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  1. Public Bookmark 92

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    at the edge of my consciousness, i will sing a song; a song of self-awareness and the dark, sunny scenery

    he wakes to heat, weight, breath and a warm body on top of his.

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    04 May 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 17

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    zanka and jabber are having one of their usual fights when something suddenly goes wrong. zanka is now forced to make a big decision for himself.

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    04 May 2026

  3. Rec 86

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    Goka watching Zanka's fixation with sticks build up.

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    01 May 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 15

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    Zanka always puts his all into everything he does. That's how he works. It's not his fault that he's just a mediocre guy. So why does Jabber seem to think that he keeps holding back? That guy doesn't know him, he doesn't know how hard Zanka has worked to get where he is. Jabber doesn't know anything.

    But...what if he does?

    Or

    Zanka sees himself as a mediocre guy, so what happens when someone sees something else in him? What happens when that person is able to push Zanka to be better than he ever thought he could be? And what happens when Zanka starts seeing it too?

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    30 Apr 2026

  5. Rec 10

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    Zanka is desperate. All his life he’s worked, strived, and pushed himself past every limit. Still, it isn’t enough. Always nothing when he wished he were something.

    But there shines a light in his dimming hope. Who holds the torch, however, is the last person he expected.

    - or -

    Yet another take on Raider Zanka, in which he chooses to fall into the dark.

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    4/?
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    29 Apr 2026

  6. Public Bookmark 65

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    When Jabber had called out to him, Zanka had stopped. Zanka had stayed because Jabber had asked him to. The ensuing fight proves a delight.

    // More Raider!Zanka, this time ft. a bit of Lovely Assistaff's versatility, and Jabber's amazement at it.

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    28 Apr 2026

  7. Public Bookmark *

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    The Cleaner boy should have died.

    Instead, he got saved by a whim. There was nothing good to get out of this: the boy woke up sightless, nameless, and powerless. The only strength left in him was the unyielding grip he had onto that debilitated stick.

    He should have died, yet they fed him lies. Words that nourished what they never thought would become the first step to chaos. The promise of a downfall, though they were not certain for who.

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    27 Apr 2026

  8. Public Bookmark 47

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    “Aww, you’re no fun. How ‘bout a different toxin, then, somethin’ a bit more-”

    “No again. What’d I say? No instruments tonight.”

    “Right right right,” Jabber waves his hand dismissively, “S’all good. Mankira’ll still get her piece.”

    Zanka eyes those rings once again. Jabber takes another step, closing the distance between them entirely.

    “Let’s stop wasting time then, Mr. Bad Attitude.”

    -

    Zanka has been meeting up with Jabber, a dangerous Raider who's almost killed him several times, at an abandoned house outside a tiny and remote town for months now. Meanwhile, he tries to keep his sneaking out and complicated relationship with Jabber a secret from his team and from the Cleaners. As it begins to take more and more of a toll on him, Zanka has to reconsider what it is he actually wants.

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    25 Apr 2026

  9. Rec 88

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    Zanka Nijiku is a freshly graduated psychology student.
    Fresh out of school, it is time for him to get his first real job as a psychologist.

    He takes on a job at a psychiatric hospital, where he gets assigned a key patient, a particularly difficult patient.

    Jabber Wonger is this difficult patient.
    Hes been in and out of the institution since very early on in his childhood.

    Upon meeting, they didn’t think much of eachother.

    Zanka saw a challenge, not a person. A patient to help who others had claimed was unable to be helped.

    And Jabber saw just another know it all doctor, who’d pretend to understand him and of all that bullshit.

    But they couldn’t have been more wrong about eachother.

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    22 Apr 2026

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    LOVELOVELOVELOVE

  10. Public Bookmark *

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    He doesn’t speak English.
    He flinches at light.
    He doesn’t respond to his name — because they never let him keep one.

    HYDRA turned Peter into something else.
    S.H.I.E.L.D. found the weapon.
    The Avengers found the boy.

    Now they’re trying to help him find himself.
    But healing doesn’t happen overnight — and Peter’s past isn’t done with him yet.

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    16 Apr 2026

  11. Public Bookmark 37

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    Pain. That’s the first thing I notice when I drag myself out of bed. There’s an ache behind my eyes and an all-consuming fatigue that’s taken over my body. Rubbing my eyes, I sigh, realizing that today is one of those days.

    Everyone knows me as being an upbeat, exuberant person. And I am, for the most part. But deep down, I know that it’s an act. A facade I keep up so no one knows how dead I feel inside. So no one knows the dark shit that really goes on in my brain.

    Days like today don’t happen very often. Days in which I feel like I’m lugging around five tons of weight. Days in which keeping a smile physically hurts. Days in which all I can think about is plunging a knife into my chest. But when they do happen, they suck ass.

