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    08 Apr 2026

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    Ilya just wanted to show off how many photos he took of the puppies. He didn’t notice the photos in the top left hand corner of his screenshot that were never supposed to see the light of day.

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    07 Jun 2026

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    a glimpse of jane by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types  

    15 Jun 2026

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    an impulsive decision to snoop through ilya's phone for jane's contact leads to cliff marleau forming one of the closest friendships with someone he's ever had. unbeknownst to him, his new best friend is actually shane hollander.

    a canon divergent in which cliff marleau befriends jane, and accidentally forms the friendship of a lifetime ;-)

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    44/?
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    03 Jun 2026

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    another day, another struggle by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    24 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander’s hopes for the NHL were ripped from him by an ACL tear and replaced with doctor prescribed opioids at age 18. Four years later, hockey is a distant memory and his days consist of strange men and chasing a feeling drugs can never seem to provide anymore.

    Ilya Rozanov’s family returned home to Russia when his father’s mental state deteriorated and the government wasted no time snatching back his work visa. Ilya stayed behind in that godforsaken city to do the only thing he had ever been able to support his family doing: sell dope.

    Ilya sees a lot of sad people. Shane sees a lot of horny men. Neither of them are prepared for what they see in each other, and what it means for the boxes they’ve allowed themselves to be put into.

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    Chapters:
    26/26
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    03 Jun 2026

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    death and taxes (and shane hollander) by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    19 Feb 2026

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    There was a time when Ilya believed Scott Hunter's coming out would revolutionize hockey forever— but for every step forward came two steps back.

    When Shane and Ilya meet again late in life, can they make their second chance work?

    OR: Old Man Hollanov Yaoi.

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    Chapters:
    12/12
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    03 Jun 2026

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    My Moon My Man by

    Fandom Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)

    17 May 2026

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    Take it Easy on Me - Overstimulation & Emotional Intimacy

    Such a Loveable Lamb to Me - Pain Play & Love

    (Coming Soon) Shed Some Light on Me - Restraint & Commitment

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    02 Jun 2026

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    Such a Loveable Lamb to Me by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types  

    17 May 2026

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    One Russian summer, just the one, and Ilya comes back to find that Shane has discovered kink.

    What the fuck.

     

    (Part 1 is required reading for this work.)

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    02 Jun 2026

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    Staaaay (Hollander...Hollander...) by

    Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    10 May 2026

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    Welcome to my conspiracy theory that there is an alternate timeline to the Great Tuna Meltdown of October 2016. What would have happened if Shane *had* stayed the night? This is a look at the evening and morning that could have been.

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    30 May 2026

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    Between the Calls by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    09 Jun 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov, a professional dom, lives in the space between. Between shifts, between countries, between versions of himself. Control is what keeps things from falling apart. Control, and distance.

    Shane Hollander lives the life that might have been his. He spends his NLH career closing distance, closing gaps, moving toward things instead of away from them.

    When a chance meeting at the animal shelter crosses their paths, something unexpected carries between them, like a call, waiting to be answered.

     

    *This work is a remix/ heavily inspired by Wolfbird (OpalApparition), including people and locations. In my mind, a “what could have happened if they met in a different way and made different choices.” It’s sweet, has (mostly/eventual) soft landings, and features many puppies who absolutely did not ask to be a part of this, and one very dramatic chiweenie who did. 

    Thank you to OpalApparition for the encouragement to write what I love.

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    30 May 2026

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    48 Hours by

    Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    11 Apr 2026

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    Set between chapters 7 and 8 of Wolfbird by OpalApparition.
    Leading up to their first private session, Ilya Rozanov gave Shane Hollander one rule:
    “And Hollander? Between now and then—no touching yourself.”
    Shane spends forty eight hours finding out exactly what it costs to be good for someone when no one is watching.

    OR: Shane Hollander is losing his mind trying not to touch himself. Ilya Rozanov, for the record, is NOT helping.

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    1/1
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    28 May 2026

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    Wolfbird Ilya prequel by

    Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types  

    25 Jun 2026

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    Ever wondered how Wolfbird Ilya got so amazing at being a professional dom? Here’s the story behind it.

    Pierre is an experienced dom from France, staying in Montreal for three weeks and looking for a submissive partner. He walks into a club called Wolfbird and meets 20 years old Ilya Rozanov, still recovering from a serious knee injury and trying to figure out how to make money with sex work, coached by his friend Sveta.

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    Comments:
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    43
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    28 May 2026

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    I’m Afraid (& I Love You): Wolfbird Ch. 15-21 by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    31 May 2026

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    Anyone else left with a gaping hole in their heart after Wolfbird Ch. 13/14? While we await Opal’s return, this is my outlet to assuage mine.

    This is an alternate universe—a divergent branch that picks up after Ch. 14 and finishes the story. Told entirely through text messages and mixed media.

    Both men continue to fight silent battles: Ilya, trapped in survival mode. Shane, drowning under perfectionism & identity crisis. Two worlds tethered by one connection. Can Hollanov find each other in this life?

    Of course, directly inspired by Opal’s incredible Wolfbird <3

    Language:
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    Chapters:
    7/7
    Comments:
    110
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    284
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    28 May 2026

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    Chapter 14 by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types  

    14 Jun 2026

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    What would have happened in *Wolfbird* starting from Chapter 14 if I had written it.

    OR

    God, why now? Ilya sat on the floor, a broken toy, his crutches leaning against the wall, an exhausted dog lying on his leg, and he had absolutely no emotional strength left to answer Hollander. Because his chest had been cut open, and inside it beat his heart, drenched in blood and laid bare for all to see. If he started to reply, he would write something foolish, something too candid or too tender or too bitter - most likely, all of those things at once. And then Hollander would have to deal with a human wreck and an avalanche of his - Ilya’s, not Rozanov’s - feelings. And Hollander would be kind and understanding, would pity him, and it would be unbearable.

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    Chapters:
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    26 May 2026

  20. Public Bookmark 40

    Seeking a Soft Landing (Wolfbird Ilya's GoFundMe) by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    16 Apr 2026

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    Set after Shane and Ilya's wonderful, then disastrous, skating session at Bell Centre, it's been two weeks since Ilya's knee finally caught up with him, and the watch money is already starting to run out.

    Ilya is stupid and stubborn. Shane is ignorant of the problem.

    Svetlana has a plan.

    Language:
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    1/1
    Comments:
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    24 May 2026

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