    ~

    Peter has undiagnosed depression and is experiencing a depressive episode for the first time since meeting Tony. The latter along with Steve, who Tony is dating, realize something's wrong. (You know the drill) Hurt/comfort ensues. ***Warnings are in the tags and beginning notes!!!***

     

    ***I DO NOT GIVE PERMISSION FOR THIS FIC TO BE REPOSTED ON THIS SITE OR OTHER SITES***

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    09 Apr 2026

  12. Public Bookmark 83

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    Rhodey enters the workshop to see Tony throwing a xerocopy at a hologram which– He shouldn’t even be surprised. It is definitely not the strangest thing he’s caught him doing.
    A xerocopy, a wrench, and a freeze gun later, as Tony is about to throw a teddy bear, he finally notices Rhodes’ and looks up at him.
    “So, what did the teddy do?”
    Tony stares at Rhodey, eyes empty from the lack of sleep.
    He gestures to the hologram display. “Uhm. Spider-Man.”

     

    OR: When Tony Stark discovers that a local vigilante, one that successfully plays on his nerves, is his biological kid he loses his mind. Just a little.

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    09 Apr 2026

  13. Rec 79

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    "I shouldn't be alive…" He hissed, eyes wide and frantic as he stared down at his physical rock bottom, heels digging into the mudded ground.

    It took a few seconds, like the man up there was calculating, before a slow, hollowing voice echoed down. "Are you stupid?" It asked, slicing into Zanka's psyche and opting him out of himself. He couldn't bear to tear his eyes from where his feet sank into the ground, but still, all his attention was on Zodyl now.

    or,
    What if it wasn't Enjin that found Zanka down the well that day?

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    04 Apr 2026

  14. Rec *

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    03 Apr 2026

  15. Rec *

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    Jabber had a good handle on things. He knew what he wanted. He knew how to get it. And recently, he knew what Zanka wanted. And he knew that he really wanted him to accomplish that (beating the hell outta Jabber). So when he wants to see Zanka laughing his head off without a care in the world, he decides the new toxin he's come across is perfect for their next fight.

    But that's not exactly how it happens. Because Jabber Wonger is a scientist that doesn't like to follow all the rules.

    And when the consequence of that ends up being him having to trip sit a very clingy, overly affectionate Zanka?

    Well, he's not gonna regret it now.

    This is not gonna permenantely affect him at all. He'll be fine. He can handle it.

    (Spoiler Alert: He absolutely cannot)

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    03 Apr 2026

  16. Rec 55

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    He stared for another moment before turning away once again. Zanka almost reached out before stopping, having nothing to say. What would he even say? He began to walk away before pausing and glancing behind him, "You can stay in that well if you choose to. Or you can come with me."

    Those were the only words spoken before the grey haired man continued to walk away. Zanka stared at his back, confused yet intrigued. He glanced down at the well before glancing to his left. He could go back to Hell Guard, force himself to be something he wasn't. He could stay in that well, doing nothing to better himself. Or.. Or he could go with him.

    ...

    Zanka doesn't hear the encouraging words of Enjin that day. Doesn't know of the warmth of the Cleaners, the people of Team Akuta. Instead he meets someone else and finds himself with a new mindset.
    Kill. Or be Killed.

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    03 Apr 2026

  17. Public Bookmark 15

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    A man named Zodyl Typhon raises him out of that hole, and gives him a purpose in life.

     

    Or, Raider Zanka au.

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    15
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    03 Apr 2026

  18. Public Bookmark 6

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    The gold jewelry on his hair catches the moonlight and gleams. It makes Zankas heart twist in that weird, sappy way it always did. Like he was stuck in it, drowning in it. Warm and sweet and cloying and suffocating, like his body was lead in a sea of honey..and he likes the feeling.

    —OR—

    Mutual obsession Janka au that I’ve been itching to write out :) more chapters are coming let me cook

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    03 Apr 2026

  19. Public Bookmark 40

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    It was awkward to be face to face with the hero who kept trying to arrest you, take you in—whatever the term was. It was awkward. It was even more awkward to be trapped in some unknown basement, injured, and without proper medical supplies.

    Izuku was sixteen. He was not prison material, for fuck’s sake, and he wasn’t about to go to some kind of juvenile detention center just because he filled the gaps better than the heroes next to him! He liked heroes, you know? He didn’t do anything that would harm them! That was why he took the bullet! Why was Eraserhead of all people, the man of self-proclaimed logical ruses, yelling at him? Like, come on!

    (or: izuku is a vigilante with no qualms for violence. aizawa is a hero who keeps watching izuku bite the bullet.)

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    02 Apr 2026

  20. Rec 10

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    Zodyl has found out about Jabber and Zanka's relationship and wants to bring Zanka into the fold.
    Many possibilities may happen…

    1: Raider Zanka Outcome (DONE)

    2: Cleaner Jabber Outcome (DONE)

    3: Break Up Outcome

    4:…? (DONE)

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    Chapters:
    4/?
    Comments:
    18
    Kudos:
    124
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    2,213

    02 Apr 2026

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